He’s always all up in your space. Like okay, you’re his wife, sure, but is there any need for him to be cheek-to-cheek with you every time he’s in close proximity to you?
“Honey!”
He ran up to you, slinging his big wolf’s gravestone claymore aside onto the patch of grass in the middle of the city as he immediately picked you up and twirled you around with his big, strong forearms supporting you like you were as light as a feather.
“Wha— Varka put me down! What the hell?-“
You squirmed and hit his shoulders as he twirled you around, a wide goofy smile on his face.
This man has just come back from war, and he’s being all giggly seeing his wife.
The list went on, each one delivered with an exaggerated smooch of his lips onto your cheek, the soft skin on your face starting to burn just a little with every kiss delivered because he forgot to shave his stubble.
“Varka, we’re in public…”
You mumbled, a huge flush of embarrassment on your cheeks. But this was nothing new, oh no. Everyone around you was watching, but they were all just smiling fondly at the scene. It was rather familiar for them anyways.
This clinginess of his continues outside the walls of your home and inside too. He’s arm in arm with you, showing you off to everyone in the city with that loud chest-vibrating laugh of his and the occasional small talk with anyone he walks past, while you burn in embarrassment next to his huge frame.
He’s hauling you back home too, and the second the doors close— his heavy overcoat is shrugged off and he’s picking you up and smothering you in his sweet kisses while you let out groans of annoyance.
But despite your indifference, you're as happy as he is, if not more. You know he’s just giddy and beyond happy he’s back home, smelling the wind, watching the dandelions fly in the air, drinking wine with his knights and most importantly— have you in his arms.
And you are also relieved that you didn’t have to write pathetically love sick letters to him for another two weeks for the time being.
Because despite how annoying and embarrassing he could be, Varka’s love is loud. It reaches everyone, but it’s only ever meant for his sweet wife.
a/n: Two posts back to back? no way
im literally gonna do anything to get varka atp... 🥀 This (NOT PROOFREAD) drabble has been rotting in my drafts for months and im posting it now cause im on 50/50 and I need that fine ass beefy man.
pls wish me luck on my varka pulls in 5 days... lowkey going to swan dive off a cliff if i dont get him 💔
varka adored it when you kissed the scar on his cheek.
in fact, he loved it so much he couldn't stand the thought of going about his day without it. and you knew this, of course you did, especially when the man grinned like his face contained all the happiness in the world when you did it.
it was the usual morning, varka was lingering at the door, trying to delay his departure to the knight of favonius hq as long as he could, if it meant it could spare him even a minute more with you, basking in your presence a second longer.
you chuckled at the sight. "you're going to be late, big guy. jean is probably already waiting at the front gate," you approached him, straightening his teal outer coat, even though there wasn't any noticable crease whatsoever. "hm well, i can't really leave without a kiss now can i? i'm sure jean will understand," he kissed your hair, a contagious childlike smile stuck on his face.
"please don't tell her that," you claimed, only because this man would. there is not a man more shamelessly in love with his partner than varka. the knight only hummed in dismissal, making no promises--and it should have you worried, yet looking at him you could only feel endearment.
the tall man then leaned down, offering the right side of his face. you know that to do, as if saying. he closed his eyes, waiting. and it just wanted to make you tease him a little. you planted a quick kiss on his lips instead before pulling away. "off you go, have a great day."
before you could walk away varka already had a hold of your waist, keeping you in place as you let out a squeal. "what is this? what am i being punished for? being too charming and irresistable that you didn't have the heart to let me go?" he let out his signature silly laugh, before giving your cheek a kiss loud enough that you suspect a neighbor could hear.
"okay, okay! i was just teasing," you yielded, before the man let you go as he repositioned, still waiting on that kiss. you cupped his jaw gently, before kissing the scar on the side of his face softly. varka hummed in contentment, like all now was right in the world.
it was a scar as old as time, really. there was a time where it hurt, although now it only served as a reminder of a battle he once fought. yet the warmth of your lips, the faintest sensation when your lips made contact with his skin felt as though you had given it a meaning, a newfound tenderness aside the roughness of it.
it was inexplicable, and varka cherished the little moment each day like a quiet tresure near his heart.
"there, i kissed it better," you said, kissing it once more for good measure. varka's chest almost bursted with fondness.
"It wouldn't be right for me to enter in a lady's quarters"
You look to Varka with your head tilted to the side, a small pout playing into a frown as you hum.
"Its really okay. I've had Flins in here last night"
Varka's eyebrows shoot upwards,
"Flins...? You mean, the lightkeeper? He... stayed the night?"
You nod, "yes, of course. He slept on the table over there"
Varka looks over to the smaller table where you kept most of your luggage. He looks a little confused for a moment before he sighs, "ah, I see. I forgot you were aware of his... true nature. I assume he turned into a lamp"
You nod quickly with a smile, "yes, he doesnt sleep much, but when he does, he turns into one. Its very interesting"
Varka hums along in agreement before biting onto his bottom lip.
"Even still..." he starts, his eyes on yours, his stare is a little hot, "you shouldn't invite him over again. You're a lady, its not proper."
You smile softly and shake your head, "that I am, but I care little for those nonsense rules."
"They're not nonsense" he huffs, "you should take better care of yourself"
"Are you worried for me, sir Varka?"
Varka blushes at the way you've addressed him, your teasing tone has seemed to do a number on the elder man who groans softly.
"Of course i am" he hushes, "You're impossible sometimes"
"So is that a yes? You'll join me in my room?" Your eyes sparkle as you smile from ear to ear, looking at the man who frowns at you.
"Its a no." He states blandly before tugging onto your waist, pulling you in so you bump into his chest. Your heart pounds as you feel your bodies collide.
"But-" you look up to his eyes, they're stern, yet you notice them wavering as he leans in. His breath hitches, just as yours does,
"Behave" he mumbles into your lips before he lightly nudges your nose with his.
"You're no fun" you huff, your palms on his chest to push away at him, but he holds onto them instead.
You gulp a little when you feel him take a hold of your palms, only to place them near his lips.
Its your turn to fluster when Varka leaves a soft, tender kiss on your knuckles. His eyes, never leaving yours till hes leant back into your ear, whispering,
"Be good and I may just pay you a friendly visit. No more visitors till then, even if they transform into an inanimate object"
chuu's note: since so many of you loved this drabble, I went ahead and made a full fic~ you can find it here! thank you so much for the love, ily all ♡(ㅅ´ ˘ `)
synopsis ✿ for the longest time, varka’s dreams have always been just that—dreams. he returns to mondstadt and faces the possibility that maybe they can be more
✿ BEFORE YOU READ ── female reader ; mutual pining for years ; friends to lovers ; written pre varka release — contains spoilers of his lore from his animated short “another prologue” ; made up mondstadt folklore by me lol ; drunk varka + mentions of alcohol and drinking ; varka returns to mondstadt!! ; slight angst BUT it’s happy in the end okay?? ; getting together ; making out by the statue of barbatos rip barbatos pls forgive this behavior ; not proof read oops
꒰ word count ꒱ 5.5k words — me when this was supposed to be a drabble </3
꒰ commentary ꒱ good luck to varka wanters!! i will not be joining you but may you all be varka havers
Varka has dreams. Vivid, merciless things that visit him in the quiet hours of the night.
He dreams of a dragon tearing across Mondstadt’s sky—of twin greatwords in his hands and wind at his back as he faces such a beast. He dreams of victory. Of returning home triumphant. He sees the city gates thrown open, hears the thunder of clapping hands and cheering voices, and the unmistakable relief on the faces of his knights as their grand master comes back to them at last. He dreams of a statue carved in his likeness. Of his glass never empty, always filled with his favorite dandelion wine, poured in honor of a hero.
He dreams of what-ifs. Of could-have-beens. Of a distant past that could have been his to look back on fondly.
But he has long since folded those dreams away and set them aside. He has made peace with the life he chose instead—with becoming a hero in quieter ways, in a foreign land as he leads an expedition that keeps calamity far from Mondstadt’s borders.
He does not regret it. Not really. Some things are just the way they are.
And yet, Varka has never stopped dreaming of you. He doesn’t think he ever will.
Whether in sleep or in waking, you find him all the same. His mind renders you with cruel, unforgiving precision: the exact curve of your smile, the softness in your eyes, the way your lips press together when you’re trying not to laugh. He remembers it all. He remembers you in ways that feel less like memory and more like an aching sense of longing.
Some dreams fade with time. You never seem to give him that luxury.
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“Did you know people believe that during ancient times, when wine was brewed from dandelions, it had a symbolic meaning?” You hum, tracing a finger over Varka’s nose. His head rests comfortably on your lap, enjoying the gentle breeze of Windrise while he has the opportunity.
Varka rarely has a day off—being the grand master of an order of knights makes for free days to be a difficult thing to come by. The work schedule of someone like him just does not allow such luxuries. But Deputy Master Jean is a good friend of yours, and she’s a kind friend above all. She takes matters into her own hands without being asked—insists that headquarters and the whole of Mondstadt will stay orderly for an entire day without Varka there to see over things.
