Summary: Even after nearly dying, all Leon can think about is his husband.
CW: Soft angst - Hurt/Comfort - Fluff - Established relationship - Married - Leon is canon age (48) - Reader is early 50s - Old man yaoi - Slight spoilers
Words: 4.4k
A/N: Ah yes my favorite old man yaoi is finally making a return. I've been a huge Resident Evil fan since I was a kid, so I'm actually excited to start writing for it. Anyway, this will be a little different than what I mentioned but hopefully it turns out well and y'all like it. A few things as I edit this, if I remember correctly in RE8 it's said Chris works for the BSAA, so reader does too and also this is more or less just based on Leon walking away and putting his ring back on, cause I'm tryna not actively spoil anything. I don't even know what to say about this one......not my best
What had he done to deserve this?
Before the academy, before the nightmare of Raccoon City—hell, even after the world fell apart a dozen times over—what had he done to earn a grace like you? In a world choked by the rot of Umbrella and the shadows of corrupt men, Leon Kennedy had somehow stumbled into your life. He didn't think he deserved you. In his own mind, he was still just a rookie cop who’d had to grow up in a single, blood-soaked night. And you? You were a legend, a pillar of S.T.A.R.S. who had survived the Arklay Mountains only to spend your fifties tethered to Chris Redfield’s relentless, exhausting crusade to fix a broken world.
Leon never expected a forever. It was never supposed to be more than a lingering, sideways glance in a dimly lit bar while Chris talked shop. It wasn't supposed to end in a quiet ceremony, or the secret thrill he felt every time someone called you Mr. Kennedy just to see the smirk play on your aging, handsome face.
And yet, as the infection tore through his nervous system, his mind didn't go to the mission. It went to you. Your voice was the only thing cutting through the white noise of the virus; your smile was the only image that wouldn't dissolve into the blur. You were his anchor. Even as his muscles seized and his mind screamed for the mercy of unconsciousness, the thought of coming home to you kept his heart beating.
But the reality was a cold, hard floor. His body was a cage of fire and ice, twitching violently as the antidote warred with the parasite.
“Can't believe you're heading out again,” you murmured in the golden light of the memory. The bedsheets were tangled around your legs, and the scent of cedar and old coffee hung in the air. “I finally get a week off, and they decide they can't breathe without you.”
Leon huffed a dry laugh, his lips pressing firmly against your weathered knuckles as he lay draped across you. “Gonna miss me, old man?” he whispered against your skin. He knew the answer, but he needed the vibration of your voice to steady him.
You leaned back against the headboard, running a hand through his messy brown hair. Leon let out a long, shaky breath, melting into the heat of your chest. “Of course,” you said softly, your thumb tracing the line of his jaw. “I always do. Just….come back in one piece this time. I'm too old to be a widower, Leon.”
Leon closed his eyes, tilting his head up until his lips met yours in a promise he intended to keep.
Then, the world shattered.
His back arched off the freezing ground, a choked gasp tearing from his throat as he shouted your name into the empty air. His eyes snapped open, stinging and bloodshot. There was no warm bed. No hand in his hair. The taste of you was replaced by the copper tang of blood and a sterile chemical stench.
His left hand flew to his chest, searching for the silver band he’d worn for years. His finger felt unnervingly light. The ring was gone—likely stripped away during the chaos or lost in the dirt. The silence of the room was deafening, a requiem for a man who had everything to lose and was currently losing it all.
Leon’s lungs burned, each breath a jagged shard of glass as the last of the infection was purged from his veins. The silence that followed the chaos was deafening—the monster was dead, Victor Gideon was a memory, and Grace was finally safe.
None of that mattered.
His vision was a blurred mess of gray and red, but his hand was already moving, clawing at the dirt and the debris. His fingers felt wrong. They felt lighter, colder, stripped of the one thing that grounded him to his humanity.
"No….no, no, no," he rasped, his voice a broken shell of its former self. He dragged his body across the floor, his knees scraping against the jagged concrete. "Not this. Not now."
His mind was a whirlwind of panic. He had survived Raccoon City, the Plagas, and the fall of governments, but the thought of losing that simple silver band felt like the final, killing blow. It was the only piece of you he had brought into this hellhole. It was the promise of a quiet house, the scent of cedar, and your hand in his hair when the nightmares got too loud.
"I’m coming back," he hissed through gritted teeth, his fingers digging into a pile of ash and spent shell casings. "I promised. I told you….I told you I'd come back."
He was rambling now, a feverish mumble that only he could hear. To any observer, he looked like a broken man searching for a scrap of refuse, but to Leon, he was searching for his soul. He didn't care that his gear was shredded or that his ribs felt like they were held together by the thinnest of threads.
"Can't lose it. Please, just….not this."
He pushed aside a heavy piece of fallen rebar, his breath hitching. There, half-buried in the soot and the dark, damp earth of the crater, was a glint of silver. It was dull, coated in a layer of grime, but it caught the flickering emergency light of the facility.
Leon’s hand shook so violently he almost knocked it further into the debris. He lunged for it, his fingers closing around the cold metal with a desperation that bordered on holy. He didn't just pick it up; he cradled it against his palm, bringing it to his lips as a sob he’d been holding back since the mission started finally threatened to break through.
He wiped the dirt off with a trembling thumb, the familiar weight of it centers him. He didn't think about the global implications of all of this. He didn't think about the debriefing or the scars this night would leave. He only thought about the way you looked in the morning light, and how he wasn't going to let that be a memory.
With a grunt of agony, he forced himself to his feet. His legs felt like lead, but he slid the ring back onto his finger. It was a perfect fit—a constant, solid reminder of the man waiting for him. He adjusted it, twisting it once, twice, until it sat exactly where it belonged.
"See you soon," he whispered, his eyes hardening as he looked toward the exit. "I'm coming home.”
The silence of the house was its own kind of weight. It wasn't the peaceful quiet of a cold night; it was the hollow, ringing silence of an empty nest that was never meant to be this still.
You sat at your mahogany desk, the green shaded lamp casting a warm, localized glow over a sea of chaos. Your home office had become a secondary branch of the BSAA in all but name. Scattered across the blotter were thick manila folders and grainy satellite captures—reports Chris had unofficially slid your way. He valued your eyes, the eyes of a S.T.A.R.S. veteran who had seen the world break before the rest of the public even knew it was cracked. But tonight, the analysis of bio-organic weapon dispersal patterns in Eastern Europe felt like trying to read a dead language.
Your mind was miles away, buried in the dark soil of whatever godforsaken corner of the globe Leon was currently haunting.
You knew better than most what he was capable of. You’d seen him survive things that would have leveled a small army, but that didn't stop the creeping dread. You knew how Raccoon City had carved him out, leaving a hollow space that he’d spent years trying to fill with duty. Your greatest fear wasn't that Leon wouldn't be able to handle the job—it was that one day, the job would simply decide it was finished with him, and you’d be the last to know. You’d be sitting right here, analyzing a report for Chris, while your world ended in a silent, classified file on someone else's desk.
Letting out a heavy, jagged sigh, you scrubbed a hand down your face. Your palms felt rough, the skin dry from years of handling firearms and paperwork. Your fingers brushed against the grit of stubble on your jaw—a silvered, unruly growth you hadn't bothered to trim since Leon left.
"Get it together," you muttered to the empty room. Your voice sounded gravelly, older than you felt like admitting.
With a grunt of effort, you pushed back from the desk, the wheels of the chair groaning against the hardwood. You began the ritual of tidying up, stacking the BSAA reports into a neat, categorized pile. It was a habit from the old days—leave your station ready for the next shift. You clicked the desk lamp off, plunging the room into a shadowy twilight, save for the pale moonlight filtering through the blinds.
As you moved through the hallway, the muscle memory of your life together took over. For a fleeting, heart-stuttering second, you expected to see a shadow move in the kitchen, or to feel a pair of strong arms wrap around your waist from behind. You could almost smell him—gunpowder, expensive cologne, and the faint, metallic scent of rain. But when you turned the corner, there was only the hum of the refrigerator and the ticking of the grandfather clock in the foyer.
He wasn't there.
You shook your head, a self-deprecating smirk tugging at the corner of your mouth. You were too old for ghost stories, especially the ones you told yourself.
Stripping off your flannel shirt and undershirt as you walked, you let them fall onto the armchair in the bedroom, followed by your belt and trousers. You stepped into the en suite bathroom, the tile cold beneath your feet. The fluorescent light hummed to life, bright and unforgiving.
You leaned against the marble counter, staring at the man in the mirror.
You looked at the silver ring on your left hand first. It was scratched, the metal dulled by decades of life, but it was the most solid thing in the room. Then, you looked up. The light caught the deep salt-and-pepper of your hair, more salt than pepper these days. The wrinkles at the corners of your eyes were deep—laugh lines earned from rare, genuine smiles, and worry lines earned from every time Leon walked out the front door. Your face was a map of a long, hard-fought life. You weren't the young S.T.A.R.S. operative anymore; you were a man in his fifties who just wanted his husband home.
You shook your head again, dismissing the melancholy before it could take root. Turning away from your reflection, you reached into the walk-in shower and twisted the handle. The pipes groaned, a familiar shudder running through the wall, before the spray began to hiss against the stone floor. Steam started to rise, blurring the edges of the room, and for a moment, you just stood there, watching the water swirl down the drain.
The quiet click of the front door’s latch was a sound Leon had rehearsed in his mind a thousand times over the last forty-eight hours. He didn't turn on the lights. He didn't need to. The house breathed with a familiar, lived-in warmth that made the sterile, metallic tang of the lab feel like a bad dream he’d finally woken up from.
He moved like a ghost through the foyer, his movements heavy with a bone-deep exhaustion that no amount of caffeine could touch. His tactical boots, caked in the dried mud and grime of a nightmare, were set by the door with a dull thud. He didn't bother unlacing them properly; he just kicked them off, his socks padding softly against the hardwood. His jacket followed, hitting the floor with the muffled thud.
He knew exactly where you were. The low, rhythmic hum of the pipes vibrating through the floorboards told him everything. It was your ritual—the late-night shower to wash away the phantom weight of BSAA casualty reports and the stress of waiting for a phone call that might never come.
Leon moved into the bedroom, his silhouette a jagged shadow against the moonlight. He stripped with a mechanical efficiency, his hands trembling slightly as he unbuckled his holster. His pants and boxers pooled on the faded rug in front of the bed—the one you’d bought together because it reminded you of a proper home—and he left them there.
He stepped into the bathroom, the air thick and heavy with steam that smelled of your sandalwood soap. The humidity clung to his skin, pulling the chill of the outside world from his pores.
Before he reached for the shower door, he caught his reflection in the mirror.
The fog had started to claim the glass, but he saw enough. He looked at the man staring back—a man who had survived, but looked like he’d been dragged through the gears of it. There was a jagged cut along his cheekbone, held together by dried, copper-colored blood. Bruises the color of spoiled plums were blooming across his ribs and shoulders. But it was his face that held his gaze. He saw the gray stubble dusting his jaw, thicker now, and the stark, silver strands peeking through the weary brown of his hair. He was aging. They were both aging, the years stolen by a world that never stopped needing them to bleed for it.
Then, his eyes dropped to his hand. The silver ring sat firmly on his finger, gleaming even through the grime. He twisted it once, a grounding habit, before his gaze drifted past his own reflection.
Through the frosted, foggy glass of the sliding shower door, he saw you.
You were a blurred, familiar silhouette in the spray, your head bowed under the rush of the water. Even through the steam, he could see the strength in your shoulders—the build of a man who had carried a familiar weight and survived. You were standing there, unaware that the ghost you’d been mourning had finally come home.
