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teen wolf rewatch | 3.10 ' the overlooked'

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It’s been about a week of driving on the road, and Stiles gets to his place and drops his things off. The rest of his stuff will be delivered in about another week. 

Stiles stands in the stillness of his tiny apartment and closes his eyes, takes in the quiet, a quiet he hasn’t heard and felt in a long time, when his phone dings.

Stiles opens his eyes, sees it’s text from Scott asking if he made it by the time he said he would. Stiles answered he made it, and then shuts his phone down, and proceeds to lay down on all the blankets he brought with him - his bed won’t be there for a few more days, at least - and sleep.

It’s night when he wakes up, and the street lights are shining into his apartment where he lay in the almost bare living room. Stiles turns on his phone, and this time his heart skips a beat - and Stiles doesn’t quite know why - when he sees the text he’d been expecting from Derek:

Have you made it? Do you want to meet up? 

It was sent an hour ago. Stiles replies back, saying he did and he would, but since it’s night time, they could meet tomorrow?

But Derek replies back a few minutes later that he wouldn’t might meeting up that night. It’s only 7PM, and so Stiles agrees and they agree to meet at a coffee shop a few blocks from where Stiles lives - Derek has been living in D.C. for a few months now, and ever since Stiles told Derek where he would be living, Derek made a point to get to know the area around it. Stiles found that oddly sweet, but he would never tell Derek that. 

Stiles’ heart is beating wildly as he leaves, locking his door behind him. He hasn’t seen Derek in over a year now. They’ve talked over the year, actually they’d talked quite a lot in the past few months, especially, but Stiles hadn’t been face to face with Derek in well over a year. 

Stiles feels and equal measure of excitement and nerves. He feels almost jumpy as he heads down the stairs in his apartment building, and then out into the warm summer night D.C. air. 

He texts Derek that he’s on his way, and Derek texts back that he’s already there, waiting outside. 

Stiles gulps and licks his lips, and walks faster, pocketing his phone.

Stiles is away from the only home he’s known for 18 years. But he feels oddly free. He misses Scott, his dad, everyone like crazy, but he also feels less...heavy. Less like he was drowning. Stiles still looked around him surreptitiously, not able to shake off the habit from almost two and a half years of danger and destruction happening to and around him, but the air is quiet, people barely spare him a glance. 

It feels wonderful.

Stiles is able to breathe. 

He couldn’t remember the last time he felt this relaxed. 

When he rounds the corner to the coffee shop, he freezes, his inhale sharp when he sees Derek standing outside, and then it feels like his heart trips over itself when Derek hears him and turns towards him, and they lock eyes. 

Derek looks good. He looks as relaxed as Stiles felt. Derek was still in the tight jeans that Stiles remembered him wearing all the time (and damn, they always made Stiles stare a little longer than he should have) but his shirt looked soft and comfortable, and it was a light purple color that made Derek look absolutely...amazing. 

And he wasn’t wearing his signature leather jacket. He wasn’t standing with his arms over his chest. They were at his sides, just hanging, relaxed. He also wasn’t scowling. He was grinning. At Stiles.

And Stiles found himself grinning back. He let out a shocked laugh, and then he was walking fast toward Derek, who started walking toward him too. 

Stiles sped up the last ten or so feet, and then Stiles was practically jumping into Derek’s awaiting arms, and Derek gave a small “oof” as if Stiles, fragile human that he was, was able to knock the breath out of Derek. 

“Sorry,” Stiles murmured. 

But he felt Derek shake his head and wrap Stiles up firmly in his arms, and Stiles breathed out softly, tightening his arms around Derek’s shoulders and resting his cheek against Derek’s.

“I missed you,” Stiles whispered, surprised he let that slip out. But he did nothing to take the words back. 

“I missed you, too,” Derek said, and Stiles shivered. He and Derek had mostly texted over the past year, and the last time they had talked on the phone had been months ago. Stiles had missed his soft, beautiful voice. It was like honey to Stiles’ ears.

Two and a half years. That’s how long Stiles had basically lived in hell. 

