Since the beginning of august, I feel as if my life is going to end at any moment. For all my life I have been seeing myself accomplish future thing and I have imagined how they will play out as the day comes. For example, one plans the weekend, but perhaps not in detail. However, one will inevitably imagine the future even if it is just for a second. Since august I have imagined my future, but it is unimaginable. I can not put it into correct words. I do not know how "I" feel about it. Eight days ago my class and I arrived from a four day holiday in London, England. I have no trouble remembering how it was and what I did, of course not in great detail. Prior to the trip, as we prepared ourselves, I felt nothing. I feel like I was unable to imagine anything. Sure, I had never been to London before, and yes, I had seen images and videos of the place. One would expect it to be exciting, but there was nothing. This is new. I think I have changed. I do not know why, I liked me. Nowadays I feel lost wen it comes down to myself. I do not know how "I" feel about myself. Nor will I ever find out, since I can not possibly by any means ever understand how any other individual feels anger, sadness, happiness or joy. This makes the ever so used question "How do you feel?" an impossible one to answer. What do "I" feel?