Leon didn't say a word. He didn't want to break the silence yet. He just stood there for a long moment, his chest heaving with a sudden, sharp intake of air, fixated on the sight of you. To him, you weren't just a man in a shower; you were the end of the road. You were the reason he’d clawed his way out of the dirt.
Slowly, his hand reached out, his fingers pressing against the warm, wet glass, leaving a clear streak in the fog as he prepared to let you know he was back.
The sliding door creaked on its track, a low, metallic groan that cut through the steady drumming of the water. You didn't even have time to turn your head before the sudden draft of cool bathroom air hit your wet skin, quickly replaced by the heat of a body stepping into the stall behind you.
The steam swirled, momentarily clearing as Leon stepped into the spray.
The first thing you felt wasn't his touch, but his weight—the sheer, solid presence of him suddenly occupying the small space. Then came his hands. They were cold at first, a stark contrast to the scalding water, as he pressed his palms flat against your shoulder blades. You felt a shudder ripple through him the moment his skin made contact with yours. It was the touch of a man who had spent days wondering if he’d ever feel another human being again.
He didn't say a word. He just leaned forward, his forehead dropping heavily against the space between your shoulder blades. His breath hitched, a jagged, wet sound that was swallowed by the splash of the shower.
"Leon?" you breathed, your voice cracking. You started to turn, but his grip tightened, his fingers digging into your shoulders, not out of aggression, but out of a desperate need to keep you right there.
"Just….a second," he rasped. His voice was a wreck—gritty, raw, and exhausted. "Just let me stay like this for a second."
You stood still, the water cascading over both of you. You could feel the grime of the world washing off him and onto you. The water at your feet turned a murky, tea-colored brown as the dust, soot, and dried blood from the facility began to melt away. He smelled like ozone, wet earth, and the metallic tang of an oncoming storm, but beneath all of that was the scent you knew by heart—the faint, lingering musk of his skin.
Slowly, he began to move. His hands slid down your arms, his fingers interlaced with yours, and that was when you felt it—the cold, hard press of his silver ring against the back of your hand. You let out a breath you felt like you’d been holding since the day he left.
Leon finally pulled back just enough to let you turn around. When you faced him, the sight nearly broke your heart. The water was slicking his hair back, revealing every new line of exhaustion on his face. The cut on his cheek was weeping a faint pink under the spray, and his eyes were bloodshot, framed by dark circles that looked like bruises.
He looked at you with an intensity that was almost painful. His gaze traced the graying hair at your temples and the laugh lines around your mouth, his eyes softening with a reverence that bordered on worship. To him, you weren't an aging veteran; you were the only beautiful thing left in a world of monsters.
"You're late," you whispered, your hands coming up to cup his face. Your thumbs brushed over the gray stubble on his jaw, feeling the prickle of life beneath your touch.
Leon let out a broken, huffed laugh, his eyes closing as he leaned into your palms. "It.was….complicated."
"I thought...." You stopped, the words catching in your throat. You didn't need to finish.
"I know," he murmured. He stepped closer, closing the final inch of space between you until your chests were pressed together, the water trapped between you. He wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you in so tight it was hard to breathe, burying his face in the crook of your neck. "I promised I'd see you soon. I wasn't going to break that. Not for anyone."
He was shaking now—the post-adrenaline crash finally hitting him in the safety of your arms. You held him, your fingers threading through his wet hair, shielding him from the rest of the world.
Leon didn't move. He stayed anchored against you, his weight heavy and honest, his damp forehead resting against your collarbone. You could feel the tremors running through his muscles—the slow, rhythmic aftershocks of a body that had been pushed past its breaking point and was only now realizing it was safe to collapse.
Gently, you reached for the bottle of soap, the familiar scent of cedar and sandalwood rising with the steam. You didn't ask him where it hurt; you already knew. You could see the map of his pain written in the dark blooms of purple along his ribs and the jagged, angry red of the laceration on his cheek.
You poured the soap into your palms, lashing it into a thick, white foam before you began.
The silence between you wasn't empty; it was thick with everything that didn't need to be said. You started with his shoulders, your large, calloused hands moving in slow, grounding circles. You felt the knots of tension under his skin—hard as stone—and as you worked, you felt them slowly begin to give way. The water at your feet was still tinted a murky gray, the filth of the facility swirling down the drain, leaving Leon’s pale, scarred skin behind.
As you moved your hands down his back, Leon let out a long, shuddering breath. It wasn't a sigh; it was a surrender. He leaned into your touch, his eyes closed tight, his hands coming up to grip your forearms as if to make sure you were still solid, still there.
You were meticulous. You cleaned the soot from the nape of his neck and the dried blood from the shell of his ear. When you reached the deep bruise over his ribs, your touch lightened, becoming a ghost of a caress. You saw him flinch, his breath catching in a hiss of pain, and you paused, leaning down to press a lingering, salt-tinged kiss to the top of his wet head.
I’ve got you, the gesture said. You’re home.
Leon finally pulled back just enough to look at you. His blue eyes were glassy, reflecting the overhead light, rimmed with a weariness that went bone-deep. He looked small in that moment—not the government’s top agent, not the survivor of a dozen bio-hazards, but simply a man who was tired of fighting.
He reached out, his trembling fingers taking the soap from you. He didn't wash himself; instead, he began to wash you. His movements were slow, almost reverent, as he ran his hands over your chest and arms. It was his way of checking you, of confirming that while he was gone, the world hadn't touched you. His thumb traced the silver band on your finger, lingering there for a second longer than necessary, his ring clinking softly against yours—a small, metallic heartbeat in the spray.
The water was starting to run clear now. The grime was gone, but the exhaustion remained, etched into every line of his face.
You took the showerhead from the wall, turning the spray down and rinsing the last of the suds from his skin. The water smoothed his hair back, revealing the silver at his temples that seemed more pronounced tonight than it had a month ago.
Leon leaned his head back, letting the water hit his face, his throat working as he swallowed back the emotions he wasn't ready to voice. When he finally opened his eyes, he looked at you—truly looked at you—with a raw, unfiltered devotion. He reached out, his wet palm cupping your jaw, his thumb brushing over your graying stubble.
Still, neither of you spoke. The hurt was there, hovering in the bruises and the haunted look in his eyes, but the comfort was stronger. It was in the heat of the water, the familiar weight of his wedding band, and the fact that, for the first time in days, his heart rate was finally beginning to match yours.
You reached over and turned the handle, the sudden silence of the bathroom feeling heavy and holy. The only sound left was the drip-drip-drip of water hitting the tile and the ragged, synchronized breathing of two men who had cheated death one more time.
You stepped out first, grabbing the largest, plushiest towel from the rack and holding it open. Leon stepped into it without a word, his body shivering as the cool air hit his wet skin. You wrapped him up, pulling the fabric tight around his shoulders and rubbing his arms to bring the heat back. He leaned his head against your shoulder, his eyes half-closed, letting you guide him like he was a man walking in his sleep.
The walk to the bedroom was slow. The only light came from the moon spilling across the hardwood, illuminating the trail of discarded gear Leon had left in his wake—a reminder of the man he had to be out there, contrasted against the man he was allowed to be here.
You sat him down on the edge of the bed, the mattress dipping under his weight. He looked small, wrapped in that white towel, his damp hair sticking up in golden-gray tufts. You stood between his knees, taking a smaller towel to his head, gently drying the strands with a tenderness that made his breath hitch.
"Stay," he whispered, his voice finally finding its vibration. His hands, still clean and smelling of your soap, reached out to circle your waist, pulling you closer until his face was pressed against your stomach.
"I'm not going anywhere, Leon," you murmured, your fingers raking through his hair. "I’m right here."
After a few minutes of quiet, you helped him into a pair of soft cotton lounge pants—the ones he always complained were too loose but wore every time he came home. You climbed into the other side of the bed, the linens cool and crisp, a stark contrast to the grime he’d been caked in.
The moment Leon slid under the covers, he didn't just lie down; he sought you out like a compass needle finding north. He draped himself over you, his heavy head landing on your chest, his arm hooking firmly over your waist as if to anchor you to the mattress. You felt the cold metal of his wedding band press against your skin, a solid promise.
You pulled the heavy duvet up over both of you, tucking it around his shoulders. The house was silent, save for the distant hum of the refrigerator and the rhythmic, slowing thrum of Leon’s heart against your ribs.
"It's quiet," Leon mumbled into your skin, his voice thick with the onset of sleep. "I forgot it could be this quiet."
"That’s because you’re home," you replied softly. You reached down, taking his hand in yours and interlacing your fingers. The two silver rings clicked together, a tiny, domestic sound that felt more significant than any explosion he’d survived.
Leon let out a long, contented sigh, his entire body finally going slack. The tension that had lived in his shoulders since he’d left Raccoon City decades ago seemed to melt into the mattress. He nuzzled closer, his nose brushing against the gray hair on your chest, his breathing deepening into the slow, steady pull of a man who finally felt safe enough to dream.
You lay there in the dark, watching the shadows of the trees dance on the ceiling. You felt the weight of your years—the laugh lines, the gray hair, the old injuries that ached in the rain—but as you looked down at your husband, finally at peace in your arms, you realized you wouldn't trade a single wrinkle. They were the marks of a life lived together, a map of how far you’d both come to reach this bedroom, this bed, this moment.
"I love you, Leon," you whispered, so low you weren't sure he heard it.
But in the dark, you felt his grip on your hand tighten just a fraction. A faint, sleepy smile touched his lips before he drifted off completely.
There are just some days when your body upsets you. You don’t feel right, the skin is too tight, the shirt is too tight, the world is too tight. Those days are hard, and Nanami sees its toll on you. Good thing he makes it his mission to always remind you that he loves every. single. part of you. A/N: oral!reader receiving, terms of pussy and clit, unprotected PIV.
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You toe off your shoes by the door, shoulders heavy with the kind of exhaustion that isn’t just physical. It’s bone-deep. A tiredness that follows you into the house, into your skin.
Nanami’s already in the kitchen. You hear the low simmer of something on the stove and the soft hum of his voice not singing, just… existing out loud, the way he does when he thinks no one’s home yet.
He turns at the sound of the door.
“Welcome back.”Warm, even, calm. His voice is the first thing today that hasn’t felt like pressure.
You try to smile, but it’s half-hearted.
“Sorry I’m late.”
“You’re not late,” he says, as if the concept itself is ridiculous. “You’re home.”
That makes your throat catch, just a little. You drop your coat onto the back of a chair and step into the kitchen. Nanami’s already moving, ladling soup into bowls, slicing the last bit of green onion to garnish. The sleeves of his dress shirt are rolled up to the elbows, and his tie is loosened just enough to remind you he’s been off the clock a while.
“Rough day?” he asks, still not pressing.
You nod. You don’t want to get into it.
You sit in silence at the table while he sets everything down. He doesn’t force you to talk, he just eats beside you, calm and steady. When your hand shakes a little lifting the spoon, he pretends not to see. You know he does. That’s the thing about Nanami. He sees everything and chooses grace, every time.
Halfway through dinner, your voice slips out quieter than you mean. “I just didn’t feel good in my skin today.”
You don’t look up when you say it. You can’t. It feels silly, even though you know he’ll never treat it that way.
Nanami doesn’t respond right away. You hear the soft clink of his spoon against the bowl as he sets it down. Then the chair beside you slides back, and you feel the warmth of his hand on your thigh under the table.
“Thank you for telling me.”
That alone undoes you a little more than you expect. You blink fast. “You don’t have to say anything—”
“I know.” He squeezes your leg gently. “But I want you to hear me.”
You finally look up. His face is calm, but his eyes … god, his eyes. That soft, focused intensity you’ve only ever seen aimed at you. Like nothing else in the room matters.
