#whatisdesire

[imagodeiinitiative]

Purpose of desire...

An almost exact quote (heard and written down years ago and just rediscovered in a book by James Alison): "Desire is not the 'wrong.' The 'wrong' is the misplacement of the desire toward any object that does not fulfill the purpose of mortal desire, which is to love God with all our hearts and to love our neighbor as ourselves." (James Alison, theologian)

[hellotherehpdancer]

What does one deserve?

 So about a month ago I decided that I would make a list of the traits I desire in someone I hope to become my husband one day. Thinking man this is going to be a good thing and it’s nice to know what exactly I want to look for in the whole dating world. 

 Well fast forward and I now think about that list all the time. Not too bad at first but like most things I tend to start to think about I start to over think. With that over thinking comes this following feeling: “Do I sincerely deserve someone with all these traits I desire?” And in all honesty, at the moment, I don’t think I do. 

 I have to think about myself to see unworthy of someone in that quality; just like a fantastic book and movie says, “We accept the love that we think we deserve.” And it’s so true. In fact one person whom I know comes and came into mind upon writing this list. The thing is that I know I do not deserve someone like him, and I realize that he is way too good to me.

 So I am asking this question: Is ones own thinking of what they deserve in the world stems from what they desire to be in that person; that the envy of that is what controls our deepest desires? Or is it possible it can go to our most animalistic instincts that have gone back generations upon generations?