I was around 10 or 11 when I first began to imagine the future in the sense of thinking about who I would be and what kind of things I would do. Even then, that involved being thinner. I am, at 31, not the biggest I've ever been, but I am definitely bigger than I was as a preteen/teenager when I couldn't conceive of still being fat in my 30s. I am clearly fat. "Morbidly obese"even. But I'm discovering that I am, in a lot of ways, the person I hoped I'd be when I grew up. (I think tween me would be in awe of me, and that makes my heart happy.) Being the person that I am today, feeling the way I do about myself, while also being fat is (pun entirely intended) huge. I sincerely believed for a good chunk of my life that those feelings weren't accessible to me unless/until I lost weight. I've done the unthinkable, and that's such an incredible source of power. I want every other woman in the world to feel that power. #accidentalnovel #feelsqueen #unapologeticradicalselflove #vanity #mermaidism #fatgirlrevolution #wethewildflowers #365FeministSelfie #bonus #filtersasfeelings