“You’re mine,” he says, low and steady. “And I don’t love you despite anything. I love you entirely.”He waits. Watches you breathe through it. Then adds, softer, “Let me help.”
You don’t ask what he means. You don’t need to.
The rest of dinner is forgotten. The lights stay dim. His hand finds yours as you lead him to the bedroom, slowly, quietly, like neither of you want to startle the fragile comfort you’ve built in these last few minutes.
You sit on the bed. He kneels in front of you, his fingers gentle as they undo the buttons of your shirt, not rushing, just letting you breathe into it. Letting you decide how far you want to go, how close you’ll let him.
You meet his eyes again. “I want you to touch me like I’m yours.”
His breath catches. His gaze darkens, not with lust, but with reverence.
“You are.”
His hands slide beneath your shirt, slow, practiced, asking without words. You nod, and he helps ease the fabric up and over your head, careful not to let it snag. You shiver at the shift in temperature, not from cold but from being seen.
Nanami doesn’t stare. He studies. His hands rest lightly on your sides, and then he leans in, pressing a warm, grounding kiss to your sternum.
And then lower to the edge of one scar.
You flinch. Not because it hurts. Just… it’s overwhelming. You feel everything. His lips pause, just barely brushing the tissue. He lifts his eyes to meet yours. “Still okay?”
You nod, breath caught in your throat. “Y-Yeah. Just… sensitive.”
His smile is small but sincere. “That’s okay.”
He kisses one scar again, softer. Reverent. Not skipping past it, not avoiding it. He lingers there like it’s holy. Then the other. Then just above, right beneath your collarbone, where his hands settle like he’s anchoring you to yourself.
And just like that, the dysphoria quiets. Not gone. But dulled by the weight of his love.
When he pulls back, your eyes are glassy, but your voice is steady. “Kento…”
He presses his forehead to yours. “Let me love you. Just like this.”
And you let him.
His mouth meets yours, gentle as a familiar rhythm is settle between your lips. Then, his mouth pulls back and kisses your cheeks, your jaw, your neck. Down to the jugular nutch, your collarbones, and so on.
A soft whimper escapes your throat as Nanami kisses your scars again, then moves down your stomach. His fingers gently pulls your sweatpants down, leaving you in your boxers at his disposal.
“You okay?” He asks as you nods, running your hands through his blonde locks softly.
His mouth moves further down, kissing your thighs as one hand sneaks up to open your legs. You aid, spreading them as Nanami massages your thighs.
Kissing the inner thigh, Nanami begins to move closer and closer to your heat. Trembling, he meets yours eyes as you give a subtle nod, which he takes eagerly and begins kissing above your clothed groin.
“You’re so beautiful,” he murmurs, the movement making you shiver a little. Your boxers damping, you push Nanami off so you can shuck the uncomfortably wet fabric off.
“So beautiful,” he repeats, using his fingers to spread your lips slowly, running them up and down your wetting lips.
Christ, no matter how many times he’s done this, you never get tired of his fingers.
“Can you look at me?” You whisper, the sounds of your breathing and the wetness gathering on Nanami’s fingers being the only sound in the bedroom.
Nanami doesn’t speak, just looks up to meet your eyes as his mouth locks onto your crotch.
You inhale, meeting his eyes as Nanami looks at you so lovingly as his mouth begins to kiss and lick you. Fingers now massaging your thighs once more, you whimper at the sensation.
Getting eaten out used to make you so nervous, so dysphoric. But with Nanami? It feels heavenly.
Another gasp is pulled out of you as a finger slips inside you. Long, it reaches that little spot inside you that Nanami knows all too well.
Gripping the sheets at your side, you choke out another moan as Nanami’s mouth moves up to lick your clit.
“Kento…” is murmured through your lips, looking back down at Nanami between your legs.
His finger is pumping inside you, hitting that spot right on as his eyes are closed, like your pussy is the only thing in the world. Like he’s drowning with it.
His tongue is flicking against your clit at an unpredictable rhythm that keeps you on your toes. The combination of the two, and the groan Nanami lets out, makes your thighs begin to tremble.
“Gosh…” you finally begin to find your breath as his pace picks up, eyes opening to meet yours. Hungry, he looks.
One hand lets go of your thighs, sneaking up your chest to push your back against the bed. Legs being hiked over his shoulders, he begins to move with a new found purpose.
“Ah! God— Kento!” You shout, taken aback by the sudden change in atmosphere.
He’s a man on a mission now, tasked with making your abdomen clench and back arch as you find your hands in his hair. Both trying to bring his face closer and push him away as you get overwhelmed, he grabs your hands and pins them above your head.
“Kento— I’m close—“ the words are torn from your throat as you feel his tongue move off your sensitive bud to slip inside you. One hand releasing your wrists as his thumb rubs your clit. Vigorously.
“Kento— Wait—“ you can help the moan that breaks your sentences. Coherent thoughts long gone as you feel your orgasm approaching rapidly.
“Come on baby, you’re right there,” Kento murmurs into your pussy, the vibrations finally sending you over edge as you cum hard with a shout of his name. Hands moving to hold Nanami’s hair tightly, your body convulses as he licks you through your orgasm.
“Such a beautiful boy,” he says. Chin drenched as he licks his lips, he unzips his pants and pulls himself out.
Stroking himself for a few seconds, you try to catch your breath as you look up at him. His eyes are hooded with a desire that makes you shiver. Resting on your back, you close your eyes as you feel him slide up and down your slit, soaking his cock in your juices.
Some rummaging can be heard, so you sit up and tap at Nanami. Shaking your head, “I just want to feel you.”
The search of the condom is abandoned as Nanami kissing your forehead as he slips the head in.
“Christ…” he mumbles as he begins to push in, painfully slow to drag out the stretch. Hands going to your side as he uses the bed for leverage.
“You’re still so tight…” he says quietly into your ear. Finally bottoming out, your arms move to hold his shoulders as you bury your face into the crook of his neck. But that doesn’t fly. Nanami moves to push you back down on the bed, seeing you laying down and spread out for him.
“You’re stunning,” he says as he begins pulling in and out, angling his hips just so he can continue reaching that collection of nerves inside you.
“Mmm, so warm. So wet. So tight. Such a handsome man,” he purrs as he brings one of your arms up and begins kissing your palm, wrists, and fingers. He begins to worship your body, like it’s the most priceless piece of art in the world. Rocking his hips into a rhythm you know all too well, he draws out more whimpers from your lips.
“Kento—“ he cuts you off by dropping your hand and moving his thumb to trace slow painful circles are your clit.
As if you’re still not sensitive from your first orgasm just mere minutes ago.
“Wait— Kento baby— I’m still—“ you try to protest, but get cut off by another moan as he pushes the little bundle down.
“I know baby. But see how much I love your body? So perfect for me,” Kento rasped, before bringing your legs up to fold you into a mating press.
Now, his pubes are the ones brushing up your clit, the new feeling adding another layer of pleasure as the angle allows him to push further into you.
His balls slap against your ass, the sound of the flesh so vulgar, mixing in with the sweat and the gasps you let out.
“Ah— Ah— Ah—“ is the only sound you can make out. Nanami moves his hands right by your head, your own arms moving to hold onto his back. Nails dig into his skin, scratching down as you desperately try cling on to him.
He’s always been so good at this, it’s downright criminal.
“Feel good, baby?” He asks, voice rough as he picks up the pace, fucking into you like it’s his last mission.
You nod, whimpering as you cling on to him quicker. “Yes— God!— Yes, Kento. So good…”
He moves harder. Faster. His horribly skilled hand coming back between the two of you to rub that little bud again.
Your stomach begins to cramp, your eyes squeeze shut, your hands digger deeper into his back.
“Kento, I’m close—“ You can’t finish as he begins to kiss your forehead, your temple, your cheek. Coming up to mouth, he whispers right into your lips, “Come for me.” And by mighty you do.
Shaking as your jaw goes slack, his hand quickening against your clit, he feels you clench and tighten up as you orgasm violently.
“Kento!”
“Fuck—“ he moans right back, his orgasm rapidly approaching. Fucking you through your own finish as he approaches his, his hands come off your puffy pussy as he begins pounding you like it’s life or death. Snapping his hips violently, you’re a whimpering mess as he grunts above you.
“Inside, please,” is all you need to say as the groan is violently ripped from his throat as he freezes. You feel the warmth flood you, and Nanami’s hands give out as he lowers your legs.
You finally seem to catch enough air. Legs cramping up a little, but able to relax now that Nanami moved off to your side to hold you.
And he does. For a while.
You should get cleaned up, but right now, Nanami holds you like you’re the most precious thing on the planet.
Summary: After saving Grace and putting an end to Victor Gideon. All Leon wanted was for his husband to be the one to fix him up.
CW: Hurt/Comfort - Slight angst - Fluff - Mentions of injuries - Leon is canon age (48) - Reader is in his late 40s - Reader is former doctor - Leon and Reader are married - Old man yaoi
Words: 2.3k
A/N: I've gotten a couple requests for another part to my first Leon fic, and while I appreciate how much you all liked it I'm not sure how to go about a part two. So, hopefully this satisfies everyone's cravings for some more Leon. Mostly hurt/comfort whump type idea. Fancy that another fic written and edited while slightly intoxicated, go easy on me.
It wasn't about the white-hot flare of pain with every ragged, shallow breath. It wasn't about the lingering heat of the infection, or the ghosts of Grace and Gideon. In the silence of the car, those names felt like static. It wasn't about the mission or the world ending—again.
It was about you.
It was only ever about getting back up, one agonizing movement at a time, and finding the strength to go home. He just wanted to walk through that stupid blue door and see your face—to see the way your brow furrowed in that specific, doctor-like concentration when you were worried.
Leon didn't care about the inevitable lecture. He knew you’d treat him like a child for being so reckless; he could already hear your voice, seasoned with the weariness of a man who had seen too much of the same biology Leon fought in the field. You had scolded him like that when you first found out about the infection—your hands shaking despite your years of medical training.
God, he wanted you to yell at him now. He wanted to hear you say his name and call him stupid, all while your steady, gentle hands—calloused from years of work but always soft when they touched him—bandaged his cuts and soothed the blooming bruises. He could almost feel it: the way you’d tuck a loose, sweat-matted lock of hair behind his ear while he shivered against the cold tile of the bathroom, leaning into your warmth because you were the only person who could make him feel human again.
His vision blurred as he finally pulled into the gravel driveway. The headlights cut through the dark, illuminating the peeling paint of the blue door and the soft, amber glow spilling from your bedroom window. You were still up. Waiting.
His hands trembled as he cut the engine, the silence of the car suddenly heavy. Every joint ached, and his lungs felt like they were filled with glass, but the sight of that light—your light—was the only thing keeping the darkness at the edge of his mind from swallowing him whole. He was home. He was back with his husband. Now, he just had to find the strength to open the car door.
The door handle felt like ice against his palm, a stark reminder that he was still vibrating with a low-grade fever. It took three tries to get his cramped fingers to turn the key. When the door finally gave way, the familiar scent of the house—old books, cedarwood, and the faint, clean smell of the soap you always used—hit him like a physical blow.
He didn't turn on the lights. He didn't want to see the trail of road salt and dried blood he was likely leaving on the rug. With a grunt of effort, he shrugged out of his jacket, the fabric stiff with grime. His fingers fumbled with the buckles of his holster, the heavy leather hitting the recliner with a muffled thud that felt far too loud in the quiet living room. He was lighter now, but he felt more fragile, his body held together only by the desperate need to reach the hallway.
As he neared the bedroom, a sliver of warm light cut across the floorboards. Then, he heard it—your voice.
