#virginiacountryboy

[virginiacountryboy]

I got to go play outside yesterday. Beautiful day out after all the storms passed through.

[virginiacountryboy]

I don’t know where to go

When you step outside and you stare up at the night sky, do you feel like you’ve done enough? Or do you feel like you need to do more? Like there’s something else out there...something greater you’re to be accomplishing, somewhere else you’re supposed to be? Do you feel out of place?

When you step outside and stare up at the night sky, do you feel small? Do you feel like maybe in another life, you’d be enough? Do you feel like maybe in another life, you’d be the person you want so badly to be and you’d have taken the opportunities you wish you had taken? Like maybe you’d feel complete and happy?

When you step outside, and stare up at the night sky...do you feel something more reaching out for you, trying desperately to pull you in?

Because I do. 

...and maybe that’s the curse of growing up with the internet. Or maybe I was doomed from watching too many movies of adventure and being the hero and celebrating the world around you. I don’t know. I’ll never know, but I don’t know that I want to know. But what I do know, is I’m lost. I always feel lost. For years now I have felt so disappointed in myself, in the person I’ve become and the life that I’ve lived. What happened to me? Where did I go? And how do I find myself again? This guy that I’ve become is not the Man that I set out to be. This can’t be who I’m supposed to be. This can’t be where I’m supposed to be. I want to find home. But I don’t even know where home is anymore.

[virginiacountryboy]

And it’s in the gray we’ll find ourselves, lose ourselves, and forever live our lives praying for something colorful to come our way.

[virginiacountryboy]

Having graduated Academy at my new department, I recently had the honor of not only being sworn in as a FireFighter; but I also had the privilege of being pinned by my biggest hero, my little brother.

[virginiacountryboy]

So, I need help

with a "project" (if you will). I'm starting to save up money with the hopes of traveling to different countries in the next year or so. SO I'm looking for Tumblr friends, pen pals, etc from other countries, whom can either give me insight as to what I should see, orrrr who I could maybe meet and have give me a tour and show me around. Its maybe a little far-fetched. But I've been here my entire life. I think it's time to branch out. Make friends. Make memories. Can you help?

[virginiacountryboy]

Rough night tonight. I’m really missing you buddy.

“I’m so alone; trying to find my way back home to you"

[virginiacountryboy]

Become who you want to become; the trick is to not become a reflection of others

[virginiacountryboy]

Not long ago this guy in the beanie, one of my closest friends, decided he was going to sacrifice everything and open a coffee shop in what to many of us, looks like the middle of nowhere. But what this man did was far more than just start selling coffee. This man, has transformed coffee as we know it and even formed his own community in the process. It's unreal how so many people now come together just to have coffee and be friendly and enjoy the world. Salah, I know you aren't on tumblr, but I just wanted a place to say that I couldn't be more proud of you brother. Mom is proud of you. The crew is proud of you. A genuine example of what it means to be good people and an absolute inspiration to the rest of us. You're going places, and I'm grateful I get to tag along for the ride. I'll visit again soon. -Ty