Reluctantly, your boyfriend agrees. You are not ignorant of his dilemma—his mind tells him that abandoning work is not the sort of thing someone with his duties should do, but his heart is just the same as every man who yearns. His heart aches for the sort of freedom that grants him one day with you. Just a day filled with you and nothing else.
And so, his heart wins. After all, this is Mondstadt. The nation of freedom.
“Oh yeah?” He chuckles fondly, cracking an eye open to look at you, “Well, there’s something you don’t hear every day. And just what did it symbolize?”
“Well,” you murmur, brushing hair from his forehead. He catches your wrist, bringing it to his lips for a soft kiss against your palm as you speak, “There are many theories. It’s all folklore, after all. Who’s to say what’s truly the accurate version?”
“And what’s your version?”
“Well,” you start, “dandelion seeds drift through the wind, you see. They travel across many places and see many things before they settle down to grow. There’s an old story about them—perhaps you’ve heard it.”
“Never,” he murmurs.
You give him an unimpressed look, and he shoots you an innocent grin. “Oh, is that so? I’m sure such an important figure in our nation would know one of our most popular tales, would he not?”
“Hah,” he chuckles, gruff and heartily from his chest in that way you can’t help but be endeared by. “If I told you I snoozed through history classes, would you be surprised?”
“Hardly,” you snort.
“Then tell a poor, history-challenged man this famous tale you speak of,” he brings your fingertips to his lips, nibbling at them as you giggle, pulling away from his grasp.
“Varka,” you huff, “you’re a fool, did you know?”
“Not on the battlefield, my fair lady,” he quips back. “That, I can promise.”
“Well,” you roll your eyes, “fine. But only because you asked so sweetly.”
Varka grins up at you, settling even deeper into the pillow of your lap, looking more relaxed than you’ve seen him in a good long time. His hand runs lazily along your thigh while he waits, eyes half-lidded as he admires you.
“There’s an old folktale,” you begin softly, “about a single dandelion seed that rode on the wind for far longer than any of the others. They say this little seed drifted all across Mondstadt.”
“Hope the journey was kind to the little guy.”
“Don’t interrupt,” you scold, giving him an exaggerated scowl.
He shoots you a faux apologetic look, squeezing your thigh as he obediently says, “Yes, ma’am.”
“It flew through Starsnatch Cliff and watched the cecelias overcome the harsh winds as they grew, and it passed through Whispering Woods and listened to travelers’ and their secrets. This seed saw many things as it passed through while being carried by the wind,” you whisper, brushing your thumb along his cheek. “It watched people as they lived and made memories filled with joy and laughter. Eventually, so much time had passed that the wind had whispered it was time for the seed to settle in a single place and make its own memories, too. But the little seed kept going, it held onto the hopes of witnessing more and carrying as many memories from the people it would see for just a bit longer.”
“What a hardworking little thing,” Varka murmurs teasingly. Then, he winks—cheeky and playful. “Reminds you of someone, huh?”
You flick his forehead. “Certainly not you. All you work hard at is drinking more than everyone around you.”
He laughs, deep and warm. “Well…can’t say that’s completely false. Though it’s not the only thing I work on.”
“Anyway,” you continue, “after a long, long journey, the wind had finally convinced the little seed to settle down on a tiny patch of grass near Windrise. Nothing special—just a small, humble patch of land beneath a big tree.”
“Right where we are now,” he notes, glancing at the roots beside you.
You nod. “And there, after all that traveling, it finally grew. People say the dandelion that sprouted from that seed was different. It was taller and brighter than most dandelions—perhaps because it was touched by all the spirits of all the people it had seen during its journeys. Because it was touched by their hopes to make more cherished memories with the ones they love.”
“And then?” he asks quietly.
“Well,” you say, smoothing the collar of his shirt, “they say the first batch of dandelion wine was brewed with that particular dandelion, and the people loved it so much, it became a significant part of Mondstadt’s culture. So…it’s thought that perhaps dandelion wine became a symbol of all the love that the dandelion carried in its little seed form, and all the love it passed on by becoming a drink that people shared on happy occasions.”
As though Barbatos himself were pleased by your words, the wind stirs around you, kissing your skin as it passes through. Varka reaches up and cups your cheek with a large, warm hand, and grins. “Am I safe to assume you brought dandelion wine for me then, because being with me is a happy, joyous occasion?”
You lean down to press your forehead to his, giving him an especially sweet smile. Too sweet, even. “No. I merely told you an old tale that I heard, that’s all.”
He lets out a low, dramatic sigh. “And here I thought you brought all this up just to tell me how much I mean to you.”
“I brought all this up, you see,” you roll your eyes, and he watches as you pull away ever so gently to get a better look at his face. The scar that litters his cheek, the necklace that hangs against his chest, and those thick brows that frame those bright, sparkling eyes. You stare at him, at Varka. Your Varka. You get a good long look before you say, “Because the people of Mondstadt have been drinking dandelion wine more than they ever have these days. And a certain hero has made that so.”
He hums, lips curling into a small, smug grin. “A hero, you say?”
“Yes,” you chuckle, cupping his cheeks, “one who has defeated a dragon and saved us all. We drink dandelion wine in honor of his triumph.”
You lean down and press your lips to his, and he hums, a deep, satisfied rumble that comes from his chest. His hands find the side of your face, holding you steady as a callused thumb traces your cheek. Then, after a moment, he slowly sits up from your lap, taking all his warmth with him. You’re about to protest until he reaches over, picking a small dandelion from the patch of grass beside your picnic blanket before turning and tucking it against your ear.
“There,” he murmurs, “this dandelion has seen how much you mean to me. So, I guess we can say the wind carried it to the right place, huh?”
Your breath hitches for a moment before you slowly break into a bright beam, tugging him closer and pressing a soft, delicate kiss to his lips for a brief moment.
“Yes,” you whisper. “I suppose the wind has carried it exactly where it belongs.”
—
He wakes up with a start, fingers lifting to feel at his lips. The roughness of his fingertips wipe away the lingering phantom of your touch. He groans, rubbing a hand over his face before turning and curling deeper into the blankets that litter the floor of his tent.
“Same dream as always,” he grunts to himself shaking his head, “I think I’m beginning to lose it.”
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When Varka returns, Mondstadt gives him a warm welcome. At least, those who remember him, anyway.
Most people tend to forget that Acting Grand Master Jean is only acting in his place temporarily. He does not blame them for it. It has been years since Varka last set foot in his homeland, and much has changed in his absence. Another hero has risen to save his people—a hero to whom he is endlessly indebted, of course. A hero who, alongside the acting grand master and Barbatos himself, has kept his people safe when he could not.
Varka is grateful. Happy, even. Relieved.
But he is also human—and a human who once held a dream. An ambitious dream that had once unfolded vividly before his very eyes, so close it felt tangible, as if he could reach out and grasp it. And yet, fate had cruelly yanked it away from his fingertips just as he thought it might finally be his.
He does not fight fate. Instead, he thanks it. He thanks it for allowing someone else to fulfill his dream in his stead while he battled a crisis in a distant land, ensuring his home remained safe.
But Varka is human, and all humans feel melancholy when their dreams remain only dreams, and nothing more.
“So,” you murmur, sliding into the chair beside him in Angel’s Share and propping your head against your hand, “you come all this way home from a place I can only dream of visiting, and you don’t even bring me back a souvenir? I must say, Grand Master, I’m quite disappointed.”
Varka recognizes your voice. Of course he does. How could he not? It is the same voice that haunted his dreams time and time again while he was away. He has found that on nights when you appear in them, he wakes with an especially sharp ache of homesickness. He longs for the wind of Mondstadt against his face more fiercely than ever, for the distant scent of sweet madames cooking at Good Hunter. He yearns for the familiar sight of his knights and their bright, loyal smiles as he salutes them in passing.
He yearns to see you.
He has not dared to seek you out since his return—fear is a strange, fickle thing. He does not fear dragons, nor monsters of the abyss, nor the countless dangers he has faced without hesitation. But the thought of standing before the woman he has loved silently for years fills him with a quiet, dreadful terror.
So he does not go to you. Instead, you come to him—while he is drunk and alone.
Fantastic.
Slowly, he turns his head.
You sit beside him as though it is the most natural thing in the world. As though he did not vanish for years. As though he had not returned and deliberately avoided the very streets he knew you walked.
As though he had not already lost you.
His throat tightens. He swallows it down with another mouthful of dandelion wine.
“…I…traveled light,” he says at last, voice slurred by his…(what number cup of wine was this? He’s lost count.)
Your mouth curves into a tight smile. There’s something searching in your eyes as you look at him. Something that sees through him too easily. “That so?” you hum. “Not even something small? I’m hurt.”
He huffs quietly, looking down into his glass. In another life, he had seen this moment differently. He had seen his return as something grander, something worth being prouder of. Not something quite like this. In that life, he had returned a hero.
Sometimes, though he doesn’t regret the path he chose, he mourns what he had seen in the scryglass—the dragon falling beneath his blade, Mondstadt safe beneath his watch, the city singing his name with pride. He had seen the statue. The celebrations. He had seen you, too. You had been smiling at him like he was something worth waiting for.
