I wear awkward as my shield
canon divergent s3 Sterek
"So I'm attracted to Derek," Stiles says as he sits down next to Scott at lunch. Scott nods.
"That's cool," he replies, and Stiles nods with a smirk, opening one of the old MacDonald's paper sacks that he saves almost religiously to make it look like he's having fast food for lunch all the time. And - okay - the curly fries might actually be from a fast food joint, but recently Stiles had been buying a lot of potatoes and experimenting with frying them in different kinds of oils and…
"Wait, what?" Scott says with a blink, and Stiles looks confused for a second before rolling his eyes. Scott frowns slightly. "What about Lydia? I thought you had a ten year plan or something," he says. Stiles winces.
"Yeeah, I haven't actually...look, Lydia's lovely, and I'll always think of her as my first love, I think, but lately I've just been using my attraction for her as a shield to avoid thinking of other...annoyingly attractive and frustratingly, emotionally constipated things," Stiles says, munching on the carrots that he's packed for himself. Scott raises his eyebrows and stares at his friend. Then he turns back to his own lunch.
"Okay," he says. Stiles looks at him out of the corner of his eyes at the casual acceptance.
"Okay?" he repeats, and Scott's grin is huge as he turns and gives Stiles the most loving, sad eyes he can muster.
"Okay," he says significantly and Stiles scoffs, rolling his eyes.
"Fuck you. You made me read the book," Scott replies, grin still firmly affixed. "You gonna do anything about it?" he asks after a moment, sliding the apple his mom packed him over as Stiles slides over the single cup of vanilla and butterscotch pudding that he's been packing for Scott since forever.
"Probably not," Stiles admits with a resigned sigh. Scott licks butterscotch off the pudding lid and looks at his friend.
"Uhhh, because I'm a spastic, annoying teenager who flails and talks too much? And he's...y'know…fucking perfect?" Stiles sounds so disgusted by Derek's apparent perfection, and Scott snorts so hard he may have gotten pudding up his nose.
"He's not perfect, Stiles," he says. Stiles sighs.
"Not literally, but man, sometimes my brain does this thing where it imagines if Derek were in my life - like a part of it - and it's so awesome," he says, head tilting as his eyes drift, soft and unfocused. Scott's eyebrows rise.
"Like, what, sex?" he asks. Stiles blinks and then shrugs.
"Sure, sometimes. But sometimes we make breakfast, or watch movies, or go grocery shopping," Stiles answers. Scott huffs.
"Dude. You've passed attraction. You've driven straight into feelings," he tells his friend, who groans and lets his head fall into folded arms.
"Ugh, I know," he moans. Scott is a good friend, so he pats Stiles on the back before stealing the apple back.