But you do when everything goes wrong, a long, long time, what do you do?
How to face those disappointments, those events that make you lose any kind of self-confidence?
How do you feel all 'height, or ready to start over, or are ready to fight?
Because I can not.
I can not find the light or at least the shadow in the darkness that surrounds me.
I can not scream and let out all out, I can no longer crying or punching the wall to try to vent anger I feel towards me and obstacles that I can not overcome.
I would be more, I would like to be able.
It seems that with commitment and passion I put into things, the mountains that separate me from the objective are always too high, the streets always too tortuous, the always too cold air.
Everything seems too much.
What I give is never enough.
I need a hug, but I can not ask.
Mom is physically too far away, she always knows when it's time to be silent and wrap in a warm embrace.
If for many people the university represents the set of the best years of life, for me have become a real nightmare.
A cold, dark mountain where the summit is invisible.
Where you lost yourself and you can not recognize you while you look reflected in the ice, because they are your passions to be icy.
I have no certainties about myself, but I know who I want to be, so I'll have to come out the winner.
I have to keep fighting, I can not give up.
I am a warrior.
I will win.
Valgus.
I can do it.
I will succeed.
-C.G