#ventout

[thispenguinrocks]

hi im

desp for internet friends so hmu

[whiskeyeah]

What a funny world we are living in! Everyone wants to vent out but no one wants to listen.

[stillcaffeinated]

This would probably my last day on this school. We had a bunch of rants. We usually joke about resigning bec the environment was toxic. But deep inside, I never wanted to leave this school bec I want to see my students graduate. Pero I never had the chance kasi hindi kami nagkaroon ng grad ceremony.

Buti na lang merong tong dalawang to na naging sandalan ko. These two are the best!

Flash back!

I never wanted to teach bec I was too shy and introverted. When I was young, I never wanted to talk in front nor recite whenever I know the answer. Last minute, I decided to take the job. I want to challenge myself and I want to overcome my fear

Hindi ko akalaing mapapamahal ako sa mga studyante ko, sa ginagawa ko. I want to cry bec I know hindi ko nagawa yung best ko. Fck my insecurities.

Ang hirap din maging independent kasi akala nila, kaya mo lagi. I don't know where to start again. Naging hate ko tong school na to because of what it did sa mental health ko. But I am grateful for this school made me strong, made me dream more, made me want to help more. I am still grateful na natupad ang isa sa mga pangarap ko, ang magturo at iovercome ang fear ko.

I lost my job. I waited for months. I thought I already prepared myself para rito. But still, sepanx. I am certified unemployed. And I don't know where to start.

[soberientist]

[..................]

What happen to being honest? We did say that we will tell and talk about how we feel for each other, always... Now you’ll just gonna act and ignore what is happening between us. You know that what we are doing is not normal, we both agreed that well see this till the end. We are uncertain of what this “thing” would become or when will it end.  but we promise each other that we always say and tell the truth no matter what, right? because that is the only thing that we have. You said that  i mean soo much to you, that you care for my feelings. How come i feel soo low and worthless. Is it because of the things that i’ve said to you. if it was then im really sorry.. but im just telling you how i felt that moment. if being cold is your way of telling me that we should stop this “thing” we had then so be it.I knew from the start that this will not end well. But still i gave my time and all my efforts just to work things out. i guess im just fighting a losing battle. My wish for you is to find the thing that you are looking for and that you may always have a peace of mind. take care always. goodbye.

[angelsinthia-blog]

Importance of writing

Sometimes we experience mixed emotions and thoughts which can neither be justified, nor be labelled. It leaves us in a state of delima over which thoughts to be acted upon or which not. Thoughts might be useful, useful, relevant, irrelevant, and much more.

The best way to deal with such a situation is to write up whatever you experience about mixed emotions. Venting out the things you think and starts to feel, clears up the mind of unwanted and useless thoughts. Writing up gives you a way to your mind map and you figure out which direction to act upon and where the best possibilities lie.

[soshesme]

You

You want self pity to justify your actions. Shouldn't you own up to it? Admit your own faults. Stop acting like the victim. Everyone know what you did so don't turn it around. Face the consequences. Its unnerving how you dramatize and pretend to be the damsel in distress.

[soshesme]

Yung

Yung mga pabida.

Yung, they flaunt everything they got

Ipapamukha sayo na they are better than you.

They have better things than you.

Pero pag hindi mo naman pinansin, nagpapapansin.

Ay wait lang hah, hahanapin ko muna.

Yung PAKIALAM ko.

[soshesme]

So

So kumusta naman kanina. Finifeel ko yung kanta habang nag dridrive diba isinama ko pa ng pag arte. Tapos bigla bigla nalang may sisingit na sasakyan sa harap. Edi sympre break agad. Kaya lahat ng gamit at kaluluwa ko nag si talunan sa harap. Ang bagal pa ng patakbo nya. Aba Matindi! Nakaka imbyerna. Sarap bungoin eh. Bungoin ko kaya.