Summary: A recent barrage of nhl follow trackers and fan theories causes you to question your relationship with Will
Note: you’re alluded to be long distance in this, but also it doesn’t clearly state that so think whatever you want
You pride yourself on being the calm and collected type of girlfriend. Secure, unbothered. The “I trust my man, I don’t care what Twitter says” girlfriend.
You’re studying on the couch, laptop open, highlighter cap in your mouth as you underline something in your notebook. You’re pretending not to care as your phone lights up for the fourth time in ten minutes. You ignore it, you’re better than this.
You’re dating Will, NHL forward but also professional yapper and side-quester. Golden curls, gorgeous smile, devastatingly handsome. And he is obsessed with you. And you know this.
But your phone continues to buzz. Again and again. Finally you give in, clicking the notification.
Big mistake.
NHL Follow Tracker
@/_willsmith2 followed @/randomgirl at 2:14pm 👀👀
Under it, a thread is growing. Speculation, zoomed in profile pics, comparisons, nasty comments.
Is she his type?
They liked each others pics in 2021
Y/n deserves better
You swallow thickly. It’s so stupid, it’s literally nothing. He follows people all the time. He’s in the NHL, he’s allowed to publicly exist. Then there’s another notification.
NHL Follow Tracker
@/_willsmith2 unfollowed @/randomgirl at 2:16pm
You actually laugh, but it’s strained. This is insane, they track everything, every follow, every like, every time he breathes near a woman.
And usually you’d roll your eyes, maybe send him a screenshot with a “babe you’re trending again for existing”
But right now? You feel something awful and tight climbing into your chest.
You click Will’s profile. You hate doing it, but you do. You scroll through his following, you notice names you don’t recognize. You click on one girl and she’s pretty, of course she is.
You close the app so fast it’s embarrassing. And then you just sit there staring at your reflection in the black screen.
You’re not jealous. You don’t get jealous. You’re being irrational, you–
Your phone cuts off your spiral with a buzzing.
Incoming FaceTime: Will🦈
You consider ignoring it, but you can’t do that. You answer.
His face fills the screen immediately, messy hair and handsome smile, like the universe created him by hand to ruin your emotional stability.
“There she is!” He grins. “My favorite girl.”
You force a smile. “Hi.”
He narrows his eyes, reading you instantly. Fuck.
“Why do you look like you just hit a puppy with your car?”
You let a little laugh slip despite yourself.
“I don’t.”
“Yes, you do.” He insists. “That’s your ‘I’m fine but actually I’m spiraling in a very contained way’ voice.”
You stare at him. “How the fuck do you do that?”
He softens instantly. “What happened?”
You don’t want to tell him because this is dumb. It’s embarrassing for Christ’s sake, jealousy is beneath you. But your chest feels so tight.
“You follow so many girls.” You blurt out.
Silence, he blinks a few times.
“Is that… that’s a crime?”
“You know what I mean.” You say quickly. “There are whole accounts that are dedicated to tracking it. They post everything. They–” your voice cracks and you hate it. “It just makes me feel so stupid sometimes.”
He doesn’t make a joke or try to brush it off. He just listens as you continue.
“Like I’m sitting here, trying to be chill about it.” You say, words spilling out now. “And everyone’s just dissecting your every move. And they’re putting me into some competition that I did not sign up for.”
He leans forward towards the camera. “Hey.”
You look up.
“I need you to hear me very clearly.” He says, suddenly serious. “You are not in competition with anyone.”
You swallow, looking back down at your hands, picking at the skin by your nails.
“People online are bored. They have no life.” He continues. “We are their hobby. They need storylines and drama and plot twists, like it’s some little reality show they’re making up.”
You take a shaky breath, looking back at him.
“But this is real life, and in my real life I am obsessed with you. And only you.” He says softly.
You smile small. “You’re so dramatic.”
He nods. “But I’m also correct.”
He reaches off screen and grabs his iPad, opening instagram to his following. He shows you the screen and scrolls.
“See this? Teammates, teammates, more teammates, old teammates. Meme account. My mom, Grace. You.” He taps your name. “This is the only person I care about impressing.”
“You’re ridiculous.”
“I’m serious.” He says. “Half the time I don’t even realize I followed someone. Sometimes I click on accident. There are a few teammate’s sisters, our media admin, a few dog accounts.”
You raise an eyebrow and he grins.
“Okay, you got me. The dog ones are intentional.”
You laugh again and the tightness in your chest disappears a little. Will goes quiet.
“Did I do something to make you feel insecure?”
“No.” You say quickly. “You didn’t. It’s just… constant eyes on our every move. Like there’s no off switch. And I’m trying to act like I don’t care, but sometimes I do.”
His expression transforms to something that makes your heart ache.
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”
“Because I don’t want you to think I’m jealous or controlling. I’m trying to be unbothered.”
He scoffs. “I don’t think you’re controlling. I don’t want unbothered. I want you to be honest. If something upsets you, you tell me. You don’t have to compete with armchair detectives.”
You look at your lap again.
“You know what I see when I look at you?” He asks.
You shake your head.
“The girl who watches my 9pm games even though she has class at 7am the next day. The girl who texts me reminders to drink water like I’m a little kid. The girl who fell asleep on FaceTime last week and drooled a little.”
Your jaw drops. “Delete that one from your memory now.”
“Never.” He says, smiling softly. “I don’t care about random follows or theories. I just care about you.”
There’s a moment of silence, then because he can’t help himself,
“And if it makes you feel better, I can just unfollow everyone and live off-grid like a mysterious forest hermit.”
You laugh. “You would last two days.”
“Rude.” He gasps. “I’m very outdoorsy.”
“You got lost trying to find my house the first five times you came over.”
“That was Google Maps fault, not mine.”
You shake your head, smiling now. He leans towards the camera again.
“Hey, you’re allowed to have feelings. It doesn’t make you insecure, it makes you human.” He says gently.
“Okay.” You whisper.
“And for the record,” he adds with a smirk. “If anyone should be jealous, it’s the rest of the world. Because I already won.”
You roll your eyes. “Won what?”
“You.”
Your face heats up instantly. “You’re so cheesy, Will.” You groan.
“Yeah, but you love it.” He says grinning.
And you do. You’re laughing again, and he's smiling at you like an idiot with that perfectly messy hair.
“Next time something happens, just call me. We’ll figure it out together.” He tells you.
“Deal.”
“And if you want,” he adds, lowering his voice mischievously. “I can get Mack to start a rumor that I’m secretly married to you.”
“Please don’t.” You laugh.
He winks, and you giggle again. And just like that, the whole persona you built up doesn’t matter anymore. It doesn’t matter how nonchalant you try to be, all that matters is he’s yours, and you’re his. And that’s enough.
Summary: Your friend sets you up on a blind date and it ends up being the best thing that’s ever happened
You’re tempted to cancel. You’re standing in front of your mirror, turning in circles inspecting your outfit, and wondering if this is a good idea. You’re going on a blind date, set up by your friend who swears on her life that this man is “literally perfect for you.”
But “literally perfect” could mean literally anything. What if he’s ugly? What if he chews with his mouth open? What if he won’t stop talking about bitcoin or how much he wants to suck Elon’s dick? Okay, dating in the Bay Area has scarred you.
You stare at your phone, already drafting the text to your friend in your head. Maybe you have a migraine. Or food poisoning. Maybe your car won’t start.
But instead you grab your purse. Because honestly, fine, whatever. If it’s awful, at least you’ll get a good story out of it.
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The restaurant your friends picked out is small, quaint even. Not fancy enough to make you more nervous than you already are, but it’s not casual either. You walk up to the hostess stand.
“Reservation for Will?” You ask, trying, and slightly failing, not to sound too anxious.
She smiles warmly at you. “Right this way.”
Your heart starts pounding. He’s already here? You’re already ten minutes early, how long has he been waiting? And right in the middle of your spiraling, you see him.
He’s tall, blond hair slightly messy, wearing a nice sweater. He looks up as you approach and he freezes. Then he stands up so fast he almost knocks his chair backwards.
You freeze too for half a second because oh my fuck he’s beautiful. Not just like objectively attractive, he’s stupidly, unfairly pretty. Clear skin, great jawline, and soft blue eyes that are staring straight at you. And he looks just as nervous as you feel.
“Hey.” He says, then he laughs under is breath at that. “Hi, sorry. You must be-”
You tell him your name and he repeats it back to you.
There’s a second where he clearly doesn’t know what to do next. He steps forwards like he’s going to hug you, but then he hesitates and offers a handshake, but then he pulls back like that’s too formal. You start laughing slightly.
He grins. “I swear I’m not normally this awkward.”
“Yeah?” You tease.
And just like that, all the nerves dissolve. He ends up giving you a quick hug. Then the two of you sit down.
“I’m happy you’re real,” he says, shaking his head like he’s stunned. “I was almost convinced my buddy catfished me.”
You tilt your head slightly. “Excuse me?”
He gestures at you. “He said I’d like you. He did not mention you’re literally gorgeous.”
You feel your cheeks heat instantly and you look down at the table. “Laying it on thick already, huh?”
He smiles at that. “Never, I’m just being honest.”
You laugh, full and unguarded, and he visibly relaxes like that was the goal all along. After that, dinner flows like you’ve known each other for years.
He’s hilarious in that effortless way, quick, dry, very self-aware. He leans in when you talk and he actually listens, nodding along and asking followup questions.
He tells you he was skeptical too.
“Yeah, I was terrified it was gonna be, like, the worst experience of my life. But it’s definitely not.” He says, taking a sip of water.
“Right?” You agree. “I was worried you’d chew with your mouth open or something.”
“Chew with my mouth open?” He exclaims, appalled at even the thought of that. “I have excellent manners. I’m media trained.”
“Media trained? What are you, an actor?” You ask, laughing.
He gives you a sheepish smile. “I’m an athlete.”
You raise an eyebrow. “Like, professional?”
He nods. “Yeah…I play for the Sharks. Hockey.”
You just stare at him. “You’re joking.”
He shakes his head, smiling, clearly finding the whole situation amusing. “I would never lie, remember? I’m honest.”
“And my friends didn’t think to mention that?” You say, smiling now too.
He shrugs. “I told them not to. I wanted you to meet me as me, not…that.”
The way he says it is soft, like he’s almost shy now. And that’s the moment it shifts for you, because he could’ve led with that. He could’ve flexed it or walked in expecting you to be impressed. But instead, he was nervous about whether to hug you. Your expression softens as you stare at him.
“What?” he asks, smiling like he already knows.
“Nothing,” you say. “I just… wasn’t expecting this.”
“Good kind of unexpected I hope?” he asks, quieter now.
You hold his gaze. “The best kind.”
His smile softens into something warmer. By the time dessert comes, you’re leaning toward each other across the table like magnets. Your knees brush under the table and neither of you move away. It doesn’t feel like a first date anymore.
When you step outside, the night air is cool and quiet.
He rubs the back of his neck like he’s nervous again. “So.”
“So,” you echo.
“I had a really good time,” he says honestly.
“Me too.”
He steps closer. “Can I be honest?”
“Aren’t you an ‘honest guy’?”
He rolls his eyes playfully. “I was hoping you’d be great. But I didn’t expect this to feel… so easy.”
“Easy?” you repeat.
“In a good way,” he says quickly. “Like I don’t have to try to be anything, like I can be myself.”
Your heart does something ridiculous in your chest.
“You don’t have to be anyone else,” you say softly.
There’s a beat of silence.
And then, because he’s Will, he grins. “Okay, but can I kiss you or is that too forward for someone who didn’t know whether to hug you an hour ago?”
You laugh. “You’re unbelievable.”
“Is that a yes?”
You step closer, nodding. His hand slides gently to your waist, hesitant for half a second. When he kisses you, it’s soft and perfect.
“Yeah,” he murmurs after he pulls away. “Best blind date ever.”
You smile, breathless. You can’t believe you almost cancelled tonight. Because now, with him walking you back to your car, his fingers laced through yours, it’s the most natural thing in the world.
Summary: Will has never been shy about how much he loves you, he’s always posted you. But then he gets to the nhl and people starts actually paying attention.
It’s the summer before he gets drafted. The summer before the teal jerseys and the media and the thousands of new eyes all looking at him.
And he’s just Will. He’s sunburnt, smelling like a mix of bug spray and the lake, and he’s currently sitting across from you at a bonfire on the beach.
You had met him earlier in the day when he was throwing a football between friends while also trying to eat a hot dog, and he dropped both. You had laughed, and he had looked over at you, and that was it.
You talk until the fire burns out.
He’s funny in a kind of chaotic way. Dramatic, over exaggerating the stories he’s telling you and really talking with his hands.
You ask him what he does, where he’s going to school next year.
“I play hockey, so I’ll go wherever’s good for that.”
You nod and that’s it. But he was expecting more from you.
“That’s all you’re gonna say?” He asks, surprised.
“What did you want me to say?”
“I don’t know, something more?”
You shrug. “Lots of people play hockey.”
He stares at you like you’re speaking an alien language.
You have no idea that scouts have been watching him all year. No idea that people are placing bets on where he’ll go in the draft. He’s just the boy who’s sitting next to you, animated and laughing and glowing in the firelight.
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The two of you really start hanging out after that. Going on late night drives together, stopping at the fast food restaurants that are still open at midnight to grab a bite to eat or getting snacks from the gas station.
He even offers to teach you how to skate. He shows you how to hold a stick properly. You accuse him of showing off, which he’s definitely doing.
He looks at you like you’re the sun and he’s orbiting you. You smile because he’s your boy, not a future hockey star or future 4th pick, just yours for the summer.
When the buzz about the NHL draft starts Will doesn’t tell you anything. You find out from your friends sending you an article of prospects. His name, projected first round, interviews, more articles.
