vi but nonsense this time

mid 20s. 21+ minors dni. she/they femme bisexual who doesn't know when to shut up

[violetberrytrubbish]

vi. 25. she/they femme bisexual. submissive switch. she/it when pup-brained or submissive.

this blog runs almost entirely on a queue. you won't know my timezone for sure.

~♡~☆~♡~☆~♡~☆~♡~☆~

this is a sideblog and will mostly be sfw but it is still not for minors. I am an adult and do not want minors in my space. this blog is also connected to my nsfw blog and I will probably accidentally queue to this blog sometimes.

the main blog (which is nsfw and you will be blocked from both id you are a minor/ageless blog) is @violetberrymimikyu

[pokemon-personalities]

Pikachu is so cute in pmd, it’s unbelievable ;v;

[violetberrytrubbish]

submitted a enquiry about whether he'd even take a virgin as a client. $2k is a low price if it gets rid of this shame

[violetberrytrubbish]

It would be easier if I were gone.

[violetberrytrubbish]

For the low low price of just $2'000 I can (maybe) get rid of my virginity

[violetberrytrubbish]

my tattoo fund might be changing to full service sw fund to take my virginity because I am... so tired. I am so sick and tired of the self imposed shame and embarrassment I feel about it

[violetberrytrubbish]

I wish i knew how to get rid of the shame i feel because I know anyone worth my time or worth my care doesn't care. But I do. I care. I care that I have never been dated and never been genuinely asked out and never been in relationship and never even been worth the time to fuck.

Im not completely stupid. I know people for some mind boggling reason find me attractive. It took me so so long to be able to accept that as a genuine thing. But I'm also bland and uninteresting so when it comes down to it nobody actually wants to date me.

I should have let him fuck me in the park that night. But I was drunk and still reeling from my first kiss and I didnt think that was going to be it for me. My one chance.

I am so fucking ashamed and embarrassed to be an undated virgin at twenty fucking five and i hate that my brain is wired in a way that it's damn near impossible for that to change.

[etherealviolets77]

Consent is sooo hot: Can I kiss you? Can I touch you right here? Is it okay if I touch you here? Can I hold your hand? Can I go down on you? Is this okay? FUCKK it’s so sexy and cute and hot when somebody asks these types of questions <3

[violetberrytrubbish]

ah fuck...

[violetberrytrubbish]

I don't think I'm enough and I don't know how to fix it. I'm not good at pretending to be someone I'm not so i can't even fake the confidence for someone to take a chance on me.

[without-ado]

Strawberry Moon l seongmo.le

[violetberrytrubbish]

the first time i have sex i will probably cry and that is embarrassing to think about.

[violetberrytrubbish]

If soulmates are real i think mine died before we could meet and i am stuck with a decayed red string

[violetberrytrubbish]

I bought three cocktail dressed to possibly wear to my friends engagement party. None of them fit despite being 2 sizes bigger than the size i have been wearing since i was 17. I am in hell and might actually kill myself if not eating is too slow

[violetberrytrubbish]

just want to be wanted. Want someone to look at the mess that i am and still choose to want me and be with me.

I know i am hard to want and harder to love, I know i feel too big too quickly. But I'm trying to get better. Trying to be less and to be easier. Because it is exhausting. But sometimes i wonder why I should bother because it wont change anything, won't make me finally desirable or lovable.

[violetberrytrubbish]

"Dont trust your brain after 10pm" well fuck you because all the insecurities were right and I should have never trusted you let alone with something so easily shattered as my heart

I am so fucking alone. I am so exhausted and I am so alone

[video-store-clerk]

If you don't talk to your girl while you are eating her pussy, telling her how good she tastes, how pretty it is, or just straight up moaning as you suck her clit between your lips, you aren't doing it right.