this. destroyed me. so fucking funny. so vitally important to me that from randy's perspective benson is in possession of godlike charisma and coolness and competency and in actuality. he is a deadbeat weirdo loser <333
EHEHEHEHEE they are both so embarrassing. i love them
oh boy a fic concept that I am still very much toying around with that I need to go back to and play with some more involving simon and patty polaroid exchanges butttttt here's a lil snippet :)
tell me what you think--did Benson plan on killing everybody in the restaurant? did he plan on killing himself after? did he expect to spare Randy, or was he on the fence? was he gunning for Chris and Chris alone and anticipating having to improvise?
I just love the way this scene plays out and how, despite the horrific violence, there's still something undeniably human about Benson as he goes about it. I would LOVE to hear your take!!
Holy shit my response is so long and rambling I'm so so sorry but uhhhh here's my thoughts under a cut to save people's dashboards from my dumb brain 🙈
Omg so yes this is something I think about ALL the time. Chris is, of course, a definite 100%. He was basically dead the moment he grabbed Benson's shoulder and said "...I'll have no problem turning your peaceful redneck existence into a living hell..." Benson warned him, gave him a chance to back down from bullying Randy, but Chris doubled down so RIP lol. Which was the spark that lit the first fuse.
The rest I think may have been improvised a bit but not by much.
I think he planned on killing everyone, except Randy, but wasn't sure how exactly it would all go down. There's a chance Hardy might not have heard Jess screaming and never come out of the back. Which that alone I find funny that it was Jess' shrieking and not the two shotgun blasts that managed to rip him away from his morning jerk off session. So Benson might have planned on getting Hardy in the office by surprise after doing in Chris and Jess.
Jess is interesting because Benson tries to quiet her first before getting frustrated and shooting her to shut her up. Like, was bro gonna give her some speech before offing her? I wouldn't be surprised. Something about not dating entitled dickheads?
I get why some people think he might not have killed her if she stopped screaming, which is a fair theory! But I also think she's been clearly joining in on the bullying and egging on Chris with her little comments and giggling like she had been earlier that morning. So I think she was already firmly on his kill list by that point, plus she would have no use to him other than being another witness—and the whole thing wasn't about her, it was about Randy, so dragging her around with them, or leaving her behind, would be pointless and risky.
Randy Randy Randy. I don't think he ever intended on killing Randy at any point, except maybe there being the risk of it happening when he was shaken after the whole Sheppard situation. At that point, Benson was so out of his own body I think almost anything could've happened, though ultimately I don't think that would've ever been on purpose, only in a knee-jerk reaction.
I do think it was a liiittle bit of a test. I think Benson, like he said in the diner (the first round lol) that seeing Randy just stand there doing nothing and waiting for Benson to kill him was the only thing he believed in. He, like Benson mentioned, had been watching Randy and knew he was smart, but also knew he wouldn't do anything to stop what was happening. But I think a small part of him was hoping he would be proved wrong, hoping Randy would do something and show some agency.
And then there's Benson. I've mentioned this before but yeah, I think throughout the film he kinda goes back and forth on having a deathwish. I think when he's having his smoke and probably semi-planning what he's gonna do he is also fully aware that this is the end of the road for him and Randy is his... I don't know, I guess one last chance at redemption before ending things. Pulling Randy back from the brink of dead-end small town small thinking monotony is his like... last hurrah. Ok well maybe killing Chris and everyone is really the last hurrah, but helping Randy figure his shit out is like his last good deed, helping Randy not end up like him.
When they're driving to the diner after cleaning up BBB he's in high spirits. The relaxation and acceptance phase of his road to inevitable death/suicide. But then as things progress and he learns more about Randy and everything, once they reach the school, I think at that point he had stepped back from the ledge and was thinking, maybe wishfully thinking, that he could make it out of there. But then Sheppard had to show up and ruin everything. I think Benson had started to think that maybe things could be alright, if only he could get Randy to Ms. Beard's, get that checked off the to-do list, and then they could try escaping.
But Sheppard appears and reminds Benson that no matter what he can never escape. He'll never escape what happened to him, the things he's tried to forget, or who he is. So at that point it's like trying to save a sandcastle from an incoming tide. There's no use. Benson didn't have the tools to deal with seeing Sheppard, especially not on a day like that day when he had already spilled blood three times. Chris and them, maybe they deserved it to an extent in Benson's eyes, but no one deserved it more than Sheppard.
So after Sheppard he's given himself whiplash. He had accepted his death, then got hopeful, and then had the ceiling cave in on him causing him to have to re-accept his fate, though not as steadfast. There's a few points after Sheppard where it feels like Benson is mentally clawing at the oncoming events in panic. Ms. Beard getting that call and answering it before they could leave. Benson hearing the sirens after Randy calls the cops. Both times it looks like he's reliving some cosmic disappointment like even though he's had to re-accept his fate, he's still desperately looking for an off-ramp.
I think that's maybe what Benson means at the end. "I was never in charge, Randy." His fate or inevitable end was in charge and was something he'd already considered set in stone. Though I think that's also due to some self-sabotage. Like Randy tried to tell him, he had the opportunity to just run and never look back but instead decided to go on some self-assigned white knight quest for Randy in circles around town. Following some perceived path to "fix" Randy in ways Benson could never fix himself. Benson is a walking self-fulfilling prophecy.
So to answer your question about whether I think Benson planned on killing himself after killing Chris, Jess, and Hardy (and after "helping Randy")—in my opinion, yes, I believe so. But I also think it switches back and forth from yes to no like 15 times between them leaving BBB and watching the cops pull into the diner parking lot that night, lol.