You look over at where he’s sprawled out on your couch, eating cereal straight from the box.
“You never mentioned the whole draft thing.” You say, trying to sound casual.
He freezes, hand halfway to his mouth with another scoop of cereal.
“Oh.”
“Oh?” You repeat.
He drops the cereal back into the box and sits up.
“I didn’t want you to treat me differently.”
“Will, this wouldn’t change what we have.”
Will nods because he knows that’s true, and he knows it was silly to not tell you.
“So…you’re really getting drafted?”
“I think so.” He tells you, trying to play it cool, but you know he’s excited about it.
“Where?”
“I’m not sure yet.”
“Wow.” You breathe out. “That’s kind of a big deal.”
Will nods, and for the first time you see how nervous he is. The cockiness and confidence is gone, replaced by something that looks an awful lot like scared.
And you realize that this is going to be the end of a normal life for him. So you reach for his hand and squeeze it.
“Well…we’ll figure it out. Together.”
He squeezes back.
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When draft night finally arrives, you’re there in the crowd with his family, waiting, barely breathing.
He gets picked fourth overall by the San Jose Sharks, and you get to see him up onstage with the bright lights and the teal jersey and that same smile he’s always had.
You’re watching, crying, and hugging his family.
After he escapes the cameras and all the people congratulating him, he finds you and gives you the tightest hug.
“I can’t believe it.” He whispers.
“I can.” You joke back.
He laughs into your shoulder where he’s buried his face.
He posts on Instagram that night.
@_willsmith2
Dream come true🦈 Thank you to everyone who’s been by my side
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You go to Boston College with him that fall. And he’s different now, a big hot shot, going to the NHL after this, but he’s still just that boy you met on the beach.
His Instagram becomes a diary of the two of you.
@_willsmith2
year 1🦅
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Then the year ends, he signs, and he’s gone to San Jose for his NHL debut.
You’re there for it, of course. You’re there for the day that he moves into his apartment. You’re building the stupid IKEA coffee table because he’s “a hockey player, not an architect.” And you tell him that’s not what an architect is, and maybe he should come back to college.
But you’re there in the stands for his first game, watching with the biggest smile on your face.
He scores. Of course he does. And his eyes find yours behind the glass and he’s smiling bigger than you’ve ever seen. And while everyone else sees the rookie, the new player who’s supposed to be amazing, all you can see is that boy from the beach who dropped the hot dog and the football because he was looking at you.
That night he posts on Instagram again.
@_willsmith2
First NHL game, couldn’t have done it without my people
And that’s when it explodes. Sharks fans find his account and scroll. And scroll. Back to Boston. Back to the draft. Back to the summer by the lake. And they realize you’ve been there before anything.
Old posts resurface and suddenly people are commenting on them again.
@_willsmith2
weekend recap
The new comments pouring in:
@/sharksfan: OH HE BEEN DOWN HORRENDOUS
@/sharksacct: nah he’s obsessed obsessed
Then there’s what Will posted for your birthday last year.
@_willsmith2
happy birthday to my favorite person
@/sharksfan: this man is whipped
@/sharkieluvr: no because this is actually so cute
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The two of you are sitting on his new couch after the game, watching the notifications come in on his phone.
“This is so embarrassing.” You groan into your hands.
“For you??? They’re calling me whipped.” Will sighs.
“You are.”
“…yeah.” He pauses, leaning back against the couch, his arm resting behind you. “Does it feel weird? Them knowing now?”
You think about it.
“No. What about you?”
“No. You’ve been here since before it all happened. Now they know that. I’d never hide you.”
And he never has, not during college, not over the summer training camps, and not now that he’s finally made it. You were always a part of his story.
The next morning he makes another Instagram post.
@_willsmith2
Apparently I’m “down bad”, but I’d do it all again
The comments are crazy.
@/sjsharks: beach to the big leagues we love it
@/sharksfans: nah he’s been committed to her since PRE-DRAFT
@/hockeyfan: ik this man does not play about her
And behind all the headlines, all the new hype, all the NHL noise, you’re still the girl who met him before the Sharks, before Boston, before the country knew his name. Back when he was just a boy at a bonfire with the animated gestures and the wild stories.
Summary: You swore off hockey players, comparisons, and living in anyone’s shadow, but then a spilled cup of coffee and a very persistent boy make you look back and realize it was never about the sport.
Warning: suggestive moment, nothing described in detail tho
This is part 2!! Part 1 here
It’s strange at first, the fact that Will knows now. Not in a bad way, it’s just present now. He knows your history, the weight of your childhood, he knows why you quit hockey now. But instead of pulling back scared, it makes him pull you in closer.
He’s still terrified of them finding out about him. He lowers his voice when you’re on call with them, even if he’s in a different room. He jokes about needing a security team if he’s gonna hold your hand in public.
But despite joking about the situation, you’re grateful he doesn’t treat you any differently. He doesn’t bring your brothers up randomly in conversation or talk about their games. Honestly, he really avoids it unless you bring it up first. The only thing that really changes is the way he looks at you, now with a bit more understanding about you, like he’s proud of how you navigated it all.
And weirdly, him knowing has lifted a huge weight off of you. Because now it’s not a secret, you don’t feel pressured to keep everything about your life under wraps.
You tell Will that you’ll figure out how to tell the three of them eventually, and he’s not worried about it. He trusts you.
And time passes like that, just the two of you in your own little bubble, at peace with this little half-secret you have.
You’re constantly at each other's dorms, Gabe and Ryan have grown accustomed to your presence at all odd hours. You’re a regular at the hockey games, sometimes bringing friends, sometimes by yourself.
One night the arena feels louder than usual. You’re sitting with a few people from your Econ class and watching Will be an absolute monster on the ice.
His first goal comes halfway into the first, it’s off a rebound and he’s quick with it. The line wraps him in a hug but he still manages to find you in the stands. He’s smiling, like he knows you’re watching.
His second goal he picks up from a dropped pass at the blue line. He cuts around a defender and whips the puck top corner like it’s nothing. The crowd erupts, you and your classmates with them.
The building is buzzing now, the atmosphere electric. Will is on hatty watch now, and you know he wants it. He’s restless, flying down the ice, taking every chance he gets to shoot the puck. He gets a breakaway and you’re on your feet instantly. He dekes the goalie out, drawing him left then he shoots right. It’s a goal.
You don’t even realize you’re screaming until the girl next to you is laughing. Your hands are over your mouth in shock. You can’t even catch a glimpse of him before he’s swamped by his teammates.
Later, you’re waiting in the same spot as always. The doors of the locker room open and players begin flooding out. You smile at the ones you recognize while looking for Will. Then there he is, his hair damp, shirt half tucked, practically radiating energy. He spots you instantly and makes his way straight over. He wraps you up in a hug, like always.
“Three?” You say in disbelief, shaking your head. “You’re crazy.”
He shrugs like it was nothing but he’s beaming. “I was feeling generous.”
“You’re insufferable.” You laugh.
He just bends down, catching you in a kiss, full of the energy he hasn’t burned off from the game. Probably much too much for a locker room hallway, so you pull back.
“You wanna celebrate?” You whisper, leaning close enough so he’s the only one who catches the words.
He leans back, eyes wide. “Oh?”
“You had a hat trick, Will.”
“That I did.”
“Come back to my dorm.”
The walk back to your room is hurried. His hand is low on your back the whole way, fingers brushing your skin under your shirt. He keeps pausing the walk to kiss you.
By the time your door closes, the air has shifted, it’s charged. You push him lightly against the door, hands dragging up his chest.
“You played so good.” You tell him softly.
His hands find your hips immediately. “Yeah?”
“Yeah. I’m proud of you.”
He kisses you again, slower now. Not rushed anymore, deeper. His hands trace the curve of your waist, slipping under your shirt.
“I swear I heard you cheering.” He murmurs, pulling back slightly.
“I was not that loud.”
“I think you were.”
You laugh and he takes that as his opportunity to kiss down your neck, lingering just long enough to make you gasp.
“That’s gonna bruise.” You warn.
He hums, considering the very real possibility of that.
“You started this.” He decides, basically okaying it.
He slides his hands under your thighs and lifts you easily. You instinctively wrap your legs around his waist.
“But I had three goals.” He says, kissing you again. “I deserve something.”
You roll your eyes but your fingers are already threading through his hair.
“You’re cocky.”
“Only a little.”
He carries you to the bed like he’s done the times before. No hesitation when he lays you down. Just the familiarity of how close he is. His mouth trails down slowly, taking his time, hands dragging up and down your sides like he’s going to memorize you. You pull him back up, taking his hands.
“Wanna celebrate you.” You murmur into his mouth as you pull him in for a kiss.
“Later. You first.” He grins.
You shake your head immediately, catching his jaw with your hand and guiding his face back to yours.
“Absolutely not. You had three goals. It’s about you right now.”
His smile softens a little.
“You being there was all I needed.” He murmurs.
You’re not letting him hide behind that. You roll over so he’s on his back now, you straddling overtop of him. He laughs in surprise, his hands finding your waist again.
“You’re bossy.”
“I’m celebrating your win.” You correct, leaning down to kiss him again, your hands tracing down his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his breathing, how he exhales sharply when your mouth trails down his neck.
“You’re gonna bruise me.” He warns lightly.
“You started it.” You echo, smiling against his skin.
He laughs quietly. His hands slide up your back, pulling you down against him.
“You’re unreal,” he breathes out, voice filled with awe.
When he flips you back over this time, it’s gentler, wanting to be closer. His forehead rests against yours for a second, both of you breathing the same air. The rest blurs softly, sheets tangling around your legs and his voice low in your ear and the feeling of him holding you like he doesn’t want the night to end.
Later, the room is dim except for the small lamp by your desk. You’re the first to move, sliding carefully out of his arms. He makes a quiet groaning noise in protest, but doesn’t open his eyes.
“Where are you going?” He mumbles.
“Just a second.” You say quietly, moving around your room.
You pull your underwear back on and then reach for his hoodie. It hangs big on you, draping down to your mid thigh. It still smells like him.
When you turn back, Will is propped up on an elbow, watching you through half-closed eyes.
“You’re stealing my stuff.”
“You left this here.”
He just shakes his head fondly and reaches down to pull his own underwear back on before flopping onto his back. You crawl back into bed beside him, sliding into his side automatically. Your leg wraps around his, his hand finding your waist and rubbing gently.
“You okay?” He asks quietly.
“Yeah.” You nod against his chest.
He presses a kiss into your hair.
“That was a good game.” You murmur.
“That was a good celebration.” He replies, making you laugh softly.
The adrenaline from earlier is gone now and Will feels heavy in that relaxed, boneless way he only gets when he’s completely worn. His breathing slows first but yours follows shortly after.
“Thanks for being there tonight,” he says, barely awake.
“Always,” you whisper.
He hums like that’s the best possible answer. Within minutes, his breathing evens out completely. You trace little circles against his ribs, listening to the steady thud of his heart under your ear. And you both fall asleep tangled together, completely unaware that your peace will never stay undisturbed for long.
The first thing you register in the morning is the sound of your dorm room door opening. No knocking or anything, just opening.
Your brain is still foggy with sleep, and with everything that happened last night, so for a second you think maybe it’s your RA. Maybe one of your friends is coming over and you just forgot. Maybe you’re still dreaming.
Then the door swings all the way open.
“Surprise!”
You know that voice. You were raised in the same house as that voice.
You shoot upright in bed so fast that you get lightheaded. Standing in your doorway like they pay rent are Jack, holding a box of donuts from Dunkin’, Luke, holding a drink carrier also from Dunkin’, and Quinn, who’s currently flipping on the overhead lights.
You freeze because you are not alone in your single dorm. You are also wearing a maroon Boston College sweatshirt that is not yours and too big on you, hem just barely covering your underwear.
Your bare legs are tangled in the sheets, sheets which are very obviously not arranged in a way that suggests sleep was the only thing happening last night. The comforter is half on the floor, one pillow at the foot of your bed. The air smells faintly of sweat, men’s cologne and the oil diffuser that is working overtime.
Behind you is a very shirtless man. One of his arms is still loosely around your waist, his hand low on your hip. There’s a faint red bruise forming on his collarbone, and a few scratches trailing down his shoulder blade that definitely weren’t there yesterday. His shorts are on the floor mixed in a pile of your clothes that tells a very clear story to anyone with eyes.
There’s also a mark blooming just above your collarbone where your his sweatshirt has slipped down slightly.
You move fast, shoving his arm off of you and scooting forward like you’re the only one in bed. It’s too late though. Jack just stares, Luke’s grin falters, Quinn’s eyes narrow. There’s a long, unbearable silence. Then, from behind you and slightly muffled into your pillow,
“Why are the lights on?” He groans.
You close your eyes, dropping your head. Of course he wakes up now.
Will rolls over and stretches, muscles flexing and his hair an absolute mess, and very much just in his underwear. He’s blissfully unaware of the three pairs of eyes on him. Then Will sits up. There’s a slow blink as he processes light and sound and then—
And then he sees them. You watch reality slam into him like a train. You have never seen someone wake up so fast.
Jack drops the donut box and it hits the floor with a dull thud. Luke’s jaw drops. Quinn goes frighteningly still. You feel Will turn and stare at you like he doesn’t know what to do. You can’t look at him, you can’t look away from the horror in front of you.
Jack is the first to speak.
“Why…” he starts slowly, stepping inside your room. “…is there a half naked man in my sister’s bed?”
Will opens his mouth but no sound comes out.
Luke finally blurts out, “That’s Will. From the Sharks.”