He breaks out of his thoughts when your voice cuts in. “You shouldn’t be here,” you say gently.
He blinks, dragged from the memory. “…Hm?”
You gesture faintly to his glass. “You’ve had enough to drink, Varka. You shouldn’t be sitting here any longer—you should get home.”
Home. The word lands strangely. He barely recognizes it, even when it was all he had thought of while he was away. It doesn’t feel right being there, sometimes—not when he’s gotten used to hard soil under his back as he sleeps in a tent.
“One more round,” he says, “jus’ another glass.”
“You didn’t come see me,” you say quietly.
He flinches.
“You came back,” you continue. “Everyone knows you’re back. The knights know. The city knows. But you didn’t come see me. You didn’t even see me before you left to say goodbye.”
He can’t look at you. Because the truth is as simple as it is pathetic.
“I…couldn’t,” he says. “…Couldn’t.”
You frown. “Couldn’t?”
“Th’ scryglass,” he murmurs. “It…it showed me somethin’.”
You frown in confusion—of course you don’t know what he’s talking about. It’s all a bunch of nonsense to you coming from a drunk man. But his mouth can’t stop now that it’s begun.
“Showed me Mondstadt. A dragon. I fought it, y’know—won, too.” His jaw tightens faintly. “Then I was a hero.” The hero he did not get a chance to actually become. “It showed me what would happen if I stayed,” he continues, words slower now. Less steady. “An’… it showed me what would happen if I didn’t. There was…somethin’ in Nod-Krai. Would reach Mondstadt. Eventually.” He swallows. “I saw what I had t’ do—what I had t’ give up.”
Silence stretches between you. You don’t know what to say, how to make sense of what he’s telling you. But he continues before you get a chance to figure anything out.
“If I had seen you before I left…” His voice falters, just for a moment. Just enough to betray him. “I…I don’t think I would’ve gone.” The admission hangs there, fragile and terrible. He laughs roughly after, but there is no humor in it. “Pathetic, isn’t it? Grand Master o’ the Knights o’ Favonius…brought low by somethin’ as simple as a goodbye.”
Your expression softens just a fraction, but it only makes his chest ache more. And then, you whisper, “You should get home, Varka. I’m being serious—you’ve had a lot to drink.”
With that, you slowly stand, getting ready to leave. He watches you turn, and something inside him breaks. Because this is it—this is the life he chose. The one where everything he wants is not his, and everything he dreams of is just a sick, distantly wishful dream.
His hand moves before he can think. He catches your wrist again, and you turn back, startled.
“…Go out w’ me,” he says, “on a date. You ‘n me.” The words come out rough. Unsteady.
Your eyes widen in shock. “…What?” You search his face. “You’re too drunk, Varka. You’re saying nonsense.”
He would rather leave for Nod Krai again than see that doubt in your eyes. Doubt that he would want you—what a ridiculous thought, he thinks. To doubt that you are not all he’s ever wanted. He can’t blame you, of course, but the absurdity of the idea is too bitter to swallow.
“…Please…?” he says. So quiet, you can barely hear him. “S’all I wanted, y’know? Before I left, an’ stuff—thought maybe ‘t was too late when I got back.”
You stare at him for a long moment. Long enough that he feels every second like a blade. And then—
“…Okay,” you say. And then, after a moment of sitting with your decision, you smile. It’s a carefree little thing—stripped of all that doubt and underlying hurt. “Okay. I’ll go out with you. But first you need to get home. C’mon.”
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Sitting here, under a large tree at Windrise, the wind is gentler than he remembers. Or perhaps it has simply been far too long for him to remember correctly. Varka has stood in this place countless times before—for training, for duties, in passing, in leisure, in haste. But never like this. Never with you.
He shifts his weight slightly on the blanket, one knee drawn up while the other leg stretches out into the grass. His armor is gone, replaced with something simpler.
“This was a good suggestion,” you murmur, smiling at the view. “I don’t believe I’ve ever thought of having a picnic here.”
He hums, giving you a crooked grin. “Of course, this was a good suggestion,” he chuckles, “it was my suggestion, of course.”
He’s not sure why he suggested it. Perhaps it was a pathetic attempt to recreate the silly images he’s seen in his sleep—small, hopeful dreams dreamt in the reclusiveness of his own mind, where he is allowed to be what he wants: yours, a hero, a cherished citizen of Mondstadt who gets to stay home. These are all things Varka has always wanted to be. Things he has given up. And yet he clings to them, despite it all. The suggestion to come here tumbles past his lips before he can stop himself, before he can remember that dreams are not meant to be lived in.
You snort softly from beside him, adjusting the basket at your side. “Of course, Grand Master. How could I doubt your wisdom?”
He groans. “Don’t call me that, please. I hear that enough already everywhere else.”
“But you are that,” you counter.
“Not today,” he says easily, giving you a wink. “Today, I’m just a lucky man who was fortunate enough to convince a very lovely woman to accompany him.”
He says it lightly. Playfully. But he does not look at you when he does—or he’d have seen the way you flustered at being called a lovely woman. Instead, he fiddles with blades of grass between his fingers. Varka has missed the feeling of grass from his homeland—even something as common and mundane as grass is not the same in other lands.
You watch his fingers carelessly grab at a dandelion, feeling up its stem before pulling away. “…Did you know,” you begin softly, “people believe that during ancient times, when wine was first brewed from dandelions, it had a symbolic meaning?”
His breath catches. Not visibly. Not enough that anyone other than himself would notice.
Because he has heard these words before. Distant, echoed words that haunted him in his sleep, teased him with versions of his life he always thought were simply too out of touch for him.
He turns his head toward you slowly, brows lifting. “Oh?” he hums, forcing his voice to stay steady. “This sounds like the start of a history lecture.” You give him a look. He raises both hands in surrender, smiling. “I’m listening,” he promises.
But something in his chest has already begun to tighten. He remembers this—he remembers warmth. He remembers the wind. He remembers your voice, softer than anything else he’s ever heard, telling him a story about something small and stubborn and endlessly wandering. He remembers your touch and your fond, delicate eyes staring back at him.
And he remembers waking up alone every time.
You smile in satisfaction at his willingness before continuing. “There are many theories,” you say. “It is folklore, after all. Who’s to say which version is true?”
He leans back against the tree behind him, stretching his legs out further into the grass.
This is different than his dreams. In his dreams, he had been lying down. His head had been in your lap. He had belonged there without question. Now, he sits beside you instead. You’re not as fond of him now as you were then, and you aren’t as intimate with him either.
But you could be. The thought makes his head spin a little. You came here with him—agreed in a heartbeat when he asked for your time to spend with him, to do something romantic and not just as two friends who are simply catching up. And you are recreating his dreams, little by little—the same, but different all at once.
“Which version do you believe?” he asks quietly.
Your gaze drifts upward, toward the small, drifting seeds carried through the wind. “Dandelions travel far,” you murmur. “The wind carries them across countless places. They see many things—people, their lives, their memories.”
His fingers press faintly into the soil beneath the grass. The words are not exact. But they are close enough that his chest aches with recognition.
“There’s an old story,” you continue, “about a single dandelion seed that drifted in the winds longer than all the others. It passed through every corner of Mondstadt. It saw all of the people’s joys and sorrows.”
He smiles faintly. He knows this story—has heard it in your voice several times. He’d been under the impression that it ended somewhere far from here.
“Sounds like it lived a full life.”
You glance at him. “Don’t interrupt.”
He swallows thickly, wondering what’s real and what isn’t. Is this still reality? Will he wake up in his bed and get ready to bring you here in a little bit? Are his dreams taunting him yet again, even after he’s journeyed all the way home?
He doesn’t dwell too long. Instead, he presses a hand to his chest and says, “My apologies, madame—I won’t do it again.”
You continue with a roll of your eyes, a small smile tugging at your lips despite yourself. “After many, many days of journeying and watching all of the people of Mondstadt, the wind eventually urged the seed to settle. To grow somewhere and stop wandering. But it didn’t. Not at first. It wanted to keep going. To see more. To carry more memories with it.”
He exhales quietly through his nose. “…Stubborn thing,” he murmurs.
You look at him again. “Yes,” you chuckle.
The wind stirs. A dandelion seed catches briefly against his shoulder before drifting away again. In Nod Krai, he had not questioned it. He had accepted the taunting visions of what could have been his life without wondering if he’d made a mistake. Without wondering if they were still a possibility. Now, he is sitting beside you, close enough to hear your breathing and close enough to reach out and touch you—and he thinks maybe he has not given up all of his dreams. Not yet.
Maybe Varka has not lost that future. Maybe he has simply not reached it yet.
“Eventually,” you say, “it did settle. Right here, near Windrise. And when it finally grew, it was said to be taller and brighter than all the other dandelions. Perhaps because it carried all of Mondstadt and its people’s spirits. They say the first batch of dandelion wine was brewed from that same dandelion, and that it carried all the memories it had gathered, all the love it had witnessed. So, it’s believed that dandelion wine was made to enjoy during happy occasions worth remembering.”
