Domi has made me think of a lot of things lately, and the last chapter just made me explode. This is not a theory or something, it’s just my point of view of dominique as a character. (Manga spoilers ahead, my dudes, be careful)
Seeing how in the latest chapter we have seen Dominique have conversations with her younger self, in which ones her younger self seems to express her inner emotions, and Dominique refutes them constantly because she doesn’t identify with them or just doesn’t want to hurt or be bad to anybody.
With my psychologist we lalety have been talking about treating the wounds of the inner child. How sometimes the way we act or feel are just our inner child coming through with the pain we endured and neglected and therefore never healed. The inner child you can ignore for so long, but will come back to you.
Seeing how young Dominique talks through her pain, talks about “Jeanne being in the way” “hating her”, while Dominique refutes her, knowing that Jeanne is a dear friend. It’s amazing, the way Dominique seems to be fighting with the emotions caused by pain of her inner child with the reason she has learned growing up. And what I’ve learned in with my psychologist, is that when our inner child acts up, we need to take calm and talk to them with patience. The same way Dominique hugs her, and refutes her over and over again. It’s amazing.
And seeing little Louis there, and the way he said “our name”, I can’t help but think that maybe it isn’t Louis (again this is not a theory, just my thoughts) but maybe it is the version of Louis she tried to be all those years. Because we know she felt useless, and with the adoration (and jealousy) she may felt for him, when he was gone, she thought the only way to exist was to fill what was left from her brother, being like him.
So I assume Dominique has not have the time to realize who she truly is. Who she is outside of her family, who she is outside of Louis shadow, who she is outside of the pain of her childhood, who she is outside of her own self hatred. The self hatred that has not allowed her to see herself as a person and one worthy of being here. So she hides her pain, dresses as her brother, and tries her best to compensate her existence, helping Noé in everything she can. The only person she has left, the one she doesn’t want to disappoint. Because she doesn’t know that he loves her for the simple fact of being her, not for what she can offer or what person she tries to be.
So I believe Dominique is dealing with the pain of her wounded inner child, the version of Louis she created and tried to be, and herself, the person she hates the most and yet doesn’t know at all.
