----------Warning: Vent Ahead-------------
About 'triggering'
I found this seemingly awesome Discord Server which was dedicated towards my beloved 'Ancient Magus Bride'. It seemed like it was a fairly big group of people, all of which share similar interests with me. I was pretty happy with the find and even went as far as sharing it to my tumblr and Facebook group for a brief moment...
So I was posting up stuff, but there was this particular moderator that seemed to have an issue with me-- this becoming evident as soon as the creator of the group noticed that I was the one behind these sketches. I felt this hostile air coming, I would start talking and the topic would quickly be changed back to them and their talents/favorite characters. I didn't let it get to me though, I felt it was probably just who they are and it should just be paid no mind.
I'm naturally a very angry person, and I've been working hard on changing that about myself and becoming more patient/calculating before jumping the gun. I try and not let things get to me, but, some situations are still pushing their luck with me, and today just happened to be one of those moments and I just wanted to share my opinion on the situation.
So, I was sharing videos, and my usual golden AMB finds. And we all know how I love to call Elias 'Bone-daddy'. I find it to be a super hilarious nickname for him, and it's fitting to his physique and personality. I also always enjoyed BDSM and am currently in the lifestyle with my mate. I find no offense to it and see no reason why anyone would have a problem with a silly name-- but I was completely wrong. Now, I understand if some people don't particularly 'dig' it, that's cool! Not everyone see's it the same way that I do, and that's fine! You're allowed that, as well as I'm allowed to have my fun with it as well. Just don't call him that? There's many better ways to handle the situation than getting offended.
But that's still what it snowballed down too. Something as silly as me just having fun and calling Elias 'bone-daddy' suddenly turned into: "I know some people who would get triggered by that." And this came from the moderator that seemingly had an issue with me to begin with. I simply wrote it down to I wasn't welcomed there, and simply left. Which I gotta say, fucking blows... I really enjoyed the idea of a Discord server for AMB fans, and was happy for the find- honestly, it took me a lot of courage to even click the link and give it a shot. I've been such a recluse for so long, and this is the reward I get for my efforts? Seemingly getting disliked from the start and all for what? Because I have a silly nickname for a character I fucking love?
Honestly, I really don't see what's the deal with people getting so easily triggered lately. I know that I have anger issues, but it was never over something like a joke. It's stupid that people would get offended over such a small thing, but yet people still do, and I believe that it's only rooted from a need to control others. How so? Well, because people didn't like the nickname, they used the excuse of 'triggering' in order to silence me from doing it. It had nothing to do with possible past traumatic experiences, these past experiences were only being used in order for them not to hear something they don't like. I literally had nothing to do with happened in their past, so why punish me for it? Why demean me over it? It's unfair...
It's been bugging me all day, because it's so unfortunate... Should I just start a Discord server of my own and hope for the best? Should I try my hand at this? A place where people can freely discuss their favorite series without having to step on eggshells? Because clearly I'm not welcomed in the one currently active, nor would I want to return to a place where I'm forbidden to have fun and be myself as it might 'offend' someone.