RFLCTNG. Last playlist of 2017. Link in bio. Even though I fell off sharing my playlists back in September when work got crazy. 😜 For the better part of the last 5 years I've talked about wanting to be bi-coastal. It was wishful thinking, in many conversations an exercise in elaborate visioning with folks, friends (and otherwise) about aspirations that generally seemed out of reach. In 2016, I stepped outside of my routine, and unexpectedly spent more than 2 months in New York. Most (on both coasts) were shocked. My abrupt departure and extended stay continues to prompt questions of whether or not I've moved permanently. I didn't leave then with full fledged plan, my ticket was booked for 11 days. I just needed to get healthy, get whole... to heal. After that tragic election result, I needed to get away... from the Bay - and all the ways I didn't really care to process my feelings. I needed to be loved on, talk my shit, reconnect with the "old me," integrate it back into "present me" and to get fed - mentally, spiritually, emotionally. #SlimThickness 😜 I also said out loud and in my head that I wanted a job that would allow me to be bi-coastal. 🌟 This year, 2017: I spent a full quarter of the year in New York - in the beginning, middle and end. I exited my year of fun-employment/sabbatical in July, to contract with a company that has offices in 6 cities, including one in lower Manhattan, and one 7 mins from my apt in Oakland. I celebrated a monumental birthday with my mother. My grandmother got her first college degree. My little brother started high school, my bigger little brother turned 30. My sister had a baby, and has one on the way. I found another brother I've never met on facebook. And I've continued to build with my sweetie, a bit more privately than I have historically. #WeLiveWeLearn 😎 And TBH... ALLL of the shit is challenging. I come home from work cussing like a sailor (LOL) After years of working for myself, its an adjustment. Relearning family as an adult and being away for a LONG time is too a new process. Everyday I am building new muscles, I'm still trying... even if I'm also crying. But I'm doing it. #StillGonPutInThisWork #NYE2018