It was low, hushed in the way people speak late at night, but it carried that jagged edge of anxiety you usually kept hidden.
"I know, Sherry. I know he’s careful," you were saying, your voice cracking slightly. "But it’s been three days since the last check-in. Just... if you hear anything, call me. I don't care what time it is."
Leon froze. Hearing you talk to Sherry—the girl who was as much your daughter as she was his ward—made the guilt in his chest flare brighter than the pain in his side. He leaned against the doorframe, his shadow stretching long and distorted across the carpet. He looked like a ghost haunting his own home.
"Baby," he rasped. It wasn't even a whisper; it was a broken sound, caught in the back of a dry, scorched throat.
In the room, the shifting of bedsheets stopped instantly. You looked up, the phone still pressed to your ear, your jaw going slack as your eyes tracked the battered silhouette in the doorway. For a heartbeat, the doctor in you was paralyzed by the husband in you.
"Sherry," you whispered, your voice breathless and urgent, never taking your eyes off him. "I have to go. He’s here. He’s home."
You didn't wait for a reply before ending the call, the phone slipping from your hand onto the duvet as you started to move toward him.
The distance across the bedroom felt like miles until you finally reached him, your arms sliding upward to drape carefully around his neck. You didn't pull him in tight—not yet—your instincts warning you of the hidden agonies beneath his gear
You just stared at him, your breath hitching. Slowly, your hands moved from his shoulders to cup his face, your thumbs brushing over his cheekbones with a reverence that made his eyes flutter shut. You tilted his head gently from side to side, searching his skin with a look of genuine bewilderment. The terrifying, ink-black lines that had once threatened to claim him—the mark of the infection that had haunted your nightmares—were gone. His skin was pale, mapped with fresh, angry cuts and the deep purple of blooming bruises, but it was him. It was just Leon.
Leon’s breath hitched, a jagged sound that vibrated through his chest. He reached up, his gloved hand trembling as he caught your wrist. He didn't pull you away; instead, he guided your palm down, pressing it flat against the center of his chest.
Underneath the grime, his heart was thundering, a frantic, rhythmic proof of life. He looked down at you, his blue eyes glassy and bloodshot, searching your face as if he were still trying to convince himself he wasn't hallucinating this quiet, warm bedroom.
"I'm here," he rasped, his voice barely a thread of sound. "I'm really here."
You reached out, your index finger tentatively tracing a shallow, jagged cut along his cheekbone. The moment your skin made contact, Leon flinched, a sharp hiss of air escaping through his teeth as he instinctively pulled back.
He braced himself then, his shoulders tensing. He expected the lecture. He expected you to demand to know why he’d been so careless, or to see that flash of professional frustration you got when a patient—or a husband—ignored their own safety.
But the scolding never came.
Instead, you leaned in, your touch feather-light. You began to pepper soft, lingering kisses against his bruised cheeks, your lips trailing over the unbroken skin near his temple. When you finally pressed a kiss to his mouth, it wasn't a greeting; it was a promise. It tasted of salt and exhaustion, but it was the first time Leon felt his lungs truly expand since he’d left the city.
"Let’s get you cleaned up," you whispered against his lips, the words soft enough to be a prayer.
Leon didn't argue. He couldn't. He simply nodded, his forehead dropping to rest against yours for a fleeting second before he allowed himself to be led. He followed you into the bathroom, his steps heavy and slow, trusting you to handle the weight of his broken body now that he didn't have to carry it alone anymore.
Leon sat heavily on the closed toilet seat, his broad shoulders slumped forward. His hair was still dark and heavy with water, dripping rhythmically onto the towel wrapped around his waist. The bathroom was small, the air thick with the lingering steam of the quick, careful wash you’d just given him.
Under the unforgiving glare of the overhead lights, Leon simply watched you. He watched the way you moved, rummaging through the cabinet under the sink with a focused intensity. He noticed the silver-gray strands at your temples that hadn't been there a few years ago, and the way you squinted, tilting your head to read the small print on a bottle of saline. When you finally found what you were looking for and turned back to him, the soft crinkles at the corners of your eyes deepened—a map of every worry he’d ever caused you.
You pulled a small wooden stool between his knees, sitting close enough that your thighs brushed against his. Leon didn't move; he just let out a long, shuddering breath, his eyes never leaving yours.
With a touch as light as a whisper, you reached up to brush a damp strand of dark dirty blonde hair behind his ear, tucking it away so you could see the damage. Your hands were steady, though your expression remained tight with a quiet, simmering concern. You didn't say much. You didn't need to. The silence was filled only by the click of the first-aid kit and the soft hiss of the antiseptic spray.
As you began to dab at the jagged cuts along his collarbone and chest, Leon’s body betrayed him. He tensed, his muscles roping under his skin, a sharp intake of air whistling through his teeth when the sting hit a particularly deep gouge.
"Sorry," you murmured, your voice low and gravelly with sleep and suppressed emotion. "I know, Leon. I'm sorry."
He shook his head slowly, his hand coming up to rest tentatively on your knee. "It's okay. I'm okay."
You worked in a rhythmic, practiced peace, cleaning the debris from his skin and smoothing antibiotic ointment over the bruises that were already turning an ugly, mottled green. Every time he flinched, you stopped, waiting for him to settle before continuing.
Leon watched your hands—those hands that had held him through nightmares and long nights of fever. He looked down at your face, feeling a sudden, overwhelming surge of affection that hurt worse than the wounds.
"Hey," he whispered, his voice cracking. He tilted his head down, catching your gaze as you reached for a fresh box of bandages. "Could you….kiss them? Like you used to?"
The request was so vulnerable, so stripped of his usual bravado, that it broke the tension in your chest. A small, genuine smile tugged at the corner of your mouth.
"Always," you breathed.
You peeled back a bandage and pressed it firmly but gently over the cut on his cheek. Then, lingering for a second, you leaned in and pressed a soft, warm kiss directly over the adhesive. Leon’s eyes closed, his entire body finally going limp under your touch.
You moved to his shoulder, Repeating the ritual. Peel, press, kiss. Then down to his abdomen, where the worst of the bruising lay. With every kiss you pressed against the bandages littering his torso, you felt his breathing even out, the jagged edges of his exhaustion finally beginning to smooth.
Leaving the bathroom felt like walking through a fog. Leon’s legs were heavy, his coordination frayed by the sheer weight of the day’s adrenaline finally leaving his system. You guided him back to the edge of the bed, where you had laid out a pair of soft, worn-in sweatpants—the kind he only wore when he was truly home.
"I’ve got it," he muttered, though his fingers were fumbling uselessly with the waistband. His brow furrowed in that stubborn, Leon-like scowl. "I’m not useless….I can do it."
"I know you're not," you replied softly, not letting the protest deter you. You gently brushed his hands aside, kneeling between his knees to help him step into the fabric. "But tonight, you don't have to be 'useful.' You just have to be here."
He let out a long, defeated sigh, his large hands coming to rest on your shoulders for balance. He watched as you dressed him with practiced, unhurried care, smoothing the fabric over the fresh bandages on his thighs. He looked so much smaller like this—stripped of the gear, the weapons, and the duty. When you reached up to pull a soft t-shirt over his head, he leaned his forehead against your chest for a second, his breath hitching.
"Thank you," he whispered into the cotton of your shirt, the fight finally draining out of his limbs.
pulling back the heavy duvet to invite him into the space you’d kept warm for him all night. Leon crawled in with a groan of relief, his body sinking into the mattress as if he were finally being allowed to merge with the earth.
Once he was settled, you climbed in beside him, propping yourself up on one arm. You opened your arms, an unspoken invitation, and he didn't hesitate. He shifted closer, tucking his head into the crook of your neck, his face pressed against the pulse point of your throat. His arm draped over your waist, heavy and grounding, his fingers curling into the fabric of your pajama top.
The room was silent, save for the rhythmic tick of the clock and the sound of his breathing, which was finally slowing down, losing its ragged, panicked edge.
"I love you, Leon," you whispered into the crown of his damp hair, your hand tracing slow, soothing circles across his back. "More than anything. Just stay here. Don't go anywhere for a long, long time."
Leon shifted, pressing his face deeper into your skin. "I love you," he rasped, the words sounding thick with the onset of a deep, bone-deep sleep. "Every time….I was just….coming back to you. Always you."
Within minutes, the tension left his frame entirely. His grip on your shirt loosened, and his breathing turned into the soft, steady rhythm of a man who finally felt safe. You held him tight, watching the shadows dance on the ceiling, knowing that for tonight, the world was far away, and Leon Kennedy was exactly where he belonged.
Summary: An already straining night shift tips you over the edge when a patient gets physical.
CW: No use of Y/N - Mentions of injury - Broken nose - Mentions of blood - Language - Nurse reader - Older reader (40s/50s) - Jack is canon age (49) - Established friendship - Flirting
Words: 4.8k
A/N: So, because I've been neglecting all those asking for more "The Pitt" fics, I offer you this. I'd also like to say Jack might be ooc, cause I've been lacking on keeping up with the show. This has also been in my drafts for almost a month-
The Pitt had a specific atmosphere—a thick, pressurized weight that settled over your shoulders the second you swiped your ID badge and didn't lift until you stepped back out into the cool morning air. Or maybe that was just the night shift talking. You’d been working these ungodly hours since your residency twenty-some years ago, and lately, the fluorescent hum of the ER felt more like home than your own quiet apartment ever did.
The hospital was a greedy thing; it took every scrap of your life you were willing to give. But standing there in the trenches, it didn't feel entirely like a loss. You tolerated the chaos for the crew—and because Dana, with her iron will and sharp tongue, hadn't let you jump ship for a quieter gig in another state yet.
Then, of course, there was Jack Abbot.
You tried to be professional—you were a nurse, for Christ’s sake—but you couldn't help but track him when he moved through a trauma bay. He filled out his scrubs in a way that should have been a distraction to medical science, muscles straining against the fabric of his sleeves as he worked. But it wasn't just the physical side of him. It was the way Jack looked at you in a crowded room of over-eager interns and frazzled residents. He’d lock eyes with you like you were the only person who actually knew what was going on, like he wanted you specifically at his side, no matter how messy the case got.
Sometimes you’d catch him staring back, his gaze lingering a second too long on your face. You’d just offer a tired, knowing smile and keep moving. You’d known plenty of men in your forty-something years, but none of them carried themselves like Jack. None of them were ex-military with a "hobby" for SWAT calls and a cocky grin that made your heart do things it was far too old to be doing.
You let out a long, ragged sigh, draining the last of the sludge you called coffee. You walked into the employee breakroom, the soles of your shoes squeaking against the linoleum, and tossed the empty cup into the trash with a practiced flick of the wrist. You were so deep in your own head that you didn't even notice Dana leaning against the wall by the lockers.
“You look like hell,” she huffed, her voice cutting through the silence of the room. “Rough night?”
Dana was blunt, a trait you valued more than you probably should. You turned, rubbing the back of your neck where a dull ache was beginning to settle. “Still shrugging off yesterday’s shift, honestly.”
The previous night had been a gauntlet. A domestic dispute had spilled over into the waiting room while you were triage-side. To some, it was a crisis; to you, it was just another Tuesday, though a bloody nose and a shattered glass partition tended to leave a lingering adrenaline spike.
“It happens. You’ve been at this long enough to know the Pitt likes to bite back,” she said, stepping forward to pat your arm. Her expression softened into something resembling a smile. “But you’ve got thick skin. Better than most of the kids we’ve got running around here.”
You’d been on the receiving end of healthcare violence more than a few times—a stray punch from a detoxing patient, a shove from a panicked relative—but the toll was cumulative. It stayed in your bones. “Thanks, Dana. I’m fine. Just need about twelve hours of sleep and a new set of knees.”
