MANIC
One of the sides of being Bipolar is being Manic. Some people see this side of it as a Superpower. You feel like you are invincible, but what really happens is that your focus goes too deep into something it shouldn't. Today was one of those days for me. I woke up, skipped breakfast, didn't brush my teeth and started to clean the oven. By the time it was 1pm I noticed that I had not taken my medication. I was already off and do not know by how many days. I choose not to leave the house because in this state I tend to drive reckless. But by racing thoughts just kept going and seeing so many things to do. It could be called procrastination, by knowing that I have more important things to do than to mop the floors five times. Today is not my laundry day and I even did that. You would think that my house is spotless on a day like this, but it isn't. It's like an Avalanche that I set off to continue non stop at tasks that are not important. Next thing you know it is 9pm and the main thing I wanted to do today was catch up on my reading for my University classes. Now I am sad. I feel as if nothing was accomplished even though I did about 30 things. I did do something good yesterday that I will use to help ground me. I bought a sterling silver ring that states "If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it." Isaiah 58:11. It's going to be 10pm I think this verse has given me the strength to accomplish one thing that I had in mind this morning when I woke up. I am going to brush my teeth, take a shower and get some reading before I fall asleep.













