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All my senses come to life While I'm stumbling home as drunk as I Have ever been and I'll never leave again 'Cause you are the only one And all my friends have gone to find Another place to let their hearts collide Just promise me you'll always be a friend 'Cause you are the only one

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Gimi's POV

You'd think sitting alone during a huge party would make you invisible to everyone else apparently having fun. You'd think.

“Why are you stuck here so sad and alone?” came to me Duncan's words and I looked up with a sigh, only to meet the sympathetic look in his eyes.

“I know you all pity me,” I said before I could control myself. He sat down on a stool beside me.

“I don't pity you, dumbass, I just wonder why you haven't got up from this sofa for three hours.”

“Because I'm a dumbass,” I mumbled and looked away. “Because I've been stupid enough to fall for someone out of my reach.”

“Nobody is out of reach for anybody,” Duncan replied strongly and I couldn't help but admire how, having already turned thirty, he was still such an idealist.

“I know you believe in principles and order, but just imagine it,” I said, maybe harsher than I'd wanted, “a beautiful rich lady living in a manor with a maid, having never tasted cheap wine or set her foot in a barn, and a naive, simple, ornery gravedigger, always in the same tattered jacket. A perfect match.”

“You're anything but ornery.”

“Even so, that doesn't change much.”

He was looking at me with such sorrow I wanted to scream at what an idiot I was. Even thinking about her name was crushing me inside. I stared at my fingers intensively, feeling Duncan's eyes on me. Broken sentences were running through my head, mostly things like “What a fool would fall for someone like that” and “You're just miserable”, and it felt like falling into a bottomless pit.

And I just wanted it all to stop.