This was always the part of his dream that had ached the most. The part where he had allowed himself to believe, if only for a moment, that he had stayed. That he had chosen differently. That he had not turned his back on the path that had everything he’d always wanted. The part that stung the most when he’d realize it was nothing but a dream when he’d crack his eyes open and only a tent was there to greet him in a distant, foreign land.
But you are here now. Real. Close enough that he can see the way the light catches in your eyes. Close enough that he understands, with a clarity that leaves him almost breathless, that you are not something he lost. You are not something he gave up. You are something he still has time to earn.
He clears his throat, stretching his arms behind his head to rest against them as he says, in what he hopes sounds teasing, “Did you bring dandelion wine, then? To celebrate the joy of going on a date with this legendary knight?”
You laugh softly. “I did.” You reach into the basket and pull out a bottle.
His eyes widen slightly, delighted. “Well,” he says, “how fortunate I am.”
You hesitate for just a moment before adding, “I’m sure people have offered you wine everywhere since you’ve returned, but still…it seemed appropriate.”
He watches you as you pour. The careful way you hold the bottle. The way the sun kisses your skin and warms it up. This moment had lived in his mind before it ever existed. Not exactly like this. But close enough that it feels less like a coincidence and more like mercy. Fate has had mercy on Varka, and he has never been one to argue with fate.
When you offer him the glass, your fingers brush his. He stills.
(It is difficult not to dwell on it for a moment—how easy and simple it was in his dream, just to touch you. He had reached for you without hesitation. Now, he is so careful. So grateful for accidental touches and so wishful that they would last a little longer. If only for a moment.)
You don’t pull away immediately. Neither does he. Finally, you release the glass and move to pour your own.
But it never happens.
Because Varka cannot endure this any longer.
His restraint snaps suddenly—so suddenly, that he almost doesn’t recognize it for what it is. Every chivalrous, righteous virtue he lives by as a knight to be a good, respectable man gets carried away by the wind, and leaves him stripped with nothing else but instinct. Instinct, and perhaps an aching longing that has been sharpened by years of absence, and then sharpened even further still by the unbearable reality of you being right here, within reach, and not his. The sharpness is too painful now—it slices him in ways he can no longer tolerate and move on from.
His hand moves before he can stop it. He catches your wrist—not rough, never rough—but with a firmness that startles you. You barely have time to react before he pulls you toward him, and then you are no longer sitting beside him. You are on his lap, your breath catching as the world tilts, as his arm comes around your waist to steady you, as warm and hard muscle shaped by years of battle and discipline wrap around you.
For a moment, he only looks at you.
His eyes search your face like a starved man. Like a lost man, even. He takes you in as though he is committing you to memory all over again, as though this, too, might become something he will only be allowed to revisit in dreams.
He should stop. He knows he should stop.
But he has spent years stopping himself, hasn’t he? Years choosing duty. Years choosing others and not himself. Years choosing to live with the quiet, gnawing absence of you, knowing what he could have had and yet, still choosing to walk away from it. He has spent years choosing to give up the future he has dreamed of for the sake of the future of his nation and his people.
He cannot do it any longer. Not when you are real instead of some figment of his imagination, and not when you are here, with him.
Varka has had many, many dreams of you—not all of them have taunted him with the images of your affection. Some have taunted him with the images of you moving on, looking elsewhere, finding someone else. Maybe that is why he did not find you when he returned. Why he waited for you to find him. Maybe that is why, all along, he has been scared to face you—too scared to learn that perhaps he has given up a life that you both could have shared and sent you on a path to a life that no longer has room for him.
But it does. You still have room for him, and he is done with no longer allowing himself the space to be there.
His hand rises to your face, and a calloused thumb brushes your cheek. “Forgive me,” he murmurs, though he doesn’t really sound too sound sorry at all.
And then he kisses you. Hard.
It’s everything he has denied himself, poured into a single, desperate press of his lips. His mouth finds yours with a force that is unbearably hungry. Hunger that has grown painful over years of restraint. He pulls you closer against him, his hand firm at your waist, anchoring you there as though he’s afraid you might vanish if he loosens his grip.
Your lips are softer than he remembers in his dreams. Warmer. Alive beneath his. There is life to them, not some ghostly mimic meant to haunt him cruelly.
For a fleeting, terrifying moment, he thinks you might pull away. But you prove him wrong. You don’t. And when you finally gather yourself enough to respond, you lean into him instead of away. You kiss him back just as hard—just as desperate. And something deep in his chest aches more than it ever has.
His hand slides to the back of your neck. To keep you there, in place—right there against him, where you belong. To convince himself this is real, that he is not asleep in a tent, envisioning Windrise and you and your warmth. To convince himself that he will not wake up and feel the aftershocks of shame and bitterness and insufferably agonozing yearning.
He has kissed you in dreams before. Those had been gentle things. Easy and familiar and almost part of a routine. It had been so simple to just kiss you as he pleased in his mind, that it had made him feel helpless. He had walked away from what he’s always wanted most.
This is not gentle. He doesn’t have the luxury to take his time and be cautious with you when this could end in an instant. This is not part of his routine, and it may never be. So he takes advantage of it, as ashamed as he is to admit it. He pulls back only slightly, just enough to look at you, his forehead resting against yours, his breath uneven in a way no battle has ever managed to cause.
He searches your face again, as though waiting for you to change your mind. To regret this and regret him.
You don’t.
Instead, you wrap your arms around his neck and pull him closer, kissing him just as hard. As if…(dare he believe such a bold idea) as if you have dreamt of this moment for years and years, as well.
“Forgive me,” he says again, his voice a rough, deep rumble as his lips press to yours again. Again and again and again and again. Hot, searing kisses are pressed to your lips as he whispers, “Forgive me,” between them.
“There is nothing to forgive,” you manage to whisper in between, somewhere along the way. And you kiss him, too. Again and again and again and again.
And after so long, Varka is home. His dreams are no longer just dreams.
Varka x reader (you’re crushing on him) feat. Venti
Grand Master looking attractive>>>
Did you look okay? You didn’t look like you just finished some sort of overnight shift at a heavy duty job, right? These questions plagued your mind as you maneuvered around the bar of Angel’s Share. Diluc was taking a lunch break, leaving you to manage the tavern for a while. Everything was going fine until a familiar bard trailed in stating the news to you rather cheerfully, expecting a flustered reaction on your part.
“The Grand Master Returns today.” He smirked at you, sitting at the counter and watching you dry a used glass while finishing the drink he had ordered.
“Very funny Mr. Bard.” You said sarcastically as your face turned a light shade of red. You poured and handed his drink to him. “The Grand Master doesn’t return until next Wednesday.”
Venti shakes the contents of the glass around in the cup. He chuckled to himself the second he glanced at your features. He had merely only said his name and here you were, reddening in the cheeks.
“Didn’t you hear the message in the wind?” He questioned you. “The mission finished early…he should be back any minute now.”
Your expression sank from ignorance to a sudden realization. Venti was serious. The look on his face revealed he was actually serious. From your instantaneous drop of expression, your eyes began to widen as your face became three shades redder.
“He’s coming now? Is he coming to the Tavern?” You sounded panicked.
The fear only increased as Venti gave a calm nod with an even wider smile.
“Why didn’t you tell me?!” Your fear would be present to anyone that scrutinized your face.
You ducked behind the counter, pulling out a few bottles and resting them atop the counter one by one. You checked ingredients off in your mind, scurrying behind the bar to pull everything together. The Grand Master hadn’t told you the day of his return, yet you had promised weeks ago that the minute he set foot through the gates his favorite beverage would be ready. Dandelion Wine.
“It’s simple really.” Venti began speaking proudly. “I wanted you to know that Varka doesn’t care for you to try and impress his tastes. Which is why I’m telling you a few seconds in advance.”
His words flew over your head until your mind processed a double take. You freeze in your tracks. “A few seconds–”
The Tavern door opened. Venti turned around as you directed your gaze there. You couldn’t tell if you were staring at heaven or the Knight of Boreas himself. Those within the Tavern recognized him immediately and cheering ensued. Varka gave them a proud wave, engaging in conversations from across the room while walking towards the counter. It took about a full minute for the quick strings of questions and praises to die down before he made it to Venti.
“Varka~” The bard greeted playfully.
“Barbados.” The knight whispered with a slight bow to his head.
As Varka slid into a bar seat, Venti snuck a glance in your direction. He hummed quietly to himself in both amusement and realization. You were nowhere to be seen. In actuality, you had ducked behind the counter. You could hear the conversation being held by the two as you sat right in front of the wine cabinet.
Your heart was practically beating out your chest. He was right there, sitting where he would notice you the second you emerged. Suddenly you felt that you should’ve done more to prepare yourself today. As your gaze shifted to the door that led to the backroom, you wondered if you could sneak inside without detection.
The second you made up your mind and were about to move, Varka suddenly asked for you.
“I thought she would be working today…” He scratched the top of his head.
Oh the smile Lord Barbatos suddenly formed on his face indicated he was about to have a field day. You on the other hand held your breath and prayed that he wouldn’t reveal your location to the Grand Master. You weren’t ready to see him yet.
“Oh she’s here…she actually just poured my drink.” He flashes the nearly finished glass of wine. “She dipped beneath the counter the moment you walked in.”
