this is the deepest thing I've ever written/my philosophy in a survey
When—if ever—are you most likely to wear make up? How do you feel about going into public without make up? Do you know anyone who doesn’t like to?
I wear makeup when I feel like it. If I have to time/feel like putting it on, I do. Always for 'special' occasions. I am totally fine going into public without makeup. Yes, I do know people who don't like to.
What is one quality or ability you have of which you are very proud? Is there anything that you do that makes you feel ashamed?
I am proud of my passion. I am ashamed of my selfishness.
Do you believe in Karma? If so, have you seen it affect anyone—either positively or negatively?
I don't believe in karma per say, but I think if you're a good person people around you know it and are more likely to help you out/send good things your way. If you're not nice, people will be less inclined to be nice to you.
In general, do you require concrete evidence to believe something, or are you okay with relying on what others tell you?
It depends on what that something is. I tend to want to find out as much as possible about something and then make my own decision. For some things I do take them at face value because it doesn't really matter/affect me. But the more evidence the better in my opinion.
What was the last subject on which you did some sort of research? What interested you about that subject, and what did you learn from your findings—if anything?
Well I'm researching horses. Read a really interesting chapter on the Kazahk people and their horse-oriented culture.
What kinds of things do you consider “trashy”? What is it about these things that makes you view them in that way?
I think 'trashy' is a shaming term. Generally it's applied to activities/people that an individual perceives as being lesser, or having less sophisticated tastes/lifestyles. Just because people enjoy or do different things than you might doesn't make it lesser.
Is hatred something you often deal with? How many people in your life, if any, would you say that you hate?
I don't really believe in hating. It does nothing and I think understanding and prevention are better attitudes to take. Hate spawns from pain, anger, and misunderstanding, and often results in more actions that cause more hate. I think there are horrible things that happen in this world, but you have to understand why they happen, and often this evokes pity and reveals problems in our civilization. It is okay to be hurt, and to be angry, but being those things to the extent of hate, or at least feeling that without any true knowledge is just detrimental not only to yourself but to others.
How do you feel about people who are constantly complaining, or people who claim to hate so many things?
The world is full of wonderful things, so I don't understand why the bad has to be focused on all the time. Little complaints like work or school is fine, but if you complain about everything over and over and yet do nothing about it I tend to get annoyed.
Do you look people in the eye when you are speaking with them? How does it make you feel when someone will not meet your gaze?
Yes, I make a conscious effort to do that, otherwise I will be the person not looking the other person in the eye. If the other person doesn't I think they are shy, uncomfortable, or something like that.
When was the last time that you had to deliver some unfortunate news? How did this go over with the receiver of the message?
A few weeks ago. It wasn't THAT unfortunate, at least for the person I was telling it to, so it was okay.
Did you attend church when you were younger? Do you still go to this day? What kinds of things influenced that decision?
I did, sort of. My parents put me into a religious school in grade one, but I'd never been to church before that (they both believe in god I guess, but are not practicing Christians in any way). I was there for five years. My mom took me to a few churches when I asked, but even in my years at that school I rarely attended the Sunday services, though I had to go to the weekly in-school ones and attend the religion class.
I do not go to church, lol. I've been a few times with friends, namely to watch them sing or whatever but that's it.
Obviously my parents lack of religiosity was a major influence. We never prayed or talked about religion at all - not that it was off limits, but I didn't really have an interest. The most religious years of my life were those five at school, but I hated the religion class (I had a big end of the world fear) and once I left I didn't think about it THAT often. Then of course I matured and began to question and all those other influences.
How would you describe your general mood? Are you prone to being emotional?
I'm emotional but in a healthy way, I guess? I'm a pretty positive person for the most part, but I have bad days, particularly if I don't get enough sleep. I'm emotional in the sense I can be brought to tears pretty easily from almost any emotion, haha. I'm not one to get angry though.
Concerning school, did you enjoy it more as a child or as a teenager? What things led to that preference?
I've always enjoyed school, or at least aspects of it. I often didn't feel challenged enough so I didn't like that (then of course there were times where I was lost/felt too challenged). I've always had good friends too, and most of my drama years were middle school (which sucked). So elementary was pretty good, and high school was pretty good for the most part. I'd say I preferred high school because of band, though I was probably happier in school as a child.
In general, what instrument do you hear most clearly when you are listening to a band? Or, are you one to focus more on the singing, while the instrumental aspects blend into the background?
I really hear the drums; I love deconstructing the beat. I also automatically pick out 'unique' instruments. I love listening to music and isolating one instrument or finding musical techniques and stuff. I'm a band geek, haha. I focus on the lyrics/singing too of course, but my favourite songs have lyrics AND instrumentation.
Do you know anyone who is especially sensitive, or are you someone who is? In what ways?
Yes, I do. One is sensitive in the way that she is very intuitive about others' emotions. Others are sensitive in the way you have to watch what you say/do and also accept the fact they are going to be hurt/angry over something you don't even notice...often.
Generally, how does constructive criticism make you feel? Are you better at receiving it or delivering it?
It all depends on deliverance and if I respect the person it's from. I'd rather receive it but I appreciate not being completely torn apart because I do need some approval.
Are you currently seeking anyone’s approval, or striving to gain someone’s attention? If so, what makes this person’s opinion so important to you?
Well I'm trying to prove myself to myself...and I am working on a research project for a prof and I REALLY want it to be good because I need to get into grad school and I really value him so I don't want him to think hiring me was a mistake.
What do you think of the statement “Abortion is murder”? Are there any circumstances for which you believe abortion should be an option? Why or why not?
I think that statement is true, to an extent. I'm pro-choice/abortion for the first trimester, but after that I think it should be medical emergencies. More importantly I think that if you want to outlaw abortion you should maybe have better support for teen parents, single mothers, better foster/adoption programs, etc. I think abortion is needed for several reasons: rape, medical reasons, accident/too young/too poor/too alone/not ready/possible medical issues in the first trimester. Plus even if illegal, it will still be available, to the great detriment of the women who seek it. People think it's an easy choice for the women who choose it but it's very emotionally taxing and the most difficult choice a woman has to make - and she is shamed for it no matter what the situation or reasons behind it. That's unfair. Yet if she keeps the baby, suddenly the kids health/other things don't seem to matter so much.
Do you struggle with your body image in any way? What are some things that you dislike about the way that you look? Would you ever consider extreme measures to alter your appearance?
I wouldn't say I 'struggle'. Sometimes I think I'm ugly and fat. Other times I think I'm healthy and maybe even a bit pretty. I hate it when people ask me about my smile because it makes me feel like a disfigured freak (though it depends on the way you ask me...actually no it doesn't). I would not consider extreme measures.
Have you ever donated blood? What do you think of the people who are unwilling to do so?
No because needles, time, and I couldn't donate for a while because I've travelled every year. It's their choice.
How do you feel about having online friends? Are you more likely to befriend people online or offline?
I LOVE ONLINE FRIENDS. Both.
Are there any types of people that simply intrigue you? If so, describe?
People intrigue me generally - especially smart people and people with passion for something. It doesn't matter what it is, but listening to someone talking about something they love is wonderful.
Do you consider crying a form of weakness—even if only regarding yourself? How do you think your experiences have influenced your answer?
No, crying is not weak. I cry all the time - as a release, because I'm sad/whatever.
