Its been a while since I’ve posted in here. Honestly University is something I know I need to continue with, but it’s not the forefront of my life. I am currently in Christchurch, and the team creating one of the zaniest immersive experiences I have ever been involved in.
I’m a full time live-in-artist-in-residence at Exchange Christchurch, which is a huge showcase, creator/maker space, with amazing food, vibes and events that push the boundaries of creativity, the arts, and social networking like what we’re seeing in larger cities across the world like Berlin, Shanghai and Blackrock.
I’m still very interested in all that BCT has to offer me, hence why I am still here, and working remotely. I feel like being caged to Auckland is not my calling. I can study, be fluid and adaptable and able to fit in a lot in every single day, including spending time with those who matter to me the most, and trust me, there’s a lot of people.
I want to entertain the notion that the course called Integrative Practices or trans-disciplinary practices or the culmination of experience, to be called Mindfulness, under different names. To be mindful, we can see all aspects of ourselves arise, and it doesn’t necessarily mean we have to be in a calm or meditative state to practice being aware of the various faculties of our organism, but being calm and still is a perfect way to practice watching all your thoughts and feelings, so that in the situation where we need to be interdisciplinary, we are calm, aware and open to connection otherwise would be previously irrelevant or unheard of.
I know a lot of my writing, is psuedo-scientific. Which means that although it’s not in a scientific journal, choreographed and tested against others, I have my beliefs, thoughts and feelings, which of course, are attached to my sense of self and allows me to navigate this universe much like the fish does in its own world.
“Hey kids, how’s the water?” said the Adult fish to the young fish.
“What the hell is water?” replies the juvenile fish.
The facts may be present in a million unstructured documents from centuries of studies, and struggles and some others may choose not to believe my truth, or the countless other agents who have testified throughout history of their truth, but whether you believe it or not, I do, this is my reality, and if you can not wrap your mind around the fact that I can not fully wrap my mind around yours, you’ll start to see that in matter of fact, all these differences we have in opinions, or truths, or facts, is that you believe in something, thats your science, your truth. You have an absolute sense of rightness about you. But is it right? Is it good, or evil? Or God’s handiwork?
What is real? Love isn’t real. Oh wait, it is, isn’t it? You’ve felt it in a tearjerker movie, that pulled you into another reality. The past few months I have been exploring love, and trust, and truth, and awareness within my relationships with friends and family, and the most valuable thing in life is that which I know won’t last forever. Nothing will. That’s why its so valuable. The sensation of the skin on their knee, the fabric of their clothes, how it holds the form of a human so well in such a cacophony of ways. The fear of being seen for who I am. Afraid of being seen by those who I have invested my heart and soul into. Literally. Love is an investment that when it is real, it grows. If it is loyalty, it’s out of fear. Love is stronger than gravity. Love is painful. But pain is our greatest teacher because we change and live and grow through experience.
I am going to go draw the place where I live and work, The Exchange. For this first week of Integrative Practices blog. I know that because I dont want to do it, I know I should do it, just to prove to myself that I want to. I guess I have a question with authority. You have to do that. It’s not a choice. But I know I will have to live with humans, so long as I live on this planet, in this skinsuit.
have you ever felt your spirit within your skin? the you, the self, not the meat, not the bone, not the pulse, but you, the self, the spirit, the self that feels everything, the coursing of life, and spirit welling up in your heart and in your hands now. remember who you are.