But now....now, Stiles was getting out of it. With Derek, who actually picked Stiles up enough that Stiles was then on his tippy toes, somehow bringing Stiles closer in his arms, and Stiles huffed out a laugh. 

“Derek-”

“Shh, just enjoy it,” Derek murmured. 

“Can’t imagine the Derek I knew saying that,” Stiles whispered. Even at the end, before Derek left, when he was in such a good place, he hadn’t quite been like this. So happy. So relaxed. So ready to hug someone. And hug them closely, for that matter. 

“Yeah, well...some time away helps,” Derek murmured, and Stiles felt his heart beating faster when he felt Derek brush his lips lightly against Stiles’ neck. 

“Good thing I’m getting some time away, then,” Stiles murmured. And then after a long moment, “with you,” Stiles said. 

He felt Derek inhale sharply, and then the arms around him tighten. But it didn’t feel restrictive. It felt amazingly comforting. Stiles felt warm, safe. Relaxed. And maybe even a little bit happy.

“I’m glad you’re getting time away, too. With me.”

Stiles smiled, buried his smile against Derek’s shoulder, and then decided to hold on to Derek just a little longer. 

He didn’t feel the need to be anywhere else. 

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It’s the season 6A finale, and Stiles is found, he’s remembered, he gets his hugs in with his friends and his dad, and one of the last scenes is this: Stiles goes to his dad and tells him he’s graduating early, that he was done after the first semester of senior year anyway, and had only stayed to be with his friends until the last possible minute, but...after all this, after being taken and forgotten, it was the last straw, and it’s just too much for him.

He needs to get away now. So he does, and he tells his dad that he’ll be at Berkley on the first day in September. But he has to get away for awhile, get some peace from all the insane shit he’s been through the past two years.

So the last scene is Stiles in his jeep, filled with suitcases, when his phone goes off. He answers it with a big, goofy smile - a smile we haven’t seen on Stiles’ face in a very long time.

And he says “hey, Derek.” 

A pause, and then, “yeah, I’m on my way...I’ll be there.”

Another pause and then, “I’ve missed you, too.” 

Another smile, this time soft and heart-eyed, and then he says bye, and hangs up, and the music swells as the camera pans away from the car, and the last shot is the jeep driving past the “Now Leaving Beacon Hills” sign. 

Fade to black.

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2016 Selfies of your local arab ace

tagged by @solemnmoony @warengrey @officerstilinskihale @haletostilinski

Unfortunately there wasn’t as many selfies compared to last year, but in contrast, a lot has happened this year in more ways than one. Here’s to hoping for better things~

i would tag but literally everyone I actively know have all done it or already been tagged (late to the game as usual me). So anyone want a tag or just to do it then go ahead~

Let’s have a good 2017 everyone

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@warengrey - best organization 

Screenshot promo for Madi who won The Laurent of Vere Award for best organization in my tumblr awards. Not only does Madi have an amazingly organized tag page, and tags her posts well, she’s also my bae, so I can say with certainty that Madi is amazing and everyone should check out her blog because it’s just spectacular <333 :D 

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Every Damen/Laurent Moment in Prince’s Gambit Part 2

The Captive Prince Moments: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE

The Prince’s Gambit Moments: PART ONE

On the third attempt, the whole grille came away from the window. It was surprisingly heavy. He placed it carefully on the floor. The thick carpet muffled any sound, as it had done when he had moved the chest. 

‘After you,’ he said to Laurent, who was staring at him. Laurent almost looked as though he was going to speak, but then he just nodded, pulled himself through the window and dropped soundlessly into the alley behind the brothel. (p. 73)

Oh, Laurent, you are definitely turned on by watching Damen do this. He was also probably going to ask ‘how’d you do that?’ or ‘wtf how are u so strong it’s so hot?’ but had to stop himself ;). 

Then Laurent rose and made his way around the table, sitting himself beside Damen, close as a lover. 

‘What are you doing?’

 ‘Verisimilitude,’ said Laurent. The earring winked at him. ‘I’m glad I brought you along. I wasn’t expecting to have to tear things out of walls. Do you visit brothels often?’ 