Oh my Archon. Your eyes went wide in disbelief. Now Varka was sure to think you were avoiding him because of dislike.
“In fact she got a little scared when I told her you were coming back today.” His next statement made you squeeze your eyes shut in embarrassment and horror…until Venti added on. “She didn’t get the chance to prepare the wine you wanted…which is why she’s right over here.”
You sensed movement above you. Looking up you saw the finger of Barbatos pointing downwards. Your Archon had betrayed you mercilessly. Excepting defeat, you found the strength in your shaky knees and stood to face the two. Your face was hot and as red as your skin color could possibly allow. You weren’t even making eye contact with anyone, too nervous to gaze up.
Lord Barbatos smiled, almost ready to praise himself as Varka’s gaze softened. The Grand Master reached towards you, specifically towards where your gaze was glued to the counter. Red was the first thing that flooded your vision until it focused. Roses. An entire bouquet.
“These are for you.” He said in all earnestly as you looked up at him.
It was exquisite, they looked as if The Dendro Archon herself had grown them. You looked surprised as this was the last thing you expected from him.
“These are for me?” You couldn’t help but clarify.
Varka chuckled with a smile, gesturing with a small hand movement for you to take them. As you did, your red face was now accompanied by your own soft smile.
“So…care to tell me what time you’re free?” He asked as he placed his head in his right hand, gazing at you in a way that screamed to anyone, attraction. “And also whether you’re willing to get dinner tonight?”
Your smile got wider before you immediately agreed to his plans, elaborating on the time you’d be free. For the few guests inside that caught the sight of the roses and the Grand Master’s demeanor, there were whispers of joyful approval. The news about the proposal within the Tavern would surely get around to Diluc at this rate. However, he tended to respect Varka and was lenient when it came to you; mainly because you never caused him any problems.
Venti eyed you two speaking amongst one another. He finished his drink and considered that his title, God of Freedom, should have the additive, God of Love.
it's the first night after varka's return to mondstadt and he cannot keep his hands away from his wife.
warnings: fingering under the table in Angel's Share
wc 3.6k; can be read independently. you can also check out part one. part two
Masterlist
Angel’s Share is still full of people long after midnight. The city itself hasn’t been so alive in a while, filled with music and chatter, the sound of heavy steps on the pavement, the clinking of glasses. Everyone is tirelessly filling their cups and sharing their stories from the expedition.
On the second floor of the tavern you sit on one of Varka’s thighs, an arm around his large shoulders for support. He is manspreading on his seat and your legs almost dangle in the air between his, the tips of your boots pushing on the wooden floor. His whole body moves, gesturing enthusiastically, while he recounts one of his many encounters with the wild hunt and his voice thunders and mellows alternatively as the story progresses. His attire is, after so long, more relaxed now; the usual high boots and a pair of pants with a black shirt that has too many buttons undone and the sleeves rolled up, showcasing the scars adorning his body. Some are old, some are newer. At some point, you stopped listening to the story, which you had already heard before anyways, to count each visible scar and decide whether it was new or not. What is definitely new this time is that Varka is wearing the wedding ring on his finger. With the armor gone and no coming battle to risk loss or damage he took the ring off the braided string around his neck where he had been previously wearing it under his shirt. Instead, tonight he wears the wolf fang necklace he used to wear before. You barely saw the ring on his finger before, but it looks incredibly good. Every time you see it your heart flutters and you remember he is indeed your husband.
The table you’re sitting at is in the far corner of the room. Most of the people are downstairs, drinking and singing. The lighting is dimmer here and only a few other tables are occupied, offering a feeling of intimacy, though intimacy is a luxury tonight.
At your table, Kaeya and Diluc are the only ones left. You didn’t climb up Varka’s lap for no reason, though it was the only thing on your mind ever since you laid eyes on him. So many people have come and gone at your table, eager to talk to the grandmaster. He would welcome and encourage each of them to sit and have a drink, pulling you closer to him to make some space and ending up almost manhandling you in the buzzing tavern to get you to sit on his lap. He engages in conversations with anyone about anything really, to the point you would think he is more interested in other people than you; if it weren’t for his hand.
It starts with a hesitant and gentle touch, a touch that could have very well been accidental. The hand resting on your hip cups your flesh a little harsher whenever he is leaning over the table to pour someone a drink with his other hand. With every empty cup and new visitor, the tips of his fingers descend inch by inch over your hipbone, carefully anticipating if there is a line not to be crossed. In response, your fingers play with the golden hair at the nape of his neck, allowing and encouraging him to go further.
Downstairs, the bard is singing a song about the drinking contest between the Pyro Archon and the Grandmaster. Kaeya sits up and walks to lean over the railing, gazing over the people gathered around Venti who is standing on top of a table, a cup full of wine in each hand. He is playing the role of both protagonists of his ballad and Varka chuckles gently in your ear, a low and familiar sound that has your insides twist and your heart skip a beat.
“He’s just finding reasons to drink twice as much.”
Diluc remains at the table, but looks over his shoulder at the scene downstairs, quite interested in knowing how much the Pyro Archon enjoyed his wine. That’s when Varka’s hand advances faster and bolder than you expect down your thigh, fingers playing with the hem of your short skirt.
“How much of it is really true?” Diluc asks, turning his eyes back to the two of you. Varka is not bothered at all and keeps on casually fiddling on your skirt under the table. You remain unfazed as well.
“Not much, probably.” You tease, leaning over the table to have a taste of Varka’s drink. The cup is full, though you’re not sure how many he had drunk already since you didn’t really see him drink, only pour for others.
“You can ask the Pyro Archon when she’ll show up at your door for more wine.” Varka answers with a chuckle and his hand slips over your thigh under the table, hanging dangerously between your legs yet not touching anymore.
You haven’t really been able to spend time together since he arrived. Indeed, Varka listened to your request and entered through the gates of the city riding a beautiful white mare. For a moment, as the knights lined up to welcome him and the people cheered, he looked almost otherworldly and a bit out of reach, like a hero in fairytales you could only read about. Then, his eyes fell on you. His sharp blue eyes that saw so many skies and seas yet they always returned their gaze to you. Your heart was thundering inside your chest so loudly that the entire square full of people was barely perceptible. Then, he dismounted the horse with a loud thud a couple of steps away from the welcoming party that was waiting in front of the statue of Barbatos. His presence was almost magnetic; all it took was a moment of his pleading, soft gaze shamelessly locking with yours to have you running into his arms. Varka was home.
“Now come forth and challenge the winner!” Venti’s gleeful voice has the tavern erupting in cheers again, people lining up to reenact the famous drinking contest. Kaeya sprints down the stairs, pushing people in his way, eager to be the crowned drunkard winner of the night.
“You might walk out of here bankrupt in the morning.”
Diluc smiles at your remark and pours more apple cider for both of you. As part of the decoration for the festivities, every table in the tavern is covered with a dusty beige tablecloth that is now soaked with beverage spots here and there. Maybe that long fabric that conceals your legs and Varka’s hand entirely under the table is the reason you encourage his touches so casually while surrounded by so many people. He is also growing bolder, his hand now cupping the inside of your thigh under your skirt, his thumb gently caressing the soft and plump flesh dangerously close to your core.
“It’s alright, this is the special stock the Dawn Winery has for occasions like these.” Diluc had offered to supply the party with wine and apple cider for free, even though you insisted the expense shall be covered from the Knights of Favonius budget. He refused repeatedly, claiming he doesn’t want to take anything coming from the knights.
Although you are engaging in a conversation about the main buyers of the Dawn Winery with Diluc, Varka considers it is a great moment to make a daring move. You feel the tips of his fingers ghosting over the fabric of your panties, so faintly that you let it happen at first, thinking it’s just lust taking over your senses. When you realize he’s actually doing it you pull at the roots of his hair, hard enough to earn a low hum from deep inside his throat. There’s music playing downstairs and a group of loud people playing cards a few tables away so Diluc doesn’t pick up on it. You try to continue the conversation unmoved but Varka is persistent, his fingers gently but confidently brushing over your covered clit. The stimulation has you breathing a little heavier than usual. You mask it with a sigh, kicking his leg with your heel under the table to warn him a second time.
“Yes, we are testing different mixes for a new non-alcoholic drink.” Diluc answers but you already forgot what you asked in the first place. You’re too focused on not showing any reaction to the way your panties are slowly getting soaked just from a few minutes of Varka barely touching you.
“Another barrel!!” Venti’s voice is not too loud but it always covers the crowd and has the people follow his lead downstairs. Seeing that you’re not even trying to keep the conversation flowing and also not reprimanding him a third time either, Varka takes the lead.
“Your generosity will soon be drunk away entirely, kid. It would be a shame to end the night so early. If the winery can spare a few more barrels I will pay for them.”
“I’ll see what I can do.”
Diluc nods and excuses himself to go look for one of the winery’s employees. The moment he turns away you relax under Varka’s touch, your legs spreading more comfortably as you lean against his chest with your entire weight.
