#white--ra66it

[swarmstar]

Whitewing

Name meaning: White, forbearance

Small, soft-furred, snowy-white molly (she/her) with green eyes, and broad shoulders.

Voice Claim: Kelli Cousins

Family and Education

Mother: Brightheart

Father: Cloudtail

Brothers: Dewnose, Snowbush

Sister: Ambermoon

Mate: Birchfall

Daughters: Dovewing, Ivypool

Mentor: Brackenfur

Apprentice: Cherryfall, Dewnose

Nature

ISFP

Lawful Good

Social

Platonic Love: Brackenfur, Brightheart, Cherryfall, Cloudtail, Dewnose, Dovewing, Ivypool

Romantic Love: Birchfall

Friend(s): Shrewpaw, Spiderleg, Squirrelflight

Mixed feelings: Ashfur

[jumpsparrow]

359. White tail

[redemptioninterlude]

[LIFT]: sender gently cups the receiver's face and lifts their chin so the receiver is looking up at them. ( creature & whoever you want )

reasons to cup a face meme ( accepting ) + @white--ra66it // creature

nobody tells you what happens to the MONSTERS brought about by human hands. creature is something akin to that, without the kinship, folk, people there to hold him through what had to be an awfully confusing time. how do you help, the helpless? those still learning the words, still looking to do right. she knows nothing about him nor how to speak, but she sits with that smile, patient and slow as she walked him through the motions. hurt? happy? sad? what does it mean, what does it look like? how does it feel?

pieces and parts - the creature is becoming HUMAN again.

she watches as he tries to explain the concept of love. and she finds it sweet, as he chases the girl from the cemetery, as she ruthlessly hunts those around her that have wronged her, in order to put together pieces of him into a whole. she asks him once. "how much of this is you anymore if you're now all of these OTHER PEOPLE instead? are you more them then you, or you than them?" how unfair it is that alice pushes and presses on things she knows he can't possibly understand.

but with such depth such as love in him, how could she imagine it any other way! "i think it's important. i want SO MUCH for you! but i hope that they're things you want for you rather than because she was there. but. i think you should trust your heart! even if it's messy, even if it can be wrong, the regret would be worse." palms that lack the warmth come to frame at her cheeks, resulting in a grin that splits wider. "what! i mean it! i think... at the very base of things, that is always, always something you need follow and chase after. everything else, it's not going to help you! so be a little selfish. only you can do that for you."

[redemptioninterlude]

[LAST LOOK]: before going into a situation that may result in their death, the sender takes a moment to cup the unaware receiver's face in their hand, just to take a final look of admiration at them before they go. ( marlene & sirius)

reasons to cup a face meme ( accepting ) + @white--ra66it // sirius

is it really something that they have to acknowledge? or is it something that has bled into the rest of what they were? who they were? what they were? marlene knows that as adults, they've missed out on the entirety of what it meant to be a YOUNG ADULT. to think they're going to live their dreams and tackle their terrors, she thinks that they were so, so positive about this at the start. that the were fighting for goodness, so how could they ever have something knocked against them? teeth drag at her bottom lip, glancing upwards to where she knows that he's left to stand.

it's a bit delayed, but there he was in front of her - she just hadn't realized, all caught up in how twisted up this had her head feeling. so self-absorbed she hadn't noticed sirius coming up in front of her, offering up an exhausted smile, and an uncomfortable grimace. neither of them are the sort of people who've been good at GOODBYES. it all felt so final, and marlene herself had to go back to that other side of things. to play pretend, to do her part. so why did it feel like she was missing out on the memories she could have with the people that she loved, when for some it could have been....

... THEIR LAST.

the thought has her eyes tearing up for a moment, BLINKING BACK FAST at him to try to leave herself more calm, or at least calm enough to tell. him to get his ass back before she had to send peter after him. or james. neither of them want that though, given james' current preoccupation with lily and their pregnancy. but instead, he doesn't wait for her to choke out her words ; palms instead coming to cup at her cheeks, sirius staring back at her for a moment, as if trying to find the words for something that neither of them could find. the heaviness of loss. the fear that knotted within their stomachs. don't die. they can't dare say that, lest it bring it forth into the world. "go on, then." her voice cracks, but she persists. "if you hurry, i might even still be here when you get back."

