"Is it hopeless? When wave upon wave of our dead return as mindless flesh-eaters to claw upon Thraben's walls? We're too busy cutting them down to indulge ourselves in such philosophical foppery." —Mikaeus, the Lunarch
Artist: Igor Kieryluk
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Fishman Paul in Mewgenics design. He runs the online cat fights and is totally not some escaped lab experiment that's in tremendous amount of pain... and some other asshole.
Whatever you do, do NOT take off his hat!
My joints are barely sticking together and any moment now my limbs will come apart by the hinges
Someone will put me back together and for a while I'll think I'm a living human again, until I realize I'm still a dying walking corpse cursed to never pass on
All I feel is the pain of a body begging to be buried and free from the endless labour of being forced to pretend to be alive.
A fake heartbeat, whatever brain activity is left from electrical output..
The reason the doctors diagnoses us with anemia is because this sack of flesh and bone has so little. If course youd be low on iron when you're low on blood
And I crave it
But it wont fix me
Blood nor death
Because for whatever reason I'm not allowed to die
i wanted to share what cotard's syndrome is like for me, how it feels and effects me day-to-day, so i thought adding such in it's own chapter would be the best way to do so.
for me, i believe i am either already dead or dying, depending on the day. some days i believe im dead, that mu body is a corpse and my stiff joints and back, the arthritis in my joints and limbs, etc, are the result of rigor mortis setting in, my limbs starting to part from my lifeless body. i often feel as though none of my organs work, the magority of them already decayed and gone or rotting.
other days i feel like im slowly dying, dificulty walking or functons and mobility in general is due to my body shuttng down for the last moments of breath. my pulse speading up or slowing down could either assure me im still alive a while longer or further the idea im not real or about to die. sometimes feeling my pulse could trigger thoughts like "living things have a pulse, but m not living and i have one, so im clearly not a normal human".
i'll believe my body is only still managing to function or move or do anything at all because dead or not...
continue reading this chapter in my new book, understanding cotard's.
a book to help people learn about cotard's syndrome and for voices of those with it to be heard. recsources, articles, posts, personal expir