// A, I, P, T, X
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A- AFFECTION - How does your muse show affection?
I would say a lot of ‘acts of service’? Or whatever it’s called? If she comes to care for someone I think she’d want to help them and generally lighten whatever load life might hand them however she can. Be that cooking, cleaning, helping throw down with demons, giant rogue metal animals etc. etc. lol She will try to pitch in where she can and won’t be one heard complaining often. (however that last bit can also become a problem when/if she decides to keep quiet about something she maybe shouldn’t) Though (possibly surprisingly, given how she can be to strangers/people outside her various ‘circles’) she’s not totally inhibited regarding things like physical affection. It just depends on her comfort levels. If this is someone she cares very deeply for and is thus very comfortable with, I see it being possible that they find themselves subject to random affectionate contact lol - passing embraces, caresses, touches etc. In some cases, I can see it coming from a place of her maybe wanting to give those she cares about the affection she never got (and maybe they never got either before that).
I- I LOVE YOU - Does your muse find ‘i love you’ easy or hard to say?
Probably depends on the situation calling for it, but in some cases, it might be easier for her than expected. In the general (not necessarily fully romantic) sense if it’s regarding someone she already knows she cares about a lot (I see potential for some ‘cluelessness’ sometimes lol), in at least a few verses I think she could find the nerve to damn whatever ‘awkwardness’ society might have attached to those words and say it pretty quickly if she feels it’s called for. She might not say it super casually in a lot of cases, but she will say it when she thinks it matters. I mean in some verses she knows a lot better than some how fast things can go bad and how easily people can be taken from her it’s something she can tend to worry about a lot, frankly, so part of her might end up on the side of ‘life’s too short not to say it/let the people you care about know that they’re cared about’. And on top of it, if it’s someone she cares for, she’ll think they deserve to know, and deserve whatever effort it might take to put aside said awkwardness or whatever in order to be that open and say it. And then in very comfortable/established relationships over time I could see this developing into her maybe being the sort that makes a point to say it on routine at certain times (parting - be it for short or longer periods, etc.- for example) because of that ‘never know what could happen’ view.
P- PARTNER - What does your muse look for in a partner? looks / personality?
….*monkey-puppet glance at that earlier ‘Esie likes bad boys’ post/convo’....LOL On the more serious note, uuuh...let’s get the short part out of the way, I think looks can really depend with her, actually. I wouldn’t say ‘looks don’t matter at all’ with her, but she knows better than to have it be the biggest priority regarding this sort of topic. I feel like she might be a ‘knows what she likes when she sees it’ and doesn’t really have a solid ‘type’ in mind….probably because romance is not really something that’s generally forefront (or even close) in her mind in most cases. If a ship happens, it will be built on a lot more than physical attraction, I’d say. Naturally in that process, eventually the inner question of if she is or isn’t attracted to a given person will probably come up, but there’s just usually a lot of hurdles to get over before it gets to that point. Now the LONG part lol - while I don’t want to pigeonhole her to one personality/temperament/archetype or whatever too much - particularly since, again...all this shit is hypothetical since she’s never even been shipped at this point, so no real experience to go off of - I think she...really could be more likely to gravitate towards a certain sort of overt ‘toughness’ and/or resilience. Can vary a little verse to verse, like a lot of things, but generally...yeah...As strange as that may seem given some of her common traits (I know it’s surprised me lol but...I mean...I have also said in the past that she can have a little of a complicated relationship with ‘power’). Or at least that might be the more common catalyst towards generating the confidence/dependability that it would take for the right chemistry to happen I think. I think in essence...Esie might be the sort that maybe needs to be ‘impressed’ to a certain degree. She really...might not be the one that ends up fawning over the ‘underdog’ types. Esie is a little bit ‘survival of the fittest’ in that sense I guess. Strange cat woman want strong mate who will survive the winter. LOL
But joking aside, what part of it comes down to I think is how she can worry/stress a lot, FOR people she cares about. And someone that’s, say, more on the soft or vulnerable side, while she absolutely can come to care for, and want to protect, and...maybe basically mom such types, they also might compound that stressing in certain ways. Particularly if things are taken to the level of intensity of a romantic relationship. That’s not that she won’t worry about a given ‘tough guy’ (lol) type that ends up in the role, particularly over some of the negatives those sorts can get up to, but those are also the sorts that might be most likely to convince/prove over time to her, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that they can handle themselves for the most part, and have the grit to face/survive real hardship, danger, etc. and even come out on top often enough. A tougher, more...idk ‘hardened’ (for lack of better term) sort is probably more likely to really convince that at times high-strung brain of hers she doesn’t need to worry about them quite so much. These are also the sorts that she will likely find the more reliable, and comforting as ‘backup’ in some senses, assuming they’ve earned her trust that they will take up that role if it’s needed. She can rest in their presence more than she probably can someone softer. - Not that she just expects a partner to do all the ‘protecting’, she doesn’t. Just two is better than one, and some of her (not necessarily totally conscious parts) prefers that that person be properly capable of holding up and helping out if/when things get dicey.
T- TRUE LOVE - Does your muse believe in true love?
Oo...that’s actually an interesting one.... I would say in most cases, she is not the most ‘romantic’ minded person. But I would not say that that means she’s so coldly practical/’jaded’ that she thinks genuine love doesn’t exist. I think she would be able to see, in any number of people around her, even in strangers day-to-day or stories that reach her, that it does exist. And it’s not something she’d scoff at. But I think in some verses it’s very possible or even more likely than not that she might see it - consciously or unconsciously - as something she will simply never have.
X- XOXO - Does your muse use / like pet names?
As far as her personal opinion, I think she could be fairly neutral to them (unless someone’s making her uncomfortable with them, like in a creepy way or something). It might surprise her a little sometimes if/when someone decides to use them on her, but she’s probably not going argue with them over their choice to do so in most normal cases where it might occur. Lol I don’t think she’d use them much herself though? It could depend on verse a little though too. I don’t know that she’d use them much in most ‘modern’ verses for instance, but again, not a lot of experience with properly deep relationships in general, so not making that a hard ‘no’. Aside from that, again, high familiarity/comfort/affection would be a prerequisite. If she did use them, probably mainly would stick to the ‘traditional’ rather than anything overly ‘creative’, things akin to ‘darling’s, ‘dear’s etc.