[chrissyfiedarchived]

💖i love your writing, how dare u 💖

i was confused where this came from and then i remembered alsjd. it has been a long week! so scattered brained. thank you for the sweet message, it means a lot 🥺❤

@white--ra66it

[godstrayed]

can i start over ? please . ( jonathan & steve )

ღ memes. ╱ always accepting.

　If it was weeks ago, Steve wouldn't have thought it was a possibility however with the name etched into his wrist he has to greatly rethink things. His hatred of Jonathan had been unjustified and unfair. Not to mention, he really made an ass of himself — bringing out the haughty, selfish, and cruel version of himself that was reserved mostly for surviving a dinner table at Loch Nora. Lashing out? Probably not wise when things weren't really going to work with Nancy after all. Not to mention Steve had totally misunderstood the situation to begin with.

"I guess we have to put it behind us now."

And the damning fact the n on his wrist had shifted to Jonathan fairly quickly. It's muddled. Steve is the only one who owes apologies but he's never really been good at it —— obstinately refusing when he was younger to mutter the words when his father grilled disappointment into him.

Brown eyes flicker, lashes framing honeyed hues. Start over. It sounds nice. It's also practical. Please. Steve's stomach lurches in that nervous dip that has his feet firmly planted because he knows how easy it is to get carried away when his heart leaps before his brain does. Jon hasn't always been this way, has he? "But I don't know what you have to start over for. I am the one who caused all our shit, Jon. I'm sorry — I just.." Really thought Jonathan might be stealing his soulmate not actually being the one. "I am really just a jackass sometimes."

[redemptioninterlude]

❛ my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost. ❜ ( marlene & sirius, oop )

yearning / pining meme ( accepting ) + @white--ra66it // sirius

they don't really TALK ABOUT THIS PART very much. until it finally happens all at once. graduation moves into next steps - and they're suddenly faced with the future in the last few months of class before they're supposedly going to be set free into the greater world. a more frightening one, by all estimations, realizing all too well just how twisted the reality was facing them on the other side of this. that the newspapers were lying and there were all sorts of whisper networks, firing off the most strange and awful kind of news.

but between herself and sirius black, they exchange looks. they know. don't they grow up around the indoctrination? how aligned it felt, with the worst that they'd heard as supposed punishment for something that could not be controlled nor was it anything other than a circumstance of birth. what else could it be? and from that BASE NOTION, so spawns a war that consumes them both, marking lines that proved violent within the sand.

and yes. there are moments. dangerous and close, their lives are on the line, and they know that it's true, anxiety lancing hot within stomachs, an acidic slash of awfulness whenever on the run, or trying so desperately NOT TO PANIC. marlene's almost been caught so many times, and even now, she calls for sirius to bail her out of a place she shouldn't be, her voice a whisper, the panic, alive. "i need you-" the whisper is low, knowing well what kind of things she's buried about what she's done to carry on this long within a war of attrition. and merlin. she wasn't sure if she could lose any more.

❛ my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost. ❜

"don't be foolish, sirius. i just need a distraction. i'll get you, you trust me with that fact, but i can't..." she's pinned into her position, like a moth who's wings had been sectioned out on a slide. damn. damn. knowing all too well how reckless her boy in red COULD BE when he wanted to be. "the cost of you is too high. so please. promise me. you'll be careful. i'm sending my location. lure them to the east exit, and i can make it out of here the way i got in."

[godstrayed]

there's a bad story every few years around here . ( jonathan & billy )

memes. ╱ always accepting.

　Was it really that surprising? This shit-hole looked like the backdrop of every sketchy low-budget horror flick he had seen. Disappearing people, ritualistic cult related deaths, and the star court bullshit. Yeah, it made sense why people thought Hawkins was under hell. Did Billy believe any of that? No, not really. He just didn't understand why anyone in their right fuckin' mind bothered to stay anchored down in the shitty town.

"Some real spooky stuff seems to be going on, Byers. Aren't you interested?" He asks, head tilted and smile forming. "Are you afraid of a little creepy crawlies?"