This is a personal sideblog. We're a subsystem of 10+ Genshin Impact introjects. @tragic-dog-boy and @my-one-and-oni-sideblog are the blogs of two of our in-system partners. Here are some things to know:
We are bodily an adult and would like those only age 16+ to interact here.
I won't be following back.
This is going to be mostly vents, fictive things, and PD related things (NPD + BPD). We might reblog things related to our other conditions on occasion.
We reclaim “narc,” and we cuss frequently, as we are an anger/PD symptom holder.
We selfship with Sethos from Genshin Impact (we're sharing) and we are a Scaramouche/Wanderer multishipper. If you do not like that, consult your block button.
We are fine with doubles and sourcemates interacting. If any Dottore fictives/kin interact here, that’s fine, but I likely will not interact back for my personal comfort.
We'll put our stances and more information under the cut.
Since we aren't doing a full DNI, I will just block who we don't want here. Please respect your own DNI. Here are my stances:
ACAB, BLM, Land Back, Free Palestine.
Pro mspec queers, neopronouns, xenogenders.
Pro researched self-diagnosis.
Removed from syscourse, friendly to collectives of any origin.
"Narc abuse" isn't real, it's emotional abuse/manipulation. There is no difference between emotional abuse/manipulation coming from a pwNPD than a person without it.
Anti radqueer.
Anti harassment, anti censorship, pro “ship and let ship.”
Genshin Impact/Hoyo critical.
These are the stances I feel are relevant to this blog. I won't be disclosing any more on our intro post. Please block us if any of the above are an issue for you.
Subsystem info:
Again, you can call me Neo. He/him, thon/thons, nox/noxz, and it/its are my collective pronouns.
We're transmasculine (bodily and in IW).
We're (mostly) all Wanderer/Scaramouche introjects and most are source connected.
Cognitive age range in IW is 19-24.
Subsystem members (who will be active here):
✴️: subsystem host. He/it/thon/nox. I will probably be the one posting for the most part.
💔: takes on my narc crashes. One/thon/he.
🪶: holds my irrational anger. It/he/thon/one/ghost.
💘: holds our attachment to our source EP/FP and f/o, and to our irl EP/FP and partner system. They/he/nox.
🥀: holds trauma and particularly my& fear of abandonment and inadequacy. It/she/he.
💋: aka Naia (she wants noxz name known). Subsystem caretaker and token lesbian. She/nox/he.
🩸: obsessive yandere doll boy thing who exists to express and ask for affection when ✴️ cannot. He/love/doom/blade/nox.
The other subsystem members will not be on this blog.
i wish i was a “love me loudly or don’t love me at all” person but i was cursed with abandonment issues so im a “love me however terribly and abusively you want just don’t leave me” person
If I was a wasp, I'd sting you. If I was a venomous snake, I'd bite you. If I was a lion, I'd maul you. If I was a swamp, I'd poison you. If I was a mountain, I'd fall and crush you. If I was the ocean, I'd drown you. If I was a cat, I'd never let you touch me. If I was a dog, I'd run away. If I was a horse, I'd never let you break me. If I was a farm, I wouldn't grow for you. If I was a fire, I'd burn out without warming you. If I was a home, I would fall apart around you.
If I was harmless and small, and easy to hold, you would love me. If I was a worm you could put me in the soft earth and I would be helpless in your care. Of course you could love me, but could you love me if I stung you, bit you, pulled against you, hid and didn't understand you but wasn't harmless or helpless at all?
Could you love something for what it is, when that means you can't touch it or show kindness, maybe even never be near it, and it might never, ever love you back? Is it okay to exist and not belong to anyone, to not be useful to anyone, to be dangerous or poisonous or a failure but a part of the world all the same?
I know this is a metaphor, but if you take it kind of literally, there is an answer to this.
We build wildlife preserves. Often explicitly for the protection of animals and ecosystems that can and have killed humans.
Whenever a whale gets stranded on a beach, CROWDS show up ad risk getting bludgeoned to death trying to get it back into the water.
Every Zoo has a reptile house full of venomous snakes and a team of humans dedicated to giving them the best quality of life possible.
There are volunteer beekeepers who will travel for miles and miles and hours and hours to relocate an entire hive.
There are people who rehabilitate dangerous dogs and horses
There are people who restore structurally unsound houses
There are people who study the way that fire burns so it can rejoin the ecosystem and not be smothered on sight.
Every day, millions of people get up and devote themselves to things that can and will kill them by their nature. Things they can't touch or show kindness to. Things they can't go near. Things that are wholly incapable of loving them back.
And they do it because they love them.
Everything dangerous, everything poisonous, everything 'useless'- absolutely everything has someone, often many thousands of people, who loves them exactly as they are, without expectation that their affection will be returned.
It is alright for anything, even you, to not belong to anyone, to not be useful, to be frightening and dangerous and not adhere to any standard of success.
It's all alright.
You are loved.
You are loved.
You are loved.
I don’t want to have a bad relationship with my& metamour. I don’t think ✴️ gives a shit at how bad he hurt her but he should at least be responsive to how our partner in common is feeling. ✴️’s actions make me wonder what the hell he’s thinking
