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submitted a enquiry about whether he'd even take a virgin as a client. $2k is a low price if it gets rid of this shame

I um... i might log off for a bit. Both because I am paranoid my mutuals hate me again, and also because I am having um... dark thoughts

#Thinking about letting myself get raped (non kinky) or k-ing myself #Both of which are bad and not good #I just need to hold out for a week so I can talk to my therapist #violetvents #Delete later #I like cnc because I like the thought of being thrown around and also being wanted SO much #Because ibe never been wanted at all #But rn it is putting myself in danger on purpose to feel something and prove a point

I hope i get to try being a girlfriend again one day. I wasnt very good the first time so I want to try again. Plus I liked being someones.

#violetspeaks #violetvents #Was a girlfriend for one whole month at 24 and I just... i miss it. I wish i was good enough

god covid stole my one chance at feeling normal. I fucked up in high school so I had to wait an extra semester to start uni. I have no uni friends. I never got to try dating and uni romance. Because I spent most of it at home.

#I'm just a broken failed person #violetvents

It would be easier if I were gone.

#violetspeaks #delete later #violetvents

I wish i knew how to get rid of the shame i feel because I know anyone worth my time or worth my care doesn't care. But I do. I care. I care that I have never been dated and never been genuinely asked out and never been in relationship and never even been worth the time to fuck.

Im not completely stupid. I know people for some mind boggling reason find me attractive. It took me so so long to be able to accept that as a genuine thing. But I'm also bland and uninteresting so when it comes down to it nobody actually wants to date me.

I should have let him fuck me in the park that night. But I was drunk and still reeling from my first kiss and I didnt think that was going to be it for me. My one chance.

I am so fucking ashamed and embarrassed to be an undated virgin at twenty fucking five and i hate that my brain is wired in a way that it's damn near impossible for that to change.

#I hate everything about me and I want to die #violetvents #delete later

ah fuck...

#Soup brain is telling me to kms...#violetvents #delete later

I bought three cocktail dressed to possibly wear to my friends engagement party. None of them fit despite being 2 sizes bigger than the size i have been wearing since i was 17. I am in hell and might actually kill myself if not eating is too slow

#So not only am I ugly i am fat. Joy #<< i am also un-medicated today and not going good so just. Ignore me #delete later #violetvents

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