What happens when you are all out of smiles?
What happens when you are just too tired of overlooking every curses or coded words coming at you? When you decided not to put up with any of the fucks thrown at you and decided to shoot back even if the people who did it included your own family and friends?
Sometimes when people low key diss you, the safest way is to laugh it off and not give a damn about it. But I guess I’m just tired, tired of hiding how I truly feel for the fear of offending others. When in actual reality I have already and always been hurt by their words... Chaos ensues... bonds are broken and I guess everything just breaks down...
What happens when you are out of smiles?
You start viewing the world differently and see the dark side of everything. You start to lose trust in your closest ones and start to distance yourself from everyone. You think to yourself I must get stronger before I start to face the outside world once again with as a new strong human being. But in the progress of doing so, you start to wrap your heart and mind with layers of silk, tissues, self love and lastly a thick layer of armour to prevent any outside scars from scarring you ever again.
People will notice that you have changed but won’t know what’s the difference but deep inside you know. You have lost all your smiles and nothing you do feels like it is ever coming back. The cheerful and innocent person you once were, before you became the bearer of all other sins that were inflicted on you is gone forever.