"Louis, you are important. You matter, more than I think you realize.." That last part hurt to say, as if calling attention to the deprecation was just dumping salt into a gaping wound. But Clementine had to be direct, so Louis would know how important he truly is. (( hello don't mind me ))
He’s said it before, ‘I wouldn’t pick me.’ His own opinion of himself reflects back so easily in those simple four words. He’s faked confidence, he’s faked cheerfulness. Everyone else can accomplish major feats, and he’s still unsure of what role he can play. ( Something other than the un-serious, joking idiot he falls into. )
Marlon’s gone for good, and Louis is still left feeling this heavy guilt in his chest about fooling around too much – not getting more involved in everything. Burying his fucking head in the sand. It’s a bitter pill to swallow – the reality.
“ Do you… really think so? ”
He sounds doubtful, so doubtful, his own walls dropping momentarily. Vulnerable.
He’s not Marlon, he’s not Violet, he’s not Clementine. He’s just… Louis. ( It’s not enough. Will it ever be enough? ) But – here’s Clementine, this amazing girl whose gone through hell and back and continues to brave through all the turmoil like a brilliant north star in the sky. She thinks he means something and that’s enough. He leans forwards then, to wrap his arms around her and press into her warmth. She’s warm. So warm.
“ Thanks, Clementine… for always listening. For believing in me ”
For continuing to listen, even now. Even if he doesn’t deserve it. But he’ll try to believe he does – for her.