#wendimon

[biobeetle]

[cypreus-and-willow]

Virtue/Vice (2022)

The duality of Mon

Lines if anyone wants to colour it in. I dunno why I saved it like this.

something about your Digimon partner being the physical manifestation of your soul and uhhh breaking the cycle of abuse and uhhh healing from trauma and ummm-

You know what tho?? I loved doing the little bumps on Cherubimons head... like ALL Lopmon's evos have sharp horns and then there's Cherubimon.

You know what else?? Here's a thing I wrote on Lopmons horn placement... yep

[maryychill]

Digimon Adventure 02 "Hurricane Touchdown" and "The Golden Digimentals"

Hurricane Touchdown and The Golden Digimentals feels abstract, atmospheric and slow paced. The story begins with Wallace, a young American boy running joyfully through a field of flowers with his two Digimon, Chocomon and Gummymon.

Suddenly, a swirl appears and Chocomon vanishes without a warning. Wallace, confused, calls out for him while Gummymon stays by his side, equally surprised.

After this scene, we move to the present and see brief transitions showing the original chosen children in their daily lives: Sora arranging flowers and feeling frustrated with the result, Koushiro at his computer, Joe buying a drink from a vending machine, Taichi playing soccer, Yamato practicing the bass, and Mimi in New York with Takeru and Hikari.

Mimi and Takeru have fun teasing Daisuke by emailing him a picture of Hikari and Takeru together, joking that he'll get jealous when he sees it.

Suddenly, Hikari senses a digimon crying, searching for someone.

At that moment, Mimi's digivice lights up red and a swirl appears, pulling her in and making her vanish. The same thing happens to Taichi, Yamato, Sora, Koushiro and Joe.

They are taken to a dark, cold, mysterious space where movement is slow, as if their bodies were floating in a dense tide. They're trapped in a space where life doesn't flow and time runs backward, and although they recognize each other, their consciousness begins to fade.

Chocomon (or rather, Wendimon, though Wallace keeps calling him Chocomon throughout the entire movie) seems to have chosen those who have already grown up, with solid foundations and identities, and who are proof that time moves forward.

Turning them back into children is his way of denying the passage of time. In his limbo, there is no growth, only regression, as an attempt to reunite with Wallace.

The story revolves around Wallace and his lost bond with Chocomon in that field of flowers. Wallace lives with the guilt of not having protected Chocomon, and he also senses that Terriermon, whom he still calls Gummymon, feels the same pain.

Maybe that's why he hides behind a lighthearted mask when interacting with others, he learned to perform that way to avoid worrying his family or Terriermon, using compliments and jokes to deflect attention from his own vulnerability.

Terriermon, on the other hand, is the voice that translates what Wallace says or leaves unsaid, the alter ego that breaks his mask.

At the same time, Terriermon carries the burden of being "the surviving twin" who was also there when Chocomon disappeared. Through his loyalty, Terriermon reminds Wallace that he's not alone, even if that void will never be fully filled.

One of Daisuke's roles in this story is to reflect what it means to have a living bond and face how painful it would be to lose it. When he cries, saying he could never fight V-mon, he and Wallace are mirrored.

Dropping the goggles he got from Taichi is a symbolic moment. While he inherited Taichi's leadership and courage, in this scene, Daisuke connects more through friendship and compassion.

But what is a tragedy for Daisuke is still a possibility for Wallace.

Even so, Daisuke becomes the open heart that validates the pain he doesn't want to admit.

Hikari senses the instability before it manifests, picking up on the shift just before Mimi is pulled into the swirl, and when she first sees Wendimon, she recognizes the Digimon who is crying and searching for someone, though by the time she faces Black Cherubimon, she knows that nothing of Wallace's Chocomon remains.

There's nothing but a hollow will that has reshaped reality to mirror its pain.

Koushiro, trapped in the dark space, at first can't think clearly but when it shifts into a replica of the original flower field, he realizes they're inside someone's heart and everything around them is an emotional echo turned into space.

When Black Cherubimon appears and everything starts freezing and distorting, Miyako touches the black snow and realizes that it's all flowing from his broken heart.

The entire movie revolves around the distortion of time, the original chosen children keep regressing inside Wendimon's heart until they're little kids again.