Yeah, it is. But you’re not gonna say that, you can’t say anything. Because it is Will, the same Will that plays for Boston College Eagles, the same Will that was 4th pick in the draft, the same Will that is your extremely secret boyfriend. And he’s in your bed in nothing but his underwear.
Quinn’s gaze drops to your sweatshirt and more importantly, the number embroidered on it. His jaw tightens.
“Is that his?” He asks, tone unreadable.
You tug the sleeves over your hands. “Maybe.”
Jack makes a strangled noise. “You’re wearing his clothes.”
Will finally looks down at himself, realizing he’s wearing almost nothing. He glances at the floor, at the discarded pile of clothes next to the bed, and he grabs the nearest article of clothing and pulls it on.
It’s your slightly oversized U-Mich t-shirt that you got from Luke. It’s unfortunately not oversized on Will.
Luke turns around and faces the wall, and you don’t know if he’s laughing or fuming.
“You have got to be kidding me.” Jack mutters.
“Can everyone just relax?” You plead.
“No.” All three brothers say at once.
Quinn steps forward. “Hallway.” He says, staring at Will, not you.
And there’s no arguing with that tone. Will stands carefully, like sudden movements might get him jumped. Your brothers step back out into the hall as Will moves toward the door. He turns back to you before he exits.
“I’m so fucked.” He whispers, barely audible.
“Probably.” You whisper back.
And he slips out of the room. The door doesn’t fully close though, you can still hear the conversation.
“How long has this… this been a thing?” Jack asks.
“I mean, it depends on, like, what this is.” Will starts.
Jack makes a buzzer noise. “Wrong answer.”
“No, I mean we were just friends-” Will continues, scrambling to fix it.
You sigh and drag your hands down your face, trying to ignore your reflection in the mirror. You pull on shorts, run a quick brush through your hair and then you’re joining the boys out in the hallway.
Will is backed up into the cinderblock wall like a cornered animal. Jack is pacing, Luke looks upset but also mildly amused, Quinn is the only steady one, but you still can’t get a read on him.
Jack turns and points at you. “You. I can’t believe this. You’ve been having a man over in your single dorm? That’s not why we paid extra for your own room, just so you know.”
You wince. “It’s not like that.”
“You’re wearing his number.” Quinn points out again.
“It was clean.”
Will finally finds his voice. “In my defense, I didn’t know she was related to you all at first.”
Jack turns back to him. “At first?”
Will nods quickly. “She didn’t tell me. I found out when she got a FaceTime from Luke and his contact picture popped up.”
Luke gasps. “You were THERE?”
You cough slightly. “We were studying for English together.”
All three brothers look from Will back to you. Quinn’s eyes flick over your neck and the marks still lingering there. His eyes narrow.
“Were you studying last night too?” Quinn asks, his voice low.
Your face turns bright red. Will makes a choked noise and you’re worried he might actually stop breathing.
Jacks expression shifts. “Oh my god.”
“Stop.” You warn.
“No, no, no.” He points between you and Will.
Will raises his hands in surrender. “For the record, we used pr–”
“Stop!” Luke cuts off immediately, covering his ears. “We don’t need the fucking details, man!”
Quinn pinches the bridge of his nose while Jack looks like he’s three seconds away from either committing felony assault or throwing up.
You step forward quickly. “Okay. We don’t need to finish that sentence. Everyone just take a breath, please.”
Will runs a hand through his hair anxiously, the shirt, your shirt, riding up and exposing his stomach.
“Put some fucking pants on.” Jack mutters, but loud enough for you all to hear.
“They’re in there.” Will says carefully, pointing at the jumbled heap of clothes in your room. “I regret that.”
Luke snorts but quickly covers it with a cough.
Quinn speaks again, tone even. “How long?” He’s addressing you this time, not Will.
“A few months.” You admit quietly.
Jacks head whips towards you. “Months?!”
“Yeah. We met on campus at the beginning of the year.” You explain. “He ran into me and spilled my coffee.”
“Hey. I bought you a new one to make up for it.” Will says, smiling at the memory.
“Yeah. And then we just kept running into each other.” You finish.
Jack throws his hands up. “You had a rule! How can you just forget about that?”
“She didn’t say yes right away.” Will defends for you. “I kept asking her out but she kept telling me she didn’t date hockey players.”
“Yeah, and I never have before. Because the second hockey players hear ‘Hughes’, they turn into weird little fanboys.” You add.
“But the rule.” Jack groans again, and by now you’re getting pretty sick of all his whining.
“I made that rule when I was fifteen.” You argue. “Because you guys were insufferable.”
Luke looks offended. “We were not.”
“You absolutely were.” You cut off. “All of you. The lake house every summer? Your friends? The girls?” You try to jog their memory.
Jack is finally at a loss for words, and Quinn just looks guilty. Will, on the other hand, is looking like he just got handed a piece of sacred lore.
“I didn’t want that.” You continue. “I didn’t want to be some story in a locker room or a bet.”
“You’re not.” Will says to you, voice soft. Then he turns back to the boys. “She’s not. Not a story. Definitely not a bet.”
That shuts them all up. Quinn studies Will, looking with a little more respect now.
Jack, ever the instigator, just has to ruin it again. “I still can’t believe you let us walk in on that!”
“Oh my god.” You press your hands over your face. “You literally broke into my room at nine in the morning!”
“It was a surprise!” Jack argues. “We have a key.”
“That doesn’t mean you get to use it whenever!” You bite back.
Quinn folds his arms. “How often is he over here?”
“That doesn’t matter.” You say, stepping forward. “You guys live in different states. You can’t just show up here with no warning. And I’m an adult, I can make my own choices about who sleeps over.”
“Well you don’t need to advertise it.” Luke gestures at your neck.
You tug the sweatshirt collar up higher. “You’re acting like I tattooed his name on my forehead.”
“On your neck.” Jack corrects.
You flip him off.
Quinn exhales slowly. “We’re not mad you’re dating him… it’s that we walked in on… whatever that was.”
“We weren’t even doing anything!” You exclaim. Then you take a deep breath, voice softening slightly. “Look, I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want it to become this whole thing. The interrogation and the overprotective big brother routine. I wanted something that didn’t revolve around you all, something that was mine.”
You watch as those words land for each of them.
“And you barging in without warning kinda proves my point.” You add quietly.
There’s a long pause.
“We should’ve texted.” Luke mutters.
“Yes.”
“We didn’t think.” Jack says, rubbing the back of his neck.
“Clearly.”
Quinn looks at Will again. “Are you coming with us? We should find some place for breakfast since Jack ruined the donuts.”
Will hesitates like he’s trying to figure out if this is a trap.
“I’ll come.” He says carefully.
“Fine. But I’m driving.” Jack sighs.
“Shotgun.” Luke calls.
“That’s not how it works, you have to be able to see—” Quinn starts arguing.
You take the blossoming argument as an opportunity to quickly pull Will back into your room to change, ignoring the “no funny business” yelled by Jack. The second the door shuts behind you, you both exhale heavily.
“Oh my god.” Will whispers, running his hands through his hair. “That was terrifying.”
You lean against the door, nodding. Then you move quickly, tugging off his sweatshirt that you’re still wearing and hanging it over your desk chair. Will’s gaze softens at the care you take, then he quickly looks away, picking his own shorts off the floor. He laughs under his breath.
“What?” You ask, pulling on your jeans.
“I just…” he shakes his head. “I expected meeting your brothers would be, like, intense. But that was way scarier than I thought.”
“You’re lucky they didn’t actually tackle you.”
“Was that a possibility?”
“With the three of them? Always.”
He pulls on a clean shirt, his own this time thankfully, and steps towards you. “Are we okay?”
You look at him properly for the first time all morning. Messy hair, slight flush on his cheeks still.
“Yeah.” You say quietly, reaching for his hand. “We’re good.”
A knock rattles the door.
“Times up!” Luke’s voice calls. “And if you’re making out in there, I swear I’m gonna—”
You yank the door open before he can finish.
“We’re not!” You snap.
Jack squints at you. “Then why do you look suspicious?”
You make a face at that. “I don’t.”
“You do.”
“Let’s go.” Quinn says calmly, trying to stave off another argument.
The walk to the parking lot is awkward with Jack muttering to himself, and Luke who just keeps eyeing Will like he’s an animal in a zoo exhibit. Quinn is just walking in front, hands in his pockets.
You all pile into the car, Jack in the drivers seat, Luke claiming shotgun again correctly this time, Quinn behind Jack. Will climbs into the middle seat, you follow.
As you pull out, Jack glances at Will in the rearview mirror. “So.”
Will straightens, meeting his reflection.
“You planning on staying in hockey professionally?” He asks Will.
You shoot Jack a look. “What the hell kinda question is that?”
“A normal one.” Jack replies defensively.
You shake your head but Will answers anyway.
“Yeah, that’s the plan. Hopefully I’ll head to San Jose after this year.”
Luke turns around as far as his seatbelt will allow. “You nervous for it?”
“Extremely.” Will answers honestly.
That makes Luke grin, nodding. You can even see the corner of Quinn’s mouth twitching, he’s trying not to smile.
Jack’s not getting enough attention, so he sighs dramatically. “I just can’t believe this is how we find out you have a boyfriend.”
You cross your arms and frown. “I was gonna tell you.”
“When?” Luke asks.
“Soon.”
“Before or after he moved in?” Jack fires.
Will chokes on nothing and you groan. But despite all the theatrics and drama, despite the fact that Jack will never stop bringing this up, no one tells Will to leave or scares him off.
And when the car finally pulls up outside the little diner, Quinn pulls Will back slightly. You slow just enough to be able to hear what they’re saying.
“You hurt her,” Quinn starts quietly, not looking at Will but straight ahead, “and this conversation will go very differently next time.”
Will nods. “Understood.”
“But if you’re good, then we’re good.” Quinn adds.
Will exhales like he’s remembering how to breathe again. You catch his eye from a few feet away and he smiles, relieved.
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Breakfast goes suspiciously well. Jack makes one joke about “setting some ground rules” and Luke kicks him under the table. Quinn asks Will about his classes like that’s what makes a good boyfriend. Will answers all their questions anyway, he’s respectful.
You keep waiting for the other shoe to drop but it never does.
By noon they’ve decided you’re spending the day with them. You drop Will off at his dorm since he has a game tonight, and then you’re walking around campus with your brothers. You give them recommendations for lunch spots and they decide on your favorite. Jack takes too many pictures of “Boston architecture” acting like they don’t have brick buildings in New Jersey.
It’s around five when Quinn casually says, “So, when’s puck drop?”
You freeze mid-step. “You’re not—”
“We are.” Jack confirms.
“You can’t sit with me.”
“We are.” Luke repeats, grinning.
You can’t manage to talk them out of it. So that's how you end up in your usual seat but instead of being surrounded by friends or even classmates, it’s Luke on your left, and Quinn and Jack to your right.
You can feel the eyes on you, the whispers starting up, phones angled slightly towards you in a way that’s not natural enough to be sneaky. You pretend not to notice it all.
You watch as Will skates out for warmups with Ryan and Gabe like always, laughing about something. His eyes do his usual scan, searching for you and then he pauses, because you’re not alone and you’ve brought the people who tried to kill him this morning.
Well, that’s an exaggeration, but Will’s heart could not tell the difference between that interrogation earlier and being hunted for sport.
Gabe notices the change in behavior immediately.
“You good?” He asks, gently shoving Will’s shoulder.
Leno follows where Will’s been staring.
“Oh my god.”
“What?” Gabe asks, spinning around and searching the stands.
Leno squints through the glass. “Is that…?”
Will doesn’t answer, because Luke has chosen this exact moment to start waving casually.
Gabe’s jaw drops. “Why are the Hughes brothers at our game?”
Leno turns to Will. “Why are the Hughes brothers staring at you specifically?”
Will swallows, closing his eyes. “They’re here with her.”
Both of them snap their heads back to the stands, now realizing it’s not just the Hughes brothers there, but you’re sitting right in the middle of them.
“You’re kidding.” Gabe breathes out.
“You never told us.” Leno says.
“Wasn’t my place.” Will mutters.
His friends are staring at him like he’s been living a double life.
“You’re dating a Hughes?” Gabe hisses in awe.
Will’s ears go red under his helmet. “Lower your voice.”
Leno looks back at the glass again. “You’re insane.”
“Yeah. Maybe.” Will says quietly.
Then their coach blows the whistle and warmups resume. Gabe nudges Will before they split.
“You better score tonight.” He laughs.
Will does not laugh, he just stares at Gabe as he skates away, thinking that that’s the worst thing anyone could’ve said to him in this moment.
In the first period, Will is already locked into the game. Now in a show off way, he’s just focused, eyes on the puck at all times. Halfway through the first he buries a pass from Leno in the net. The arena erupts.
He celebrates with the team and then searches for you on instinct. You’re smiling, clapping calmer than you normally do. Your brothers are there, smiling too. That surprises Will.
Second period, Will gets the assist on a power play goal. He celebrates again with his team, not over the top, just genuine happiness.
Luke leans closer to you. “He’s playing smart.”
Jack makes a noise of agreement and Quinn just nods along.
The third period ends with a win for BC. No hat trick this time for Will, but a good, strong game nonetheless. You stand from your seat, stretching after being seated for so long. Immediately all three of them stand too. You groan.
“You don’t have to com—” you say quietly.
“We’re coming with.” Jack says.
“Absolutely.” Luke agrees.
Quinn nods towards the tunnel, motioning you forward. You lead them down the same path you’ve walked what feels like a hundred times at this point.
The hallway outside the locker room smells like sweat and ice and adrenaline. Players start filtering out slowly, some doing double takes at the men standing behind you. Gabe is the first player you really recognize to exit first. He smiles at you and then freezes slightly. Ryan comes out next and runs straight into Gabe.
