❝ I let the silence unravel, thread by thread, until it settled like smoke in my lungs. Her words demanded space, and I couldn’t decide whether they repulsed me or pulled me closer.
“And the hair?” I asked at last, though my voice felt broken, a shard of glass tossed into the quiet.
“The hair is the defect.” She caught a green strand between her fingers, studying it as though it were an old scar. “When I’m rested, it stays like this. But when I’m exhausted… it turns black. My eyes go gray, my nails crack. My body begins to collapse under its own weight.”
My smirk faltered. A weapon blunted.
“So you have… human basic needs?” The question left me slower than I intended, softer, as if I already knew the answer and was only trying to buy time from the inevitable.
“Yes.” The word came simply, unburdened. “I require ten times more sleep than anyone else. My powers feed on it, burn through it. Without rest, my body fractures. I’m… stitched together wrong, Roman. My vampire half and my werewolf half can’t exist without the other. If one falters, the whole thing falls into chaos.”
Her voice carried no tremor. No shame. She laid herself bare as though there was dignity in the breaking.
And I—God help me—I envied her.
She spoke of ruin and imbalance as though they were facts of weather, not flaws that should be hidden away. She named her curse and met its eye, while I have spent my life sharpening my teeth against my reflection, wishing to carve myself into anything but this. She is stitched together wrong, yet still stands. I was born hollow, and can’t go a single day without despising the echo.
What kind of cruelty was it that a hybrid could lift her chin beneath the weight of two warring worlds, while I—a pure thing, an heir—could barely crawl beneath the weight of my own blood? ❞
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we're not even half way through yūgen and i'm already so excited for ppl to see what’s coming up in saudade. my twilight oc made it to hemlock grove, cause come on, roman godfrey could use a few friends. and i'm so happy to start writing saudade again, finals were HELL. 🕺🏻
