Eating meat made me crazy🤬
The two years of my life I spent eating 200 plus grams of protein daily is the worst I've ever felt, mentally and also physically. I had previously been eating a mainly pescatarian diet when I decided to cross off my bucket list item of competing in a figure fitness competition. Then I had been eating vegan for about 6 months prior to beginning this diet and training program. Back then there weren't any coaches that believed you could build muscle and get lean enough to compete if you weren't eating an excessive amount of fish, eggs, chicken, flank steak and drinking whey protein shakes. It was a real mind-f*** to try to get all of this food down when in the back of my head I felt terribly uncomfortable with eating animals.
I did build a titch of muscle and as my body got leaner my stomach actually started to look distressing! My stomach was puffy and Bloated and the lower left side where the colon ends was quite inflamed! I did not poop daily. I could just feel the heaviness of meat sitting in my stomach and I knew my body wasn't processing the food effectively. I was in a group posing class and one of the instructors stopped pointed at me and said `what's wrong with your stomach'! I didn't feel right that's for sure. I was so conflicted not wanting to continue to eat this food however, I had paid this coach and I set a goal so I was going to see my programs through following the diet and workouts to a T!
Along with the inflamed stomach loveliness I was experiencing a terrible emotional shift. I became so angry about any little thing that didn't go my way. I would fantasize about punching someone in the face who pissed me off or wasted my time as my impatience was ginormous! I did not recognize myself or my gross unpleasant new personality. I was a real peach to be around I'm sure...
Then I started stealing Little Things like lipstick from the grocery store I even took a bottle of shampoo that someone left on the bench in the gym locker room just because I could! Whaaattt was happening? I had read the description of taking on emotions of what you eat and I absolutely believe that to be true for me. All of that fear, rage, adrenaline and pain I was consuming daily had made my mind act out in a crazy way! Think about these tortured factory farm animals in their last minute kicking fighting and screaming for their lives. When I think back to my behavior I experienced I always wanted to kick fight and scream every damn day! When I had finished competitions, I was done with eating animals.
And now, comparing this to the mental and emotional shift I had once I gave up absolutely and realized that I DID NOT have to eat meat and I DID NOT have to consume something that I was morally uncomfortable with, I was finally free. I know for certain that the food you eat affects your mood and mental well-being! It was so empowering to make the right decision for ME!
Even before I ate my next vegan meal I felt completely unburdened and like a huge emotional weight has been lifted from my subconscious. I don't know if I'm theeee nicest person you'll ever meet but probably pretty damn close! I can say that my peaceful state of being has allowed me to practice patience to the great extent that people are usually blown away at how accepting I can be when others are behaving badly. And also the big shift was myself not doing shitty selfish things like stealing lying or coming to near blows with strangers!
I'm also Kinder and gentler with myself. When I have a day that I feel like I didn't accomplish everything I wanted to get done-or maybe I felt like I had been lazy-I go to bed at night and still feel really good about myself knowing that the dietary choices I made and the clothing I wore did no harm to any innocent beings. It really gives me such a sense of peace and gratitude. All I needed to do was trust my instinct and listen to myself.
I now have the healthiest body I've ever had. My stomach is happy and I've never had a problem digesting food once I ditched meat, Dairy and eggs. I still have a great amount of muscle! Plus, with my acidity levels being low my recovery and Repair from exercise is exceptional. My life is so full. Everything is better! The mental shift of veganism is amazing and I see it as such a gift. When you give love you get love and you are love. 💗 you can love animals, our planet and yourself in unison!