“Dude. What is wrong with– oh. Hey. How’s it going?” He says to you, eyeing your brothers behind you.
Jack smiles politely. “Good game.”
Will finally appears, hair damp and curly like it always gets after a shower. He sees you first and immediately his face settles into something warm. Then he sees your posse and instinctively straightens. No one moves at first. Then Quinn steps forward first.
“Good game, man.” He says, pulling Will in for a weird bro handshake.
Will nods. “Thank you.”
Jack tilts his head. “You’re a smart player. You’ve got good read.”
Luke crosses his arms, nodding. “Patient too, didn’t force anything.”
Will relaxes at that. “I tried not to.”
There’s another pause and Quinn glances at you.
“Alright, well, we’ll be by tomorrow morning to say goodbye before we head back.” He says, nodding to you.
“Yeah, try to be fully clothed this time.” Jack sasses.
You groan and Will’s face immediately turns tomato red. You see him glance at Gabe and Ryan, who are looking at him horrified.
“Will you shut the fuck up.” You hiss at Jack, hitting him on the shoulder.
Quinn pushes Jack backwards, out of arms reach for you.
“Man, will you not?” He sighs, rolling his eyes at Jack.
Jack just shrugs, smirking. Quinn turns back to you.
“He’s not wrong though. But we will call ahead this time.”
You nod. Luke steps in to give you a hug, then Quinn, then Jack and you take extra care to step on his feet but he doesn’t even flinch unfortunately. Then they all head off, leaving you and Will, and a bewildered looking Gabe and Ryan. You know they’ve probably got a billion questions but Will just shakes his head at them for now.
“I’m sorry.” You mumble to Will, turning to hug him.
He doesn’t hesitate, completely pulling you against his chest.
“For what?” He asks quietly into your hair.
“For…that.” You gesture loosely towards the hallway your brothers disappeared down. “They’re insane.”
Will laughs softly against your head. “I’m aware.”
You pull back enough to look at him. He’s still a little pink, from the game or the comments made by Jack.
“They like you.” You add quickly. “That was them liking you.”
He raises an eyebrow. “That was them liking me?”
“Yes. If they didn’t like you they wouldn’t have complimented you. They would’ve thought all those things because they’re true, but they would’ve kept them to themselves.” You reason.
Will nods like that makes sense to him. Behind him, you see Gabe and Ryan still hovering like confused puppies.
“So…” Gabe starts, eyes on you.
Will waves it off. “I can explain later.”
You think they’re about to argue but then Will gives them both a look and they start off down the hallway, aggressively whispering to each other. Will pulls you back into his chest for another hug.
“Can I walk you home?” He asks softly.
“You always do.” You smile.
He shrugs, grin lopsided. “Yeah, I do.”
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The lake feels exactly the same. Same boat your parents have had since you were a kid, same wooden dock bleached pale from decades of summers under the sun, same notch on one of the dock posts from where Jack had run into it with the jet ski when he first got his license.
Same place as it was when you made your rule. Fifteen years old with sunburnt shoulders, you’d sat right here, legs dangling over the edge, and told yourself you’d never date and hockey player and you’d never be just somebody’s sister. It had felt safe when you decided that.
Now it’s July and Will is sitting beside you on the same dock.
He’d helped your dad with the grill earlier, burned his thumb and laughed about it. He let your mom absolutely destroy him at cards. When Jack tried to chirp him about it he just grinned and said, “she’s got the veteran experience.”
He nudges your knee gently with his, bringing you out of your thoughts.
“You’re quiet.”
You smile softly. “Just thinking.”
“About?”
You glance out at the water. “I was sitting here when I decided I’d never date a hockey player.”
He nods thoughtfully. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.” You let out a small breath. “I was so worried I’d lose myself. Like, I’d just become attached to somebody’s career, orbit them forever.”
He’s quiet for a second. “You don’t feel like that with me?”
You shake your head. He smiles slightly. A boat passes by, rippling the water, sending waves over your shins.
“You didn’t pull me into your world. You met me halfway.” You try to explain, hoping it makes sense to Will.
“That’s kinda the point of relationships.” He smiles.
You nod, smiling. The wind picks up then, a breeze waving through your hair. You reach over and smooth a curl on Will’s head.
Back at fifteen, it felt like the only way to forge your own path was walk one alone. But now, sitting here, shoulders bumping his, you realize something else.
You did forge your own path. You chose your own school, your own sport, your own friends, your own life. And then, you chose him. Not because he was a hockey player, but because he never made you feel like an accessory or a trophy.
Will leans back on his hands, kicking his feet in the water gently.
“So…am I allowed back next summer?”
You pretend to consider it. “Maybe. If you let my mom win at cards again.”
He smiles warmly. “Deal.”
The dock creaks slowly beneath you, waves keep moving. And somehow the past feels lighter now.
Summary: You swore off hockey players, comparisons, and living in anyone’s shadow, but then a spilled cup of coffee and a very persistent boy make you look back and realize it was never about the sport.
This is part 1! Part 2 here!
Your house was never quiet growing up. Chaotic and full and most of all loud. Full of sticks clattering against the garage floor, arguments about who’s turn it was in the bathroom and who was taking too long. ESPN playing in the background like the soundtrack of your childhood. Rancid gear drying on the vents even though your mother protested it being left there.
You were the youngest. The six years between you and Quinn meant that he always felt like some kind of guardian towards you, even as a kid. He would retape your stick without being asked, give Jack stern talking-tos when he got a little too rough.
Jack, four years older, was full of drama and clear talent. He grew up chirping you, roughhousing, picking on you, but he’d also step in and shove boys twice his size when they bumped into you at open skates. He was the one yelling at you to skate faster from the bench.
Luke was your built in best friend since birth. The two years between the two of you was nothing when you were kids. You were inseparable, constant mini sticks in the basement. Tournaments that ended with someone crying (usually you), and someone else getting grounded (more often than not, Jack). Luke would let you win usually, not all the time, but just often enough that when you were little you didn’t suspect anything of it.
And when you started playing hockey seriously, they treated you like you were one of them.
That was the problem.
You were good, actually good. You could skate before you learned basic math, taping sticks and lacing up skates with ease. You were fast and had quick hands.
But none of it mattered when you were constantly being compared to one of the three. Constantly hearing things like, “she skates like Quinn”, “she’s almost as fast as Jack”, or “not quite as sharp as Luke”.
You were never just you.
At first the three of them tried to help. Jack would stay after practice with you to work on your shot. Luke would stay up late passing with you in the driveway until you were both 90% mosquito bites. Quinn would quietly pull you aside and tell you that you had “nothing to prove, just play.”
But even their help felt heavy sometimes. By the time you were twelve, almost thirteen, the fun had been drained out of it. You’d sit in the car after practice staring blankly out the window while your brothers argued about lines and ice time and who had the better coach. And you realized something that made your chest tight, you didn’t love hockey the way they did. You loved the ice and the skating, but not the sport. So you quit.
It caused exactly the kind of stir you’d expect. Jack thought you were being overdramatic, he gave it two weeks before you’d come around. Luke though maybe you just needed a break for a bit, a little rest from the stress of it all.
But after dinner, Quinn had pulled you aside quietly.
“Are you sure?” He had asked, gently searching your face.
You nodded. You were absolutely positive about your decision.
You traded bulky gear for delicate figure skating costumes. The first time you stepped onto the ice without pads felt so freeing, you almost cried in relief. There was no one yelling from the boards, no comparing stats, just you and the music and the empty space. It was something that was finally yours in the world of chaos you lived in.
The three of them were busier now, with development camps and being NHL prospects, but they still came to your competitions when they could. They were still protective, still loving, but they just struggled to understand sometimes. They were confused about why you didn’t want the same thing they all did.
Then came the summers at the lake house. By fifteen, your brother’s friends had become permanent fixtures, all of them basically having their own spots at the dinner table by now. A rotating cast of sunburnt hockey boys who were already convinced they were NHL superstars.
The house was always full, you were never bored for long. Boat days, late night swims, bonfires. And girls, so many girls. Girls who laughed too hard at jokes that weren’t funny, girls who’s names you knew the boys didn’t remember.
You were old enough to notice everything by then. The way they talked about girls like they were stats, how the attention would shift when someone more attractive walked into the room. They had the cocky, invincible energy of boys who knew they were good at something and knew that other people were starting to notice.
You saw the way they craved attention like oxygen and treated women like accessories.
And your brothers weren’t innocent in it all. Quinn and Jack were playing professionally by now, and you saw how easy it was for them. How quickly girls attached themselves to the name, to the idea of that world.
And you made a decision then. You were fifteen, sitting on the end of the dock with Luke while laughter echoed from inside the house. You turned to him.
“I’m never dating a hockey player.” You’d said flat out.
He laughed like you had said something ridiculous.
“I’m serious.” You insisted.
Later, when you told Jack, he had rolled his eyes.
“Good. They’re all idiots.” He had added.
And you wanted to point out the irony of that statement, but he had already turned away. Quinn just nodded once and seemed to understand what you had meant.
It wasn’t you being dramatic, it’s was protective. You weren’t going to be someone’s story, someone’s “yeah I hooked up with the Hughes sister”.
You loved your brothers but you didn’t want to date someone that saw you as nothing but an extension of them.
By the time college applications rolled around, you were becoming more confident in your sense of identity, of existing outside the bubble of “Hughes”. But then all that pressure returned.
Luke and Quinn had gone to Michigan. The block letter M was hung in various places around your house, the school colors on blankets and mugs and sweatshirts.
“You’d love it.” Luke told you. “You’d already know everyone.”
And you wanted to point out that no, you wouldn’t know everyone, they knew him, and in some weird way that meant they knew you. But you had no idea who anyone was.
Jack had already cemented himself into New Jersey and Luke was working his way through that too, so they had their own pitch.
“Come to school in Jersey, you could be close to me and Lukey.” He had said, grabbing his younger brother at the annoying nickname.
“Yeah, that’d be easier.” Quinn had chimed in. “Mom wouldn’t worry as much.”
Easier. You were so tired of that word. It didn’t really mean easier in the way you wanted. It meant walking into a room and already being known, professors recognizing your last name because it’s broadcast on the local sports network every night. You didn’t want easier. You wanted something that was yours.
So when the acceptance letter came in the mail from Boston College, you confirmed it immediately. Boston wasn’t Michigan, it wasn’t New Jersey. It was new, neutral ground. And it had hockey, of course, you couldn’t escape it completely, but it wasn’t your hockey. It’s wasn’t your brothers’ school or rink or friends. It was new.
When you told them, they had stood there in silence.
“I don’t want to follow you guys,” you said carefully. “I love you. I just… I want something that’s mine. Not an extension of something you’ve already had.”
That was the first time they really saw it. That this wasn’t teenage rebellion or moodiness, it was survival. You didn’t resent them for it all, you just didn’t want your life to orbit theirs forever.
Eventually, they came around. Luke helped you move in, Jack complained the whole time about the dorm mattress like he’d be the one sleeping on it. Quinn lingered the longest when when the other two had gone back down to the car.
“Call if you need anything,” he had said.
“I won’t,” you teased.
He gave you a look, that same one he’d given your whole life that said he knew more than you did. “You will.”
And then they were gone. And for the first time in your life, you weren’t someone’s little sister, you were just you.
And that’s how you find yourself here.
It’s early September and the air in Boston is still warm. You’re carrying way too much as you make your way out of the campus cafe. There’s the backpack over your shoulder, textbooks you’d just checked out under one arm, coffee in your other hand, and your phone pressed between your shoulder and ear while you argue with Luke about some family thing happening in early November that you definitely don’t actually need to be at.
“I have midterms.” You insist as you walk out the door, the bell dinging softly behind you.
“You don’t even know when midterms are yet.” Luke argues.
“Yes I do.”
“You definitely don’t.”
You roll your eyes and step off the curb–
And slam directly into someone. Hard.
Your coffee goes first, hitting his chest and splashing over the front of your sweater and his gray BC Hockey hoodie.
There’s a split second of stunned silence.
“Oh my god, I am so, so sorry.” The guy says.
You look up at his face and immediately recognize him. Will Smith. He plays for the Eagles, freshly drafted by the San Jose Sharks this summer. You’ve seen enough hockey in your life to recognize talent. And standing in front of you is talent.
But right now? He looks horrified.
“I wasn’t looking where I was going.” He rushes to get the words out. “I swear I’m not usually that clumsy.”
You slowly pull your phone away from your ear.
“–hello? You still there?” Luke is still talking.
You hang up.
“It’s fine.” You say automatically, even though coffee is actively seeping through your sweater.
“It’s not fine.” He insists, already taking off his own, equally drenched, sweatshirt. “I ruined your coffee and your shirt. And probably your day.”
He looks genuinely upset by this, and it throws you off a little. Most hockey guys you grew up around would’ve laughed or even blamed you for walking into them.
“I’ll buy you another one.” He says, then at your lack of response he adds immediately, “I’ll buy you five more. Whatever you want.”
You just stare at him, slowly realizing that he hasn’t recognized you. There's no pause, no double take. You’re just some girl he bumped into. And you could tell him.
You could say, Hey, funny story, but I grew up watching guys like you treat girls like me like side characters.
But you don’t say that. Instead, you tilt your head slightly, smiling at him.
“Five more?” You ask.
He nods. “Minimum.”
You almost laugh. “One replacement is fine.”
He visibly relaxes at that.
“Thank God.” He laughs slightly.
So you turn around and follow him back into the coffee shop. There’s thankfully no line so you follow Will up to the counter. He looks to you when the barista asks for the order.
“Iced caramel latte.” You say and Will nods like he’s committing that to memory.
He pays and then the two of you move to the side to wait.