‘No,’ said Damen. 

‘Not brothels. Camp followers?’ said Laurent. And then: ‘Slaves.’ And then, after the satisfaction of a pause: ‘Akielos, the garden of delights. So you enjoy slavery in others. Just not in yourself.’ 

Damen shifted on the long bench, and regarded him. 

‘Don’t strain yourself,’ said Laurent. 

‘You talk more,’ said Damen, ‘when you’re uncomfortable.’ (p. 76).

I love how they’re both so on the nose here with each other. They’re both right, and they both know each other better then they probably want the other one to. 

Damen knows what Laurent is doing, but that doesn’t mean that what Laurent says isn’t true, and Damen knows it. Laurent makes a good point, which is what I love about this - they both challenge each other and help each other to want to change, and Laurent is hitting it on the nose here, which I’m sure Damen realizes. 

There was almost nothing of pet and master about it at all, except that Damen felt, just for an instant, the warmth of Laurent’s breath against his fingertips.

Verisimilitude, thought Damen. His gaze dropped to Laurent’s lips. (p. 80).

Small, quick moment, but mmmkay Damen, cool cool cool, alright alright alright, just casually gazing at Laurent’s lips, no biggy, or the pointing out that you felt Laurent’s breath against your fingertips. Nah, it’s nothing. Not like you’re remotely attracted to him or anything. Nahhh.

Laurent was so close that it would be easy to wrap a hand around the back of his neck and draw him closer. He remembered the feel of Laurent’s hair, his skin, and fought the urge to press against Laurent’s lips with the pads of his fingers.

 It was the earring. Laurent was always so austere. The earring reframed him. It gave the appearance of a sensual side, sophisticated and subtle. (p. 80)

Damn this whole passage is so sensual, like Damen you are so attracted to this man it is so obvious how do u not see it. Well, he probs sees it but knows nothing can come it (that’s what you u think, Damen) and also he still isn’t quite all lovey dovey feelings for Laurent yet. But as we can see above, he’s definitely getting there. 

And you remember the feel of his hair, Damen, really? (I’m currently forgetting when Damen ever touched Laurent’s hair, except for maybe when he’s ‘tending to’ Laurent, maybe?) And his skin? This is not stuff you think about someone you aren’t remotely attracted to, it’s just not. 

And also ‘it was the earring’ lol nice try at an excuse there Damen, but I see u ;) Damen’s not smitten yet, still has a ways to go, but we’re in the middle of the change from pure loathing to love (from both of them). There’s like no question there is attraction now. It is quite clear. 

He had some sense that his plans had been overturned, that Laurent knew exactly what he was doing. The touch resembled the first brush of lips in the kind of sensual kiss that begins as a series of smaller kisses, and then, slowly, deepens. Damen felt his breathing change. (p. 81)

Omg like, ahhh!!! It’s like they’re having a first kiss without actually having a first kiss. And “Laurent knew exactly what he was doing” and it’s like?? Dude, this man knows Damen is attracted to him, at least one some level - and Laurent probably thinks it’s a shallow level devoid of any feelings or any long lasting attraction - and can I just say like...he isn’t scared of Damen’s attraction to him, whatever that attraction might be. 

Laurent at least knows Damen has probably - or will probably - fantasize about them in some sexual capacity, and he’s using that to his advantage here, or using it to...make Damen uncomfortable? That’s my best bet.

Probably for, I guess, ‘putting’ Laurent in the position of ‘pet’ in that Damen is feeding food to him, not the other way around. Outwardly, Laurent is in a position of submission, and Laurent probably hates that very much, and is trying to punish Damen in the most manipulative, hands off way he can think of. (Thus putting him in the truly dominant position, which is probably where Laurent, after all he’s been through, is most comfortable)

He reminded himself forcefully of who this was. Laurent, his captor. He made himself recall the fall of each lash on his back, but thanks to some misfiring of the brain, found himself instead in the memory of Laurent’s wet skin in the baths, the way his limbs fitted together like a hilt fitted to the blade of a balanced sword. (p. 81).

