Seven Events One May Experience When Choosing to Pursue a Calling
SEVEN EVENTS ONE MAY EXPERIENCE WHEN CHOOSING TO PURSUE A CALLING
I want to speak from my heart and ask; have you opened the door to your soul purpose?
Is there a hurt you haven’t healed and you wonder why you keep hurting other people in your attempts to move on?
Hurt people hurt people, this is fact! There are so many of us wandering around in victim mentality! We ALL have these thorns we walk around with; the hurt, the pain, the guilt, the shame and all those things we try to keep low profile, beneath the surface!
Then we go out and live life and expect no one to bump into our thorns because they hurt!!! HEALING, MY FRIENDS, IS DECIDING TO TAKE THE THORNS OUT SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THOSE BUMPS THAT CAUSE YOUR PAIN TO BEGIN AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!!
Healing involves reopening old wounds, yes!! However, it’s a once and for all type of strategy! It is so worth it! Today I ask you this.....................
IT IS TIME TO DECIDE!! COMPLACENCY OR CLARITY?
It is no life wandering around warning people by saying something like...”Hey, watch out, I have a thorn there! Don’t touch it!!” or “Don’t go there with me”
I CHALLENGE YOU TO REOPEN THAT WOUND YOU DIDN’T LET FULLY HEAL; IT’S TIME TO REMOVE YOUR THORNS!!!
Just before my second dark night of the soul experience began, this past December 2017, I picked up a book that I’d read years ago to, reread it. I believe very much in synchronicity signs and I like to think that me coming across this book just before my life began imploding on itself again, was a synchronicity sign; God and Universe collaborating to get me prepared for bumps in the road and to keep focused on the end goal of fulfilling my purpose.
In ‘The Dream Giver’ by Bruce Wilkinson, the main character “Ordinary” leaves the land of familiar to follow his dreams. Along the way he experiences many obstacles, naysayers, fear and then a dark night process in which he faces and encounters bullies, giants and the feelings of self-doubt along the way. He also finally takes some time to be quiet and have a one on one with God when he finally realizes his purpose is more important than the fear or the pain felt while pursuing his calling! Ordinary was meant to be extraordinary!!
I quickly realized that this is the story of one’s awakening to their purpose as I read the book for the second time over a decade after the first read. I am remembering points from the first time I had read the book, pre-awakening, about 11 years ago. This time, post-awakening, I recognized “Ordinary’s” struggles, fears, pain, and one on one with God; as his dark night of the soul! That is really what a dark night of the soul is; your one on one with Source, God, your higher power, higher self, God-within; whatever you call it, it’s all the same thing.
The author discusses the fact that throughout the Bible there is a pattern that is repeated when one answers their calling. You can get this best seller on amazon of course. Here is the link to their library of self-development books and audios! http://amzn.to/2G3WKRp
“In almost every instance they:
1.Become aware of a personal Dream or calling, then decide to pursue it.(Awakening to a calling, longing or purpose!)
2.Face fear as they leave a place of comfort.(Pushing self to the limits, major personal growth)
3. Encounter opposition from those around them. (Bullies, judgmental family/friends/associates, animosity)
4. Endure a season of difficulty that tests their faith. (Dark night of the soul, friends fall off, overwhelmed, fear, having to take ownership and accountability of mistakes, hurts and own role in wrong turns taken.)
5. Learn the importance of surrender and consecration to God. (learn to be still and listen)
6. giants that stand before them and the fulfillment of their dreams.(naysayers, haters, family, fake or fair weather friends, animosity...)
7. Reach their full potential as they achieve their Dream and bring honor to God. ……not to block our Dream but to help us break through to the fulfillment God promises.
Notice in the patterns above, what you must face before you ever complete your journey.
When you embrace your purpose you can expect opposition, fear, difficulties, bullies,having to surrender, a fight against your personal giants; this is your dark night. I know first hand that when you mention “ awakening” and people look at you cross-eyed or start calling you names like granola or star child; this fear of what other’s think is often the reason people reject their own calling. They want to be perceived as normal!
********note to self********forget about being normal! Your calling is ONLY going to feel normal to YOU! It’s your calling! YOU were made for it AND furthermore,
If you meet with your dark night of the soul experience try to remember it’s a process and you are being sharpened for battle, refined. You are being set up for a major comeback, a break through and blessings. This is your time to BE STILL AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE! THIS IS YOUR ONE ON ONE CONVERSATION WITH GOD! BE PRESENT IN THAT MOMENT AND LISTEN. IF YOU CAN PUSH THROUGH YOUR FEAR AND EMBRACE THIS PART OF THE PROCESS; YOU WILL GAIN CLARITY YOU NEVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE! SOLUTIONS, SYNCHRONICITY AND SIGNS WILL BECOME APPARENT AND LET YOU KNOW YOU ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH, KEEP GOING!