“So.” You start casually, nodding at his hoodie. “You play hockey?”
His face shifts and he almost looks sheepish.
“Yeah. For BC.”
“Mm. I thought you looked familiar.”
He runs a hand over the back of his neck. “Yeah. I got drafted over the summer. Sharks. I’m gonna play here a year though.”
And he still seems anxious talking about it, not quite embarrassed, but like he doesn’t want you to think that’s all he is. And that’s what cements it for you, he really doesn’t know who you are. He has no idea you grew up on the rink, or knew how to tape a stick before you learned to drive. He has no idea that it’s your last name that’s being woven into the league he just got drafted to. And you’re not going to tell him.
Instead you say, “Cool. That’s impressive.”
He smiles at the praise. “Thanks.”
He looks like he’s about to say something else when the barista slides your drink onto the counter. Will grabs it and hands it over to you. You thank him and then you sit in silence for a second. You break first.
“I really should go. I’m gonna be late for class and I should really stop by my dorm to change.” You say, gesturing at your coffee-stained sweater.
“Oh. Uh, yeah, for sure. Sorry again.” Will says, the words tumbling out.
“No worries, seriously. We’re all good.” You say lightly, smiling.
Will nods, and then you turn, offering a quick wave before you head out the door. Will just watches you walk away, still staring at the door even after you’ve disappeared.
“Fuck.” He mutters to himself.
He didn’t get your name or your number. He doesn’t even know which building your dorm is. All he knows is your coffee order and that you’re the prettiest girl he’s ever seen.
“Idiot.” Will mutters again, running his hands through his hair.
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Will can’t focus at practice that afternoon. He misses an easy pass, whiffs a shot wide, almost skates straight into Voter because he wasn’t looking.
“Dude.” Ryan Leonard says skating up next to him. “Are you good?”
“I’m fine.”
“You don’t look fine. You’re not playing fine.”
“Well I’m fine.”
Gabe Perreault skates over too. “Your head is totally somewhere else right now.”
Will sighs, finally giving in. “I met a girl.”
Both of them make the same surprised face and it would almost be funny to Will if he could think about anything but you.
“You met a girl?” Leno asks.
“Yeah. A girl. I spilled coffee on her.”
Gabe tries and fails to hide a chuckle. “Romantic.”
“No, it wasn’t romantic.” Will snaps. “It was an accident. But I bought her another one. And we talked after that and she was really cool.”
Ryan quirks an eyebrow up. “And?”
“And I didn’t get her name.”
“You didn’t get her name?” Ryan repeats.
“No.”
“So you didn’t get her number either?” Gabe guesses.
Will shakes his head, looking back to the ice.
“Aw, you’re down bad and you don’t even know her.” Leno laughs, poking Will in the shoulder.
“I’m not down bad.”
“You’re moping around at practice.” Gabe points out.
Will skates off before they can keep teasing him, but Ryan and Gabe are both grinning like mad. They’ve never seen him like this, usually he’s confident and smooth without even trying. But he’s spiraling now.
After practice, Will finds himself going out of his way to walk past the cafe again, instead of taking the quickest route back to the dorms with Gabe and Leno. You’re not there, of course. But he lingers outside the window for a second longer, wishing you were.
He shakes his head and continues on his way. He has to see you again. Campus may be big, and he’s never seen you before today, but he’s determined. There’s no way the universe is cruel enough to dangle you out in front of him and then steal you away forever.
Back in your dorm room, you’re drying your hair after a shower when your phone buzzes.
A call from Luke.
You decline it. You don’t need him asking why you hung up earlier, and even more you don’t want to explain it. You flop onto your bed and stare at the tiled ceiling of your room.
You think about Will, about how he didn’t recognize you and about how freeing that felt. You smile to yourself.
And across campus, in a dorm full of hockey players, Will is lying on his own bed, staring at the ceiling and thinking about the exact same thing.
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You don’t see Will again for three days when you run into him outside of Fulton. You’re cutting across the yard with your headphones on, listening to the audio version of the book you were supposed to read for class today. You notice the small group of guys in your way too late. You run right into one of them.
You look up and Will is already grinning.
“Okay, this is either fate.” He says, smiling. “Or we need to work on spatial awareness.”
You pull your headphones off. “You again?”
“Me again.” He confirms, looking much too pleased with himself.
Behind him, his two teammates are glancing rapidly between the two of you, trying to figure out the story here. You recognize them from the hockey team, they both have their own NHL teams waiting for them, Gabe and Ryan you’re pretty sure.
“Practice?” You ask, nodding to the bag Will’s carrying.
“Yeah. Where are you headed?” He asks.
“Class.” You respond.
He shifts his weight, clearly having an internal debate about something. Then,
“Walk with me?”
You raise your eyebrows. “To the rink?”
“Just until our paths split.” He reasons.
You hesitate, because you have a very clear set of rules, established at fifteen after one too many summers spent at the lake house watching a revolving door of girls walk through with all of your brothers and their friends.
But Will’s not looking at you like that. He’s looking at you softly with his stupidly pretty blue eyes. So you give in.
“Fine.” You say. “But if you spill anything this time, you’re paying for my new sweater too.”
His grin gets bigger. “Deal.”
Gabe and Ryan walk in front of you and Will, giving you a little bit of space. You make conversation, Will asks what you’re studying and return the questions. Then the rink comes into view.
“Big game this weekend?” You ask.
Will looks surprised. “Yeah. How’d you know?”
You shrug. “Posters all over campus. Instagram posts. Hard to miss.”
That’s only partially true. You know because you checked the hockey webpage, scrolled down the game dates, and maybe the roster. Only out of curiosity, of course. Will’s giving you a weird look now.
“You follow hockey?”
“A little.” You say carefully.
“How little?”
You shrug again. “I know enough.”
Will smirks at that. “That’s pretty vague.”
You smile. “I know your power play has been struggling with getting through opposing teams' zones. You’re forcing passes and getting predictable.”
Okay, so maybe you watched a couple YouTube clips from their recent games too.
Will has suddenly stopped walking in the middle of the sidewalk now, people are walking around and giving dirty looks. Ryan and Gabe have turned around.
“What?” Will says after regaining the ability to speak.
You shrug. “You’re broadcasting your moves before you make them. Opposing teams are learning to stack the blue line. You gotta stay confident instead of resetting every time.”
There’s a long pause.
“Who are you?” Ryan asks, sounding shocked.
Will's eyes narrow slightly. “You said you followed hockey ‘a little.’”
“I do.”
He studies you like the version of you he pictured before this has suddenly vanished. “You ever play?”
You hesitate. There’s a flicker of old memories as something tightens in your chest. The cold air, Quinn lacing your skates for you even after you learned how to tie, the early mornings.
“Yeah.” You admit. “When I was younger.”
“How young?”
“Until I was like twelve.”
“What position?”
“Forward. Center, usually.” You answer without thinking.
Gabe makes a surprised, impressed noise. Will is looking at you differently now, curious.
“Why’d you stop?”
You think about it, about how you were always getting compared to your brothers, how it became more stress than it was worth. But you don’t know how to say that without revealing more than you want to.
“I switched to figure skating.” You tell them. “I wanted a change.”
Will nods slowly, like he’s trying to understand. You don’t really expect him to, not with how little he knows about you, but it’s nice of him to try. You reach the rink doors and Ryan and Gabe head inside. Will hangs back.
“Are you coming to the game? We could hang out after.” Will suggests.
You fold your arms, eyeing him. “I don’t date hockey players.”
The words tumble out, automatic and rehearsed. Will blinks, surprised.
“Okay…”
“It’s a rule.”
Will laughs slightly. “That feels targeted.”
“It’s not.”
“It totally is.”
You smile. “Not at you. Just… past experiences.”
Will steps a little closer, still giving you space but like he wants you to know he’s serious.
“So what if I just… asked you to the game as friends?”
You raise an eyebrow. “Are you going to try to impress me?”
He grins. “Well, now that I know you know your shit, yeah, probably.”
You should say no. You really should. But he doesn’t know who you are, and he doesn’t seem like all the other guys you used to know. He seems genuinely interested in you.
“I’ll think about it.” You say finally.
His smile grows slowly. “That’s not a no.”
“It’s not a yes either.”
“Yet.” He says shrugging.
You roll your eyes and take a step backwards. “Don’t read too much into it.”
“Too late.” He says lightly.
You laugh and turn away, smiling as you feel his eyes on you. As you walk to class, you start thinking about how your rule doesn’t feel nearly as important as it used to.
When Will gets to the locker room, Gabe and Ryan are already waiting.
“Did you get her number?” Leno asks.
Will frowns at the realization that, no, he didn’t. He glares at Ryan.
“No.”
Ryan leans back against the bench. “Tough.”
“Tragic.” Gabe corrects.
And then, of course, to make it all worse…
“Did you at least get her name?” Gabe questions.
Will doesn’t answer which is answer enough.
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Will doesn't get to rectify his mistake for another week. He had seen you at the game that weekend, but you left before he had gotten out of the dressing room. He doesn’t blame you, how would you have known he wanted you to wait for him, he had no way to contact you. But thankfully, a week later, he spots you again.
You’re walking across campus with your headphones half on, coffee in hand, iced caramel latte, Will thinks, and weaving through the busy sidewalk. You feel a hand tap your shoulder and you turn. There he is.
“Hey.” He says, smiling wide again.
You take your headphones off. “Hi?”
He shifts his backpack strap higher onto his shoulder, the nervous energy blending with something determined.
“I never got your name.” He says.
You tilt your head, smiling softly. “You never asked.”
His mouth drops open slightly, like he knows he walked right into that one. “Okay. Yeah. That’s– yeah. That one’s on me.” He runs a hand through his hair. “I’m asking now, though.”
“Oh?” You cross your arms, pretending to consider it.
“Yeah.” He nods seriously. “What’s your name?”
You tell him and he repeats it softly, and hearing it from his lips has an unfair effect on your heart.
“Pretty.” He mumbles, maybe for you, maybe to himself.
“Thanks. My parents worked really hard on it.” You joke.
He laughs.
“And you are?” You ask innocently.
“You know my name.” He says, narrowing his eyes.
“Do I? That’s awfully presumptuous of you.”
“Yes. You do know it. You said I looked familiar.”
“Lots of people look familiar. Maybe we’ve had a class together.” You reason.
He stares at you a second and then shakes his head. “You’re impossible.”
“And yet…” you shrug.
He nods like he knows what you mean. He’s still here.
“So.” He says, shifting again. “I also never got your number.”
“You didn’t ask for that either.”
“I’m aware.” He replies dryly. “I’ve thought about that several times actually.”
“Oh, really?”
“Yeah.” He hesitates, then admits, “I got a lot of shit from my friends about it.”
You raise an eyebrow. “You told your friends about me?”
He freezes. “I didn’t mean it like that.”
“Like what?”
“I just told them that I met a girl and I didn’t get her name. Or number.” He grimaces and you bite back a laugh. “But apparently that makes me an idiot.”
You shrug, smiling sweetly. “Sounds accurate.”
“Can I fix it?” He asks.
You study him. He’s genuine, no cocky big hockey player energy that you’re used to.
“Maybe.”
He practically deflates and you almost feel bad.
“What does maybe mean?”
“It means,” you start, stepping around him and continuing your walk, “you should try asking properly.”
He falls into step besides you immediately.
“Okay.” He clears his throat. “Hi. I’m Will, I spilled coffee on the pretty girl I met. Would you maybe give me your number so I can make it up to you?”
You laugh before you can help it. “That was terrible.”
He’s grinning. “I panicked.”
You take his phone from his outstretched hand and type your number in. You hand it back to him. He looks down at the screen, smiling like an idiot. He looks back at you and his gaze noticeably softens. You try not to think about it.
“I guess I’ll see you around.” He says.
“You probably will.”
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After that, the relationship you have with Will shifts. Not that you even had much of a relationship before, but it becomes easier. You grow closer, but you’re still just friends, that’s what you tell Will. And it’s what you tell yourself.
It starts with studying together. He texts you after he gets out of his English class
Will
This reading is kicking my ass
Wanna meet in the library?
You don’t even take a second to think about it before you head out the door.
He’s already there when you get there, sitting at one of the tables, highlighter cap in his mouth while he furiously circles lines in his notebook.
“You look stressed.” You say, sliding into the seat across from him.
“I am stressed.” He replies. “Why does everything in this book have to have a double meaning?”
“It’s Orwell, of course it’s that way.” You laugh.
He narrows his eyes and turns back to the book. It’s easy like that, with library tables and shared notes and knees bumping under the table and neither of you pull away.
Then there’s the parties. You’ve tried to stay away from the athlete-adjacent parties, it kind of ties into your rule, but Will somehow talked you into it, promising something “lowkey.”
It is not lowkey. The music is shaking the whole off-campus house, everybody is holding either a can or a red solo cup. You hover near the kitchen at first, arms crossed, already severely regretting the decision to come tonight. Will finds you within seconds.
“Hey.” He says surprised, like he didn’t actually expect you to stick to your word.
“Hi.”
He stays by you all night, not hovering or possessively, just choosing you as his buddy for the night. And it’s nice, he’s a warm presence in the sea of drunk unfamiliar faces.
Weeks pass. You get coffee with him between classes, he walks you back to your dorm after study sessions at the library. He keeps asking if you’ll go out with him, not aggressively, and it’s not constant enough to be annoying either. Just every once in a while like he’s seeing if you’ve changed your mind yet.
“Let me take you out.”
“We are out.”
“No, like an actual date. Please.”
“We’re literally at dinner, Will.”
“This is Chipotle.”
You shrug. “Still counts.”
He sighs dramatically and you think that if he wasn’t a hockey player, maybe he should do theater.
