Back at it again, bright & early
Welcome to No Sleepvile officially... I think I probably got a... f#cked up repeatedly interrupted almost 3 hrs of sleep. But like usually once I’m up... I’m up... *sarcastically shouts*, “Joy!”.
Hmm, I have great ideas of what to ramble on about on here, until I actually log on... Typical...?
Whelp Good News anyhow, I already got a response for an interview. I haven’t replied yet because it’s about an open call kinda thing, and because they messaged me around 10:50ish pm... I don’t tend to respond to anyone outside of family after 8ish... Call me old fashion *Kanye Shrug*
I’ll probably take a nap waaaayyy longer than I intended in a couple of hrs, and then hurriedly rush to get my daily chores done, before my bro comes through. Somewhere in there, I’ll probably squeeze in a few more applications...
I’m just a little anxious and worried about having enough gas money to drive to these places and then eventually training.. But I’ve chosen to have faith and just walk out past the ledge onto air. There’s no way for me to help turn things around if I don’t start making moves.
Worst case scenario I can take out a small loan or ask for money from another family member. *Just typing that causes mental harakiri *
“UUUGGHHHHAARRRGHHH!! !!”, I fucking hate that I’ve managed to get my family into this situation.. Don’t get me wrong, we’re good and we have some options. BUT I’VE NEVER BEEN TRULY BROKE BEFORE...
NO, I’m not an irresponsible person, and yes I am financially literate & responsible. Maybe one day I’ll write a whole entry explaining how we got into this F#CKED situation, but know it’s easier than you think.
I honestly have always been in comfort for my whole life until now, and I believe everything happens for a reason. So “blah blah blah blah blah-blahdee-dah” ... I’m definitely not screaming poor me nor am I doing the, “I’m a victim” dance.
* in an upset English accent* “THERE SHALL BE... NO PITY PARTY HERE!”
(The Juggernaut is the pity party, I’m Domino)
Idk if it’s because of blogging or because I LITERALLY, JUST GOT THE GREAT NEWS THAT OUR RENT WILL BE PAID ON TIME!!! .. But I suddenly feel a lift of weight off my shoulders and a small breath of relief *inhales peace, exhales Ecstacy*
Hey, maybe I’ll relax enough to even squeeze in some video game time.. I’m a HUGE gamer, to the point that if I could be successful doing it as a job... I would literally start to fly w/ joy. But we can’t all be youtube/twitch sensations, and I think it’s too late for me to join a real team.. Eh, life...full of potholes of hindsight & disappointments.
I honestly still do plan on creating a gaming youtube (I know cliché, but I think I truly believe everyone should try doing youtube *Kanye shrug*) channel, but I have quite a few hobbies I want to start. I’m still adapting and learning to juggle my new roles in life as it is. I just know getting a steady job is going to cut soo many of my hrs out *rolls eyes*. But I’m holding my breath that it’ll be the kick in the ass that I need to get on my grind and hustle yet again.
But 1st things 1st... I... Idk where I was going with this. Lack of sleep is starting to take its toll.
I’m trying not to leave these entries so ridiculously short, but I doubt anyone is reading this anyhow... So who will miss the quantity?
My brain is now pinging with all the gazillion hobbies, tasks, projects, things, and activities I want to do. I write them all down and have even scheduled time out of my day today, to get on top of them. I’ll get it all done it’s just a matter of time. Hey, I started this thing, didn’t I? I say I’m on my way...
Whelp my stomach is starting to wake up and demand substance ...and I’m not a fan of eating and then immediately going to sleep. Plus I want to get a few minutes of freemium gameplay in.. So ah.. Moral of the sess: “Break down your mental walls, unshackle yourself, manifest your future, and walk with full belief that you can change your situation for the better”
