i thought things would be different .
↪ ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 . ( a collection of various unsorted sentence starters . adjust phrasing as necessary . no longer updating . )
Pale ( too pale, inhumanly so — a bit of herself, slipping ) hues flicker up towards the man, the ghost of a smile slipping across her features ; small, hardly there, yet it's far from something gentle despite her intention to alleviate some of his worry. She looks tired. Almost rueful.
Rose isn't angry with Chris — she couldn't possibly be, not when he could have passed her into the care of someone else, wiped his hands clean of her with only brief check - ins to ensure she was looked after to ease his conscience and assure himself that the promise he made was kept. Instead, he's been a constant presence in her life, pushing to ensure she was able to live as close to normal as possible for her under the watchful eye of the BSAA.
( she still remembers how excited she had been when she was finally able to go to a real school, how happy it made her, how thankful she was ).
She can't imagine this is how he had wanted her to grow up. Nor does she think it's what her father had wanted for her, nor her mother. But there are lines that cannot be crossed, boundaries that must be acted between. Before she was a person, a teenage girl, Rosemary was first and foremost classified as a specimen ; a threat, something that required constant surveillance lest she step out of line. Her powers were too strong, too unpredictable, with too much potential to go horribly wrong. It seemed that danger was all most agents saw when they looked at her.
It's made her small. Unassuming and quiet, dulled her spirit so that she doesn't draw attention to herself, doesn't make anyone question whether she deserves the little bits of normalcy she's allowed. Only in small moments, with Chris, with the Hound Wolf Squad ( and before, with her mother ) where she starts to come alive, just a little.
"Don't .... I dunno, beat yourself up over it, or anything. It's not your fault.
I know you do what you can — and hey, I'd probably be a lot worse off if
it weren't thanks to you. Plus," ( she shrugs, and takes a deep breath ). "I
had the opportunity to get rid of my powers, and I didn't take it. I could've
been normal. So it's my choice, now."