And like, omg?? Like, Damen is having to remind himself of who he’s with and what he’s done to him and how much he hates him - but it still doesn’t work?? Like Laurent has got crazy powers of seduction where Damen is concerned (whether he uses them intentionally or not), I mean, we all know how Damen is like later when it comes to his attraction to Laurent ;) and this is the beginning of just how struck dumb Damen can be by Laurent. 

And like, really? See? Damen is pulled into a memory, which is kind of a fantasy right now too, of a naked Laurent, and Damen is describing how perfect Laurent’s limbs fit together, I mean, come on!

Damen is officially on the Laurent train, I mean, just a few stops more before he’s in Laurentville where Damen will put his heart, I mean??

metaphor aside, u guys know what I mean. Damen is crushing - at least, he’s very very attracted lol. 

Laurent finished the morsel, then rested a hand on Damen’s thigh, and slowly slid it upward.

‘Control yourself,’ said Laurent.

 And shifted in, until, facing one another on the straddled bench, they were almost chest to chest. Laurent’s hair tickled against Damen’s cheek as he brought his lips to Damen’s ear. (p. 81)

Uh no, Laurent, control yourself, I mean??? I know I keep saying “I mean??” but honestly??? Like?? Is it necessary to touch Damen like that, Laurent?

I was just talking of Damen’s massive attraction for Laurent, which is easy to see as it’s from his POV, but this is saying a lot about Laurent’s attraction for Damen, too. 

I mean, I know he’s getting back at Damen or punishing him in some way, which is very Laurent-esque, but there is also a part to this that is just Laurent being attracted to Damen. 

Would Laurent have touched anyone - whether he was getting back at them for whatever it was or not - like this except Damen? This shows how comfortable he is with Damen, even if he ‘hates’ him, or at this point I think he’s trying to still hate Damen, but it’s hard to do at this point (Damen’s in the same boat, Laurent). 

Remember when Laurent was trying to get Torveld to take Erasmus and the other slaves of the Regent’s? Torveld was all flirty with Laurent almost the whole night, and Laurent never put Torveld off, obviously trying to manipulate him into getting what Laurent wanted, but he never touched Torveld, not once, or let Torveld touch him, if I recall (Let him get real close to him, I think, but not actually touch him, right?) 

While Laurent has used his looks in the past, for whatever reason, he hasn’t allowed touch, by himself or the other person, but here he is ALL up in Damen’s business and basically caressing his thigh and sliding it upward toward’s his dick, I mean honestly???

And Laurent is so close that his hair is brushing Damen’s cheek? Whispering into his ear?

Laurent, r u serious right now??

Like, in Laurent’s mind he’s probably telling himself this is nothing and it’s all just to get to Damen and all that and he’s feeling absolutely no attraction, but his body is probably loving this and Laurent is probably internally cursing at his attraction to Damen.

This passage has just got me all kinds of giddy omigosh!

The next murmur slid softly into Damen’s ear, so that he felt the shape of each word, made of lips and breath. 

‘And so, take me upstairs,’ said Laurent. ‘Don’t you think we’ve waited long enough?’ 

It was Laurent who led the way, trailing up the stairs, with Damen following. He was aware of each step, and he found his pulse beating fast beneath his skin. (pp. 81-82)

I am freaking out guys (sorry it’s been a long time since I read this it’s like reading it anew I’m giddy) like...Laurent you know how suggestive that sounds, you know what you’re doing but boY! COME ON! You are are trying too hard because you likkeee Damen - or at least, you’re starting to, just a lil’ bit, maybe, Laurent don’t lie - and Damen???

Boy is like fuhreaking out more than me, like he’s so attracted to Laurent and he’s imagining some sexy times right now, let’s not lie and pretend otherwise, and Damen just wants to jump this man - but a part of him is still probably warring within himself like “NOPE. You cannot want to bone this dude nope nope noppeee not happening” even as Damen’s blood is singing and he’s alive with this shit, but nope. 

Not yet, my friends. Not yet. 

These boys aren’t even in love yet and they give me so many feels gahdamn!

And there was a man of about thirty with a dark, closely trimmed beard sitting on the bed, who propelled himself off it and onto one knee when he saw Laurent.