“You’re impossible.” He groans.
“You’ve known that.” You giggle.
“You’re worth it though.” He grins.
And you don’t know what to do when he gets all soft like that. When he looks at you with gentle blue eyes and his face peppered with light freckles. He never makes you feel bad for saying no or not being ready, he just patiently waits like he knows something will change eventually.
But you still mean it. You don’t date hockey players. You’ve seen how it ends, the egos, the stories, the speed of which gossip travels between locker rooms. You promised yourself you wouldn’t be a part of that.
But Will doesn’t remind you of any of them. He waits for you after class so that you can walk to the library together. He listens when you talk, nodding along and remembering little details. He doesn’t talk about you like that to his friends, he doesn’t parade you around.
One night, you’re both sitting on the steps outside your dorm building. It’s cold, you’re wearing his hoodie because you forgot your jacket inside.
He’s telling you a story from practice, gesturing animatedly, acting out every part, and then he pauses mid-sentence and just stares at you.
“What?” You ask.
“You know, we’re basically dating.”
Your stomach flips. “We are not.”
“We hang out like minimum four days a week.”
“Friends hang out.”
“You’re wearing my sweatshirt.”
“It’s comfortable.”
“At the party last weekend, you basically were glaring at that girl who was talking to me.”
You scoff. “I was not.”
“You were.” He smiles.
You open your mouth to argue but you can’t think of anything, because you definitely were glaring. He leans back on his hands smiling satisfied.
“I’m not saying we get hitched tomorrow or anything.” He says gently, not teasing anymore. “I just want to take you out. One real date. If you hate it, we never have to do it again. We can be just friends.”
Your heart is pounding in your chest. Your rule is echoing in your head. Don’t date a hockey player. You think about your brothers, their friends, the stories you’ve overheard, the way you swore you’d never be like that.
But then you think about Will. How he bought you a new coffee, how he stands next to you at parties and walks with you to classes. How he doesn’t push, he just waits patiently.
“I’m not like them.” He says quietly, like he knows what you’re thinking.
“I know.” You admit, looking up at him. You take a deep breath. “Okay.”
Will freezes. “Okay…?”
“I’ll go out with you.”
His entire face lights up. “Like, on a date date?”
“Yes, Will. A date.”
He’s smiling bigger than you’ve seen him before.
“Okay. I’m picking you up at six on Friday.”
“Oh, yeah?” You ask, smiling.
“Yeah. I’ve been waiting for this. I’ve got it planned.” He admits.
You roll your eyes but you can’t hide your smile. Will stands and offers you his hand dramatically.
“Miss Hughes.” He says, exaggerating a little bow.
You scrunch up your face at that. “Don’t make it weird.”
You let him pull you to your feet anyway. And maybe letting the rule bend for the first time in years won’t be such a bad thing.
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At 5:55pm on Friday there’s a knock on your dorm room door. You don’t even expect it to be Will because usually he texts first and usually he waits in the lobby, but when you open it he’s standing there. And oh. He cleans up good. Dark jeans, a fitted sweater instead of the usual hoodie, and he’s definitely put effort into his hair.
“You’re early.” You joke.
“I’ve been downstairs for ten minutes.” He admits, smiling sheepishly. “I didn’t want to seem too eager.”
“You are eager.”
“Painfully.”
You smile. He’s holding a bag, and when you give it a weird look he wiggles his eyebrows and mysteriously tells you, “for later”.
He doesn’t tell you where he’s taking you, so you have no idea what to expect. You walk through campus, following him along the sidewalks as the street lamps start slowly turning on.
“You could’ve just taken me to dinner.” You joke as he leads you down the sidewalk.
“I know.”
“But that’s not what we’re doing?” You guess.
“No.”
He stops outside Conte Forum. You stare at the building.
“Will.”
“Just trust me.”
He pulls out his phone and scans something at the side entrance. The door clicks unlocked. Your eyes narrow.
“How’d you do that?”
“I asked nicely.”
He holds the door open for you as you step inside. It’s quiet and empty, the rink lights are off except for a few over the ice.
“Did you book out the rink?”
“Technically I asked for an open hour of practice today. Don’t tell my coach.” He laughs.
“You’re crazy.” You say smiling.
He grins. “You love it.”
He disappears into a side room and comes out holding a pair of skates. Figure skates. A pair that’s definitely too small for him.
“You said that you missed it.” He shrugs.
You look at him carefully. “You remembered?”
“Yeah. I’ve been planning this since the first time I asked you out.”
Your breath catches. He kneels down casually and sets the skates in front of you.
“I figured you could teach me something.” He says.
You laugh. “You want me to teach you?”
“Yes.”
“You’re aware you’ve already been drafted by the NHL, correct?”
“Yeah, but that’s hockey. Teach me tricks or something.” He says grinning.
You shake your head but sit down on the bench anyway. You lace up your skates as he pulls on his own, hockey skates of course. You meet him over by the boards.
The second you step out onto the ice, something shifts. It’s muscle memory, clean edges, the smooth glide. He watches you go in genuine awe.
You circle back to him and take his hands, pulling him out with you.
“Bend your knees more.” You correct as you glide out to the center.
“I am bending.”
“More.” You laugh.
He bends deeper and you reach out to adjust his shoulders. His hands find your waist automatically to steady himself.
You show him jumps and turns that he attempts, usually ending with him flat on his back, staring up at the ceiling after eating shit.
After one particularly hilarious fall, you burst out laughing.
“You’re enjoying this too much.” He grumbles.
“I am.”
He reaches up suddenly and grabs your hand, and you almost fall on top of him. You catch yourself just in time, hovering over him.
“You’re smiling.” He points out.
“So are you.”
He could kiss you right now, and you almost want him to. But he doesn’t.
Instead he rolls up to his feet, pulling you up with him.
“There’s a part two.” He tells you, smiling.
You make your way off the ice and change back into your shoes. Will leads you back outside and around the rink, towards the reservoir. Then you see it, a small blanket on the ground, string lights between the trees, a small portable speaker. You freeze in your tracks.
“You’re kidding.”
“I said I’ve been planning.”
He pulls takeout containers out of his bag from earlier. Your favorite place near campus that you mentioned once a while ago without really thinking about it.
“And,” he adds, reaching into the bag again, “ice cream. Still cold, I packed ice.”
You stare at him, in awe of all the thought he put into this. He blushes slightly and pulls you to sit with him on the blanket.You stare out at the water while Will dramatically pours sparkling water into plastic cups like it’s a fine wine.
“To breaking your rule.” He says, raising his cup.
You raise an eyebrow. “Bold.”
“To giving me a chance.” He amends, smiling sheepishly.
You knock your cup against his. The conversation moves steadily as he tells you about getting drafted. How scary it was, how he’s scared he still won’t be ready after this year. In return you tell him about quitting hockey, how weird it felt to walk away from something that had taken up your whole childhood.
He listens to you, nodding along, asking questions like he really cares. And you think maybe he does really care. He’s not like any of your brother’s friends, nothing like any hockey players you’ve met in the past. He’s sweet, down to earth, soft.
The fairy lights glow warmer as the sky gets darker. You’re wrapped up in his sweater now because the air got colder, he’s in a long sleeve like he knew this is what would end up happening.
“You planned this before I even agreed.” You say quietly.
“Yeah.”
“What if I said no?”
“I would’ve waited.”
Your heart skips a beat. “You’re very sure about me changing my mind.”
He looks at you like that’s the most obvious thing in the world. “I am.”
The wind picks up slightly and you shift closer to him without thinking. He notices but doesn’t say anything right away.
“Would it be breaking your rule if I kissed you?” He asks quietly.
You tilt your head slightly, “No, I’d like that actually.”
That’s all the permission he needs. Will leans in, slow and gentle, his hand coming up to rest against your jaw. He pulls back smiling.
“So, was this a good first date?” He murmurs.
You pretend to think about it.
“You did fall a lot when we were skating.” You say frowning.
He laughs softly. “I was trying to show off.”
You laugh and shake your head. When you look back at him he’s still staring at you, smiling softly.
“You still don’t date hockey players?” He asks gently.
You look at him, then out at the water for a second, think about how he planned something that wasn’t about him at all.
“I guess,” you start slowly, “I date this one.”
His smile is brighter than the lights around you. And Will thinks that this was absolutely worth the wait.
He walks you back to your dorm that night. You take the long way, neither of you ready for the date to be over yet. He stops at the stairs of your building.
“Did you have fun?” He asks, even though he definitely knows the answer already.
“I did.” You smile.
He grins and there’s a soft pause as he reaches for your hand, grabbing it gently. You step closer to him, leaning in. The kiss is just as soft as the first one, careful, still testing the waters. But then it deepens slightly, warm, his hands settling on your waist as respectfully as he can manage.
He pulls back first, reluctantly and you almost whimper at the loss of contact.
“I should go.” He whispers, but he makes no move to leave.
“You don’t have to.” You offer.
He smiles a little. “I know. I just… I don’t want to mess this up.”
That surprises you but you try not to let it show. He kisses you one last time and walks down the stairs, back towards his dorm, walking backwards like he’s physically forcing himself to leave. You watch him go.
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That Friday night you show up to his game wearing his hoodie. The one he just happened to “forget” in your room after studying. It smells like him, faint laundry detergent and his cologne.
You told yourself you wouldn’t wear his number, but yet here you are with it strung onto a beaded bracelet one of your friends had made and given to you with a smirk.
When he skates out for warmups, your eyes find him immediately. He’s loose and laughing with a teammate, Gabe, you think, and then his eyes find you. His head turns once, then he fully does a double take. He turns away from Gabe and beelines toward the glass about ten rows in front of you.
You pretend you don’t notice at first, still talking to your friend next to you. When you finally look up hrs there by the glass, eyes locked on yours like you’re the only person in the arena. You feel your face heating up just from the attention he’s giving you. Gabe has to come over and almost drag him back to their side for warmups, he’s just standing there smiling and mouthing words that you can’t make out.
After the game, a win from the Eagles, he finds you outside the locker room. His hair is wet from the shower, team hoodie thrown on, a different one than usual because that’s the one you’re “borrowing”. He’s buzzing with energy, talking with his teammates animatedly, and then he sees you.
He doesn’t say anything at first, he just makes his way over and wraps you in a hug, lifting you off the ground slightly.
“We won.” He says into your neck, like you weren’t watching the whole game.
“I noticed.” You laugh.
“I had two points.” He mumbles, setting you down but not letting go yet.
“I saw that too.”
He pulls back just enough to look at your face now. “I’m happy you were there.”
He sounds so genuinely grateful it makes your heart flutter.
“I told you I would be.” You say softly.
Later, when you’re walking across campus together, his hand finds yours naturally and there’s not an ounce of hesitation.
“Do you regret breaking your rule yet?” Will asks, squeezing your hand.
“Never.” You say smiling.
And it’s the truth, you don’t regret it. But it’s not the whole truth because something is shifting. You can feel it. It starts small. He starts saving you a ticket for games without asking first, he’ll ask you if you’re coming when he already knows the answer will be yes.
You start learning his routine, which days he has practice or a lift or recovery. You know which days he’ll be exhausted and which ones will be full of energy. You stop feeling like an outsider in his world, you’re integrating into it.
You keep going to the games, wearing his hoodie and not pretending like it’s an accident anymore. He knows where you’ll be when he skates out onto the ice, and he’s not surprised to see you smiling there anymore.
After the games are over, he doesn’t wait by the locker room doors anymore. He walks out, eyes already searching for yours. And when he finds you, he goes straight over and picks you up in a tight hug.
“Okay,” he says after one particularly good game. “I play better when you’re here. You’re my lucky charm.”
“That’s delusional.” You laugh.
“No, I think it’s science.” He says, grinning widely.
You laugh again.
Later, when you’re walking back across campus, one of his teammates, you're pretty sure this one is also named Will, jogs up to the pair of you.
“Hey, Coach changed it. Team bus is gonna leave at nine tomorrow instead.” He tells him, slightly out of breath.
Will nods. “Thanks.”
His teammate glances at you then. “You’ll be at the game?”
You blink, surprised.
Will answers before you have a chance to. “She will be.”
His confidence in that answer makes your stomach flip. He just knows now, and you don’t correct him.
It’s become normal, you sitting in the stands, waiting outside the locker room. You’ll do homework in his dorm while he’s at practice with his roommates. He’s started leaving your favorite snacks there without saying a word.
You reorganize his mess of a bookshelf one afternoon while he’s at the rink.
“You alphabetized my textbooks.” He laughs, but there’s no malice to it.
“You’re welcome.”
“I knew where everything was.”
“You definitely did not.” You laugh.
He laughs too and pulls you into his chest.
You notice he starts introducing you differently now. At first to Gabe and Ryan it was, “this is my friend”. Then it shifted to introducing you at parties just by your name. Then one night after a game he’s bringing you over to the other freshmen players, saying “this is my girlfriend.”
He says it like it’s obvious, like there was never another word for you. Something warm settles in you, and you want to keep hearing him say that, girlfriend.
Later, of course, you tease him about it.
“You didn’t even ask.”
He shrugs. “Didn’t think I had to.”
“Still could’ve asked.” You laugh.
He turns dramatically to face you, taking both your hands in his.
“Y/n Hughes…will you make me the happiest man alive and be my girlfriend?” He asks in an overdramatic voice.
And he looks like an idiot, but you smile anyway and say yes.
⊱ —————- °.• ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ •.° —————— ⊰
The first night you sleep over at his dorm is completely by accident. It’s late, you’re both stretched out as much as you can be on his twin bed. There’s a random movie playing on the TV that you’re not paying attention to. Your legs are tangled in his, his fingers running up and down your spine relaxingly.