“You’re desperate enough to offer him money to leave?” You say while you still have a minimum of control over your shaky breath. You try to tease him, step on his ego while his fingers are skillfully pushing your panties to the side and touching you for real now, sending shivers down your spine. But he only looks up at you with hazy, shameless eyes that prove exactly that. He’s not hiding anything, there’s no self-respect to preserve. The way Varka shows you so openly that yes, he is craving you so terribly is first of all very hot and also disarming. How can you tease him further when he agrees with your taunting words? When he’s admitting to your accusations and much more?
He gently rubs his nose against your neck like a lost pup who found its master again and you feel his hot breath seep into your skin. His fingers are circling ever so cautiously around your clit and you have to place your other hand on his chest to support your body that is growing weaker, your muscles mushy. Varka’s hands are large and heavy, rough and covered in calluses from years of wielding his claymores in training and in battle but on you they’re always attentive and reverent. He applies enough pressure to have you breathing heavily and soaking wet on his thigh so artfully that you try really hard not to rock your hips against his hand in the bustling tavern.
“You’ve avoided me all day.” He mutters against your neck and you roll your eyes, not at his words but at the way pleasure flows through your body in waves drawn by his fingers on your skin.
“Did not.” You argue, looking around from the corner of your eye to check on who could potentially witness your feverish state. The main event seems to be downstairs while the group of people a few tables away from you is still focused on the card game.
“Mmhm, you did. I didn’t find you home when I was done with the knights meeting.” He doesn’t sound upset or reprimanding, only a little disappointed.
“Something came up. I waited for you for four hours.” Somehow it’s better to force yourself to talk instead of letting your furrowed brows and gaping, whiny mouth display your predicament to anyone who could look your way.
“But you know what I found? Your little scheme.” His lips move slightly upward, right below your ear, and his voice flows inside your mind in a whispered growl. The hand you had in his hair grabs it tighter, this time pulling him closer to your body. “To soak your letter in an aphrodisiac? Now that’s foul play.” You are barely listening to his ramblings anymore. All you care about is the low, raspy tone of his voice and the way his fingers slip along your folds, coated in your arousal. “Too bad you were scammed.”
“What?” You pull away slightly to look at him. Varka tilts his lead to the side a little, his love drunk eyes moving swiftly over each feature of your face, not quite sure which one is his favorite. He sees your frown and grins, the hand that is not in your panties cupping your cheek.
“That brew of random herbs is a headache remedy at best, silly.” You search in his eyes for a hint that he is lying but there is none.
“I paid an absurd price on it!”
“Well, it is either physically impossible for me to be more aroused than I already am by my pretty wife that this magical love potion has no effect on me” He says as his palm moves under your chin and his thumb rests on your lower lip. “Or you got scammed, love.”
For a second Varka’s fingers rest between your legs without moving, more interested in the pretty pout on your lips. You almost forget about it entirely, the news that the money you have spent on planning for endless nights of lovemaking with him was completely wasted, too baffling to process.
“I thought… She told me it has no effect on me because I am a woman.” He was mesmerized by the way your eyes reflected every thought dashing through your brain. He knew you so well that he could see by the way your eyes sparkled in the candlelit room how every piece of the puzzle was settling in and you were reaching your conclusion. “That damn Dori!” Varka pushed his tongue against his cheek, concealing a giggle. “I’ll get my money back!”
“Sure, sure.” He says tenderly. His hands move swiftly over your body, lifting you slightly so he could bring his legs together and have yours spread out instead, each one dangling on either side of his above the floor. You are sitting lower now, your back not as straight and proud but pushed against his toned chest, and he gets to bury his nose in your hair, your head resting against his shoulder. He has you where he wants, finally. His hand easily finds its way back between your legs, the access way easier.
You roll your eyes as you close them, his returning touch reminding you just how wet you were already. You can’t touch him anymore but he can touch all of you so your hand blindly searches for something to grasp on until it finally finds his muscular arm.
“There’s no need for distractions like that, love.” He is still talking very close to your ear but now that you are trapped in his grip he feels bigger, larger. Stronger. Inescapable. “There’s not a waking moment in which I do not hunger for your touch. And in my dreams I covet your body in ways even more obscene.”
One of his fingers easily finds its way inside you and you dig your nails into this arm at the feeling. You want to warn him about the people around you but your words are barely distinguishable through the quiet mewls and moans you try to conceal. Yet Varka seems to understand what you are trying to say.
“Didn’t you want everyone to know that I am yours and yours alone?” He asks as his finger moves in and out of your welcoming warm walls that are overly sensitive to his touch. “Didn’t you want me to take you and never leave you again, hmm?” He is unbearably arrogant in his tone as he adds another finger inside of you. “My woman can be as greedy and lustful as she desires, I’ll give her anything.”
It’s impossible to hide your fucked out face anymore with the way his fingers curl inside you and his words find their way right to the same spot. You place your elbows on the table, hiding your face in your palms and pushing back your ass against him, feeling his hard cock pushing against his pants. He lets out a shaky breath at the friction but you don’t continue, you can’t. From afar, it looks like you are getting sick after drinking too much and Varka is taking care of you, leaning over to ask you something, maybe if you’re alright. The tavern is loud and your whines and short breaths only reach Varka’s ears. The position you’re in is not the most comfortable, yet his long and thick fingers don’t seem to have a problem reaching for the most sensitive spots inside that have you begging him to do it again and again.
You completely freeze when you hear a voice close enough to the table to cover the noise around asking Varka if there’s anything wrong with you. His composure is unbreakable, though. His thumb rubs around your clit once more as he assures the lost passerby that you simply had too much to drink and you’ll be on your way home soon.
“Why are you taking so long to come, love?” Hot air hits your ear and his voice is rougher than it ever was that night. “Did you already touch yourself before this? Were you so impatient?”
You bite at the base of your palm, keeping in a moan so erotic and loud that you’re afraid the entire tavern is going to hear. It is risky and hard to hide but Varka has a point to prove so his other hand slips under your shirt and cups your breast, soft and heavy, before his fingers play around your sensitive nipple. It’s a lot to take in and you finally feel the orgasm building up closer and closer. You body tenses even more in his arms so he knows you’re close too.
Downstairs people start chanting Diluc’s name as he enters the tavern again with a new delivery of wine. You barely hear it in your frenzy, but Varka has always been keeping an eye on the surroundings and knows how to hide his filthy little lover from people’s eyes.
“Come, baby, come for me before he comes back to the table.” His words sound almost like a plea, like he is also desperate to see you finally lose yourself under his touch.
Perhaps the idea that you could be discovered with Varka’s fingers deep inside your wet cunt is what drives you off the edge. Or maybe it is Varka’s wet kisses along your neck. In any case, an orgasm the kind you could never achieve on your own hits you in a crashing wave. You have to force your legs closed to stop Varka’s fingers from overstimulating you, the last effort you are capable of. He can feel the way your walls are pulsing against them and he doesn’t want to move his hand away from your heat just yet.
“You did great, love.” He mutters quietly while you try to catch your breath, your heart beating rapidly in your chest. He offers you some wine since you look parched and weary but you don’t move your hands from your hidden face. He drinks it instead, finishes the whole glass in one go before Diluc does indeed come back to your table, unaware of anything that just happened.
“Is she alright?” He asks and you don’t say a word, don’t even nod or acknowledge his presence. Varka chuckles loudly, almost incriminatory.
“Yeah, I guess one glass of wine is too much for a non-drinker.” He says and tilts his head in the direction of the glass that he himself had finished entirely.
“Half the people downstairs are in the same situation.” Diluc shrugs and his eyes fall on the apple cider glass that he had poured for you before he left that is still untouched.
“Yeah, we should get going too.”
“Master Diluc!” A guy from the table where people are playing cards calls for him and Diluc accepts the invitation for a match. Varka breathes easier when he leaves. It would have been hard to hide his fingers soaked in your wetness, although the thought of having them inside you for a little while longer doesn’t sound too bad.
“You’re so good at lying with a straight face.” You say when you finally come down from your high. The sticky and cold feeling between your legs is uncomfortable and you know your skirt is soaked and possibly Varka’s pants under it too.
“I was hoping you’d be praising my other skills.” He grins at you but his eyes are attentive as you sit up by yourself, your legs obviously weak. You manage to stand on your own, though. His arm is close to your waist as he walks next to you, secretly hoping you would lose your balance so he can have an excuse to pick you up and carry you casually through the tavern.
The streets are also full of people and everyone is wishing you and the grandmaster a good night. By the time you leave the crowd behind and turn to a narrow quiet street, Varka cannot take it anymore and picks you up, carrying you easily with one arm. You don’t protest but nuzzle your nose in his neck instead and he feels his legs almost give out. You’re warm and your hair smells like vanilla and your arms lock perfectly around his neck.
“Ugh, I feel all dirty and slimy.” You say, deeply breathing in the chilly night air. To him, you’re heavenly.
“Get used to it.” He says instead. “The night is still young.”
۶ৎ Category: Established relationship, Fem!Reader.
۶ৎ Warning: Suggestive content. 18+ only. If you are a minor, please do not interact.