Damen sat down rather heavily on the chair by the door. (p. 82). 

Damen is so disappointed I can’t even, I’m laughing as I write this. Like, a large part of him knew nothing would happen, obviously, and another large part probably still doesn’t want anything to happen, but the part that is largely attracted to Laurent just drooped its ears like a dog lol. 

Damen wanted some sexy times with Laurent here, it is so obvious it’s not even funny. 

But also it totally is because Damen just kinda drops down into a chair, deflating (probably ALL of him too, if you know what I mean ;)) 

I’m just so giddy, can you guys tell???

‘Here,’ said Damen, and passed him the plate. 

‘Thank you,’ said Laurent, looking at the plate with a blink. (p. 84).

Laurent thanked him, kids. It’s a small thing, giving him food and Laurent thanking him, but it’s actually pretty big, to me. I don’t think Laurent would have thanked him for something like that not too long ago. 

He chose to clothe himself once again in pants rather than towels. He told himself that this was no different from two dozen nights together inside of a warfield tent. (p. 84)

Dudee, Damen is still feeling a little somethin’ somethin’, I mean he’s having to remind himself to cool it, basically, to take a chill pill, this is not different than before just because they’re in an actually room with no one else around, righhhtt??? ;)

‘Perhaps I . . . I knew she was ruled by her mind, not her heart. I knew she was ambitious, and, yes, at times ruthless. I admit there was something . . . attractive about it. But I never guessed that she would betray me for Kastor. That I learned too late.’ 

‘Auguste was like you,’ said Laurent. ‘He had no instinct for deception; it meant he couldn’t recognise it in other people.’ (pp. 86-87)

This is so important to me because they are basically talking about the other being very similar (Damen is practically describing Laurent with how he describes Jokaste) to someone they loved (romantically or not, doesn’t matter) and that is so telling.

The big differences, of course, being that Laurent never betrays Damen once they’re in love with each other, and obviously, Auguste was Laurent’s brother, not someone he was in love with as he later becomes with Damen. 

But Laurent loved Auguste so much, so deeply, that it is a pretty high compliment Laurent is giving Damen. 

And on Damen’s end, it’s almost the opposite, in the way. Yes, Damen loved Jokaste, but he doesn’t anymore (at least, not in that way, especially after what she did to him. Obviously Damen is too good, I think, to ever have truly hated Jokaste. I think, at most he was very angry at her and very hurt. By the time he’s in love with Laurent, I think he’s completely over Jokaste in that way, but I think he still holds her in a certain regard, has a certain respect for her and affection, so) and since his love for Jokaste was romantic, it’s like he’s getting over her/is over her and is making room in his heart for Laurent. (Not that he’s there with feelings for Laurent yet, but ya know what I mean).

Anyway, they both had this admiration for these people they loved, and certain qualities they possessed and seeing those qualities in each other, I think, is endearing them to each other. 

Obviously slowly, and they’re not at that point yet here, but we’re getting to it, and this conversation, I think, shows why they start to fall for each other, and eventually do.

‘I wondered,’ Damen said, carefully, ‘if you reserved your love for women.’ 

‘No, I—’ Laurent sounded surprised. Then he seemed to realise that his surprise gave something fundamental away, and he looked away with a muttered breath; when he looked back at Damen there was a wry smile on his lips, but he said, steadily, ‘No.’ 

‘Have I said something to offend you? I didn’t mean—’

 ‘No. A plausible, benign and uncomplicated theory. Trust you to come up with it.’ (pp. 87-88)

Okay, first of all, the fact that Laurent has let his guard down enough around Damen that any surprise would show at all is crazy enough, and Laurent cursing because he let something like emotion show, in front of Damen, too, of all people. 

And then Damen worrying if he had offended Laurent??? When would Damen have cared if he had before? Honestly, i am SO DONE with these boys, I just cannot.

‘If I were Jokaste and a king maker, I’d have chosen Kastor over you too.’ 

‘I suppose you are going to enjoy telling me why,’ said Damen. He felt his hands curl into fists, heard the bitterness in his throat. 

