@wratheart / @godbanes said : ❛ it will be alright. we’ll solve this problem as we’ve solved all the others before. ❜ - tarquin // a very ancient meme.
she's been denying what they meant to one another for so long now, to protect them both in the situation they were in under amarantha's reign of terror. she can still remember, past the loss of the day she became high lady, the first time she'd sensed that bond between them. perhaps it had been them both coming into the powers of their courts that had been the catalyst, but she had known with certainty that day that tarquin meant FAR more to her than she could ever admit to anyone down there, even herself. and so she had blocked that part of herself off, keeping her relationship with him to little more than friends. there had been times, in her loneliness, where she had been tempted to reach out to him to see if he had this new sense, too; but the risk had been too great.
now she sits at a table with him, at a beach house on the western coast of her court, the two of them truly ALONE for what feels like the first time in decades. amarantha is gone, but that does not solve all their problems. she is no longer a princess of dawn; she is HIGH LADY, and he is now a HIGH LORD of a different court. if the other courts were to discover they were mates, after so many years of subjugation, it would likely be seen as a threat. mates. it feels strange to even allow herself to think it, with how long she has refused to accept the bond between them. had that hurt him as much as it had her? teal gaze meets crystal blue and her soul feels like it might weep if she must spend another moment denying this truth. with the warm breeze floating in through the open windows, she picks up the untouched bowl of ice cream she'd scooped out, slowly and deliberately bringing it over to tarquin and setting it down in front of him. it's more symbolic than anything, because she doesn't really give him the opportunity to pay it any attention as she moves to lean her forehead gently against his, their noses brushing lightly against each other. " i know, " she breathes, her arms looping around his neck and a shiver tracing down her spine as his hands come to rest at her waist, " i trust you, tarquin, and i have faith in us... and i don't think i can stand to pretend you don't mean EVERYTHING to me anymore. " she pulls away just so she can look into his eyes again, heart skipping, because she has to know, " do you... want this, too? "
