“You look like you're gonna fall asleep.” He murmurs at one point.
“I’m awake.” You protest weakly.
He hums unconvinced. The room is dim and cozy and undoubtedly making you sleepy. At some point you succumb to it.
It’s dark when you wake up. Quiet too. Your cheek is pressed against something warm and solid, a steady rise and fall of Will’s breathing under you. You’re halfway on top of him somehow, your leg slung over his and his arm wrapped around your waist securing you there.
Under you, Will shifts slightly and inhales, like he’s surfacing from sleep too.
“You okay?” He mumbles, voice low and thick with sleep.
“Yeah.” You whisper.
He blinks slowly, eyes unfocused and working on processing the room. Then his gaze settles on you. His hand tightens on your waist automatically.
“You can stay here tonight.” He says quietly.
There’s nothing implied or expected behind those words. Just an offer, letting you know you’re welcome here. You nod before you can overthink it.
“Okay.”
He sighs, almost relieved, and buries his face in your hair.
You lay there in silence, listening to his breathing, relishing in how gentle the moment feels. At some point Will tugs the blanket up higher around your shoulders.
“You feel cold.” He mutters.
You don’t argue, you just sink back into the comfort of it all.
When you wake up again, morning light is slipping through the blinds. Will is on his back still, one arm still loosely around you. His hair is a mess and there’s lines on his face from the pillow. You admire him for a bit before he wakes up. Then he starts stirring slowly.
“You’re staring at me.” He mumbles.
“You drool.”
“I do not.”
“You do.”
Will groans and rolls away as far as he can in the tiny bed. He pulls the blanket with him, away from you. You laugh and sit up. There’s a second where you both just look at each other in the soft morning light. You’ve never seen him like this before. You’ve seen him sweaty after practice, or broken down and unguarded after a bad game, but this version of him with the bed head and puffy eyes might be the best you’ve ever seen. It’s so domestic, so soft and real.
“Stay for breakfast?” Will asks, pushing himself up to sit.
“You can cook?” You question skeptically.
He scoffs. “Obviously.”
You should have questioned that harder, because now you’re sitting in the little kitchenette and it smells faintly of burnt food. Will is at the stove fighting with a pan of scrambled eggs and it appears to be a losing battle. He scoops the eggs onto two plates and pushes one towards you, watching in anticipation when you take a bite.
“Well?” He asks.
You chew slowly. “They’re…eggs.”
He narrows his eyes at you. “That is not an answer.”
“They’re edible.”
“Good. That was the goal.” He laughs.
You smile and take another bite.
“You don’t have to pretend.” He says after a moment.
“I’m not pretending.”
“You hate them.”
“They’re bad.” You admit. “But I don’t mind. You made me breakfast.”
He shrugs like it’s nothing but something in his expression betrays that.
“It’s not a big deal.”
But it feels like it. It’s not just about the eggs, it’s about him asking you to stay without making it heavy, without expecting anything in return, just taking care of you
You finish your plate anyway and when he steals a bite off yours and makes a face because they’re definitely worse than he thought, you laugh so hard you almost fall off the stool.
⊱ —————- °.• ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ •.° —————— ⊰
Another night after a game, you’re lying side by side on your bed in your dorm, just talking. His arm is around you, lazily tracing circles on your clothed stomach.
“You ever think about after?” He asks suddenly.
“After what?”
“After BC.”
You hesitate slightly. “You mean when you leave?”
He nods slowly. You know he’s leaving for San Jose eventually, you’ve known from the beginning. But hearing him say it now makes it feel more real.
“You’re gonna be incredible.” You say.
“That’s not what I asked.”
You know that and he knows you know that. There’s no way around this.
“I don’t know.” You admit. “I’ve been trying not to think that far ahead.”
He nods like he understands that.
“I do.” He says quietly.
That does something to your chest. “You do?”
“Yeah.” He looks at the ceiling now instead of you. “I think about where you’ll be. If you’d visit me there. What it’d be like when I come home for breaks.”
“Really? You’ve thought about all that?”
Will rotates onto his side so he can fully look at you.
“You’re worth it.”
And he’s looking at you honestly, you know he means it. That’s what confirms it for you, that you’re falling in love with Will. Not slowly anymore, just fully headfirst into whatever this will be. And you can see it in him too, how he’s looking at you like he’s already afraid of losing something he just got.
He reaches out and brushes a piece of hair out of your face.
“I’m glad you gave me a chance.” He whispers.
You smile. “Me too.”
And it’s comfortable with him, you’re not connected to anything bigger than yourself, you’re just you. And that’s the version Will is falling for.
He likes that you curse more when you’re tired, he likes the way you annotate books, even the textbooks you’ll probably have to return, he likes the way you roll your eyes when he’s being dramatic. There’s something so unbelievably peaceful about the way he loves you, not that either of you are quite ready to say that out loud yet.
He makes you feel like you’re enough just the way you are, without your last name following you around carrying weight. And maybe that’s why you’re still not in a rush to tell him. Because once he knows, it might not just be you anymore. There are all these invisible strings threaded into your life, tying him to things he doesn’t even know about yet. But right now it feels steady and safe with the boy who’s looking at you in the quiet little space you’ve built just the two of you.
⊱ —————- °.• ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ •.° —————— ⊰
Your dorm room is mostly quiet, just the soft hum of the mini fridge and Will reading dramatically from the text on your laptop.
He’s sprawled out across your bed on his stomach, feet hanging off the edge, his notebook open beside him. He’s using your laptop because his died and you refused to let him bail on studying when you both have a test tomorrow.
“The author’s use of imagery here symbolizes–” he squints at the screen, pushing his hair back, “the emotional decay of the familial relationships.”
You’re sitting cross legged at your desk next to the bed, scribbling notes down as he reads.
“Sure.” You murmur.
He nudges your shoulder lightly with his foot and you bat it away.
“Are you even listening?”
“Yeah. It’s just so stupid. Maybe the curtains are just tattered because the house is old as fuck.” You suggest.
He snorts, going back to reading. “This passage in particular highlights the–”
Your phone lights up next to you and you don’t look at it. But then the FaceTime ring fills the small room. Your stomach drops because it’s not just on your phone, it’s on your laptop too.
And Will has frozen mid-sentence. You look up slowly. On the laptop, completely filling the screen, is a FaceTime notification.
Incoming FaceTime: Lukey Pookie👹
And the contact photo behind it, a horrendous, terrible photo of Luke, maybe looking the worst he’s ever looked. But it’s unmistakably Luke. Luke Hughes.
Will is staring at it like he’s just seen a ghost. You move fast, lunging out of your desk chair with enough force to knock it over. You yank the laptop out of his hands to your chest.
It’s too late though, he’s already seen it. The ringing is still going. Will sits up slowly.
“…Is that–” his voice cracks and he clears his throat. “Is that Luke Hughes?”
You decline the call. There’s silence. Then it immediately starts ringing again. You decline again, much more aggressively this time. Will is staring at you with his jaw dropped.
“Why,” he says carefully, “is Luke Hughes in your phone as Lukey Pookie, with a Devil emoji?”
You set the laptop on your desk and refuse to look at it.
“It’s not what it looks like.”
“It looks like Luke Hughes is FaceTiming you.”
And with perfect timing, it starts ringing again. You hit decline without breaking eye contact with Will.
He runs both his hands through his hair, standing up and beginning to pace in your tiny dorm room.
“Okay. Okay. Wait, holy– Your last name is Hughes.”
You don’t say anything.
“You told me you have older brothers.”
You stay silent.
“You said you played hockey.”
You just stare at the floor, hoping it might swallow you up. Will’s eyes widen slowly.
“No.”
You wince.
“No.” He repeats, pointing at you like he’s accusing you of a crime. “No. No. That’s not–”
Your phone starts ringing again and you groan. “Why the fuck is he so persistent.”
“Because that’s Luke Hughes.” Will whispers.
“I know.” You snap, running a hand through your own hair. “You know.”
You close your eyes and when you open them he’s staring at you like his entire worldview has collapsed, which you feel is a bit dramatic.
“Your brothers are…” he trails off slowly.
You nod once and you see his breath hitch. He sits back on your bed like his legs are about to give out.
“No.”
“Yes.”
“No.”
“Yes.”
“Since when?” He demands.
“Since birth.” You reply dryly.
He drags his hands down his face. “You’re a Hughes.”
“I’ve been pretty transparent about that.”
He looks up at you. “I didn’t think– I mean…” he waves his hands around. “There are other Hugheses. Normal ones.”
Your phone starts ringing again and you both look at it, terrified.
“You have to answer it.” Will mutters.
“No, I don’t.”
“Yes, you do! He’s going to think you’re dead!”
“I decline his calls all the time.” You wave off.
The FaceTime ends on its own and you both let out a sigh of relief. Then it starts up again.
“Do they know about me?” Will asks quietly, looking like he’s about to pass out.
Your silence is his answer. His eyes widen.
“They don’t know about me.”
“Correct.”
“Oh my god. We watched that Canucks game on TV last weekend and you let me chirp!” Will realizes, horrified.
“Quinn deserves it.” You shrug.
“But you never thought to mention that your brothers are three NHL players?”
“You never asked their names.”
Will freezes. “…I never asked their names.”
“Nope.”
Your phone finally stops ringing and it seems like it’s all over. Silence settles into the room.
Will looks at you like he’s seeing you for the first time again. “This is why you didn’t want to date hockey players.”
You shrug slightly. “Partly. Mostly it’s their little hockey friends hoing about who left a bad taste in my mouth. Not with me, but just witnessing it all. But also, hockey guys get weird when I bring my brothers up.”
Will has the audacity to look mildly offended. “I haven’t been weird.”
You stare at him. Will sighs.
“Okay. I might have overreacted and been a little weird.”
“A little?” You grin.
He laughs, shaking his head. “I cannot believe this.”
The calm is broken by your phone buzzing with a text. You and Will both glance at your phone.
Lukey Pookie👹
Answer your phone or I will drive the three hours to Boston
I already have my keys
Will reads it and makes a strangled noise. “You have to answer it.”
You sigh. “Just relax.”
He grabs your wrist before you reach for your phone.
“Do not tell him I’m here.”
“No shit, Sherlock. That’s not how I want my brother to find out about you.”
Your phone starts ringing again and Will drops to the floor, like he’s trying to find somewhere to hide.
“This is your fault.” He whisper screams.
“You’re the one freaking out.” You point out.
“You’re the one who’s related to three NHL players.”
You hit accept and Will goes silent. Luke’s face fills the screen, he’s far too close to the camera, all nose and forehead.
“Finally.” He groans dramatically. “I thought you fuckin’ died.”
“Sorry, I was studying with Bella.” You lie, supplying one of your friends who would definitely cover for you if Luke managed to track her down.
From somewhere off screen you hear Jack.
“Who died?”
Then he appears in frame for a second, his hair messy, looking like he just woke up even though it’s four in the afternoon.
“No one.” You groan. “Luke’s being dramatic.”
“You’ve been declining my calls!” Luke accuses.
“You called me six times!”
“Because I was worried you died!”
“I wouldn’t be dead if I’m able to decline your calls.”
Luke pauses suddenly and squints at the screen. “You look flushed.”
“It’s hot in my room, I should turn the fan on.” You lie, ignoring the terrified look on Will’s face.
Luckily, Luke really doesn’t care that much, as he changes the subject quickly. He flops back on the couch.
“I’m bored.” He tells you.
“No way.” You deadpan.
Jack leans into frame now, getting up close and personal. “Where are you?”
You instinctively move the camera closer to you. “My room.”
“Can I see?”
Absolutely not. “No.” You say immediately, making a face.
Jack and Luke pause, you can literally see the thoughts forming in their heads.
“…why?” Jack asks.
“My room’s so messy right now.”
“Since when do you care? We grew up with you.” Luke counters.
“I always care.” You say, glaring at him.
In front of you, Will is backing slowly into a corner, as though that will help him disappear.
Jack narrows his eyes. “You’re hiding something.”
“I am not. My room is just messy!”
“You kept declining my calls.” Luke points out again.
“I told you I was studying.”
Jack groans loudly. “You’re such a nerd. Rather study than talk to your brothers.”
“Some of us value our GPA, thank you very much.”
Luke smiles at that. “You always did.”
You roll your eyes, hoping they’ve finally given up. Years of growing up with them have trained you for whatever interrogations they throw your way. You’ve survived worse. Will, on the other hand, looks like he’s seconds away from throwing up. You try not to look at him.
“So when are you coming home?” Jack asks.
“Thanksgiving break.” You say.
“Good.” Luke says. “Mom keeps asking us how you’re doing.”
“I literally call her multiple times a week.” You laugh.
“Yeah, but I think she thinks you’ll tell us more about that party lifestyle you’re living currently.”
You laugh again, because that is absolutely not true. You really haven’t been out much, and with it getting colder, that’s gonna cut down even more.
Luke and Jack start talking over each other then, something about some story from practice or something Nico said. You start to relax as the conversation shifts back into that chaotic older brother territory. Luke complaining about something stupid Jack did, Jack defending himself and yelling.
From the floor, Will is watching you, stunned at how comfortable this all is for you. How quickly you snap back at them, how you already know all the people from the stories. It’s a different side of you he’s never seen.
Eventually Luke checks the time and sighs.
“Okay. Well, we’re gonna go get food now. I just wanted to say hi to my favorite sister.”
“I’m your only sister.” You point out.
“Love you loser!” Jack says, leaning into the screen.
“Love you more!” You reply automatically.
Luke smiles. “Bye!”
Then the call ends. You lower your phone slowly and glance at Will. He stands up, once again running a hand through his very messy hair.
“That was terrifying.”
“You’re so dramatic.” You laugh.
“You just lied to Jack Hughes’ face.”