“Don’t we all?” Dana shot you a weary, knowing smile—the kind shared only by people who have spent more time under fluorescent lights than in the sun. She gave your shoulder a final squeeze before heading out, her footsteps echoing down the hall.
The silence she left behind was heavy. You moved toward your locker, the metal door groaning on its hinges as you swung it open. You went through the ritual: phone silenced and stashed, car keys dropped into the plastic bin, and the nicer-looking name badge—the one without the coffee stain—clipped firmly to your scrub top. You draped your stethoscope around your neck, the cool binaurals a familiar weight against your collarbone.
The thud of the breakroom door swinging open made you pause. You didn't need to look to know who it was; you knew the cadence of his step.
As you swung your locker shut, the gray metal clicking into place, Jack was already there. He was moving toward his own locker just a few feet down, his presence immediately making the cramped room feel smaller. He looked like he’d just come from a workout or a very fast drive—charged with that restless energy that seemed to vibrate off him.
"Afternoon," you said, your voice low and slightly raspy from the lack of sleep.
Jack slowed his pace, his head turning toward you. A slow, tired heat crept into his eyes. "Afternoon," he replied, his voice mirroring your volume, turning the simple greeting into something that felt far more private than it was.
He reached for his locker, but he didn't open it yet. Instead, he turned his body fully toward you. "Think I can count on you tonight?"
There it was. That cocky, lopsided grin that had no business being that charming at the start of a twelve-hour shift.
You shifted your weight, leaning your shoulder against the cool metal of your locker and crossing your arms over your chest. You let a slow, huffed breath escape your nose, a small smirk playing on your lips. "You can count on me every night, Jack. You know that."
"I know," he said, his voice dropping an octave as he took a half-step closer, encroaching on your personal space just enough to let you catch the scent of cedar and sterile soap. "Just making sure. I like knowing exactly whose hands are catching what I’m throwing."
The air in the breakroom suddenly felt a lot warmer. You searched his face, looking for the line between professional camaraderie and something else. Was he flirting? You’d had these back-and-forths for months—little sparks thrown across a trauma table or shared over a chart—but if he was pushing the boundary today, you weren't about to pull back.
"Careful, Abbot," you murmured, adjusting the stethoscope around your neck. "People might start to think you’ve got a favorite."
"Let 'em think," he countered, his grin widening just a fraction.
You shook your head, a genuine chuckle bubbling up. As you moved to head toward the floor, you reached out, your hand landing briefly—deliberately—on his bicep. The muscle was as solid as you’d imagined through the fabric of his shirt, warm and firm under your palm. You gave it a lingering, playful pat.
"See you out there then.”
You didn't look back, but you could feel his gaze on your spine all the way to the door.
Six hours in, and the walls of the Pitt were starting to pulse with the rhythm of the fluorescent lights. You’d downed three cups of the breakroom sludge—acidic, lukewarm, and vibrating in your veins—but it wasn't providing the clarity it used to. Instead, it just made your hands feel heavy and your eyelids feel like they were lined with sand.
You were leaned over the high counter of the nurses' station, squinting at a discharge summary for a patient who’d just left, when a warm, familiar weight landed on your shoulder. The heat of the palm seeped through your scrub top instantly.
You didn't even have to look up to know the grip. "You're going to need more than caffeine to get through the next six, old man," Jack’s voice rumbled near your ear.
You looked up, catching him standing there with a yellow trauma chart held aloft like a trophy. "I'm only a few years on you, Abbot. Don't get cocky," you countered, though your voice lacked its usual bite.
He didn't pull his hand away immediately, his thumb giving a brief, subconscious brush against your trap muscle. "Think I can borrow you? I’ve got a walk-in in Bed 4. Triage says they’re struggling with the history." He cocked an eyebrow, a challenge in his eyes. "You still speak Spanish, or did you forget it all over your lunch break?"
"I remember enough to get you out of trouble," you replied, handing the chart you were holding back to the charge nurse with a tired nod.
"Good. Follow me."
As you walked, he handed you the new chart. It was sparse—just a name, Elena Rodriguez, and a few scribbled notes about abdominal pain. No allergies, no past medical history; the language barrier had hit a wall at the front desk.
When you pushed back the curtain to Bed 4, the atmosphere shifted. An older woman was curled on the thin mattress, her face pale and waxy, clutching her midsection. Beside her stood a girl in her late teens, her knuckles white as she gripped the bedrail.
"Hola," you said, your voice softening into your 'nurse' persona—calm, steady, and commanding. "Soy uno de los enfermeros, y él es el Doctor Abbot. Estamos aquí para ayudarles."
The relief on the granddaughter's face was instantaneous. As you began a rapid-fire series of questions to the girl—asking about the onset of pain, fever, and the last time her grandmother had eaten—you translated for Jack in real-time.
You and Jack moved around the small space like it was second nature. As he donned gloves and moved to the head of the bed, you stepped in at the hip, wrapping a blood pressure cuff around the woman’s arm and clipping a pulse oximeter to her finger. You didn't even have to look at him to know where he was reaching; you moved the gown aside just as his hand descended.
"Tell her I'm going to check her abdomen," Jack said, his eyes focused. "I need to check for guarding or rebound tenderness."
"El doctor va a examinarle el estómago," you murmured to the woman, leaning in close. "Trate de relajarse."
Jack began his palpation, starting in the lower left quadrant to stay away from the pain. You were focused on the monitor, watching her heart rate climb as she tensed. You should have been looking at her face. You should have noticed the way her jaw tightened and her swallow became jagged.
Jack moved his hand to the right lower quadrant, pressing down firmly over McBurney’s point to check for appendicitis. The second he applied pressure, the woman’s eyes went wide.
"¡Ay, Dios—!"
She didn't finish the sentence. A violent, projectile wave of dark, bile-stained vomit erupted from her, catching you squarely across the chest, your name badge, and the stethoscope you’d so carefully cleaned earlier.
The room went dead silent, save for the beep-beep-beep of the heart monitor.
You stood perfectly still, your arms still slightly raised from where you’d been adjusting the cuff. A slow, warm drip slid down the front of your scrubs. The woman began to sob out apologies, clutching her stomach even tighter.
"Está bien, está bien...no se preocupe," you said automatically, your voice remarkably flat as you reached for a stack of gauze to wipe your face.
Jack, his hands still hovered over her stomach, just stared at you. His mouth was slightly agape, his cocky persona completely evaporated. He looked at your ruined scrubs, then up at your eyes, an expression of pure, horrified sympathy—and a tiny, repressed twitch of a smile—crossing his face.
"Well," Jack cleared his throat, finally finding his voice. "On the bright side...I think we can rule out a simple stomach ache.”
The shift had transitioned from laid back to a complete disaster. After the projectile vomit incident, the universe seemed to have opened a personal vendetta against your dignity. Between the firework enthusiast who’d turned his hand into a jigsaw puzzle and the elderly man who’d mistaken your leg for a bathroom stall, you were operating on pure, dehydrated spite. You’d even taken a cinematic spill in the lobby, sliding through a puddle by the water cooler like a clumsy kid on a slip-and-slide, only to pull yourself up with a plastered-on professional smile to help a patient back to their room.
By the time you hit the locker room for the fifth change of clothes in four hours, you weren't even a person anymore—just a vessel for cheap coffee and adrenaline.
You were pulling a fresh navy scrub top over your white long-sleeve, the fabric still smelling like industrial laundry detergent, when a resident skidded into your field of vision. He looked like he was about to burst into tears or an aneurysm.
"Everything okay?" you asked, your voice sounding like it had been dragged through gravel.
"No," he choked out, already sprinting back toward the hallway.
You didn't even hesitate. You followed, the muscle memory of twenty years kicking in. But when you rounded the corner into Room 12, you stopped dead.
Standing on the center of the bed was a woman who couldn't have been more than five-foot-two, looking like a tiny, naked gladiator. She’d ripped her IV out—blood was blooming in a small trail down her arm— and she was wielding the metal IV pole like a trident in one hand and a heavy steel bedpan like a shield in the other.
"Honestly? That’s actually impressive," you whispered.
"I’d give her an eight for form, but a two for the wardrobe choice," a low, familiar voice rumbled behind you. You didn't have to look to know Jack was standing right at your shoulder, his presence a grounded heat against the chaos.
Security was already being paged, but you knew how that ended—takedowns, bruised ribs, and more paperwork than you had the soul left to finish. You looked at the girl; she was terrified, her eyes darting around the room like a trapped animal. Physical force was just going to make her swing that pole harder.
"Wait," you murmured to Jack and the resident. "Let me try."
You took a slow, deliberate breath, centering yourself. You stepped into the room with your hands held up, palms open, the universal sign for I’m unarmed and I’m tired.
"Hey, sweetheart," you said, your voice dropping into that low, melodic 'nurse-hush' that had calmed a thousand panicked patients. "Why don't we put the pole down? It looks heavy, and I’d hate for you to pull a muscle."
She didn't drop it. Instead, she hissed and swung the pole in a wide, whistling arc. You ducked instinctively, then straightened back up, unfazed. You glanced back at Jack and the resident with a look of pure, exhausted disbelief. She was barely a hundred-and-thirty pounds soaking wet, yet she was holding that metal pole like she was Ares on the battlefield.
You reached the foot of the bed, moving into her personal space. The girl’s eyes narrowed, and with a grunt of effort, she launched the bedpan at your head.
Your reflexes, honed by two decades of dodging flying medical equipment and erratic toddlers, kicked in. You brought your hand up just enough to deflect the trajectory. The heavy metal dish whistled past your ear, narrowly missing your shoulder before clattering loudly onto the linoleum behind you.
Out in the hallway, a small gallery of residents and nurses had gathered, watching the standoff through the glass.
"Ten dollars says he handles it before security even clears the double doors," Dana muttered, leaning her shoulder against the doorframe next to Jack.
Jack didn't take his eyes off you. He watched the way you didn't flinch, the way your shoulders stayed relaxed even as the girl raised the IV pole for another strike. A ghost of a smile touched his lips—a mix of professional respect and something a lot more personal.
"Make it twenty," Jack replied, his voice a low vibration. "I’ve learned never to bet against him when he’s had this bad of a day. He’s got nothing left to lose.”
You didn't blame the girl. In the Pitt, patients didn't act out of malice; they acted out of psychosis, withdrawal, or sheer, blind terror. To her, you weren't a nurse trying to help; you were a giant in navy blue scrubs coming to hurt her.
"Sweetheart, just give me the pole," you said again, your voice a low, rhythmic anchor.
She didn't listen. She lunged, using the IV pole like a bayonet to keep you at bay. You parried it with your forearm, the cold metal bruising your skin, but you didn't retreat. You knew the dance. You moved laterally, trying to find an opening, but your boots felt like lead and the caffeine jitters were making your timing a fraction of a second off.
You realized then that there was no easy way to do this. You were going to have to take a hit to save her from herself.
You lunged.
The world turned into a blurred montage of motion. You didn't register the metal pole swinging in a tight, desperate arc. You didn't register the sickening crack as the weighted base of the pole collided directly with the bridge of your nose.
What you registered was the girl. You wrapped your arms around her waist, pinning her arms to her sides as gently as possible while she shrieked, a wild, primal sound. You had her—until she threw her weight backward, her skull slamming into your already shattered face with the force of a hammer.
The world blossomed into white light. Your knees hit the linoleum, then your back hit the wall.
Suddenly, the room was full of blue and green scrubs. Dana was there, her face a mask of grim determination as she helped the residents guide the girl back onto the mattress. Soft restraints were clicked into place; a sedative was prepped. The chaos was being contained, but you were stuck in the static.
