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Experiencing, and going out to have an experience

You may stray off your path, but that just means the one you needed to take was broader than the plan. Sometimes I do things just to go see; it's not a "and if it fails well fuck" scenario, but taking the chance to experience more things. Some day I hope to step out even further, broadening my horizons while laying more evenly on the earth...seeing other perspectives is almost an end in itself. You may never know jazz if you have to ask, but appreciation is the goal and the journey :)--feel free, to wonder

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I'm afraid to play video games...

It's been so long: is that why? Slow down slow down...I need to breath. It's been so long since I sat down and could sink my teeth in to a good JRPG, or any type of game for that matter. When I was on crutches before from falling off my skateboard home from work, I had 1 week of definite no work to sit and veg. Even then, I got in to Stanley's Parable, Gone Home and a bit of other games like Limbo, but never REALLY felt immersed. Not immersed like you're not thinking about the world around you, but you know that feeling!? When all you care about is the game, you constantly feel whisked away whether the game is going good or bad, and when you have to leave the screen for any reason you feel a little torn; totally in need to return, yes, but even if the teeeeniest bit you acknowledge somewhere along the line that you wish your spirit had outdone whatever pulled you away. I don't want to get back for that though, but I suppose I don't just want to be able to relax either:HA, ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I'M WAY TOO ECCENTRIC FOR THAT--* cough cough* I mean, I've found so much more to love in these fantastical other realities, and I'm fully aware the way in which I loved them hasn't changed. Ah, whatever doubts have you I'll just say it, I believe my biggest need ( not want, NEED) is to find myself back where I belong. Maybe I can't go back... it isn't found in simply rest and relaxation--happiness doesn't come in stimulation and feeling, but in experience that satiates the will and heart of blah blah blah... Alright. I just spent 15 minutes looking up Philosopher quotes on happiness, since I couldn't remember the last one. This brought about a new status: how whenever I extensively read philosopher's quotes, I all at once begin to truly believe nothing else matters; do what you must. I'll leave the jargon about me playing games, and even the title of this post here in this status. So that perhaps you may be weaved and entangled as I was, or am, - even if only a measure of the amount - and see the freedom I'm now "thinking." I'm "Thinking", that is my will to do and curiosity to know, tell me I can just sit down, play games, like this all never happened. I'm gonna go to sleep and see what happens next: to say I'd go play games after, well, being so routed ruins the whole point of why I changed directions with this post, doesn't it? I've been working

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Start With Why - Simon Sinek TED talk

Simon Sinek discusses the principal behind every successful person and business. A simple but powerful model for how leaders inspire action, starting with a ...

There's a card sometimes called "Power" or "Strength", that when explained and pictured, ALWAYS, denotes love as it's source. To inspire, to lead, to control, is but products of the self-actualization that let's us create that in others. "Start with the why." I still believe this to date, but have learned that HOW we do things and WHAT we do should not be forgotten either. Why? Because there's no use keeping your head turned to the stars, a robot of your effect on earth!! Ask the why, but why you do something that way; and why you do what you're doing--not just the final means to an end, but that specific end, what is it? Why is it done? Is this right? The deeper you search from the heart, from the Self, the closer you are to what we all are, and to the greatest "Strength" of all: the ever expanding, understanding, linking love. Or something like that.

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Remembering your shadow

"It's important to have goals, dreams, and beliefs in one's life, including in their work. Although, the minute you decide to do anything for them you turn a blind eye to yourself: there's almost, if not nothing noble about a blind beast. Remember what you do things for, keep your eyes open to the results, but never lose sight of how and what you do to get there." In darkness or light, we must endeavor to define who we are. The scales are ever present; the blade, but symbol of your resolve.

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"Starting to get a little too surprised I make it home in one piece each day...I think I underestimated you, world. Sitting jobs beat walking jobs; my flat feet are going to have it Being a drone for some shallow whim in college could have been wiser, could still be That I should have directed some years at what could create and do for me, from me That I should have carelessly taken any opportunity in my path, heedlessly Been more heartless in business: sell higher, cut n run sooner Gosh...next I'll start thinking skinnier and bustier is better is just better/easier in life. That's not me, none of those things built who I've become--but isn't that the point? My feet and I...we're getting tired. This is more than learning to drive, the feet are just small metaphor of the whole. Standing my two feet on the cold, barren desolate...with nothing but the weight of my shoulders and my back. I wonder what it's for, if it was worth anything..." The status I was going to make when I got home, but fell asleep before finalizing lol. Was I just really tired, or does it run deeper? Of course it runs deeper, yet what's reflected is not necessarily the image itself - -

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I suppose I didn't mention, but I'm in to The Tarot

Now don't get the wrong idea, I don't read cards, and I only ever did as a sort of practice routine for fun, to better LOOK IN TO THEM to see what they mean. I'm hungry now, so I'll get in to what clicked on the light bulb of The Tarot for me some other time, or you can ask me in my AMA. Heck, maybe I've already said so...it's been a while since I was here. TRYING TO STAY DEDICATED THOUGH GUYS, bear with me and encouragement is verily appreciated ='3!!! That said, I originally came back to tumblr at the end of last year/this year because I thought something like "These thoughts are deep. Is it fair to share this with only my friends on FB? No....no, valuables such as this should be expressed to THE WORLD--having my settings on public isn't enough!" Yep, something along those lines and not just from belief, but as a matter of understanding you could say. "Well, isn't that the same thing? You believe you understand yourself and others better? And then we do the dosey-doe and get in to the ' does anything exist argument?' and other base philosophical ideas NO ONE'S INTERESTED IN =D!" LOL but SERIOUSLY, there comes a time and space of mind to assume, to "suspend belief." I ask that of those shooting from the idea we never know anything. For every and anyone else, what I write here will barely require suspended belief. OK maybe a little will, but I'm not speaking from or out of divine experience YOU can't have. That's why I love and feel so inspired by imagery and symbolism of The Tarot, because it learns of the Self through simply the human condition. So rather than ask or force to suspend belief, I OFFER you to listen, feel and consider. Heck, especially to discuss =P-- the wisdom of the Tarot with me. P.S. I'll try to do about a post  a day. I'm updating here from my FB so I'm going to do a little backtracking to which Major Arcana I feel my life is personally currently at. Every thought is a step, every step is a lesson though all of which I cherish, so really...it's all good stuff lol. =)