#worry rant

[pinkevilwriter]

Worried Writeblr

As much as I love being a writeblr, but I think I need a break from the writing asks. Last night, right before I went to sleep, I started having the worries again about other unknown people (outside of tumblr) might take my ideas. I know there are some brave writeblrs out there on their tumblr blogs. Except I'm not. I'll still write though.

[thatdevilsbeverage]

aw come on.

i had wicked bad cramps last night, they kept me up til almost 430. So, naturally, I expected a crime scene the next morning. The tampon wasn’t even totally covered and there was 0 leakage.

so i looked that up

IT COULD BE IMPLANTATION SPOTTING

IM SO MAD THAT MY BODY IS BEING SO PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE

JUST MAKE IT MORE OBVIOUS IF ITS ONE OR THE OTHER PLEASE!!!!!!

[acrazyhotmess]

Every time I eat something a voice tells me I'm disgusting and I don't need the food and I'll gain 20 lbs if I keep on and I don't know what to do

[onlyoneovaryohgress]

What I don’t want to see in S2

Spoilers ahead...

Cassie falling in love with Cole in 2043 when he’s absent there because she sees all the little things he’s saved to remember her with and she finally understand where he comes from and why he is the way he is, but when she gets back to 2015 and is ready to open her heart for him, he’s changed and doesn’t have feelings for her anymore so we have to wait until they are at the same wavelength AGAIN and I’m gonna be so angry.

[chillediplier]

Does it worry me?

Yes, it very much does. The last time I heard of an inspirational internet figure going to the hospital, it was Monty Oum. It’s in my nature to worry probably more than I should, but seeing markiplier on instagram in a hospital chair in that gown...

It worries me. I can’t help but think this is one of the hardest years to get through so far.

Mark said not to worry. Mark said it’s not too bad. But in truth, if Monty could have said those things, he would have as well...

I’m going to stress and worry, because I thought that, with the outpouring support Monty had from fans, he was going to be ok. And there was no reason for me to worry. It’s bad luck for me not to.

The worst always happens when I’m not concerned.

[starry-dreamer]

Working on Alternate Versions of Characters

So yesterday I randomly attempted character development out loud with Storybrooke!Mulan (and her grandfather) as well as my potential Hogwarts AU Linguist (I’m getting all that figured out, how that AU works…and now I feel real bad for having bugged nooneunimportant about it repeatedly because of my stupid impatience…I’M REALLY SORRY!).

With Storybrooke!Mulan, it was more of the same, her trying to get the sword back from Gold. Because I had been doing Eleven the same day as nooneunimportant’s Hogwarts AU muse, one time I meant to do Gold’s voice and accent and did Eleven’s by accident. Oops. (Seriously, perfecting my Eleventh Doctor impression for my Alys Reed fanfic audios has practically ruined my ability to do any other British accent. I learned to do a British accent for a play called Mr. Scrooge’s Christmas that I was in in 6th grade, and I just kept it up. But I used to be able to do a British accent - an RP accent I guess - for practically every tone of voice, from young girls to adult men. Now I find I’m losing that ability). I also did a scene with Mulan right after she leaves Gold’s shop where she meets David/Charming. I can’t do Josh Dallas’s voice or anything, but at least there’s no accent to worry about. At first, Mary Margaret was in the scene too, but then I remembered I set the sword thing after David’s speech in “We Are Both,” and at that point Mary Margaret and Emma are still in the Enchanted Forest. Then I did the aftermath, with Mulan telling her grandfather what happened and her grandfather going to see Gold. This bit included my attempt to sound like Belle. I love Emilie de Ravin’s accent but I just can’t quite replicate it. I just checked, she’s actually Australian. I don’t really know how to talk Aussie.

With Hogwarts Linguist (or Lindsey Kirke) I played with several scenes. This was mainly developing her friendship with Professor John Smith (nooneunimportant’s muse). To fit with her being a Time Lord in her Main Verse, I made her a Time Lord wizard like him. (I originally was going to make it a Fobwatched verse, with The Linguist in the human form she took to hide from House, but changed my mind after reading his bio again and being intrigued by the Time Lord wizard idea. Gah I really should not steal even background info from others’ muse bios…bad girl! But then again, maybe his muse wouldn’t mind having another Time Lord around?). Only she’s pureblood and her ability to see time the way their kind can do is stronger and more consistent. And she figured out long ago that he’s using a Time-Turner, but he doesn’t know she knows.

Unfortunately, I may have turned him into a bit of a bumbler, with him, for example, saying when she mentions nonverbal spells (after taking pity on him and unlocking a cabinet door for him with a nonverbal Alohomora), “I teach Muggle Studies, not Charms.” (Doing nonverbal spells is actually learned in Defense Against the Dark Arts, not Charms. It’s NEWT level and is introduced in book 6). Also I had him make that same mistake with the Time-Turner that Hermione did, of just missing himself, like where Hermione would leave Harry and Ron and then suddenly appear at the top of the stairs behind them.

I really shouldn’t pretend to interact with someone else’s muse without knowing a lot about them. I could be portraying the person totally wrong.

Ok I should go to bed now.

[shyparadox]

I am only the second worst at swimming...(Worry rant)

Hahahaha....so I was only second worst at the job screening today. There was a guy who was swimming way slower than me...

I think I was within the time limits for both things (they weren't really clear about the whole thing...? or anything?) The 400m swim had a 10min time limit and the tow (which was actually 200m not 100m...they lied) had a 6min time limit. Good news: I didn't have to do the 3km run because that was only for the people applying for the beachfront positions (I was applying for pool only).

They were really unclear in emails and on the phone about the details for this job screening. Unimpressed. T_T Well at least it is done. I am pretty positive I won't get hired but whatever. And I'm pretty sure everyone else was judging me on my swimming inability but at least they were doing it quietly

[shyparadox]

Dreading an athletic job screening tomorrow...kind of a "worry rant"

I can do these things, but only if it's not timed. =_= Even so I'll be exhausted...and I'm really worried about looking like a weak idiot...knowing my luck the other 30 people applying for these positions will have been on swim teams since they were 12! So they'll be flying down the lanes doing front crawl, but me I'll be doing back crawl...because front crawl is faster yes but I can never get enough air. @_@ Gahh...going to a place I don't know, people I don't know, looking like an idiot...!

Also I'm worried because when I called to register the receptionist said that I need to bring running shoes...oh god no. DX I could have sworn that this job said that there was no fitness test (my dad showed it to me and applied for me)! But I can't even check because the job listing was taken down because the application deadline has gone by! I am not athletic! I am certified as a lifeguard and swimming instructor but that is it! Why is running even involved!?

But I have to go to this thing...because I haven't heard anything from any of the other jobs I've applied for... :( and my parents say I have to...ugh I feel so sick right now thinking of how idiotic I will look in front of those strangers tomorrow...really I can't think of anything worse...