#why...am i like this

[nomorechoirs]

someone tell me why the first thought that popped into my head after my alarm went off was ‘I wonder what it will be like to wake up on my Wedding day’ 😳

[thelightofthingshopedfor]

as usual, an unrealistic list of things I’d really like to get done over the three-day weekend, which is not super likely to go well considering I’m posting this at 5 fucking p.m. but whatever:

gaming-related

I have exactly a month left on my (so far unused, whoops) PC Game Pass subscription, so I need to go over my wish list again and identify

which games have achievements

each game’s average playtime so I can prioritize

which ones interest me the most (emphasis on spooky games because...it’s spooky season)

try Fallout 76 once it finally finishes downloading, because I played the free weekend on Steam before and this is Microsoft, and...I think my character should just be on their servers but I don’t actually know hahahaha yeah that super didn’t work, maybe in a week when our billing cycle restarts I’ll try redownloading and reinstalling it, and anyway I did download and test a couple other Game Pass games

cancel my current SWTOR subscription so I’m not still paying for that while focusing on Game Pass games

play one of a few Flash games on my to-play list, if there’s something short

misc/housekeeping

check out my current backup situation and see how hard it would be to modify, I mean at some point I have got to set up an actual system but for some reason that’s intimidating so if what I currently have is at all usable, I should add to it

and then verify my drivers. I don’t know what’s wrong with my PC and I’m really not sure how to figure that out but since Memtest86 ran for three fucking hours and came back clear, it seems like this is the next major step in the troubleshooting process okay I actually didn’t do this but I did try some other things that also didn’t work

finish claiming all the Black Panther comics

a tiny bit of room cleaning? maybe?? I actually already did a very tiny bit, and this is something (one of...many things) I could do while on a call with friends, which is also in my plans

open a couple packages from one of said friends, which keen-eyed readers might note was in a to-do list ages ago oops

check Tumblr drafts

work on modifying or fixing some masks that currently aren’t working well

send an email that’s been on my to-do list for...a while

actually another email would be a good one too

keep trying to get Hazy to learn that letting people handle her paws results in good treats, so we can make an appointment for a Petco nail trim (and ideally clip them ourselves, sometimes)

ah fuck I still need to finish my will

creative

mildly edit the short fic I posted a few days ago, give it a title, and toss it on AO3

as always, some typing would be really really good

so would...some writing...

make some more potion bottles with, uh, random stuff I’ve collected on recent walks around the neighborhood (other potion bottles with other random ideas I’ve had wouldn’t be a bad idea either...and I would like to try one of the Youtube tutorials I found for making tiny hourglasses, but I guess that’s probably not a priority)

do a little reorganizing in my giant to-do lists for a) 1/6-scale projects and b) lyrics for titles

doing more research on parts for a 1/6 female Loki is really not urgent but...I might want to...and some things are on sale right now...

repair Tiny Loki’s tiny mask

rewrite my paper list of prioritized projects, which I needed to do anyway, but now I’ve also lost the original and that’s very annoying (also make a pocket for it in my notebook so this is less likely to happen again)

make designs for a few new Pride Cap shields, maybe? it really would not take long to make just a few, and now is when I should be adding stuff to Etsy if I have any hope of like...holiday sales

for that matter, now would be an extremely good time to at least start planning what kinds of holiday-specific things (and/or other new listings) I might be able to make in time to list them on Etsy

mental health

write up a post for the ADHD Reddit and maybe other related places

experiment with Notion and Airtable as organizational options

research some bullet-journal layouts to see if anything seems like it would work for me

in general, spend some time just kind of...brainstorming the type of system that would be useful for me in keeping my shit together, so I have a better idea of what I’m looking for (also probably helpful to list like...the big problems I’m trying to fix)

see if Penzu seems like a good option for a keeping-my-shit-together strategy I have in mind from my latest therapy session, and if not, do a little research on other journal-type possibilities

shopping I probably shouldn’t be doing

make a Michaels order tomorrow when both coupons will be active, because...there are some Halloween things that are somehow already sold out at the nearest store but I still want them...and they’re available at the store all the way across town...so...

possibly go to an estate sale benefiting the rescue group where we got Scully and Hazy, which is also all the way over on the other side of town but if I’m going over there anyway, I might as well

some stuff in my Etsy cart that I don’t want to miss

ditto eBay, I think mostly in my cart but also check watch list

AliExpress is also having some sales and yes there are more tiny things I want to buy for Loki’s arcane workshop, shut up (but also if I’m going to buy another Hot Toys body, this time for Thor, I gotta...take some measurements)

politics

call legislators

I really don’t know why I bother but I’ve found a bunch more articles recently that I’d like to throw on Facebook

for that matter at some point I’m probably just going to do a Facebook post like “hey, if you care about me at all, please consider voting Biden,” which also probably won’t make a difference but like...there’s a tiny chance it might

actually write those Sierra Club letters to voters that I meant to do like...two weeks ago...and maybe also some postcards, idk

maybe go to a thing Monday afternoon

also maybe just like...look through my links and folders to see who’s doing textbanking? like I don’t necessarily have to do any of it this weekend, just figure out what’s available?

........hmm this is all a terrible idea, probably, in part because my brain is looking at this absurdly long list and still going “oh shit, oh fuck, we’re forgetting something major aren’t we!!!”

[summerbreak]

uh oh sisters! *pokes the elephants foot*

[1000-directions]

“political animals” is a deeply flawed show populated by really annoying and unsympathetic caricatures. that being said...seb stan does such a good job trying to find some compelling, sympathetic piece of humanity in tj, even though he is truly not a well written character, that i am now having all these feelings about how tj deserves better? like what if he escaped his shitty self-absorbed family and moved out to la for some clean living, left drugs and alcohol behind for yoga and jogging, starting getting into natural detoxing and local organic food, really just reveling in finally being just one more anonymous gay man in a city full of them. and it’s so nice to be out of the spotlight and to be sober and to just enjoy dating and fucking in a way he never did before. and of course people recognize him, it’s inevitable, his dad was president, he can’t escape that. and he never really finds anyone he can give all of himself to, someone he can open up to about how hard it was to be in an international spotlight when he was so self conscious and depressed, how hard it was to stop partying away his pain. but he feels like he’s getting closer, like he’s really in a good place in his life where he’s ready to let someone in, he’s open to the possibility of letting someone love him like he’s always wanted to be loved. and then maybe he’s running on the beach one day, and he loves the way it feels to use his muscles and push himself and sweat it out in the sun, and then all of this sudden a HUGE dog leaps up at him out of nowhere, and he’s startled, but he loves dogs, so he bends down to pet him, not that he has to bend far, the dog is MASSIVE, and then he hears someone yelling “cliff! cliff, no!” and when he looks up, he locks eyes with the kind of beautiful man that he was hoping to meet when he moved out here.

[yureiiii]

i just dreamt the boys were about to go on stage. they were pissed uruha was late so they decided to go on anyways. 3 minutes later uruha walks by...decked out in nothing but one of those medieval knight helmets and tight yellow fuckingn booty shorts w a duck winking on the ass...he grabbed his guitar and screeched as he charged towards the stage...

[hallo-catfish]

i have two major reports due this week so, naturally, i am writing fanfiction

[caffeina-felina]

my baseline, everyday depression: [whispering in my ear about existential 'what ifs' and fears about life goals]

me: yawn, bitch

my depression taking its BOSS FORM: [gets out a megaphone, starts chanting the absolute dumbest thing my RSD gets set off by]

me: ah ☹