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[ironroserequiem]

I have decided life requires very radical change. I threw out the mattress and disassembled the bed. Unsurprisingly, sleeping on the floor feels better than on that thing. I kept this slab of memory foam to sleep on in the meantime. A blueprint is in progress for a coffin to sleep in. There is nothing left to do now except embrace myself. Healing has a bitter taste, like tears and strong herbal remedies. No matter what, I have people who believe in me. I want to wallow in that love I have for them… If you are reading this, I love you…

[ironroserequiem]

Theme: The Chariot, upright, from Megan Lynn Kott’s Cat Tarot.

Focus: Mental health recovery.

Current Fixation/Obsession: Sigil work and summoning circles.

Current Read: Roxanne Gay’s The Portable Feminist Reader.

Current Films: N/A.

Current Songs: 暁Records - Supernova; EastNewSound - アイノウタ; Go2 - Spitfire - Extended Version.

Current Game: Persona 5 Royal. (Second Playthrough)

Current Treats: Beef blood and Winking Owl Red Wine.

[ironroserequiem]

I really miss using community tags, but I just cannot stand the amount of policing or bullshit that goes on. Having nothing but “erm your harmless thing is morally wrong” in the notes sounds like a nightmare. But fuck it. Go ahead. Transition. Become a hot man and a vampire like me. I love you.

[ironroserequiem]

I no longer mind times where sacrifice is demanded of me. It is just… time to move on. Nothing in the past is left for you and I, comrades. There is nothing you can do, besides strengthen your self-efficacy and decline to outsource your agency. Aren’t you tired…? Don’t you just want to go apeshit???

[ironroserequiem]

For a moment, just for a moment, I feel as if I had forgotten to delight in what little whimsy comes to me in the tough times. Value the world around before it is taken from you. Is this how you want to live your life?

The cards speak of something important. Best not to look away.

[These photos are my work. Please credit if used. I enjoy reblogs incredibly much.]

[ironroserequiem]

feeling so joyous and whimsy from that intense outing. But I had forgotten to take proper photos. I am so fortunate anyway. I’m so exhaustedddd. Better things ahead, it seems.

[ironroserequiem]

Feeling extremely obsessed with this Wheel of Emotions! I noticed a poster of it in someone’s room and decided to look into it. Very helpful in distress or overwhelm. Classifying everything as a result of a supposed mystical anxiety disorder has done a lot of damage for me. It is a good day to dissect and learn about how your own mind works.

This is also why reading when you can is an important thing. Adjusting to the varied descriptions of personal experiences. More on that another time.

[ironroserequiem]

I have no certainty on where these may be from yet, but I discovered them far back in the photo gallery. I think about these a lot now.