✒️!!! I hope you are having the loveliest laziest holiday season!!
MEG ILYSM 💖 I hope you're doing the same!!!!!!!! u deserve it!!!!!!!!!
in all ways but physical, I'm dumping a metric fuckton of snacks on ur couch & we're marathoning the saw franchise rn. it's a greek tragedy that we live so far apart. miss ur talented hilarious galaxy brain DEARLY. here's to making time in 2025 for some desperately needed folie à deux!!!!!!!!!!! deathly serious
MWAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
send me ✒️ and I’ll write your URL in my handwriting along with a little note about what I think of you!
Oo I got another one for you. Each of the Sinclairs calling you a good girl in their own way.
Bo says it dirty, growls it while you're taking him so well, because he knows what it does to you.
Vincent says it gently, brushing your cheek, looking at you like the word beauty was coined to describe your body.
Lester says it and means it. You're his dream. You're so good to him, for him, he can't believe you're real.
I wanna be a good girl. 😭
I can imagine each one of these scenarios and it has my 🐱 screaming. I love how different they all are.
Bo is all bravado (unless you’re the one railing him hehehe), dirty and rough and delicious. Especially on nights he’s been drinking, the taste of whiskey lacing his deep demanding kisses as he praises you for taking him so well between deep moans and gasps for air. “There you go darlin’,” he growls into your ear, making you shiver and whine as you hold on for dear life, “taking my cock so well, good girl.”
Vincent is sensual, romantic while he takes you missionary style, your legs wrapped around his waist as he slowly but surely rocks himself into you in a way that has you positively burning with desire. You let out moans that are so pretty to him that he can’t help but rasp out a “good girl” as he strokes your cheek and leans down to kiss you.
Lester is all eagerness and sweetness. So happy to have you bouncing up and down on his lap as he clutches onto your hips and moans into the side of your throat. “Fuck, baby, you’re such a good girl, perfect—Christ, baby. Feels s’good.”
deepest apologies for spam reblogging everything on your blog this morning
it's just everything is so great and I am a plant seeking the sun of detective hoffman's massive pecs
omfg you have no need to apologise i very much appreciate the hoffman lust and i understand the need for sustenance from his huge, worldly breasts. im a hoffmantitaholic myself, actually
does it ever start to feel repetitive, and if so, how do you avoid falling into the trap of 🍆🍑🌸👄💦🙄🤷♀️
Oooh queen of smut? Me? My, Meg you are so sweet!
Okay so personally for me, no it doesn't get repetitive but that is because I am so, so, so, and I cannot stress this enough, massively fucking horny and a huge whore.
I adore all things pertaining to sex, love to consume lots of different content allll about it, not even just straight up porn or fic or erotica but lots of other things with all sorts of different kinds of sexual focus and vibes. I just find sex in all it's forms so interesting to write about and of course writing about different characters and exploring them through sex and sexuality is my favorite way to get into and play with characters and get into their heads. I put a ton of thought into what I think different characters are into and like sexually and how they'd act, so that combined with my over active libido, my love to spoil and serve and provide good rep of all kinds, the sheer amount of kinks to explore keeps it fun and fresh for me personally!
I would recc always being on the look out for inspo, it can come from the best and strangest places, as well as writing for new kinks and also, keep in mind that verity is the spice of life! Don't feel like you gotta do a whole big to-do, sometimes the best fics are just exploring a moment, an idea, sometimes no pre-amble is needed and doing a little drabble or a taste is best!
But that poly!Sinclairs Knifey ask about the first time w/ all three has me in a chokehold my GOD
Your two minds together are a dangerous weapon!!
(((Ramblings under the cut)))
OMG PLEASE WATCH HoW!! Like I know I'm biased bc it's my fav slasher movie, but what draws me in the most is the amount of thought placed into the Sinclairs, & their background, & the whole town really, & how you can make a ton of connections by paying attention to little details not explicitly pointed out/mentioned. Also, I won't spoil, but final characters that are immature/assholes/purposely ignorant (reminds me of the ppl I went to high school with tbh) annoy me SO much, but HoW makes me like both the slashers and the final character(s) bc they're all well developed :)
I'm not sure if I'd consider myself poly either actually! When it comes to poly relationships, I 100% support them, and I'd be open to one, but I feel *I* may not be suited for one? I think I'd feel very insecure and self conscious if my partner's love was shared between me and someone else/others because of how I've been treated in monogamous relationships where they claimed to love 'only me', and well,,, 🥲
Like I wouldn't be able to believe I was loved equally or at all?? I'd always think of myself as a 'second choice' or 'pity fuck' or smth :/ And actually this is the exact same reason that I've steered clear away from every love interest/romantic relationship since those relationships of mine so maybe I'm just too damaged in general now, idk 🤡
HOWEVER, if it's the other way around like with the Sinclair brothers where I'm the one being shared, I'd be very happy and secure in the relationship. Maybe that sounds selfish?? I don't mean it to be, It's just that since it's me, I KNOW my love for them really is equally felt/given and that I would never do something like cheat. But also maybe I crave the idea of being wanted and needed that badly/to the point of sharing :(
Or maybe it's because they're brothers too?? Somehow it feels better that way, bc we'd all really be a 'family' and I've never grown up with any siblings/supportive family members so having the three of them to love and be loved by and just do domestic family things in between the relationship would honestly have me in tears. It's why they live in my head rent free and are my biggest comfort characters 🥲
SO SORRY FOR RAMBLING ON SO MUCH OMG; I'LL PUT A CUT ON THIS POST AHSHSJ
BUT YES I LOVE KNIFEY'S MIND, THEY BRING OUT THE WORST BEST IN MY BRAIN 😭💖