His cry of "I want to go back" is the raw urge to return to the way things were before the loss.

The same happens with the 02 kids in the real world and their Digimon, their time moves backward by Wendimon's will, materializing the desire to get back to that Summer Memory in the flower field, that moment when they were still together and nothing bad had happened.

But moving forward only begins by facing the pain and accepting that "those times are gone".

The kids can't stop Wendimon and their Digimon are getting badly hurt and devolving, but when Miyako heals Poromon, she recreates that moment of care and triggers a memory for Black Cherubimon of when Wallace looked after him.

When everyone is reverting into infants, Hikari and Takeru resist a bit longer, unlocking the key by joining the forces of Seraphimon and Holydramon to open the channel for the Golden Digimentals to appear, so that Wallace and Daisuke can receive the miracle and their digimon to gain the Armor Digivolution of Rapidmon and Magnamon.

But the resolution didn't come from a big battle, but from getting Black Cherubimon to remember his bond with Wallace. By recalling the moment when he was bandaged and cared for, he finally smiles, restoring himself as Cherubimon Virtue, and giving Wallace and Terriermon a moment of peace before he leaves

The group farewell is playful, with Wallace kissing Hikari and Miyako while Terriermon just watches him knowing he's about to do something mischievous, and Daisuke's comedic jealousy in the background.

Underneath it all, Wallace has learned that life goes on even with those holes inside, so he keeps traveling perhaps to fill those voids, which feels coherent since you can't close a wound that big overnight.

Later on, Wallace spots a digiegg appearing on a seashore.

What once seemed lost returns, reborn. Each wave crashes, yet another follows, as the sea (symbolizing emotions and the unconscious) sweeps away his regrets while delivering a new beginning.

I liked this movie, its art style, landscapes, quiet pacing... Wallace moved me as a child who hid his heart so as not to worry others, trying to protect them even from his own pain.

From Terriermon, I liked his tenderness and that role as an inner voice that speaks out what Wallace never dares to say aloud.

Daisuke struck me as funny, sweet, clumsy and brave. He was awesome along with V-mon.

Miyako and Iori shone as well, and Hikari and Takeru were the ultimate miracle when everything else was falling apart.

The movie was about what it meant to lose a piece of yourself and face the hollow space it left. That emptiness hurts, but facing and accepting it, is necessary for it to become a place where you recognize yourself again and find a new beginning.

[rnsk-kousatsu]

The Problem of Harmony in Digimon Survive

“But… if I told everyone how I honestly feel, it would disrupt the harmony, wouldn’t it? The teacher, and everyone in the class too, would be troubled, wouldn’t they?”

Revisiting Survive made me want to expand on my previous writeups about the game’s themes of harmony.

I actually love how Survive basically treats harmony as the problem of how to live with other people without either erasing yourself or erasing others. That’s why I think the game’s idea of harmony is much richer than mere conformity (i.e., getting along or following the rules). It’s also why Shuuji and Aoi are my favorites, with Saki to a lesser extent as well—we’ll be talking about her too, don’t worry—because they matter so much to the game’s broader thesis about harmony as an ideal. They all feel that to have a place in a group, they must fulfill an ideal. In Aoi and Shuuji’s cases, particularly, the ideals are social roles that are considered morally good, yet can be deeply destructive when overidentified with.

Before we get to the specifics, however, let’s talk about Survive’s idea of harmony. I actually love that Survive isn’t entirely against the ethics of harmony. What Survive keeps rejecting is the shallow version of harmony that most people are taught to admire, which includes values like not burdening others, not being selfish, not creating conflict (at least not visible conflict), and not deviating from the order of the group or society. That kind of harmony might look peaceful on the surface, but the game has no interest in treating it as genuinely good. If anything, it presents it as spiritually hollow, because it leaves no room for difficult feelings or dissent. It also fails to account for the basic fact that other people remain separate from you, and therefore inconvenient.

At the same time, though, the game also rejects the opposite idea that living truthfully just means following your personal feelings, passions, impulses, immediate wants, or whatever else. So its central message isn’t really “society bad, true self good” or “community good, selfishness bad.” It’s more interested in how you find the right balance—how you remain a distinct self within a group, whether that means a specific community or society at large, without either disappearing into it or tearing it apart. To me, that’s much more nuanced than the usual “just be yourself” stance similar stories tend to take, because human beings are social animals and the self is never formed in isolation.