You blinked rapidly, trying to clear the red haze from your vision. Warmth was blooming over your lips, copper-tasting and thick. You tried to stand, but a pair of hands—firm, steady, and unmistakably Jack’s—clamped onto your shoulders, pushing you back down against the wall.
"Don't you dare try to stand up by yourself, " Jack growled. It wasn't his cocky voice. It was his authoritative voice.
He didn't wait for an answer. He hooked his arms under yours and hoisted you up, half-carrying you out of the room. He navigated the sea of staring interns, depositing you into a swivel chair at the nurses' station.
"Ice. Now," Jack snapped, gesturing vaguely at the air. Dana was already moving, tearing open a chemical cold pack before he’d even finished the sentence.
Jack didn't step back. He stepped in, his knees brushing against yours as he boxed you into the chair. He snapped on a pair of nitrile gloves, the sound like a gunshot in the sudden quiet of the station.
"Look at me," he commanded.
You tilted your head back, your breath hitching. His hands were incredibly gentle as they moved over your face, ghosting over your cheekbones before landing on the bridge of your nose.
"Follow my light," he muttered, clicking on a penlight. He checked your pupils for a concussion, his brow furrowed in a way that made the lines around his eyes deepen. Then, he began the physical exam. He slid his fingers down the sides of your nose, feeling for crepitus—that crunching sensation of bone fragments moving—and checking for any septal hematoma.
You hissed, your eyes watering involuntarily as his thumb applied the slightest pressure to the bridge.
"Using this as an excuse to get your hands on me, Dr. Abbot?" you croaked, a wet, bloody chuckle bubbling in your throat. "Very professional. I should report you to HR."
Jack didn't laugh, but the corner of his mouth twitched, a tiny crack in his armor of professional concern. "Believe me, I can think of much better ways to get my hands on you that don't involve me covered in your blood."
He took the ice pack from Dana, wrapping it in a paper towel before pressing it firmly but carefully against your face. "Any pain?"
You rolled your eyes, which only made your head throb harder. "Yes, Doctor. It’s a tragedy. I fear I might be at death's door. Tell my landlord he can keep the deposit, but not my cat."
Jack finally let out a short, breathy laugh, his eyes locking onto yours. The worry was still there, dark and heavy, but the spark was back. He leaned in a fraction closer, his voice dropping so low that even Dana, standing three feet away, couldn't hear him.
"You’re a goddamn idiot," he whispered, his thumb lingering on your jawline just a second too long to be strictly clinical. "But you’re the best nurse in this building. Now sit still for a moment.”
The sterile quiet of the exam room was a stark contrast to the rattling chaos of the hallway. Jack didn't let go of your arm until you were perched on the edge of the exam table, the paper crinkling under your weight. He flicked the Occupied slider on the door and turned on the overhead procedure light, the sudden brightness making your head throb in time with your heartbeat.
He began gathering supplies—lidocaine with epinephrine, a nasal speculum, and a tray of sterile gauze—his movements clipped and efficient. The silence between you was thick, charged with the kind of tension that usually preceded a storm or a confession. The adrenaline was finally bottoming out, leaving you with a raw, pulsing ache that felt like a railroad spike was being driven into your skull.
You needed a distraction. Anything to stop you from focusing on the copper taste in your mouth and the way your vision was tunneling.
"Still thinking about it?" you rasped, the words sounding thick because of the swelling.
Jack paused, a sterile syringe halfway to a vial. He didn't look up. "Thinking about what?"
"Those 'other ways' to get your hands on me," you said, leaning back slightly, though the movement made you wince. "The ones that don't involve a crime scene on my face."
Jack’s jaw set. He finally looked at you, his eyes dark and unreadable under the harsh LED light. He didn't smile this time. "I shouldn't have said that," he muttered, his voice dropping into a rougher territory. "It wasn't professional. Not there. Not with you bleeding out in the middle of a triage station."
He stepped toward you, the smell of his cologne—faintly masked by the sharp scent of isopropyl alcohol—filling your senses. He tilted your chin up with a gloved hand, his touch surprisingly warm despite the latex.
"Mmm," you hummed, closing your eyes for a second to steady yourself. "I didn't say I minded, Jack. I just said you probably shouldn't broadcast it to a room full of nosy nurses. They talk enough as it is."
"Let them talk," he breathed, but he was already moving into doctor-mode.
He soaked a long strip of gauze in a vasoconstrictor to shrink the membranes and stop the bleeding. "This is going to be unpleasant," he warned, his voice softening. "I need to pack the nose to see if there’s a septal hematoma. If there's a blood clot pressing on the cartilage, I have to drain it tonight, or you’ll lose the bridge."
He moved with a surgical precision that was almost hypnotic. He inserted the speculum, widening the nostril just enough to peer inside. You gripped the edges of the exam table, your knuckles turning white as he worked.
"Stay with me," he murmured, noticing your shallow breathing. "Talk to me. Tell me about that Spanish elective you took. Anything."
"Took it….because the professor was pretty," you managed to choke out, a strained attempt at a joke. "Turned out...I was better at the verbs than I was at the flirting."
Jack let out a low, genuine huff of a laugh. He swapped the speculum for a small needle, preparing to numb the area. "Hard to believe. You seem to have the flirting part down to a science now."
He paused, the needle hovering just inches from your face. His eyes searched yours, the professional mask slipping just enough to show the man underneath—the one who had been watching you across trauma bays for months, the one who was currently vibrating with a protective streak he couldn't quite hide.
"If this nose is broken," Jack said, his voice dropping to a low, intimate rumble, "I’m the one who gets to set it. And once I’m done being your doctor for the night..." He trailed off, his thumb grazing your cheekbone one last time before the procedure began. "I think I’d like to try being that distraction you’re looking for. Somewhere without an audience.”
Jack had the elevator tool ready—a thin, flat metal instrument designed to lift the nasal bone back into its rightful place.
"I’ve numbed you as much as I can," Jack said, his voice dropping into a low, steady frequency. "But you know how this goes. The lidocaine won’t touch the pressure. It’s going to be one sharp movement, a hell of a lot of crunching, and then it's over."
You gripped the edges of the exam table, your knuckles turning a ghostly white. You’d seen this done a hundred times to screaming patients, but being on the receiving end was a different beast entirely. Your breath was coming in short, jagged hitches.
"Look at me," Jack commanded. It wasn't a request.
You forced your eyes open, locking onto his. He wasn't looking at you like a case file anymore. He was looking at you with a fierce, quiet intensity that seemed to pin you in place. He stepped between your knees, closing the distance until his chest was inches from your own, creating a private world within the four walls of the exam room.
"Hand," he muttered, reaching out.
You let go of the table and placed your hand in his. His grip was immense—warm, calloused, and grounding. He squeezed, a silent promise that he wasn't going to let you drift.
"On three," Jack whispered. "One...two..."
He didn't wait for three. He moved on two-and-a-half, a seasoned doctor’s trick to keep the patient from tensing at the last second.
The sound was sickening—a wet, crystalline snap-crunch that vibrated through your facial bones and echoed in your inner ear. You let out a choked, guttural sound, your body instinctively trying to recoil, but Jack was a rock. He held your head steady with one hand while his other hand crushed yours, absorbing the shock of your pain.
For a second, the world went gray at the edges. Your eyes flooded with involuntary tears, blurring Jack’s face into a smudge of blue scrubs and dark hair.
"Easy, easy," Jack murmured, his voice right against your ear now. He’d dropped the tool and moved both hands to your face, his thumbs stroking your cheekbones with a tenderness that felt almost illegal in a hospital. "Breathe for me. It’s back in place. You’re okay. Stay with me."
You slumped forward, your forehead coming to rest against his shoulder. You were shaking—a delayed reaction to the trauma and the exhaustion—and you didn't even care that you were getting blood on his clean shirt. You just needed the contact.
Jack didn't pull away. He draped his arms around you, holding you in a loose, protective embrace that shielded you from the rest of the world. He pressed his face into the side of your head, his breath warm against your hair.
"That's it," he whispered, his hand sliding up to cup the back of your neck, his thumb tracing the base of your skull. "Just breathe. I've got you."
The silence that followed wasn't the awkward silence of two coworkers; it was the heavy, loaded silence of two people who had finally stopped pretending they didn't care. You could hear the steady thrum of his heart against your ear, a rhythm that was far more effective than any sedative Dana could have brought.
After a long minute, you pulled back just an inch, looking up at him through watery, bloodshot eyes. "You cheated," you croaked, a weak, lopsided smile touching your swollen lips. "You went on two."
Jack wiped a stray tear from your cheek with his thumb, his gaze dropping to your mouth before snapping back to your eyes. "I’m a doctor. I’m allowed to lie if it’s for your own good."
He didn't let go of your neck. He leaned in, his forehead resting against yours, close enough that you could see the flecks of gold in his irises. "But I'm done being 'professional' for the night. As soon as we're off the clock, I’m taking you home. And I'm not asking.”
Summary: After a dispatch gone wrong which resulted in a heated argument between you and Blazer, Robert offers to help clean you up.
A/N: While I haven't personally played the game, I know enough/seen people play it. I also just really like Aaron Paul.
CW: Injury - Blood - Strangers to ? - Hero reader
Words: 4.7k
Your body ached: muscles tense, bruised, bleeding, your eye swollen shut. The sticky, drying sensation of blood against the cheap fabric of your suit was a nauseating reminder of the past hour, but the ache wasn't what was on your mind.
Blonde Blazer had lied to you.
You had suspected it the moment she called you—of all possible heroes—to go on a dispatch. With her, nothing was ever simple. She was a complexity you perpetually resented, a calculated mess wrapped in blinding blue fabric. You had never really liked her, and while you wouldn't say that to anyone, she rubbed you the wrong way. Then again, who hadn't besides Roy and Chase? Those two were the only things keeping you from quitting this entire, disastrous operation.
You stepped through the reinforced glass doors of the Dispatch building. The central room was a blindingly bright expanse of monitors and ringing phones, the hurried tapping of keyboards a furious, constant sound that grated on your already frayed nerves. You ignored the startled, whispered looks, ignored the sharp, electric sting in your cheek from the blow you hadn't anticipated, and ignored the shallow, burning sting in your lungs from pushing your powers past their limit.
“Where is she?” You grumbled, the sound rough and low in your throat. You planted your feet near the main desk, your glare settling on one of the dispatch operators.
The operator, a young woman with a headset askew, visibly flinched. She pointed toward the main conference room with a shaking finger, unable to meet your gaze.
You turn your head—a sharp jolt that sends a wave of nausea through your skull—and lock eyes with Chase.
He’s leaning against the doorframe of an adjacent office, arms crossed, his stance casually rigid. He doesn’t need to ask what happened. The jagged cut on your cheek, the purple-black swelling around your eye, the way you plant your feet like a wounded, caged animal—he knows. He knows you are as stubborn as they come; he knows whatever he says won't matter, but he tries anyway. That’s just Chase.
The harsh, fluorescent light of the Dispatch center—the one you had ignored seconds ago—now seems to drill into the intact retina of your good eye. Each ringing phone and furious tap of a keyboard is a jackhammer against your already frayed nerves.
"Planning on starting a fight here, in your condition?" he hums, his voice low enough to be lost in the building's cacophony, but clear enough for you. There's a sliver of genuine concern in his dark gaze, which you choose to ignore.
You stop abruptly just beside him, the cheap, blood-soaked fabric of your suit sticking uncomfortably to your skin. Your hand rises automatically to wipe blood from the cut on your cheek—only succeeding in smearing the sticky, drying residue further into your skin. "You gonna try and stop me?" you scoff, the word catching on the rough rasp in your throat. You lean closer, dropping your voice to a low snarl, "Because that usually works out well for you."