ONCE YOU EMBRACE RATHER THAN RESIST THE AWAKENING PROCESS; INCLUDING THESE DARK NIGHTS OF THE SOUL MOMENTS, IT WILL NO LONGER MATTER WHAT PEOPLE SAY, WHAT PEOPLE THINK OR WHAT PEOPLE PERCEIVE YOU TO BE!
It’s hard work! Work only you can appreciate because it involves a calling unique only to you! You endured pain to get where you are! You reopened old hurts and wounds and did the personal growth work it takes to know who you are at your core! You triumphed over your tribulations! You evolved and you learned to love yourself! You learned to protect your energy, detoxify and de-clutter your life. You may even have been judged for choosing to pursue a dream, your purpose or calling but YOU, YOU PERSEVERED.
Even though the process of spiritually awakening was uncomfortable you saw enough worth in yourself to step out of the box of “normal” and create your own angles that are aligned with your soul purpose; what you were born to do! YOU OPENED THE DOOR TO YOUR SOUL! A DOOR MOST KEEP LOCKED UP TIGHT BECAUSE COMPLACENCY FEELS BETTER THAN BEING UNCOMFORTABLE!
JUST BE YOU! BE TRUE AND BLOOM WHERE YOU ARE PLANTED! THE DARK NIGHT CAN HAVE YOU FEELING LIKE YOU ARE BEING BURIED BUT IN FACT LOVELY, YOU HAVE BEEN PLANTED! PURPOSE HAS BEEN BORN FROM YOUR PAIN! EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED UP TO NOW HAS PREPARED YOU FOR THIS!
I was just beginning my awakening process; still thinking it’s all rainbows and light! It was a lesson learned when I realized that there was some darkness to deal with in the process too! Here came my first dark night and it had me looking like this.....
I was clueless and thought my world was spinning out of control! However, what I realize now is this;
I’M ONE OF THOSE STUBBORN GALS WHO HAS TO FIND OUR FOR HERSELF WHAT IS WHAT! I REJECTED THIS PROCESS BECAUSE IT HURT AND AS I MENTIONED BEFORE; IF WE DON’T MASTER A LESSON WHEN IT COMES OUR WAY, IT DOES COME BACK AROUND AGAIN, UNTIL WE DO!
Therefore, my dark night was extreme! Universe kind of smacked me in the face with all the shit I needed to own up to and all the thorns in my side that I was refusing to remove! One of the reasons I share about this process is because I want people to choose their calling before they get smacked in the face with it and so no one waits as long as I did to listen to that voice inside that says we are made for more! WE ARE MADE FOR MORE!!
IN ADDITION, CARL JUNG , MY FAVORITE ANAYLYTICAL PSYCHOLOGIST BELIEVED THAT:
“WHAT WE RESIST, PERSISTS.” A PURPOSE AND CALLING IS THAT WAY, IT PERSISTS IN THE FORM OF THAT LONGING FOR THE MISSING PIECE!! RESIST YOUR AWAKENING AND DARK NIGHT PROCESS FOR TOO LONG AND GOD AND UNIVERSE WILL COLLABORATE AND SMACK YOU IN THE FACE WITH IT, ROPE YOU IN LIKE A CALF IN THE RODEO THEN, SIT YOU DOWN AND SHOW YOU WHAT IS WHAT!
YOU REALLY CAN’T RUN FROM YOUR CALLING; IT BELONGS TO YOU ALONE!
SO JUST LISTEN!! THE BEST ANSWERS ARE OFTEN HEARD IN SILENCE.
IT’S TIME TO DITCH THE VICTIM MENTALITY. IT’S TIME TO EMPOWER YOURSELF AND HEAL! IT IS TIME YOU BECAME THE VICTOR INSTEAD OF THE VICTIM! IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO BEGIN THRIVING INSTEAD OF MERELY SURVIVING! ARE YOU READY TO REMOVE THE THORNS YET??
Living in and losing myself to a 6 year toxic relationship had me mentally and emotionally living in survival mode. Subconsciously, it's what you do to get by and get through until you get out. Much like emotional abuse, you don't realize you have begun living in survival mode. It just happens right along with the abuse you don't realize is happening. They go together, abuse and survival mode. Even after the relationship was over I continued living in survival mode because it had become a habit by then. I was not living up to my potential! I had lost myself in the toxicity and was existing in complacency out of fear! I was afraid to lay my claim and take back my power! I was ashamed, humiliated, hurt, broken, depressed, broke! I was carrying around so many thorns it was painful even for others to be around me, I believe. Hurt people hurt people and so without healing, my thorns were just hurting me and preventing growth and they were also hurting those around me who I was shutting out. I had a wall up so high NO ONE could get in!! I thought that would keep me from more pain!