I talked about this at length in a previous writeup, but I think this is also why the symbolism of “becoming one” as false harmony in both Shuuji’s and Aoi’s corruption arcs becomes especially important. In most other Digimon stories, merging with the partner Digimon tends to symbolize trust, integration, and completion (the self made whole through bond). Here in Survive (or at least in arcs involving the themes of corrupt harmony), it’s treated as horror instead, because if harmony becomes indistinguishable from sameness, then the boundary between self and other has to be destroyed. But once there’s no distance between self and other, there’s also no listening, which in turn means there’s no negotiation, and therefore ultimately no true understanding, because difference itself is being erased. In other words, the very separateness that makes conflict painful is also what makes the concept of relationship real. Becoming one is terrifying because it offers peace by abolishing the very conditions that makes peace meaningful in the first place.

Shuuji and Aoi actually show two different ways in which this form of false harmony (becoming one) can take shape. In Shuuji’s case, his whole life is basically built around acceptance through conformity. He’s learned to measure his worth strictly through external approval—essentially, through his ability to become what others expect of him. So of course his corruption arc culminates in a kind of self-erasure through merging with Lopmon in the form of Wendimon (after Wendimon devours him). He and Lopmon only truly become one through shared suffering. Wendimon is basically the image of a boy being eaten alive—both literally and figuratively—by his own desperation to become acceptable.

The fact that Wendimon has dual voices despite the union is interesting too, especially because Lopmon continues to voice the feelings Shuuji tries to suppress (“this hurts,” “I’m scared,” “I don’t like this”). Meanwhile, Shuuji remains trapped in the need to be accepted (“What should I do so you’ll finally accept me? What should I have done?”). It’s as though he has to override what Lopmon is expressing, because if he admits that this is painful—and worse, harmful—then in a sense he loses the only way he knows how to find his place in the world. He can’t yet allow pain to mean that something is wrong, because he still needs it to mean that he must try harder. So his false harmony is basically the annihilation of the self in the name of expectation. In other words, Shuuji loses himself in the need to be loved.

Aoi’s case is a little different from Shuuji’s even though her problem looks similar on the surface. While both of them have a strong social conscience built on self-suppression, Aoi seems to sincerely believe in the responsibility and propriety she feels obligated to enact, rather than being as overtly pressured into conformity as Shuuji is. In a sense she is still pressured, and part of her secretly resents it, but it’s subtler than in Shuuji’s case because she seems to have internalized it as a moral truth more than he has. And that’s what makes her feel more earnest in it.

Aoi’s healthy growth would involve becoming more assertive, more authoritative, and more willing to act and set boundaries. Wrathful does give her all of that, but unfortunately in a corrupted form. She (as Plutomon) finally comes to believe that her own idea of harmony is right and must be enforced. So, like I wrote in that previous writeup before, the fact that Plutomon keeps only Aoi’s voice—despite being a fusion of Aoi and Labramon—feels like a metaphor for Aoi’s care taking on a sort of maternalistic form. She no longer merely privileges her own voice, but begins to regard it as the voice responsible for deciding what is best for everyone else. In that sense, even speaking for Labramon becomes significant, because it shows that Aoi is no longer relating to her partner as a separate perspective to listen to.

I think that’s also why Plutomon feels more morally fraught. She is, in essence, care turned authoritarian. And like I just said, unlike Wendimon, she speaks only with Aoi’s voice because Labramon’s outspoken voice (which used to ground and check Aoi) now survives only inside Aoi’s certainty. So Aoi’s false harmony isn’t really the negation of self so much as its totalization where everyone else must fit into the order she now embodies. Where Shuuji disappears into what others want, Aoi forces others to blur into what she knows is right, so that there will be no more pain arising from “unnecessary” conflict.