‘Because a king maker would always choose the weaker man. The weaker the man, the easier he is to control.’ 

Damen felt the shock of surprise, and looked at Laurent only to find Laurent gazing back at him without rancour. The moment stretched out. It wasn’t . . . it wasn’t what he had expected Laurent to say. As he gazed at Laurent, the words moved through him in unexpected ways, and he felt them touch something jagged-edged within him, felt them shift it a first, tiny fraction, something lodged hard and deep, that he had thought immovable. (pp. 88-89).

This passage makes me so fucking happy, peeps I am nott okay LIKE!!!

And like, knowing what happens in the third book? That conversation between Laurent and Jokaste and Jokaste is all “so the only different between us is the brother we chose” or something close to that and Laurent is all “I would have chosen him too if I was her” and Laurent does the exact opposite of what he says he would do? He chooses Damen, quite happily, and yes, that’s the big different between Jokaste and Laurent, to me. Once Laurent was in love with Damen, he was all he would ever want, he’s all in. I CANNOT WITH THESE EMOTIONS!

AND THEN! AND THEN, MY FRIENDS!

LAURENT SAYS DAMEN IS STRONG, BASICALLY! AND WHEN DAMEN LOOKS AT HIM HE’S NOT TEASING OR BEING SARCASTIC OR SAYING IT WITH ANY HATEFUL EMOTION TOWARD DAMEN. 

AND THen, okay, what have I been saying throughout basically all these “moment” posts? That there’s been a shift, that it was small, barely noticeable, but there. And I said that it was happening at several points, that these moments signified a shift in Damen and Laurent’s relationship - even if it was small, barely there, barley noticeable for them, but it was there. 

Well, WHOO BOY OMG! We just got, in some way, what I’ve said, RIGHT HERE IN THIS PASSAGE AHH! (and I want to clarify that I hadn’t reread The Captive Prince series once since I started doing these. So basically I’m reading these books a second time, and it’s been almost a year since I read the second book, and I wrote all that stuff about a shift without having read this passage recently. All I remembered was the “but I’m getting to know you” line, which is only because I’ve seen in it other posts a lot) so like, I’m giving myself a pat on the back for that.

Because it says here, in the goddamn book, that Damen feels a shift. I AM SO GIDDY I AM!!!! I probably seem crazy right now but eeep!! This is like...okay, all those moments before were things shifting between them, but not exactly in a romantic sense yet, and it was probably barely noticeable for Damen and Laurent themselves, if at all.

Like, it was just subtle shifts that inch by inch, day by day, they start to hate each other just a little bit less, you know?

BUT HERE! Okay, my friends! Damen is fully aware that a shift just happened inside him, and his feelings towards Laurent. Like, the shift was so massive that Damen is fully aware of it, even if he can’t quite name it yet.

Laurent just gave Damen more than a compliment - he said a positive thing about his character, about who Damen is, and he wasn’t mocking Damen. His gaze isn’t biting or hateful or mean, and while his facial expression is probably controlled and neutral, his gaze is probably soft and meaningful. He means what he’s saying to Damen, and Damen probably sees that, and the fact that Laurent MEANS it and isn’t just fucking with Damen, is what shifts something inside Damen. 

And then that last part! About how something shifted inside him that he never thought would shift and that he thought immovable. 

So fuck, okay, earlier I was talking about how attracted to Laurent Damen was, but a large part still didn’t want to actually act on anything and probably still didn’t like Laurent, WELL! HERE WE GO!

Damen was probably fine having an attraction to Laurent he couldn’t help, and was fine with nothing happening because he still, of course, didn’t like Laurent (didn’t hate him, at this point, but still wasn’t too warm and fuzzy towards him) but now his FEELINGS have shifted, have moved towards something more positive than negative.

Damen always thought he would hate Laurent, no matter what (even as he was attracted to him) but NOW, with this conversation, whoo boy was Damen wrong. He hated Laurent so much (rightfully so) and it was so much so that he couldn’t imagine ever feeling anything but hate for Laurent, but now he...isn’t. 

