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If they get rid of tumblr im just becoming Amish
as much as I’d love to tell the community how much of a despicable insufferable person my boss is from our small business, I know people would get on my ass for trying to ruin his livelihood, that he’s already halfway through his life and struggling and I’m just kicking a man while he’s down, or get the inevitable influx of conservatives who think I’m whiny and entitled and it would reflect badly on communities they already hate.
it’s tiring out here, man! I’m so radicalized and the stuff my boss says and does is so normalized that it feels silly to try doing anything about it. I’d become the evil one. and truthfully the business he’s running is a great one that SHOULD be unifying the local communities, it IS a needed space in a society pushing out fun, safe spaces for people of all ages. but my boss is a fucking asshole and it taints the whole thing once you know him! it’s a good thing being done by an intolerant jerk, like some kind of sacrifice. ‘let the guy alone or we’ll lose a good space for the people’ kind of dynamic, and it’d all be my fault if I said anything. he should get to go free for a good cause, while continuing to hurt people including his own employees.
I bet we’d see a nice bump in customers if he dared to declare we are a safe space for youth, for queer people, for trans people especially, that he doesn’t tolerate casual racism. but all while the people he despises come into his arcade, he talks behind their backs and that’s truly horrible. “I think you people are weirdos but thanks for giving me money.” it feels fake, but suddenly I’d be the one who isn’t unifying our community, who is narrow-minded and unaccepting of intolerant people. people like him say awful shit and think they’re still the good guys and that if you call them out, we’re brats, condescending to them, causing strife. oh my GOD.
I do so love when grown adults get pissed about another grown adult asking clarifying questions and being reasonably confused with conflicting answers that they have to leave work. Love that. So fuckin much.
My day at work yesterday
My day at work yesterday. "Hey Jonathan. We have operators coming in tomorrow. Could you possibly kit up the next two Intuitive Surgical MSI jobs by tomorrow?"...........Jonathan Scott's diagnostic work assestment program.exe initiating. my thoughts in my head "You are asking me if I can kit two big Intuitive Surgical jobs, jobs with 20 stock parts and 10 material each, and asking if I can at least kit one of them by tomorrow morning. You asked me in the past of why it takes me 13 hours, a whole weekend, to kit just one. And you asking me this at 1:30 in the afternoon. When I am only here for a half a day left. So something that used to take 13 hours for me to do, you are wondering if I can do it in 5ish hours. And you asked operators to come in tomorrow BEFORE YOU HAD THE WORK ALIGN AND SET UP FOR THEM TO WORK ON! WHY ARE YOU PUTTING THE CART BEFORE THE HORSE?!?! So I guess I have to kit at least the 3 part Intuitive Surgical MSI job by tonight, that still has 20 stock parts and 10 materials, because if I don't, because an operator coming in tomorrow might not have work for them. I am correct on this? And I have only an half a day to do so and you couldn't have asked me this morning? Even though I still had to finish End of Month Inventory this morning as well as other rush jobs I couldn't complete last night. And yet you are my supervisor. Oh, and remember my answer for why it took 13 hours to kit one job, I am not paid well. Thank you for reminding me I am not paid well enough for this job." That is my thought process. What I actually said. I can try my best to kit the 3 part job before tomorrow morning. But I won't guarantee it. To be honest, I don't want to guarantee it. I don't want them to expect I can kit a big job in half a day, even if I can. I don't want to fucking rush myself. Not for this job. Not for how much I am getting paid.
ever since i started working online i find myself gaining more pleasure from staring at the ceiling while listening to white noise in the dark than doing anything on a computer
i have this urge to go out just to hear people talk to each other and do nothing for a few hours and the thought of coming back home to my laptop in my dark room to work makes me feel so dull and empty
nothing really changed in my life since i started this job, i don't interact with people any less than i did before, but being anxious about completing my weekly hours through the entire day and night is making me appreciate all those years of being forced to interact with people at school even though i hated it at the time
of course i could just go for a walk, find a group of friends to hang out with or go someplace cool by myself even, but i have been feeling so lost and unmotivated that i can't even do the things i really want to do
i put off going to the grocery store get ingredients for my fancy coffees for weeks even though i really wanted to go because i love going to the store by myself and walking around slowly at my own pace for however long i want
i kind of wish i still had to do things outside of the house, like school or work, so i'd have no choice but to leave and breathe some fresh air and look away from the laptop screen for a significant amount of time
i stg i feel like i am invisible at work sometimes. my boss was talking about how much work she has, and i was like listening and told her if there was anythin i could do to help and she went on saying that that the professors dont realize that she is postponing her maternity leave and who could possibly be in charge after she leaves and here i am staring at her....ME, HER ASSISTANT. lmao
This makes me feel super crappy. Sometimes she's all "i'll need your help, we're a team~~ you will replace me" and then she says shit like this. How am i supposed to feel?
Okay rough day at work so
Basically all our Christmas stuff which had to be out today wasn't in until yesterday so there was no time to prepare all our Christmas displays
we had our frozen launch
our chief bear made a huge fucking mess of all the cardboard in the back room because she knocked the piles we had over and then didn't collapse any boxes as she went so there was enough there that if there was a fire we'd have been fucking screwed... and if the fire safety inspection guy came then we'd have been fined.
two people didn't come in, one sick and one it was her last day so why bother showing up
The second of those people called ten minutes before her shift because it's not like we were relying on you to show up or anything (we were, FUCK you)
I got stuck with two parties that I wasn't supposed to do, one because coworker who didn't show was supposed to do and the other my coworker was loosing her voice
It's been snowing all day.
My horoscope was right, I should have just stayed inside.
Fuck today I am done.