#withhighhopes

[theroseandthestag-blog]

Hey y’all. Just to let you know I’m basically not using this blog anymore, and mostly using my personal. You can follow me there on withhighhopes for a LITTLE bit more of a varied experience. 

Don’t worry, my love for Finn or GoT/ASOIAF hasn’t faded in the slightest, I was just finding it too much hassle to check this one. I’ve followed practically everyone I’m following on there anyway. 

So please come over and say hi :)

[fanniballecter]

Too Long Since I Held You All Wrong | Matt Cardle/Aiden Grimshaw | X Factor 2010

Matt is angsting over the pressure of performing to millions every week and Aiden tries to comfort him. Set in 2010 because that's where my heart lives.

Read on AO3 or under the cut.

Aiden knows there's something off as soon as he opens the door.  The lights are off but he hears shuffling as he enters.   "Matt?" he questions.   It must be him.  Paije is downstairs watching TV with the 1D boys and no one else has reason to be in this room.   "Yeah, mate, it's me."   There's a crack in his voice that makes Aiden's brow furrow as he feels on the wall for the lightswitch.   "Actually, could you leave the light off for a bit?"   "Yeah mate, no worries."   He shuts the door behind him and stands in the middle of the room, chewing on his lower lip.  Matt sighs and it sounds shaky.  Aiden looks down at his hands and picks at his fingernails.   "You okay, Matt?"  It feels like the right thing to say.   "Yeah, yeah, 'course I am."   In the mid-darkness, Aiden sees him wipe his eyes.  He nods and takes a step back towards the door but stops himself.   "Are you sure?"   He has to ask.  Matt's his best mate and even if Aiden's crap at comforting people, it's the least he can do.   "Yea-"  His voice breaks.  "No.  Aiden, I'm so scared."   He drops his face into his palms and his whole body shakes.  Aiden stiffens and his fists clench.  He knows he should rush over and pull Matt into his arms- no, too much; he should probably pat him on the back and try to reassure him.  But his feet are rooted to the floor.  For Matt, though, he can try.

He staggers over to the bed and sits down gracelessly next to Matt, probably too close, but he doesn't move as Matt leans into him.

"This is so crazy, man.  We're performing for millions every week, there are paparazzi everywhere, people just trying to dig shit up from the past...  It's...  I dunno, mate, it's just a bit overwhelming.”

Jeez.  He hasn't seen Matt like this before.  He has a great line about helping him ease the tension, but knowing him he'd only end up messing it up.  Besides, he can tell now isn't the time for his awkward attempts at flirtation that Matt never seems to notice.  He stares at his clasped hands between his knees.  Aren't adults - proper adults - supposed to have it all worked out?  He's kind of relieved that even though Matt's older, he's still just the same as Aiden.  Aiden thought he had it bad being known as the 'brooding one' but people expect so much from Matt; it's got to be hard.

Matt inhales but his breath catches on a sob.  With an uncertain grimace, Aiden raises his hand behind Matt and places it in the centre of his back.  He barely has time to take in how warm Matt’s skin is before the older man throws his arms around him and buries his face in his neck.  He feels Matt’s tears on his skin and this is so intimate and he’s just sitting there so stiffly.  He needs to reciprocate, anything to stop Matt from pulling away.

Matt’s grip on him starts to go slack so Aiden acts fast, reaching out his other arm to fully envelop Matt who seems to sag in relief and pull himself closer.  Aiden starts to pat his back but it feels so insincere and not how he wants to express himself or comfort his friend, so he strokes soothing circles.  His fingers curl so he’s dragging his nails across Matt’s shirt as well, partly so he has something to grip onto, to ground himself a bit, but mostly for the shiver it sends through his friend.  Even though his posture is too rigid and his left side kind of hurts with the way he’s leaning to hug Matt and he’s holding him all wrong, there’s something about the way their arms fit around each other that makes him forget why he’s holding Matt in the first place or why he even felt uncomfortable about it.

“You’ve got nothing to worry about.  You’re sound,” Aiden says softly, unsure where the words are coming from.  “I’m with you, okay?  No matter what happens, I’m with you.”

Maybe his voice catches at the end and maybe he’s revealed too much but he feels Matt smile against his neck and finds he doesn’t really care.  Slowly, Matt’s grip on him lessens but he doesn’t pull away.  Instead, he raises his head so he’s eye-level with Aiden and presses their foreheads together.

“You’re golden, Aid.  Thank you.”

