#vent..?

[artistakai]

[feetusjail]

definitely failed my physics test and it was so bad it brought up every single repressed trauma i have and i nearly broke my 4 year clean streak bc of it lol

[reyanimates]

everybody moved on.. help I’m still at the restaurant… /lyr (vent art? ig? Idk)

in the past, when I tried to come up with a reason as to why I don’t want to watch the TT pilot, I chalked it up to numerous reasons like “oh I don’t like Riggy”, or “It doesn’t interest me”, and “I don’t think it’s necessary” (which those are still opinions I feel abt it), I figured out that the main reason I don’t want to watch it, is because in my head I view it as something that represents my greatest fear when it comes to this fandom, people forgetting about SW.

That’s the main reason, I view it in my mind as a symbol of forgetting the roots of this fandom. Honestly that was sort of a fear of mine when RPK had started up, but this just kicks it up to the extreme. I’ve said plenty of times about how much SW means to me and so seeing people forget it.. moving on.. it really makes me feel terrible… Seeing everyone else praise (and lowkey glaze) the shit out of TT makes my FOMO rise, but at the same time I don’t care as I don’t want to move on from SW, it’s had too much of an positive impact on me that I don’t want to become part of the majority, those who will eventually forget about SW.

And I don’t want the fandom to forget its roots, as its roots are the very foundation of the fandom. RPK wouldn’t exist without SW, fuck I’m pretty sure TT wouldn’t exist without SW (that one is a bit of a stretch I will admit, but Danno said he got inspired to do the animation style for TT from doing that ‘wheredidriggygo.mp4’ video and also he said that w/o Bam, he wouldn’t have gotten the motivation to work on it either). I just don’t want SW to be forgotten, as it helped me through so much, and I really hope it isn’t going to, but I don’t know if that’ll end nicely..

[evilyaoi413]

I've gotten a lot less dependent on my partners/friends which is so weird. I used to never be able to be alone, always be stuck to someone, now its more, oh I said hi to everyone.... time to go run to the other side of the school and sit alone ! or go to class and go nonverbal the whole period ( I am extremely talkative but am trying to stfu due to bullies ^^ )

also I like made my bf think I was mad at him I JUST AM EVERY SO OFTEN DISTANT

[purranoia]

why am i getting harrassed to finish comms two and a half weeks in. my TOS is like 'gimme four weeks max' and i'm looking around, i can't find a single artist who's turn around time is less than three months. i'm not even late according to my own schedule what the fuck has happened to commissioner etiquette

[marghost]

Tired of being a contestant

For a chance, a shot at The prizes

Was never set up as a debutante

That dress never close to my sizes

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What would it take, what would it cost me

To make someone feel like theyd lose if they lost me

Im always starving for that pedestal position

Instead I'm just standing in general admission

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Im out a corner for coins in a guitar case

And all of the venues are sold out for you

And im sure you've earned that giant marquee space

Im happy that someone could really break through

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What would it take, what would it cost me

To make someone feel like theyd lose if they lost me

Im always starving for that pedestal position

Instead I'm just standing in general admission

[fanatical4creation]

"Imperfection"

In my entire life I have never felt so bad for identifying with a fictional character, I hate him.

(Side note: I don't think I'll be able to do any drawings about pride month, i'm too unmotivated and really need a rest, even thought I can't take rests even for the sake of me)

XGaster (c) Jakei95