The gendered theming works so well for much the same reason. Both of them begin by performing a somewhat exaggerated parody of the role they think they’re supposed to occupy. Aoi starts out as the overburdened feminine ideal: nurturing, excessively compliant, emotionally accommodating, always responsible even while resentful underneath it all. Meanwhile, Shuuji begins as the brittle masculine ideal: stern, forceful, leader-like, stoic, disciplinary—basically the embodiment of authority, though an oppressive one. Neither role fits them comfortably, because each is a performance shaped by pressure rather than genuine selfhood. That’s why both Aoi and Shuuji are so miserable.

Their arcs then move in opposite directions while ultimately serving the same thematic purpose. Aoi has to reclaim authority without turning it into domination, while Shuuji has to reclaim gentleness instead of seeing it as a shameful weakness. I know my friends and I joke about how Aoi becomes the dad and Shuuji becomes the mom of the group by the end of Truthful, but there’s actually some truth in that, I think. They don’t literally become each other’s gender, of course, but they finally stop allowing gendered expectations to amputate the parts of themselves they need in order to become whole.

Related to that, this also brings us to the heavy parental theming in both corruption arcs. Harmony, as a social ideal, is a sort of familial system scaled up. Society gets imagined as a household where leaders become parental in their authority and citizens become children. In this way, conflict equals disobedience and sacrifice equals duty. This metaphor shows up everywhere from nationalism to school culture to workplace organization. This is even expressed in Bowen family systems theory, where Bowen says the same emotional patterns that govern families also appear in non-family groups and whole society.

To further expand on Bowen’s concept, the real opposite of health isn’t actually conflict but fusion under anxiety. A family (or any close group) is an emotional unit, so when tension rises, people start managing anxiety by overaccommodating, overcontrolling, projecting, or distancing rather than by staying grounded as distinct selves in relationship. Bowen explicitly extends this beyond literal families to other forms of social groups as well, through what he calls the societal emotional process.

We can even relate the concept of differentiation of self in Bowen to the themes of Harmony in Survive. Bowen defines low differentiation as being so dependent on others’ acceptance that a person either changes themselves to please others or pressure others to conform to them. On the other hand, high differentiation means remaining connected while still being able to think clearly, act on principle, and tolerate disagreement. This lines up frighteningly well with Shuuji’s and Aoi’s arcs, because they are, essentially, opposite defenses against the same fear of separateness. In Bowen’s own wording, poorly differentiated people either “adjust what they think, say, and do to please others” (Shuuji) or “dogmatically proclaim what others would be like and pressure them to conform” (Aoi).

But anyway, back to the parental theming. The parent-child dynamic is also inherently hierarchical, which connects strongly to Harmony’s broader preoccupation with order. In that structure, the two sides are never truly equal, as the parent occupies a position of authority and control, while the child exists in a state of dependence and vulnerability. That imbalance makes the relationship a useful model for understanding how Harmony imagines order itself as something sustained through power and protection built on unequal roles.

Both Aoi and Shuuji try to step into the group’s parental principle, reproducing its hierarchical structure even when they do so clumsily, at least at first. However, their failure can’t just be reduced to individual weakness. After all, they’re children thrust into a vacuum of authority, trying to become the parental principle of the group in distorted forms precisely because they were never given healthy models of care and authority by the adults around them. Aoi becomes the nightmare mother: the all-containing caregiver who can’t tolerate disorder and wants to abolish selfishness by absorbing difference. Shuuji, on the other hand, becomes the nightmare father: the punitive authority who believes growth only happens by overcoming pain through discipline, before collapsing back into the abused child underneath that role.

Their healthier developments don’t actually destroy those parental energies so much as redeem them. Aoi remains caretaking and group-oriented, but she also grows into a leader who is less self-sacrificing without turning coercive. Shuuji remains serious about responsibility, but becomes more nurturing and guiding, almost teacherly, instead of domineering. Again, by the end, they’re still the “parents” of the group, just no longer trapped inside the false caricature they began with.

Aside from the gendered and parental theming, there’s also a subtler Harmony-related theme here around self-sacrifice. @digisurvive talked about this in one of their writeups, but one of Survive’s critiques of false harmony is the idea of erasing yourself for the greater good. The game keeps showing how morally noble that can feel, because you’re sacrificing yourself for the sake of others. But self-sacrifice in some cases can end up functioning as a distorted shortcut, because it lets you avoid the messier, harder work of staying alive, facing what you did, and learning to share your burden with other people—in other words, working through your relationships instead of just removing yourself from them. It’s a critique of a very particular social logic that if you are inconvenient, flawed, or burdensome, perhaps you can still become meaningful by disappearing usefully.

