#xft

[not-dere]

[xfilesthe]

mulder picking up fucking anything from the yard to break down the door of that rv? honestly so fucking sexy of him

[captainofmysoul]

01.07.2020 CrossFit has changed me in so many ways. I love my box, and I’m so sad about leaving Townsville in a few months, because I’ll be leaving Tropics. I feel comfortable with these people, I feel happy to see them at 0530 in the morning. I feel like they’ve seen me change and get better and they understand are are accommodating to my weaknesses. It’s one of the very few reasons that I am going to grieve this place. I absolutely love being able to look at myself and feel confident (sometimes, still working on it) instead of ashamed or shy or a myriad of other feelings. I love knowing that I still have a long way to go but being happy with where I am at. I love feeling strong. I love getting chunkier. I love that I have found my place in this big world of health and fitness, finally.

[xfilesthe]

big win for x-files fans tonight, babes they put joy to the world on the wh*le foods playlist

[captainofmysoul]

26.05.2020 sometimes it takes a lot to post stuff on social media, I’m 28 and I worry so much about people thinking anything negative about me instead of just being happy with my achievements. Tuesday morning was 11°c and all snatches, which are usually my enemy but I’m slowly (it’s taken like a year, inconsistently since we don’t do snatches all the time and I haven’t been 100% dedicated to CrossFit for that whole time) to start to understand how to do snatches and now it’s kind of cool. I had three videos from this morning that I shared on Instagram (stories), not to show off, but cause I’m proud of myself and, I duno. I duno why I struggle so much with thinking that I have to justify what I post. I feel like an angsty teenager... anyone here is the last one of my PB at 33 kgs. Still lots to work on, but at the same time I’m comfortable knowing that I’m limited my the ACL reco, it’s not worth getting frustrated over anymore. That was a ramble...

[xfilesthe]

i promise the next chapter of my fic is coming out soon its just that im insatiable and ive written 10k unreleased words and i STILL dont quite know what chapter 2 is yet

[xfilesthe]

i literally stayed up for 3 hours last night thinking about the only two moments that im debating diverting from canon in my fic. like, not by way of omission, or reinterpretation, or filling in missing scenes of off-screen development, but by making significant chances to canon, fully filmed moments

because like i tend to be a person that really enjoys adhering to canon. i have fun with my personal aus, but in this is the exit, its in many ways meant to be kind of a thesis? its less telling a new story with existing characters, and more taking the existing body of work and ripping it up, pulling scenes out one by one and putting them up against each other so they they can be seen in a new light, or used as evidence to my greater thesis statement of like “this is why this love story hits me in the gut sometimes” 

but in the end i think im gonna do it, because like. the strictness with which i usually treat canon allows me to make the decision to break that rule with greater impact. and i think if used sparingly it can make a big statement that still stay very true to who scully and mulder are

anyway read my fic im writing chapter 3 rn and it fucks 

[xfilesthe]

the time spent on gifs is honestly worth it for the tags alone