#weirdweek

[locallysourcedshuggy]

i hath returned from being an outdoor school counselor (lol was a weird experience that i never want to go through again!), which means more writing time 🕺

[startrolley]

Dear @netflix It's the week after Christmas and before New Year's. Please remove the question about whether we're still watching. We're watching! #christmas #newyear #weirdweek #productive #notproductive #netflix #startrolley #calendar (at Saint Petersburg, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cmq74oZuQ2Y/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[thetalonclan]

castles and curves

[makingstrangemaneuvers]

Rip my crystal necklace :( Have one of the last pics of me in it 😂😭 . This week has been super weird, I don't know if that's for everyone or just me. But emotions have been high, sleeping is wonky, cats are clingy (not that I'm complaining). Taurus season is here so I've been cleaning a LOT and extra productive! But I've also been thinking in circles and maybe sort of spiraling a lot ;D . Has anybody else had a weird week? . . #crystalnecklace #taurusseason #weirdweek #bluehair #greenaesthetic #redlipstick #cute #happy #confident (at Barstow, California) https://www.instagram.com/whattacoffeecat/p/Bwp6_q3AyCw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=h3at5e8y9muh

[shesgothercowboyboots]

[forevertomorrowland13]

Be Here Now

I never realized how close I am to my mom until I found out how I feel about telling her that I’m gay. My feelings are mixed: I get anxious when I think about telling her, I feel guilty for not telling her but I’m terrified of saying it to her. Although I feel like randomly blurting it out sometimes, I work really hard not too, because I am so afraid. It’s the worst feeling in the world that you can’t trust your mother, especially when you have your whole life. And I notice more and more that I don’t want to come home, and I don’t want to talk to her about stuff because there is this giant part of me I have to hide and lie about.

 On a positive note, a film’s process I’ve been monitoring “Be here now: The Andy Whitfield story” is finally coming out this year. I remember when Andy was diagnosed, and when he died in 2011. Andy was a big reason I started to watch Spartacus, and he inspired me when he took on this journey to fight his cancer. Then when he passed I was amazed at the bravery, courage and openness his wife Vashti had about loosing him and living life without her love. Be here now is about being present, even though you don’t know what’s coming, and since Be Here Now’s inception it has inspired me to be present, and to be thankful for everyday I have. In times like now, where I feel lost and alone I write “be here now” on my arm to remind me to keep fighting, like Andy did and like Spartacus did.

[ilovemysushi]

PARANOIA 101 (Hello Ericka)

Hindi ko inexpect na makikita nung isang classmate ko na sobrang tahimik ung twitter account ko which leads to my tumblr account..so ayun medyo nahuli ang aking mala PBB na confession tungkol kay crush, medyo na paraniod ako ng very slight(as in)kasi hindi ako yung taong nag bibigay motibo pag dating sa lovelife ek-ek yung tipong medyo pa mysterious type of guy. Ganun naman talaga ako in person..tahimik, medyo pa deep thinker, medyo pa smart, medyo karispe-rispetong nilalang sa mundo. Feeling ko tuloy parang naholdap ako… Anyway, okay lang naman kahit papano kasi I trust her kasi ang bait nya, ngayon lang din ako nakakilala ng taong mas tahimik sakin, ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko pag nakikita ko siya, walang halong doubt sa pagka tao niya, matalino pa. Bilang former Psychology major, it only took me 20 seconds to trust her based on her behavior inside class, kase ka lane ko lang siya sa harapan. Ewan ko lang, pero hobby ko na talaga mag observe ng mga tao na naka paligid sakin.

Wala naman masyadong interesting na nangyare buong week kase wala namang ginagawa. Pero nag enjoy ako kase lagi ko katabi si crush.