It’s exactly the logic of “redemption by death.” What makes Survive’s handling of this more complicated than a simple critique is that the game doesn’t only show that logic is failing. It also shows it working, or at least feeling like it works. Kaito’s death in Harmonious can be read as heroic self-sacrifice. But looking at what route it happens in and who’s dying, it’s kind of ironic that the one defined by passion and refusal to be managed actually dies by erasing himself for the group. Simply put, he dies a Harmony death. Conversely, in Wrathful, the Harmony-aligned Aoi dies uncompromising. She holds her conviction to the last and refuses to yield. In a sense, the routes don’t just swap final bosses, they also swap the moral logic of dying. Each alignment contains the shadow of the other when taken to an extreme. However, that structural irony is easier to recognize from the outside, because for the characters caught within it, self-sacrifice registers not as a thematic reversal so much as the only remaining way to matter.

With Shuuji, this is the clearest case, because his willingness (or should I say “eagerness”) to offer himself as a sacrifice isn’t pure altruism, since it’s entangled with his sense of himself as dead weight. He feels he has to make up for beingh a burden, and if he can’t be useful in life, then maybe he can finally be useful in death. However, that’s not accountability, because you can’t redeem yourself by disposing of yourself. Shuuji’s growth only begins once he stays alive long enough to own what he did and start changing in relation to both himself and others.

With Saki—another Harmony-aligned kid I haven’t really talked about yet—it becomes more complicated. Saki is actually a fascinating addition to this because her struggle is so quiet. If Harmony’s false face is “not being a burden,” then Saki—with her chronic illness—is the living embodiment of a “threat” to that harmony. Her self-sacrifice in Wrathful is her way of trying to balance the scale. And it does contain real courage and care, but it’s still tangled up with the fear of being forgotten and having lived meaninglessly. She wants to do something that will prove her existence mattered. So even here, Survive doesn’t present sacrifice as some clean moral ideal. It becomes tragic precisely because it comes from a girl who hasn’t yet fully learned that her life already has value without needing to end in a “meaningful” death.

Aoi’s case is, once again, slightly different from both Shuuji’s and Saki’s. She almost literally begins from the position of the self-sacrificing caretaker, the one who will carry the burden and do the work for everyone else. Wrathful then shows what happens when that self-sacrificial tendency festers long enough that the martyr ends up becoming a tyrant. Because if she always the one carrying everyone, then eventually she begins to feel that she has the right to decide for everyone too.

Going back for a bit, the self-sacrifice critique is also related to the whole parental theming in the sense that parents are culturally expected to sacrifice for their children. So invoking those themes together can be a way to examine how self-sacrifice is often treated as the highest form of love. The trouble is that this can become problematic very fast, because a caregiver or protector who only lives through sacrifice may start to moralize and even weaponize their suffering because they feel entitled to appreciation. “After all I’ve done for you” is basically the dark side of sacrificial care. Aoi’s corruption arc shows exactly this problem.

So in the end, Survive is critiquing the ethics of harmony that treats both conformity and usefulness as more important personhood, and that assumes the group can—and should—be preserved through the sacrifice of the self. However, real harmony can never be achieved by erasing the inconvenient self. That’s also why accountability matters more than martyrdom, because by sincerely facing what you did and learning through your mistakes, you have the chance to become someone who can live differently. That’s how relationships are repaired and sustained. Real harmony depends on letting separate people continue to coexist despite difference, while helping them bear what they can’t carry alone.

[nimadjart]

This was funnier in my mind

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digimon survive enemy evolution

[lokistahley]

Go Back to the Beginning

Hurricane Touchdown!!, 18”x24”, Charcoal, Ink, and Graphite, 2024

[fluxvectura]

Digimon Survive Week 2024 – Day 6: Dark/Loss

so I can pretend I actually participated in Survive Week (anyway, it can apply to day 5 too if you stretch it enough?)

@surviveweek