I recently rewatched Avatar and Mai and her backstory reminded me of myself. This is 100% a vent. When you're a child you dont really understand. When you're told to do something, you do it no matter what. It's been almost 4 years and I'm still dealing with the fact that my grammy was toxic and emotionally abusive. I'm still dealing with fake friends. Im still discovering who I am. Im thankful that I have an amazing boyfriend and amazing family who support me. I couldnt be happier with who I have in my life but with this whole pandemic, I've been disappointed in some of my friends and I've just been having a rough time in my own head. Im still dealing with my own mind and my own way of doing things.This makeup is my way of dealing with everything and trying to heal a bit more. For some explanation about the makeup, I'm bisexual and a pagan. Growing up in a Catholic school made it very hard to express myself. So I have the bi flag on my cheek and a cross on my head,mimicking the ashes on ash Wednesday. I also have stitches on my lips as sometimes it was better to just be quiet than to speak up. The tear streaks seem pretty self explanatory. Silent tears are always the easiest to push aside. On my hand is "I must not tell lies" from Harry Potter. It was very common when I was little that we all just lied to each other and ourselves but of course that made the truth very hard to see and tell if it was true or false. In the last video,my makeup changes to this vibrant red with stars. It's kinda symbolic of me taking my identity back from what it's been for so long. Anyway if you've read to here,I'm sorry for the rant and I love you and we all need to look after ourselves not just now but all the time. #ventmakeup #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #rant #sorry https://www.instagram.com/p/CAqb0eHBgNgkwXFaAH7QCWNmeeyJ9W15Ln7F_M0/?igshid=s4cnhp4r95di
