I'm a fictive of Scaramouche/Wanderer from Genshin Impact and I'm looking for source mates who would like to talk. I was close with the other Harbingers, but I'm not picky at all with who I talk to.
I'm 26 so nobody under the age of 21, please! Interact and I'll be in touch
Scaramouche / Wanderer from Genshin Impact,.looking for anyone.
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so a character connected to death huh.... as you know he's been on my mind a lot lately. i was originally going to do xiao, who i may still make an edit for on this theme just for fun! but after finishing the sumeru archon quest and just everything ever the past few weeks or so, dear lord. it's so hard to do anything that's not scara for this.
scara is someone who's been cast aside and disregarded for pretty much his entire life. whether it was ei discarding him and deeming him weak, people fearing him and ostracizing him, or even mortals succuming to their mortality around him, he's never been able to find real solace in anyone, anywhere, anything.
in a way, he's not so centered around death, but an idea of rebirth, but to be reborn you first have to die or be destroyed one way or another, so i think he counts well enough. if not, just look to the death he's witnessed around him or left in his own wake, the mortals around him who have "died" and abandoned him, the death of his own humanity and emotion as he vowed to shed any traces of them, the death that he even onced longed for and his wish to have never been born at all, or even the "death" of his name and history from irminsul.
i've not gotten to play inversion of genesis yet but i trust you fully when you say it's going to fuck me up so bad. but i know that when you look at it, "scaramouche" "kabukimono" and "kunikuzushi" are all identities that have "died". i know that eventually, he's able to start to let go of all the pain, hurt, violence, anger, and trauma connected to these names as he assumes the new role of the wanderer. he's able to shed the burdens of his past and no longer be defined by it, and is instead given a chance to start fresh, to learn better, and to be good.
in this way, his story is one of not just death, but rebirth and redemption. kunikuzushi, kabukimono, scaramouche, and all of these titles he's gone by in his hundreds of years in teyvat have all died, so that way he, as the wanderer, can live fresh and start new.
The annoying thing about being a fictive with strong source memories is that my life and past are constantly appearing on the host's Tiktok and YouTube feed. Most of these are quite unpleasant, given my source's backstory.
We ran into this problem last night, where we saw a very "angsty" (as you would apparently call it) video involving my source's past on Tiktok before we got ready for bed. All events I would rather not have relived.
Basically, I was triggered to the front, but I ended up completely blending with the host to the point where we could not determine who was who. It took an hour and a half for the body to fall asleep.
What I am attempting to get across, is that it's difficult having the most traumatic events of your life being made into edits with music.
Perhaps this qualifies as a vent, but I feel like it needed to be said for the sake of other fictives possibly experiencing the same thing.
WEST: [WEST] "West is a gender-neutral name of Old English origins, meaning “western stream""
WALKER: [WAA]+[KR] "British in origin, Walker comes from the Old English wealcere, which means "to walk" or "tread.""
SCOUT: [SK]+[OWT] "To listen; Sent to discover"
SOL: [SOL] "Sol, a gender-neutral name, is of Hebrew origin. Its two meanings, "prayer for" or "peace,""
SLOAN: [SL]+[OWN] "Sloan directly translates to “raider” or “warrior.”"
KAIRI: [KAI]+[REE] "Kairi is a gender-neutral name of Japanese origin. If raucous waves or salty breezes are your dreamy oasis in life, this name meaning "sea""
KYLIAN: [KEE]+[LEE]+[YN] "Small church; Modern invented name"
KASON: [KA]+[SON] "son of the marsh-dwellers"
DORAN: [DOOR]+[EN] "Meaning:stranger; exile; warrior; wanderer. Doran is a gender-neutral name of Irish origin, celebrating those unafraid to pave their own path."