૮꒰ 𓈒. ݂ .𓈒ྀི ꒱ა ┊Hello! Strawberry here, this one comes in honor to Flins rerun and the first banner of our grand master Varka! This is my first time writing for Varka, so please be kind! I promise to keep improving my portrayal of him and other characters as well ૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა. I hope you guys like it! Let me know what you think; reblogs and notes are highly appreciated ♡.
۶ৎ Masterlist: Strawberry — Masterlist.
۶ৎ Requests: To make a request. (Closed).
۶ৎ You know he’s going to tease you, right? It’s practically a guarantee with him.
۶ৎ You stand under the cold water as it pours over the both of you. His long, bluish hair cascades down the length of his well-toned, pale back.
۶ৎ You can't help but stare at the way the droplets look like sparkling jewelry against his skin. Of course, Flins notices your gaze and offers you one of his signature, soft, elegant smiles.
۶ৎ "You seem quite fond of something. Does my lady like what she sees?" He knows your cheeks are heating up—not because of the water, but because of him.
۶ৎ It doesn't help your sanity, being this close... your bodies almost touching, bared to one another under the spray.
۶ৎ "You mentioned there was something you wanted to try..." Flins moves, grazing your skin in the process. He doesn't miss the way you tense up, but he simply hands you a bottle of shampoo.
۶ৎ "You remembered..." You smile and take the bottle, trying to ignore the frantic rhythm of your heart.
۶ৎ Flins leans down, giving you access to his silky, wet hair. Even then, you have to stand on your tiptoes to reach. "Don't look..." you whisper, conscious that from this angle, he has a perfect view of your chest.
۶ৎ It doesn't matter how many times you’ve been naked in front of him; you still feel a flutter of self-consciousness under that intense gaze of his.
۶ৎ "As you wish, dusha moya¹." Even if you don't understand the Fae words, his soft, melodic tone tells you everything you need to know: it’s an endearment.
︵ . ︵﹒︵୨ ꒰ Flins ꒱ ୧︵ . ︵﹒︵
You remained focused on washing his hair, the soft scent of lavender blooming as bubbles gathered over his silky locks. The blue of his hair looked even deeper, almost midnight-dark, under the cascading water. Your fingers traced the pointed tips of his ears—those well-hidden features that usually remained a secret, masked by his hair from the rest of the world.
As you followed the delicate curve of his ear, you were too immersed in the moment to realize the exact second his eyes drifted open to watch you. His well-toned frame suddenly straightened, making it impossible for you to reach the remaining suds in his hair.
"Flins? What are you doing?" you asked, straining on your tiptoes in a failed attempt to finish the task.
One of his hands slid firmly around your waist, pulling you flush against him until there was no space left between you. Suddenly, the water didn't feel so cold; a rush of heat took over your body as his hand settled low, just at the small of your back.
"Very well..." His other hand slid through your own wet hair, tilting your head back just as he leaned in, until your noses brushed. "Is it my turn now?"
"Your hair is still—!"
His lips met yours, cutting off the words instantly. He claimed your mouth in a slow, deliberate dance. At first, it was soft and careful—the actions of the gentleman he proclaimed himself to be—but then, the rhythm shifted.
"You smell incredible," he whispered against your lips, the last traces of shampoo finally rinsing away. "Don't tell me you’re getting aroused over this? Such improper behavior for a lady..." His smile was teasing, and entirely too knowing.
Of course he noticed. He could feel every spike in your pulse, every shiver of emotion, —an innate ability of his kind— and It did nothing to help your poor, racing heart.
"What if I am? Are you going to take responsibility for it, my lord?" You decided two could play this game. Even if your body was betraying you, the way your legs pressed tightly together, the way you leaned into him, you wouldn't back down.
"Uhm?" He hummed, a vibration you felt in your chest as he nudged you further up onto your tiptoes.
His wet lips began to trace soft, lingering kisses over your throat. Then came the first nibble—a soft bite that made your breath catch—followed by the cool glide of his tongue as he licked the stray waterdrops from your neck.
A shaky exhale, suspiciously close to a moan, was the only response he needed. He pulled back just enough to murmur:
"It would be my pleasure."
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¹Dusha moya: My soul.
۶ৎ Honestly, the fact that the idea came from you surprised him. He’s so used to taking care of others that being the one looked after caught him off guard.
۶ৎ But he could never say no—not to the idea of you giving him your undivided attention while you washed the day away.
۶ৎ Besides, the thought of his girlfriend's hands over him seemed like the perfect way to relax after hours of training, patrolling the city, and a mountain—a massive mountain—of paperwork.
۶ৎ The warmth of the water made his toned, powerful frame go slack, muscles finally unknotting under the steady spray.
۶ৎ His blonde hair grew damp and heavy from the steam, and then... he heard your soft laugh.
۶ৎ He looked down, and the height gap between you was as charming as ever. You often had to strain to meet those deep blue eyes of his, but right now, they were looking at you with pure, unfiltered affection.
۶ৎ "It looks like the paperwork was rough on you today," you teased, taking the bar of soap. The scent of Cecilia flowers and mint soon bloomed into a rich lather in your hands.
۶ৎ Varka didn’t know if it was the tenderness of your touch or the way your hand lingered on each of his scars—cherishing them rather than pitying them—that moved him most.
۶ৎ Your hand came to a stop against his pectoral, right over one of his marks. Suddenly, you noticed the sheer intensity of his gaze. The soft, pinkish flush on his cheeks made it clear that his heat wasn't just coming from the water.
۶ৎ "Jean is far too good at keeping me focused on my job... the boring part of it, unfortunately," he replied, his smile mirroring yours like a natural reflex. He caught your hand, bringing your palm to his lips.
۶ৎ That single, soft kiss made your own cheeks heat up. It wasn't about anything scandalous; it was just the overwhelming weight of how intimate the moment felt.
۶ৎ "Come, let me wash your hair," you murmured, trying to ignore the frantic thumping of your heart.
۶ৎ You took the bottle of shampoo, squeezing the liquid into your palms and waiting for him to bow his head so you could reach, but then...
︵ . ︵﹒︵୨ ꒰ Varka ꒱ ୧︵ . ︵﹒︵
It happened so fast that you barely realized what was happening. One of his powerful arms hooked under your thighs, and with the strength of a man used to wielding more than just a simple sword, he lifted you effortlessly.
"V-Varka?!" Heat crept into your ears and cheeks. Now, you were slightly above him, held securely in his arms. It wasn't just that you were naked; it was the way you could feel every taut muscle of his body pressed against your skin.
Oh, Archons... have mercy.
"I find this much better," he said, noticing your blushing face with a satisfied smile. "Don't worry, I won't let you fall." As he spoke, his other hand settled firmly against your back, making your breath hitch.
You simply nodded and began to wash his hair, the soft strands feeling like spun sunlight between your fingers. You couldn't hide your smile when you saw his expression relax; his eyes drifted shut, and a pleasant, contented look settled on his features. It was an expression of pure peace—one you usually only saw when he was enjoying a good drink.
Once the water finally rinsed the bubbles away, you couldn't help but place your hand over his cheek, thumbing a small bruise. The warmth of your touch made him open his eyes.
He simply observed you—his girlfriend, held close in his arms. You were the woman who had always been there for him, the one who waited faithfully until he returned from Nod-krai's expeditions. How could he not love you?
He leaned in, his nose brushing yours in a deliberate, lingering way that made his intentions clear.
"May I...?"
"Yes," you whispered, not even letting him finish. A soft laugh vibrated through his chest—sounding almost like a purr against your body.
Then his lips met yours. It never ceased to surprise you how soft they were, or how caring he could be. He held you as if you were the most precious jewel in Teyvat. Your fingers buried themselves in his hair, the damp softness welcoming your touch as his lips claimed yours deeply.
His hands, as skillful as ever, shifted your weight until you were straddling him. He held you by your thighs, your back meeting the slight chill of the wall as he moved you just out of the direct spray of the hot shower.
"Don't you have a meeting at Angel’s Share?" you asked, though it was more of a breathless whisper than a real question. You were secretly praying to Barbatos that he’d forget the world existed and just stay with you.
"I'm sure they'll forget... the wine will help with that," he murmured, his nose traveling down to the curve of your neck. The scent of the soap against your skin made him close his eyes in bliss. "And besides..."
You couldn't suppress a shaky breath as his lips began to graze your skin. One of your hands curled into his hair while the other traced the powerful lines of his back. You let your head rest back against the wall, completely undone by him.
Synopsis: Varka has a talent for flustering you. What starts as small, thoughtful gestures slowly turns into warm touches, quiet compliments, and a kind of attention you’re not sure how to handle.
A/N: This was inspired by my friend Niki, who sent me a message wondering how Varka would be with a very shy reader—especially how he’d enjoy teasing them. I had so much fun writing this! :D This is for you, Niki…and for anyone who loves Varka.💙
Every time you enter a room, Varka’s face lights up. He never leaves you out of his sight, making sure you’re comfortable with the people around you, checking in without being obvious about it.
You think it’s nice. Considerate, even. You tell yourself he’s like this with everyone. Just a naturally thoughtful person, used to making people feel at ease.
Then something shifts.
He starts seeking you out actively, always with that easy smile of his.
The first time it happens, he just stands there, arms crossed, and studies you with open intent.