“I’ve been doing that since I learned how to talk.” You joke.
That finally gets Will to smile.
“I can believe this.” He laughs, shaking his head.
“Yeah.” Your smile fades slightly as you pause. “I’m sorry, Will. I should’ve told you sooner. I was just worried about it changing… all of this.”
He doesn’t answer right away and you feel a pit slowly sinking into your stomach.
“Changing how?” He finally asks.
You look down at your hands. “I don’t know. I didn’t want you to think I was… using it to get you or keep you around. Or that I’m like some hockey nepo baby.”
He looks confused. “You thought I’d think that?”
“I’ve had it happen before.” You admit. “The second guys find out about it, that's all they want to talk about. Like maybe I’ll introduce them and that’s all I’m good for. I didn't want that to happen with you, I didn’t want you to look at me and just see them.”
Will steps closer. “You really think I’d do that?”
“I hoped not.” You stare at the floor.
“Hey, look at me.” He sits on the edge of your bed and pulls you between his knees, his hands resting lightly on your hips. “When I met you I didn’t know your name, or your brothers. I just knew that you were so beautiful and unfortunately drenched in coffee and it was all my fault.”
“It was.” You mumble, smiling.
He smiles, but his eyes stay steady on yours.
“I kept asking you out because you’re funny and smart and you don’t treat me like some NHL prospect. I’m some idiot who spilled your drink.”
You shake your head. “You’re not an idiot, Will.”
He waves you off. “My point is, you think having your brothers makes you more interesting? It doesn’t. It gives you more depth as a person, it makes your life more complicated.”
“I didn’t tell you because I liked that you didn’t know.” You admit to him. “You didn’t ask about them or bring up stats to compare yourself. You just actually liked me.”
“I still like you.” He says, tilting his head.
“Even though I lied to you?”
“You didn’t lie.” He says. “You omitted some extremely terrifying information. But you never lied.”
You laugh despite how you’re feeling. Will has always been good at making you laugh. He brushes his thumb over your waist absentmindedly.
“Besides… if anything, this makes you tougher.” He adds.
“What do you mean?” You laugh.
“You grew up around all that and didn’t turn into an asshole.”
You laugh dryly at that. “Debatable.”
Will shakes his head and grabs one of your hands, his other still rubbing circles on your hip.
“No. You protected yourself from all that. You found a way to get through it without turning mean or becoming someone you weren’t. You made your rules.”
Your expression softens. “I didn’t want to be somebody’s story. You know how locker rooms can be.”
His jaw tightens. “I would never.”
“I know.”
And you do know, you trust him about all this. You finally let someone in and for once it doesn’t feel like it’ll backfire.
“Look.” Will starts after a second. “If you want to keep it all quiet for now, we’ll keep it quiet. If you want to tell them, we’ll tell them. But I’m not going anywhere.”
Your throat tightens a little. “You’re sure?”
He lifts his head to yours and kisses you, slow and soft.
“I didn’t start liking you because of your last name. And I’m not gonna stop because of it either.” He tells you softly.
The words are grounding and you sigh.
“Okay.”
He smiles softly, then it turns mischievous.
“But when they do find out… I’m gonna need at least a ten minute head start.”
Summary: You and Will get into a fight, but after some good (?) advice from Toff, he’s back at your door
Will is late. Again. You know it’s not technically his fault but you’ve been sitting in your apartment alone for almost two hours now. Dinner has gone cold, and your phone is on the table with one message from Will.
Running late. Sorry.
That’s all, no explanation or estimated timeline. Nothing.
You knew when you started dating him that hockey was demanding and his schedule was anything but normal. You’d never expect him to put you before his career, especially with the relationship being newer. But lately it feels like you’re the only one making sacrifices, always being so understanding, always responding with it’s okay. Even when it doesn’t feel okay.
The door finally opens and Will walks in looking exhausted. His hair is messy, dark circles under his blue eyes. But the second he sees you his face softens.
“Hey.”
You don’t smile. You don’t say anything. His expression immediately falls.
“Oh.” He murmurs, turning to close the door behind himself. “You’re mad.”
“No.” You reply quickly, maybe too quickly. Too sharp.
Will sighs. “Okay.”
You stare at him. “Okay?”
“What do you want me to say? You’re clearly mad.”
“I’m not mad! I just-” You take a deep breath, trying to calm yourself. “Do you maybe want to explain why you’re two hours late?”
“I texted you.”
You laugh, short and humorless. “One text, Will.”
His shoulders tense. “I was at the rink. I had practice. I couldn’t just have my phone on me constantly.”
“You’re always at the rink.” You say, annoyed, the words slipping out before you can think twice about them.
Immediately you regret it, because you watch the hurt flash across his face.
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
You stand up from your spot at the table.
“It means I feel like hockey gets every version of you that’s happy and energetic.” Your voice cracks slightly. “And then by the time you get to me, there’s nothing left.”
Will is silent, stunned. “You think I don’t make time for you?”
“That’s not what I said.”
“No, that’s literally exactly what you just said.”
“No. Will, I’m saying lately it just feels like–”
He cuts you off. “I’ve been working my ass off lately. Trying to do all of it.”
He’s getting more and more frustrated, but so are you.
“Trying isn’t the same as showing up.”
Will actually takes a step back at your words. “Wow. You have no idea what’s been going on in my life.”
“Then tell me!” You exclaim, exasperated.
“I don’t tell you because every time I come home it feels like I’m just constantly disappointing you.”
That one hurts you, you hate that you’ve given him that impression. But instead of letting up, trying to handle it maturely, you keep pressing.
“Maybe because you keep giving me reasons to be disappointed.” You bite.
There’s silence. Will looks like you just punched him in the gut. His jaw clenches.
“Fine.” He says, colder than you’ve ever heard him sound before. “If that’s really how you feel, maybe I should just go.”
“Maybe you should.” You said flatly.
The words hung there between the two of you, heavy and awful. You didn’t even mean half of what you said, but you can’t take it back now.
Will lets out a heavy breath before digging his keys back out of his pocket. Then he turned and left. You watched him walk out and flinched when the door slammed. But the second it was shut you started crying.
⊱ —————- °.• ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ •.° —————— ⊰
The next few days are truly awful. You barely leave your bed, barely eat anything. Your apartment feels too quiet and everywhere you look is another reminder of him. His hoodie on the back of your couch, his favorite coffee creamer in your fridge. Every time your phone buzzes, you jump, expecting it to be him. But it never is. The empty space next to you in your bed is impossibly large without him. You miss him so much it physically hurts.
Will is miserable too and it doesn’t go unnoticed by his teammates. His passes are off in practice, his timing is terrible, and he can’t focus on anything. Every break he spends staring at his phone, waiting for texts that never come.
Finally, halfway through practice, Toff skates over.
“What the hell is wrong with you?”
Will glances up from his phone. “Nothing.”
“Lie.”
Will sighs. “It’s just relationship stuff.”
Toff’s eyebrows shoot up. “Do you want to talk about it?”
Will doesn’t say anything, just shrugs.
“You look terrible.” The older guy adds.
“Thanks.”
“Did you two break up?”
The thought makes Will’s stomach twist. “No.”
“Then what’s the issue?”
Toff is looking at Will patiently, and the younger man thinks that maybe it’ll feel good to get it off his chest. So he explains it all, the way you had made dinner, how he was late, the argument, the things you both said, and then the way he walked out. Toffoli listens quietly, nodding along. As soon as Will is done talking, he jumps in.
“Yeah, you’re definitely an idiot.”
Will lets out a laugh, despite the situation not feeling that funny.
“Thanks man, that’s helpful.”
Toff smiles. “Do you love her?”
The question catches Will off guard completely. “What?”
“I know you heard me.”
Will opens his mouth but he can’t find words. The answer comes so naturally in his head that it would almost be embarrassing.
Of course he loves you. He loves the way you steal his hoodies, the way you laugh at his jokes even when they’re terrible. He loves the way you make him feel at home. It hits him all at once.
“Yeah. I do.”
Toffoli shrugs like that’s the simplest thing in the world. “Then stop acting like an idiot, and go talk to her.”
Will side eyes him. “That’s your advice? You’re married, you’re supposed to give me more than that.”
Toffoli just shrugs again and skates away.
That night, Will doesn’t sleep at all. Instead, he spends hours awake staring at the ceiling, replaying the whole fight. Every word he had said, every mistake he had made.
By morning he’s made up his mind. He’s done being stubborn. He drives to your apartment before he can convince himself otherwise.
When you open the door you immediately clock how exhausted he looks. Neither of you have been sleeping well. You’ve both clearly been crying.
Will speaks first. “I’m sorry.” He blurts instantly. “I shouldn’t have walked out.”
Your eyes sting immediately. “I’m sorry too. I shouldn’t have said I was disappointed in you.”
Will shakes his head. “No. You were trying to tell me something important about how you were feeling and I got defensive instead of listening.”
Your gaze falls to the floor. “I know hockey is important to you.”
“It is.” Will nods, but then his expression softens. “But you’re important too.”
The tears start falling down your face after hearing that. You needed to hear that, after all, that’s what all this had really been about. Not dinner, not him being late, not busy schedules. You just wanted to know that there was room for you in his life.
Will steps closer, reaching for your face. “You matter to me. So much.”
“You promise?” You ask, tears sliding down your cheeks.
His expression breaks as he reaches to wipe your tears away. It’s a small question, but it expresses every insecurity you’ve been carrying around. He hates that he’s made you doubt that.
“I promise.” He says, voice shaking. His eyes search yours for a second, trying to read you. Then he speaks again, quieter, “I love you.”
The words hit you like a wave, and your eyes go wide. Not because you’re surprised, you knew that he did, but he’s never said it out loud before.
“I love you.” He repeats. “I think I’ve loved you for a while.”
Your eyes immediately fill with tears again. Will looks scared.
“Please don’t cry again.”
A watery laugh escapes your throat as your hands reach for his. You squeeze his hands.
“I love you too.”
The relief on Will’s face is immediate, and he finally takes a breath.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.” You laugh.
“Thank god.” Will murmurs, dropping his head to your shoulder.
He wraps both his arms around you and pulls you tightly into his chest.
I wanted to do this after the Fraser ones and I got a little carried away
You watch every single “the dogs were good again this week” tiktok together. Like even if he’s on the road, he’s calling you when it’s posted so you can screen share it on facetime
I fear he might try to play the guitar at you
But he also tries to teach you how to play
Bakes for you 24/7 and he loves when you sit with him while he does it
Watches Home Alone all times of the year and forces you to join every time (fair tho that’s been my favorite movie since I was little)
Buys you everythingggg, like you glance at something at the store and it’s already in his cart
I’m afraid Macklin is basically a permanent 3rd wheel at this point and it’s not that bad but he is pissed he had to give up his passenger princess seat to you
I feel like Will’s grown really accustomed to sleeping next to you so much so that he struggles to sleep without you on road trips. Lowkey I think he sneaks one of your hoodies along with him and just sleeps with it pulled to his chest because it smells like you. Macklin tried to tease him about it but the look he got in response terrified him.
He definitely loves fun dates. Like mini golf, karaoke, bowling, the zoo
I feel like his gear knowledge definitely translates to other things too, like I think he just knows a bunch of random shit and he’ll just blurt out a fact and you’re like ???
He definitely keeps a list of your favorite things in his notes app, like favorite candy, favorite color, favorite flower
He definitely sends you pictures of every dog he sees and you’re worried he looks like a creep just taking pictures but he’s lucky he’s pretty
He has probably a million photos of you on his phone and half of them are blurry and bad because he took them when you weren't looking
I feel like lowkey he takes pictures of you sleeping too and you tell him he’s a creep for that but he just thinks you look so peaceful and pretty
He’s so giddy when you teach him something new. History fact? Random animal fact? He's telling his teammates about it like he figured it out himself
You definitely try making sourdough together and he names the starters lol
You definitely watch nature documentaries together
He is so directionally challenged like you’ll be driving in his hometown and he’s giving directions and somehow he gets you lost
He's 1000% the type of boyfriend who says “watch this” right before doing something incredibly unimpressive but you’ll smile and clap bc yes honey good job
If you call him pretty instead of handsome he acts offended but then he’s smiling because he secretly like it, just not in front of the boys🙅♀️🙅♀️
He gets weirdly emotional seeing you get along with people he loves like his family or friends and teammates, it just makes him so fucking happy
Loves when you come on shopping trips with him, and it turns into a whole thing too, because you’re already out, so why not cross off every to-do list? The Dick’s is only like ten minutes from Target and then while you’re out that way you might as well swing by the outlet mall too
Definitely brings you golfing with him and if you don’t want to golf you just sit in the cart and look pretty
Definitely scrolls Petfinder for hours every day and sends you the cutest dogs and you have to remind him that neither of you are home enough to care for a dog right now
You ask one question about hockey, baseball, baking, history, golf, literally anything he likes? Congrats, you’ve just earned yourself a 20 minute TEDTalk
When he bakes he leaves a good amount of batter left so you can lick the spoon/bowl/whisk
I feel like he loves making tiktoks with you and he probably never posts them and they sit in his drafts for years but they’re fun to make
Back to the guitar, he definitely learns your favorite songs but won’t perform it for you until he can do it perfectly because he wants to do it right for you
If he finds out you're ticklish, your life changes forever, you’re fucked
Loves making you laugh when you're trying to be serious
You’re the first person he wants to tell a story to, show a picture to, call after practice, or sit next to at the end of the day
I wanna say he would try a yoga or Pilates class with you. Idk if he’d like it but he’d definitely try
Oh 100% tho sign him up for puppy yoga
Also probably does face masks with you and lets you get one of those squiggly headbands to hold his hair back