Yet, a small voice always remained, reminding me that this was not the end of my story! The longing remained for me to find the missing piece to my puzzle; my life’s purpose!
We are really good at building barriers to protect our feelings aren't we. We can choose to ignore things, put them on the back burner and hope they just go away. We can avoid situations and people in hopes that the problem we are having with them just disappears. We can also talk ourselves right out of progress with negative self talk. You know, that's when we say to ourselves " I am not good enough, strong enough or smart enough to handle this situation, opportunity or relationship." We can place blame or accept blame that doesn't belong to us to avoid conflict. This only stirs up conflict within.We get in our own way a lot. Sometimes we don't even realize that we are the problem. For example, we may be doing all we think we can to be our best self. We commit to growth and positive change, striving for balance in our lives. We may be thinking positively and for the most part working in a good energy and still on a higher frequency than those around us.However, something is usually holding us back. We know there is more in store for us that isn't manifesting the way we want it to.
When we are holding on tight to things like; fear, blame, insecurity, hurt, pain, toxic people, grudges, vengeance and regret because we don't want to face it, we don't any free hands to welcome or grasp the goodness available to us.
When the wall we build to protect ourselves gets so high that nothing can get in it's so easy to get locked inside behind our wall with our excuses. C.G. Jung, the Bible, Socrates and Buddhist teachings universally teach us that "what we resist, persists." Think about that for a moment longer. What is it that you are resisting. What is your thorn?
Whatever we fear we strengthen. We cant ignore things and ask for more things. We have to deal with what we have. If your trying to move past something ask yourself if you've accepted it yet. Only after you accept it can you let it go and release it.
In your mind is power; God-within, spirit-within. I encourage you today to tap into it.
Here is a small list of happenings I remember from the start of my awakening to the first dark night I experienced! I had a lot of thorns as you just read and then on top of that this .....:
...sudden decision to resign from job I was at for 6 years due to personal ethics not aligning with corporate policies and procedures.
.... full of great energy and then one day it was all gone... depression
....started to see past people’s masks, facades and fake ...could not tolerate lies or the facade sooooooo many in my life put on
....fake friends started to try to hurt me in various ways (it was as if I was hidden in plain sight; as if I was being SHOWN that these people are NOT SERVING ANY PURPOSE IN MY LIFE, GROWTH OR PROGRESS....and while I was thankful to learn the truth it seemed to be another thorn added to my growing collection
....decluttering of fake friends led to old friends from past returning into my life in strange ways....also meeting new people that are more aligned with awakened folks ; ) They say these people are your soul tribe and come when you need them! I can think of 2 people that came to me this way! AMAZING AND RIGHT ON TIME!!! One of them is out of state and I’ve never met in person but she was my angel in the dark night and to this day is my SOUL SISTER! Lorrie McBride was live on facebook one night in an EMPATH support group and I was just pulled to her! I did not know why but there was something telling me to listen. I watched her whole live feed and then I contacted her!! Turns out our stories are almost identical! She seems to have experiences just before I have mine and the timeline is exact as far as life events. However, I seem to be following right behind her in the process. She heals from her experiences and that is when I seem to be forced to face mine in another dark night! Lorrie is a healer and it was synchronicity when we met, the way we met.
Had I never vowed to listen to my intuition I never would have contacted Lorrie! This is how your soul tribe finds you! You declutter the toxic people to make room for better folks to come in!! The talk we had on the phone had me in tears and EMPOWERED ME to embrace this process! From that day on I have been owning and embracing every season of life and Lorrie is still a part of my life and our pattern is still the same.....She is one of my angels on earth and one of the first kindred spirits that flowed to me during my dark night of the soul moment!
🌻❤The universe will keep sending you the same lesson until you learn it. ❤🌻 Do you ever feel like you keep repeating history; noticing that you keep facing a similar challenge? Well, the universe will keep bringing the same lesson around until you have it mastered.
Too many dances with devils was my problem! A lesson I have repeated over and over my whole life and am just now healed and evolved enough to know that these patterns stem from things in my childhood I had repressed!! I try to save everyone and I always see the beauty in the beast! Not a bad quality if you can keep health boundaries. Healthy boundaries are only possible when we are fully healed!
The universe had to come back around and slap me in the face with it about 6 months ago because I was ignoring it, running from it; I was afraid to reopen an old wound to fully heal. I was afraid of who I would be if I took the thorns out! I was comfortable in victim mentality.
Now, I am facing it and changing it once and for all! I had so many thorns that two years later I am still removing them; but I’ve made progress! Many are healed and I’m now helping others to do the same; I AM FULFILLING MY PURPOSE!
MY PURPOSE WAS BORN OUT OF MY PAIN!!
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ONE LOVE TO YOU ALL, I HOPE THIS EMPOWERED YOU IN SOME WAY! KARYN DEE #THEINTUITIVEWILDFLOWER
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