You flush immediately, not used to this level of attention from anyone, let alone him.
If he’s surprised by your shyness, he doesn’t show it. Instead, his smile gets bigger, turns into a broad, satisfied grin.
“You know,” he says, voice warm and easy, “seeing you smile like that? Makes my whole day.”
You stare at him. Surely you must have misheard. Because this isn’t his usual way of grounding someone or putting them at ease. This is something else entirely.
“Um. Thank you?” Your voice comes out higher than intended.
You clear your throat, biting your lip to stop yourself from giggling nervously. Your face heats and you look away, but your lips twitch traitorously.
Varka notices immediately. Of course he does. “See? Even better when it’s because of me.”
His hand comes up to your shoulder, and he gently turns you back to face him. You feel the warmth of his palm, the gentle pressure of his fingers.
“No need to hide that face from me.”
He watches your reaction—the way your eyes widen, the way you can’t quite meet his gaze—and his grin broadens like he’s won something.
Then he just… wishes you a nice day and walks off, leaving you standing there trying to remember how thoughts work.
Two days later, there’s a knock on your door.
You open it, pulling your morning robe tighter around yourself. When you see Varka standing there, relaxed and far too awake for this hour, you almost shut the door again out of sheer panic.
“Morning,” he says, voice warm and steady. “Bad time?”
Your throat feels dry. “No. Not at all. Do you want to come in?”
He considers it for a moment, eyes flicking past you into your quarters, then shakes his head with a slight smile. “Maybe another time. Just wanted to give you this.”
He hands you your favorite beverage and a pastry you’ve never tried before.
You stare at him, then at the offerings, trying to process this.
“Try it now,” Varka says. “Or it won’t taste as good later.”
Before you can respond, his hand comes up. Fingers touch your temple as he brushes a strand of hair from your forehead. “Though I’d bet you’re sweeter.”
Your mouth opens. No sound comes out.
He just chuckles and excuses himself, leaving you standing in the doorway holding pastries and completely forgetting how to breathe.
You’re still standing there a full minute after he’s gone, trying to remember how your brain is supposed to work.
A whole week passes like this.
He finds excuses to talk to you. Small things. Asking about your day, commenting on something you said in passing, appearing wherever you happen to be.
And in the middle of perfectly normal conversation, he slips in compliments that leave you flustered and speechless.
Of course you know he’s flirting with you. He’s making it very obvious at this point. Doesn’t even try to hide how much he’s enjoying it. Or how much he enjoys your reactions.
After three weeks of this back-and-forth where he talks easily and you always end up grinning and blushing and utterly lost for words, he tries a different approach.
Or that’s what you gather, at least.
He’s not just being direct with his words anymore. Now his touches are anything but accidental.
One afternoon, he finds you glaring at shattered vases on the ground, your body tense with frustration. You sense him before you see him. His presence somehow both grounding and unnerving at once.
Varka looks at you, reading your mood in an instant. “Need a hug?”
You blink at him. Then a grin tugs at your lips despite yourself. “Yeah. Sure.”
His arms come around you immediately—one wrapping low around your waist, the other sliding up between your shoulder blades—and he pulls you against his chest without hesitation.
You’re surrounded by warmth, the faint scent of leather and wind and something distinctly him. Your face presses against his chest and you feel how broad he is, how easily he envelops you.
You feel the solid strength of him, the way his chest rises and falls with each slow breath. One hand starts drawing soothing patterns along your spine. The other stays firm at the small of your back, anchoring you.
You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding and lean into him.
For a moment, neither of you speaks.
“Seems I’m doing something right here,” he murmurs eventually, voice rumbling through his chest. “You’re already calmer.”
You feel the low vibration of his chuckle. “Might have to make this a regular thing. Feels right, holding you.”
You clear your throat, face still pressed against his chest. “I trust you,” you mumble quietly. Then, even quieter: “And you always calm me.”
His hand stills for just a second before resuming its soothing motions. “Good to know,” he says softly, and you hear the smile in his voice.
After that, Varka touches you more often.
Taking your hand without preamble, his thumb stroking slow circles over your knuckles.
Brushing your shoulders and arms whenever he gets the chance.
The hugs become a regular occurrence. Every time you meet, he embraces you immediately, only letting you go when you’ve long lost your composure and any sense of time.
You should probably tell him to stop.
You don’t.
One evening, you’re gathered at the Flagship with others after a strategic meeting. The atmosphere is lively—people chattering, laughing, the warm hum of conversation filling the space.
Varka mingles easily, like he always does, making sure everyone feels comfortable and included.
Much later, he spots you sitting at a table and makes his way over. He slides onto the bench beside you as if it’s the most natural thing in the world.
He settles right beside you, not leaving any polite distance, just pressing close. His thigh is solid against yours, the heat of him seeping through the fabric.
Your shoulder barely reaches his upper arm, and you’re acutely aware of how much bigger he is, how his presence seems to surround you even sitting down.
Your whole body tingles where you touch. You can feel his warmth all along your side, feel the way he shifts slightly to get more comfortable—which only presses him closer.
“You good?” His voice is low, close to your ear. You feel his breath against your skin and your pulse jumps.
You nod slightly. “Yeah. I’m good.”
“Sure?” There’s amusement threading through his tone. “You seem a little tense. No need to be nervous around me.”
And now you hear the grin in his voice.
“Varka,” you say, trying for stern and failing completely. “Stop it.”
“Mm?” He shifts even closer, and now you’re pressed against him from shoulder to knee. “Stop what, exactly?”
“You know what.”
“Do I?” The grin in his voice is unmistakable. “You’re gonna have to be more specific.”
You turn your head to glare at him. A mistake, because now his face is suddenly very close. Close enough to see the amusement dancing in his eyes, the pleased curve of his mouth.
“The…” You gesture vaguely. “All of this.”
“Oh.” He nods seriously, like you’ve just told him something very important. “Yeah. Sure. I’ll stop.”
He doesn’t move an inch.
You narrow your eyes. “You’re not going to stop.”
“No,” he admits cheerfully.
At that moment, the table becomes more crowded. Others joining, pulling up chairs, filling the space with noise and laughter.
It’s nice.
You get absorbed in the conversation, laughing at jokes, feeling at ease.
Every so often, Varka leans down and murmurs things only you can hear.
“I like it when you laugh like that.”
“You’re beautiful when you smile.”
“This is my favorite sound.”
The words settle into you like warmth, making your face heat and your heart stutter.
Later, when you’ve finally relaxed enough to lean into him, his hand finds your thigh.
The warmth of his palm settles there, just above your knee. Casual. Easy. Like it belongs there.
You go very still.
His eyes find yours immediately, a silent question in them: Is this okay?
Your heart is pounding so hard you’re sure he can feel it. You answer by touching his hand. Just a light brush of your fingers against his knuckles.
The moment you start to pull back, his other hand covers yours. Broad and warm, gentle but firm, keeping your fingers there against his skin.
Your breath catches.
Varka doesn’t look away. Just holds your gaze as his thumb begins moving. Slow, deliberate circles on your thigh. The pressure is light, soothing, nothing inappropriate.
But you feel it everywhere.
Every slow sweep of his thumb, every place his fingers rest, the warmth of his palm seeping through the fabric.
You’re hyperaware of everything.
The weight of his hand. The controlled strength in those fingers. The way he’s watching you, reading every reaction, that pleased little smile tugging at his mouth because he knows exactly what he’s doing to you.
Someone across the table says something funny and everyone laughs.
You manage to smile, even laugh a little, but your focus is splintered. Half of you is in the conversation, the other half is completely consumed by the steady movement of his thumb against your leg.
Your breathing becomes uneven. Your thoughts scatter. Someone asks if you’re okay and you manage to say “Yeah, sure” even though your voice sounds strange to your own ears.
Varka chuckles quietly beside you. Low and pleased and entirely too satisfied with himself.
You glare at him, but you can’t hide your smile. “Stop it,” you say again, and he only hums. A sound that probably means Yeah, okay but actually means Absolutely not.
He doesn’t stop the whole evening. His hand stays exactly where it is. Warm and steady and maddening.
Later that night, when the Flagship is almost empty and most people have gone, Varka clears his throat. He sounds suddenly less confident than before. Almost uncertain.
“Thank you,” you say before you can overthink it.
He looks at you, waiting.
“For…” You stop, because you don’t quite know what you want to say.
For making you laugh? For the attention? For making you feel seen?
“For being you,” you settle on finally.
“Ditto,” he says immediately, voice soft and sincere.
Then he offers you his arm.
Somehow you end up going for a walk in the night. Through quiet streets, under lamplight, neither of you in any hurry.
After a while, he stops.
He turns to face you, and before you can say anything, he presses a kiss to your forehead.
He notices your nervousness. Of course he does. He always notices.
So you take a deep breath and reach for his hand.
Varka hums approvingly, fingers curling around yours, but he doesn’t tease this time. Doesn’t say anything at all.
But as you walk together, his hand warm in yours, you feel it anyway.
Everything he’s been telling you all this time.
You make me happy. Let me make you happy too.
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A/N: Thanks for reading. I hope you enjoyed it. :) More Varka to follow soon.