His eyes are closed and Aiden is once again struck by the intimacy of the situation.  It’d be so easy to just lean forward and touch their lips; if Matt got weirded out, Aiden could just say he got caught up in the moment and they could laugh it off.  Matt’s a nice guy; he’d understand.  Maybe Matt even likes him back; Aiden never has been able to tell, always too focused on making himself look approachable and at ease.  He screws up his face thinking about it but eventually decides it’s now or never.

Matt starts to pull away as Aiden lunges forwards so he only catches the corner of his lip and his chin but the intention is clear enough.  Aiden feels his face go red as he straightens up.  He clasps his hands back together and bites hard on his lip, hunching his shoulders and looking at his knees.

“Finally,” Matt whispers.  “I thought it’d never sink in.”

He brings his hand to Aiden’s face and tilts it so they’re looking at each other again.  This time it’s Aiden’s eyes that are damp, glinting in the limited light.  Matt’s tongue darts out to wet his lips and he leans in, pressing their mouths together.  Aiden forgets everything, everything but the points where he and Matt are touching, the contrast between the roughness of his stubble and the softness of his tongue sliding alongside Aiden’s, the gentle sound of their breaths mixing.  Neither wants to pull away but when they do, the warmth in Matt’s eyes lets Aiden know that he isn’t afraid any more.

[astoldbyangela-blog]

Can you post the link to that interview of Finn you just gif'd? Thanks! X

Here you go  :)

[astoldbyangela-blog]

Do you know of any other ways to watch Finn in Sleeping Beauty than through Amazon? It doesn't work in the UK :( xx

Unfortunately, no. The film’s only available in Amazon USA.

Had to jump through heaven and hell (okay, maybe not.. but you get the idea LOL) just to get a copy the legit way from Amazon USA, since I don’t even live in the US.

Sorry can’t be of much help. :(

[chainedroad-blog]

Your tag on those pictures is appropriate :P

Ugh I know right! Hahaha damn I missed him.

[my-witty-username]

I was tagged by kaleidocunt

Rule 1: Post the rules. Rule 2: Answer all of the questions the tagger has asked, and then make 11 new ones. Rule 3: Tag 11 people and link them to your post. Rule 4: Let them know you’ve tagged them.

I was asked:

1. What is your strangest phobia/habit/ability?

Phobia - I'm scared of wearing rings :/ When I was little I stuck a ring that was too tight for my finger and it was quite a struggle to take it off so that might be why...

Habit - I'm really punctual? I mean I can do the same things at the same time every week without even realising it...

Ability - Unfortunately I think I don't have one...

2. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep?

12 hours... I think?

3.  What was the last song you danced to?

I don't remember :/ 

4. You can bring one person back from the dead as a crazed zombie that will start the apocalypse, who would you chose?

Albert Einstein

5. If evil-doers invaded your country would you rush to the battlelines to defend the motherland or hide in a box?

I would definately hide in a box...

6. You can create an animal from already existing ones, what would it be and what would it have?

Hmmm... that's pretty hard, I like birds and bunnies, so a flying bunny???with a brightly coloured wings????

7. What would you rename yourself?

Victoria 

8. Which two fictional character would you make it into your parents?

Jack Bauer from 24 (my life wouldn't be boring lol) and Gaby from Desperate Housewives.

9. Who was the last person that drove you insane?

A colleague at work... 

10. You can have a really weird superpower, what would it be?

I'm not sure if it classifies as weird but making people like me?

11.  If a loved one was to serenade you, what song would you most like them to sing?

James Morrison - You Make It Real (the best love song ever!)

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My Questions:

1. If you could sing/act what would you choose - to be a singer or to be an actor (actress)?

2. What's the best thing about life?

3. Why do you get up out of bed in the morning?

4. Are you a cat or a dog person?

5. Why did you join Tumblr?

6. If you can start a new life what would you choose to do?

7. What is love?

8. What are you most proud of?

9. If you could spend a day with your favourite character what would you show them?

10. What kind of present would you give to your favourite celebrity?

11. Overall, are you happy?

[hellyeahmaiden-blog]

[fanniballecter]

heyy, a while ago you wrote a brilliant matt cardle/aiden grimshaw fic that i loved. would you write another for the same pairing if i gave you a prompt? thaaaanks xxx

Hi!!  I'm really glad you liked the story; I loved writing it!  I can't promise I'll write anything as I'm quite busy with uni work, but I'll definitely take a look at your prompt. :)  (It could even form the basis for my next creative writing assignment again, haha!)