He sighs, a sound of profound, weary patience. He pushes off the frame, taking a protective half-step toward you, but doesn't touch you. "She's got company," Chase mutters, looking past you toward the thick, mahogany conference room door. "Try not to make him a casualty."
The air catches in your lungs. Company. The last thing you need.
A spike of ice-cold dread mixes with the hot, burning rage already simmering beneath your skin. The memory of your last argument with Blazer—the one that started over a similar situation —is instantly vivid: the sudden, stunning force of her fist to your face, the sound of your head hitting the wall, and Roy practically peeling you off the concrete like a discarded decal.
Did you deserve it? Yeah, you're known for your short temper. You instigated it, just like you’re instigating this. But after the brutal, exhausting, pointless dispatch you just had, where you pushed your powers past the point of exhaustion, you'd prefer not to leave another imprint on the wall. Not today. You need answers, not another concussion.
You take a shuddering breath, tasting the dust of the Dispatch center and the metallic tang of your own blood. You settle your suit, adjusting the collar with a jerky, sudden motion. You meet Chase's eyes one last time, a challenge swimming in yours. He only shakes his head, an acknowledgement of your impending recklessness.
You turn your back on him, moving purposefully toward the conference room.
You move purposefully toward the conference room. You don't bother knocking. The door is already ajar, a crack of light spilling into the hallway.
"Take your clothes off."
Blonde Blazer's voice is sharp and completely devoid of emotion, followed by the heavy, dull thud of something being set down hard on the conference table.
You pause for a split second, a wave of weariness hitting you. You grumble the word "Seriously" under your breath, hoping desperately that you weren't about to walk in on some desperate, half-naked man trying to earn Blazer's attention despite her being involved with Phanomaman. This office melodrama is the last thing you need.
You shove the door the rest of the way open, stepping inside. "Am I interrupting?"
The reinforced oak door slams shut behind you with a deafening BANG, a sound that silences the distant office noise and makes the air in the room vibrate. You ignore the immediate, throbbing protest from the bruises ringing your ribs.
Blazer turns slowly to face you. She’s wearing her signature blinding yellow blazer—not a hair out of place, not a smudge of dirt on her pristine white trousers. She’s tall, and even standing casually, she seems to slightly tower over the man seated behind her. She crosses her arms, her jaw tightening the moment her eyes land on your bloodied face.
"I'm in the middle of something," she says, her tone crisp and impatient, like you're an annoying telemarketer.
You barely glance at the man she's with—hero, already peaking from around her, eyes directed at you. You’re focused entirely on the calculating mess in the yellow jacket.
"I couldn't care less whose dick you're about to fondle," you snarl, taking three deliberate steps toward the table. Your voice is raw, fueled by pain and betrayal. "But I'm not leaving this room until you explain why you put me in danger yet again."
Blazer's eyes narrow, but she doesn't flinch. "I followed protocol. It wasn't my fault you failed to properly manage the variable."
"Protocol?" You laugh, a harsh, humorless sound that scrapes against your throat. "You called me because you knew I'd be reckless enough to do the dirty work. You sent me on a dispatch against a known-level four threat and gave me intel that was two hours old! You lied to me!"
You lean your hands on the table, your knuckles white, the movement bringing you eye-level with her. Your good eye blazes. "Tell me you didn't know that building was rigged. Tell me I wasn't just bait.”
Blazer rolls her eyes—a small, theatrical gesture that communicates her utter boredom with your suffering. She straightens, taking a cool, deliberate step that brings her nose-to-nose with you across the polished conference table.
"Please. If you were truly bait, darling, you wouldn't have survived. You'd be splattered across that floor right now," she says, her voice dropping to a low, silken purr that drips with condescension. She moves fluidly around the table's corner until she is standing directly in front of you. Her eyes narrow as she stares down, appraising the damage to your face like a disappointing report card.
You stand perfectly straight despite the screaming protest from the bruised and possibly cracked ribs beneath your sticky suit. Every muscle is tense, every nerve ending is humming with a painful cocktail of adrenaline and exhaustion, but you will not back down. Not now. Not even if it means another fist to the face and another broken nose.
"The intel was old because you took too long to secure the objective. Your lack of situational awareness is what put you in danger, not my planning," Blazer continues, the words clipped and precise. "You got reckless. You always get reckless. You push too hard, you act on impulse, and then you blame the person who provided you with the necessary resources." She pauses, a hint of patronizing pity in her gaze. "Perhaps if you learned to control your temper and rely less on brute force, your results wouldn't be so messy."
The pure audacity of the dismissal strikes you harder than any physical blow. Before you can launch the scathing rebuttal forming in your mind—a retort about her cold detachment and manipulative tendencies—her hand flashes out.
Her fingers clamp down on your shoulder—not a gentle touch, but a hard, firm shove. It sends a jolt of white-hot pain through your torso and forces you to stagger two full steps to the side, breaking your desperate stance.
Blazer doesn't spare you a second glance. She’s already moving toward the door, her composure flawless. She yanks the conference room door open, the sound less violent this time, a signal of her control.
She pauses with her hand on the frame, looking over her shoulder at the nervous scientist—the one she had just ordered to strip—who is still clutching his clipboard.
"Robert," Blazer calls, her voice back to that smooth, professional register. "I'll see you in a few. We need to continue our discussion on your integration here and, of course, the absolute necessity of keeping your identity as Mecha Man a secret."
She walks out, leaving the door slightly ajar. You are left standing in a stinging silence, staring past the man and at the thud she had made earlier: a simple duffle bag.
Blazer's scent—crisp linen and something faintly metallic, like ozone—lingers in the air, a final, infuriating insult.
You push away from the door, dragging your feet, and collapse back against the edge of the large conference table, letting out a low, involuntary groan. The sound is muffled, escaping through clenched teeth. Your gaze settles on the industrial carpet, but you don't really see the fibers. You only see the pattern of your own recurring failures.
You always had your own way of doing things—a stubborn, chaotic, effective kind of genius. But sometimes, when Blazer orchestrated a mess like this, you suspected it was exactly why she did it. Like it was her twisted, calculated way of telling you that your way of life was nothing but a colossal fuck-up waiting to happen.
"I'm sure it wasn't your fault."
The voice is a quiet, mumbled sound, pulling you out of your internal pit of self-loathing. You glance up. Robert—the same guy that was behind Blazer and secret Mecha Man—is now standing a few feet from you, leaning gently against the table, trying to appear non-threatening.
You wanted to laugh. This guy didn't know you. He had just witnessed you nearly tear Blazer’s head off. And hell, according to every major news outlet and official Hero Registry, he was Mecha Man, one of the most respected heroes the country had ever known, and one who was supposedly dead—killed in action six months ago.
"You expect me to believe the words of a dead man?" you scoff, the exhaustion making your voice flat and dull. You lift a hand to touch the swelling above your eye, not caring that you’re likely leaving a bloody handprint.
Robert pats himself down, a humorous motiom—starting at his thighs, then working his way up his stomach and chest. He shruggs the thin, brown jacket off his shoulders, then immediately puts it back on. The entire time, he holds your gaze, a strange mix of sincerity and weary resignation in his eyes. He reaches up slowly and takes off his mask, setting it on the table.
"Look, I get it," he says, with a shrug. "But one of two things is true right now." He spreads his hands. "Either I’m alive and well, talking to a very bruised hero." He gestures to you. "Or you have the freaky ability to see and talk to dead people."
He waits for a response, his expression earnest.
You couldn't help the genuine smile forming on your face. It felt alien—a sharp, involuntary stretch of damaged skin—but it was there. It was the first honest reaction of amusement you’d had all day, a pure spike of relief cutting through the adrenaline and resentment.
Robert noticed the sudden change instantly. He noticed the way the smile pulled the jagged cut on your cheek, and how it gave him a glimpse of your teeth, stained a dark, unsettling crimson. Undoubtedly, blood was still pooling into your mouth from the cut on your face, mixing with the dust and dry taste of the Dispatch center.
"No wonder she likes you," you hummed, the sound low and rough. The "she" was, of course, Blazer. It was a veiled compliment, the highest praise you’d ever dole out. "Charming." You sighed, the weariness of the day finally catching up to you, dragging the smile away.
Your eyes, however, stayed on him. You noticed the details you'd missed when Blazer was monopolizing the room: the small, crescent-shaped chunk missing from the upper curve of his left ear, healed long ago but an obvious scar; the scruff of stubbled hair that covered his jawline, giving him a weary, unkempt look that belied his 'hero' status.
"You think I'm charming?" He jabbed, a bright, disarming smile replacing his look of earnest resignation. He seemed genuinely pleased, perhaps used to people being more awestruck or, more likely, completely intimidated by the myth of Mecha Man.
You looked away abruptly, the small, honest moment already too much. Your fingers flexed, curling into the sharp edge of the conference table behind you as you gripped it. "Don't push it."
Robert's smile softened, turning into something warmer, more knowing. He pushed off the table, the simple action graceful and controlled. He came to stand directly in front of you, close enough that you could smell the faint, clean scent of old soap and something metallic—not ozone, like Blazer, but something sharper, like engine oil.
"Right," he murmured, his voice dropping slightly. His hand flinched beside him, a slight, involuntary tremor, like he wanted to reach out and touch your face, check the damage. Instead, he forced the hand to his side. "You should probably see a doctor."
"It'll heal," you murmured, the words barely audible. You felt the characteristic, painful hum beneath your skin.
Robert cocked an eyebrow, his eyes drifting down your bloodied suit. "So," he chuckled, the sound deep and easy. "You can heal yourself and speak with the dead? You really are something."
The assumption was enough to snap you out of your self-pity. You reached out, not gently, and smacked his shoulder with the heel of your hand. It was a reflexive, playful shove meant to break the tension. "No," you huffed, a low laugh hiding in the sound. "I can't do either."
"Then let me help you," Robert met your eyes, the sincerity back, but now mingled with a spark of immediate, protective intent. "Somewhere more private, if you want?" He gestured with a subtle nod toward the conference room door, which Blazer had left slightly ajar as a sign of her utter contempt for your need for secrecy.
Through the narrow crack, you could just make out the contrasting figures of your two remaining friends. You saw the stark white of Chase's hair—an unmistakable beacon—and beyond him, the sheer, immovable size of Roy, a mountain of muscle standing sentinel. They were most likely there to ensure you didn't, in fact, tear Blonde Blazer's head off, or at least to peel you off the wall for the second time this week. They were a safety net, and you hated needing one.
You met Robert's gaze. The strange mix of easy charm, quiet authority, and deep scars in his eyes was instantly appealing. He was, much like Chase, a complication you could almost tolerate.
"Fine," you finally admitted, pushing off the table fully, trying to ignore the painful protest from your ribs. You straightened your suit collar once more.
You and Robert moved with the practiced, efficient silence of two people who understood the necessity of discretion. You slipped past Chase and Roy—who simply offered twin, weary nods of approval—and quickly found an unused office at the end of the hall. The room was sparsely furnished: a heavy, chipped wooden desk, a precarious-looking old chair, and the pervasive scent of stale coffee. Robert was careful to shut the door and draw the thin, off-white blinds behind you, plunging the small room into shadowed privacy.
He immediately opened the duffel bag you'd retrieved. It held a neatly folded uniform—the standard, dull-gray, cheap fabric worn by every dispatcher and low-level administrator in the building. Blazer’s insult was clear: even Mecha Man was just another glorified employee now. Robert shrugged off his brown jacket and changed quickly, efficiently, the drab uniform swallowing his heroic physique.