He obviously doesn’t know what he feels for Laurent yet, but now he feels something different than hate, something above hate, something better than hate, and it will take him a bit to realize he’s gaining feelings for Laurent, strong feelings. Romantic feelings. 

For now the shift is just...he’s basically moved away from truly hating Laurent, is what i’m trying to say, and moving into like. He’s starting to like Laurent. And it’s not love yet, but it’s not hate. And Damen realizes that he doesn’t hate Laurent when he thought he always would.

And that’s what this moment is so crazy important and so significant.

He said: ‘What makes you think Kastor is the weaker man? You don’t know him.’

 ‘But I’m coming to know you,’ said Laurent. (p. 89).

And now for Laurent’s side of things!!!

LAURENT, OH MAN, U GUYS DIDN’T THINK I’D FORGET ABOUT HIM, DID YOU??

The fact that Laurent says that Damen is strong in the first place and means it??? That is HUGE!! I mean, he already compared Damen (who he KNOWS is Damianos) to Auguste, who he loved, but now he says this? And is completely serious about it? 

AND THEN: “But I’m coming to know you”

BITCH PLS! 

I mean, we don’t get Laurent’s POV, so we don’t know exactly when things start to shift for him, when the subtle, barely noticeable changes in his opinion towards Damen started either, but we’ve got enough to know that something is shifting within Laurent too.

Whether he realizes it yet, I don’t know. The fact that Laurent said all this, though? Makes me think he kind of does. 

Maybe even allowing Damen to come on this mini-mission was enough for Laurent to realize a shift was happening. Again, he probably doesn’t realize it’s romantic either yet, that he has feelings, but he probably doesn’t hate Damen at this point, and I’m saying he probably realizes it, probably knew already - although, probably not that much longer before Damen has. 

But Laurent is the more observant one, in most respects, (although of course Damen is crazy observant in other aspects, at least when it comes to Laurent) so I feel like he’s probably already realized he doesn’t hate Damen (he probably hates that he doesn’t hate him, but still). I mean, the fact that he said that to Damen about Auguste, and then this, makes it seem like he is aware of the shift in things between them. 

And he’s coming to know Damen, guys! And that is making him see who Damen really is and he doesn’t hate who Damen really is and as annoyed as he is that he’s started to like Damen, he can’t hep it. 

Fucking goddamn my feelsss!!!

And okay, that’s as good a place as any to stop this part before it gets too crazy long! 

But omg the last two books will probably have a lot more parts than the first book because of how they fall in love in this book, so there are even more moments in these books than in the first.

I think I only got through about 28 pages for this part, while in the first part I got through 60 pages. They’re getting more and more moments to talk about and that makes me so happy!

I can’t wait to get to the rest! Ahfkajsfh. 

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warengrey replied to your post:"I don't like this thing therefore you shouldn't...

IM SCREAMING ONLY 100 PAGES??? THEN OFC THEYRE GONNA THINK ITS ABUSIVE. THATS THE WHOLE GOD DAMN POINT OF THE FIRST BOOK. CS PACAT EVEN SAYS YOU NEED TO HATE LAURENT AT THE BEGINNING OH LORD IM OUT. IM OUUUUT

Yep, the whole post is pointing out what’s wrong with the first book, all the bad things the characters do, even Damen, and I was just like??? The last person to post even said they didn’t go on to read the next two books I’m like???

OF COURSE it seems like it won’t get any better in the first book, OF COURSE you’re gonna be like ‘how the fuck do they become a romantic couple? how fuck am I going to come to love Laurent?’, OF COURSE because that is the whole point! This isn’t a story that starts out horrible and stays horrible. They don’t even know that Damen goes on to want to end slavery, that when he is “given” a slave in the third book he refuses. They don’t even know that not only does Damen help Laurent, Laurent helps Damen, and they unknowingly get the other to see things differently and to understand things differently. 

All they’re seeing is the horrible events of the first book and judging the rest of the story off that and it is so frustrating! I’m not going to listen to what you have to say if you don’t even know the whole story. It just makes them come off as ridiculous and uniformed, which they are, because the didn’t read the rest of the books.