I have been abused by rp partners. I have been through just about every cycle of abuse there is, with RP. I'm saying this because I have seen so many posts about abuse in the rp world right now, and I am so fucking glad. I am so fucking glad, because I know exactly what happens to people, and I'm still fucked up. I am so screwed up from what people have done and said. I have no confidence, I'm terrified to approach people, I hate half my writing. I abandoned the book I was planning, and I no longer can TALK TO people when I'm upset because I'm terrified of burdening them or seeming like a whining child. This isn't uncommon. Something that a lot of people probably know, is that while it is incredibly easy to defend your friends, it's hellishly difficult to defend yourself. There isn't always something that you yourself see, when a partners abusing you. You think you earned everything they're doing to you. You think you're a burden and you're lucky they pay you any mind at all. After all, they're so much better than you, aren't they? So talented. How lucky are you?.. This is bullshit. You are wonderful and beautiful. You're an amazing writer or artist or both in your own right. You are deserving of so much kindness and love. Don't separate from your friends, lovelies. No one is worth losing people you care for that GENUINELY care for you. You are wonderful. Don't you ever let anyone tell you otherwise.