You, meanwhile, felt a wave of painful, sticky relief as you started to peel off your blood-soaked suit jacket. You grunted softly as you maneuvered your bruised arm out of the sleeve, finally tossing the ruined fabric onto the floor.
Your back was a sprawling map of trauma—old, pale, puckered scars that testified to past brushes with death, mixing with fresh, livid bruises and gashes from the recent dispatch. Robert watched, quiet and focused. He traced the lines with his eyes, mapping the geography of your history—the faint, deep lines from burns, the heavy, purple pooling of new contusions—as you moved to take off your boots and the bottom half of your suit. You had a deeper-than-expected cut just below the hem of your boxers, staining the fabric dark.
He let out a low hum, a sound of professional acknowledgment mixed with a hint of concern, slightly nodding to himself while haphazardly grabbing for the old office chair.
With a grunt, you hopped up onto the solid surface of the old desk, settling sideways to face Robert as he pulled the chair in front of you. You felt exposed, tired, and deeply vulnerable.
"You were staring," you murmured, folding your arms across your bruised abdomen, a self-conscious gesture. "You're not very subtle."
Robert finally looked up from the medical kit he’d nabbed, his eyes meeting yours with that same weary sincerity. He set the metal box gently on the desk beside your hip.
"Yeah. I wasn't trying to be," he said simply, his voice flat but honest. He scooted the chair closer until he was directly between your legs, which were bent at the knee and dangling over the side of the desk.
Your face felt instantly hot. He was practically a complete stranger, yet he was now nose-deep near your crotch, his attention focused entirely on your injuries. He reached out, his touch tentative but firm, placing one hand on your inner thigh for stability as he carefully opened the metal first-aid box with the other.
"Just assessing the damage," he explained, his gaze sweeping across the various cuts, scrapes, and massive, angry bruises mapping your abdomen and ribs. "That was one hell of a dispatch. Any internal issues, or is it mostly surface-level?”
You swallowed hard, the rough rasp in your throat returning. "The ribs are just badly bruised, maybe a hairline crack." You shifted slightly on the desk, feeling the accidental, gentle press of his hand against your skin. "I can handle it."
Robert paused, his gaze lifting immediately from your abdomen to meet your eyes. He wasn't skeptical, but deeply concerned, his expression heavy with knowledge. "Handle it, sure, but heal it? You need better care than an old desk and some iodine," he countered, his voice a low, steady murmur. "That's not just bruising. You're losing more blood than you think, especially from the cut on your leg."
He pulled out a swab and a small bottle of antiseptic. "We'll start with the easy stuff, then we’ll move up to your face. But listen to me: you need a proper scan for those ribs. We can't let a hairline crack turn into a punctured lung." He dipped the swab, his movements suddenly all business. "This might sting. Keep still for me." He nodded toward the cut on your leg.
Robert didn't wait for a response; he simply got to work. He started with the cut just above your boxers, the one that had been bleeding steadily. He poured the antiseptic—a burning, sharp cold—directly onto the swab, then pressed it firmly against the wound.
You let out a low, involuntary hiss, the sound squeezed past your clenched teeth. The pain was immediate and searing, cutting through the dull, throbbing ache that had been your constant companion all day. Your body instinctively jerked, trying to pull away from the sting.
To steady you, Robert’s hand tightened slightly on your thigh. It was a purely practical action, yet the firm, warm pressure was startlingly intimate. His touch was solid and anchoring, preventing you from squirming off the desk entirely, though it did little to stop the deep, rattling breath you took as the antiseptic bit into the raw tissue.
"Hold on," he murmured, his voice now lower, focused entirely on the task. His head was bent, giving you a perfect view of the crescent scar on his ear and the concentration etched around his mouth. "Just getting the worst of the grit out. Blazer's intel was two hours old, you said? That building must have been a wreck."
You let your head roll onto your shoulder, watching the fluorescent office light glint off the polished steel of the medical kit. "Wreck doesn't cover it. It was a trap," you managed, the words still rough. "It wasn't just old intel; it was active misinformation. She knew I'd go in blind."
Robert finished cleaning the cut on your leg, taping a clean square of gauze over it. He then moved up, his fingers brushing the skin of your abdomen, tracing a large, spiderweb of bruising spreading across your oblique muscle—the likely impact point of a heavy kick or shove. He pressed gently, testing for tender spots.
You flinched away from the contact, your breath catching. "Careful," you warned, the word a strained whisper.
"Trying to be," he replied, his eyes finally lifting from your injuries to your face. He saw the sweat beading near your hairline, the tight line of your mouth. "But I need to know where the pain is worst. You're trying to ignore this, and you can't."
He grabbed a smaller swab and began cleaning a scrape along the ridge of your hip bone. The movements were careful, but they weren't gentle—he was determined to clean them properly. You watched him, trying to reconcile the figure of the legendary Mecha Man with this grounded, weary man applying antiseptic and worrying about your ribs.
"Why are you doing this?" you asked, the question escaping on an exhale of pain. "You don't know me. You’re Mecha Man—you should be debriefing with the Director, not patching up some short-tempered idiot Blazer used as bait."
He paused, holding the swab just above a particularly nasty graze near your belt line. His eyes were direct, unblinking. "Maybe I know what it feels like to be an idiot used as bait." He gave a slight, humorless shake of his head. "And I was debriefing. I got the full Blazer treatment: ice-cold, all protocol, no empathy. I prefer patching up short-tempered idiots. It's more honest."
He finished the graze and started on the bruising along your ribs, gently massaging in a cooling gel. The pressure was firm and comforting. He then pulled out the alcohol wipe to tackle the smudged blood on your cheek—the dried residue you’d smeared in the main office.
The wipe was cold. He used meticulous, slow movements, cleaning the dried blood from the jagged cut on your face, then wiping the dark stain from your teeth and lips. His proximity was overwhelming; you could feel his breath, faintly metallic and warm, against your good eye.
"Okay," he said softly, putting the used wipe aside. "That's the worst of it. Now for the rest of your face. You're going to have a shiner." He looked at the swollen, purple-black skin around your eye, his expression shifting from clinical focus to something that looked suspiciously like pity.
You refused to meet the pity, instead focusing on the way his thumb was still resting lightly on your thigh. "Don't say it," you muttered, knowing exactly what he was about to say.
Robert chuckled, a quiet, rich sound that seemed completely out of place in the antiseptic gloom of the office. He didn't remove his hand. "Relax. I was just going to say that these lights really bring out the purple in your eye.”
You let out a long, shuddering sigh, a puff of air that finally felt relaxed, as Robert finished cleaning and patching the last of your wounds. He had just applied a sterile dressing over the cut on your cheek—the one that had caused so much blood to pool. The whole process was over, leaving your skin feeling clean, stinging, and infinitely better than it had an hour ago.
"Thanks," you murmured, the single word carrying more weight than you intended. You met his gaze, a slight, genuine smile touching your lips. "Glad you enjoy short-tempered idiots."
He gathered up the used swabs and bandages, tossing them into the metal tin. Then, instead of moving, he leaned back in the chair, his dark eyes staring up at you with an unhurried, knowing quality. His hand remained lightly resting on your thigh—a casual, comforting weight now, not just a practical restraint.
"I enjoy a lot of things," he said softly, a genuine smile curving his mouth. "And I enjoy more than just patching them up, too."
You cocked an eyebrow down at him, a reflex that pulled at the stitches (or heavy adhesive) on your face. "Oh yeah? And what exactly else do you enjoy?" you challenged, a playful rasp in your voice, leaning forward slightly on the desk so your faces were only inches apart.
Robert's smile widened, and he leaned in, his voice dropping to a low, warm murmur that felt like a secret just for you. "I enjoy honesty. I enjoy people who don't hide their fire, even when they're beaten up. And I really enjoy people who don't try to pretend they don't need help."
He reached up, his movements slow and deliberate, and gently tapped the very center of your chest, right over your heart, then let his hand rest there.
"You're a mess," he concluded, his gaze serious, but his tone completely affectionate. "A stubborn, painful, complicated mess. And I like complicated."
You felt your breath catch, the unexpected tenderness of the moment stealing the sarcastic retort you’d been ready to deliver. You wanted to lean down, to close the last few inches of distance, but you held yourself still.
"Well, you just got done telling me I need a scan and a few days rest," you whispered, trying to sound aloof, but failing entirely.
"I did," he confirmed. He pulled his hand from your chest, his thumb lightly brushing the clean, taped skin of your collarbone before his hand finally returned to his side. "But I'm a patient man. The world's been waiting six months for me. It can wait another few hours for you."
He slowly pushed the chair back, breaking the intimate circle, and stood up. He offered you his hand—a clean, strong grip.
"Let's get you that scan," he said, his voice back to that easy, quiet authority. "Then we can figure out where the best place is for a complicated mess to rest."
You took his hand, letting him help you slide off the desk and onto your feet. For the first time all day, the pain seemed manageable.
"Okay, Mecha Man," you conceded, a genuine, tired laugh escaping your lips. "Lead the way.”
May I request a (Andrew Garfield's) Peter Parker "Spiderman" x male reader fic, where it ends with the iconic upside down Spiderman kiss? But this time the kiss occurs under a mistletoe that Peter's boyfriend (male reader) happened to hang it from their apartment's window when he was out being Spiderman (:. Peter doesn't notice initially but when he does he plays into it (even through the chilly wind and snow of New York), knocks on the window (even though he knows its unlocked), and he happily kisses his boyfriend. (Actually ends with some comfort, cuddling, and hot cocoa).
Andrew Garfield's Peter Parker will always be my original boyfriend💛. He is the best Peter Parker / Spiderman to ever have been and a big fuck you to Sony from taking away from us bisexual Peter. We were so close🫠
Christmas Eve Kisses
Peter Parker x Male Reader
Summary: Peter's out being a hero on Christmas eve of all days, but that wasn't going to stop you from the one tradition you loved.
A/N: Something short and sweet for the holidays. Andrew was also my og boyfriend, had his poster in my room above my bed.
CW: Fluff - Spider-Man kiss - Mistletoe
Words: 2k
The holidays didn't carry the same frantic magic they used to. Now that the two of you were older—and the apartment felt a little quieter with just the two of you—Christmas had shifted from a grand event into a series of soft, stolen moments. Between your exhausting forty-hour work week and Peter’s "second shift" as the city's neighborhood savior, time was the most expensive gift you could give each other.
But that didn't mean you’d given up. Even if your celebration was nothing more than a cheap box of chocolates and a predictable Hallmark movie watched through heavy eyelids, it was yours.
Tonight, the apartment was silent, save for the low hum of the heater and the distant sirens of midtown. You spent the evening untangling a nested mess of fairy lights, their warm, amber glow finally casting long shadows against the bedroom walls. It wasn't much, but it turned the cramped space into a sanctuary.
Finally, you reached for the sprig of mistletoe. With a small, knowing smile, you stepped toward the window. You pushed it open, wincing as the biting New York chill rushed in, and reached up to secure the mistletoe right above the fire escape entrance. It was a tactical placement—a trap for a tired hero. You could almost see it now: Peter swinging in, shivering and smelling of winter air and web-fluid, only to look up and realize he was caught.
You leaned against the window frame, looking out at the skyline and waiting for a flash of red and blue to break the dark. You knew he’d be home soon. He always found his way back to you.
After securing the mistletoe, you pulled the window shut, the latch clicking into place with a definitive metallic snap that seemed to echo in the quiet room. You gathered the empty cardboard box—now stripped of its tangled lights and plastic greenery—and tucked it away in the depths of the hall closet. It nudged against Peter’s old sneakers and a stack of forgotten textbooks, a small reminder of the life you were building in the gaps between his shifts.
The apartment was dim, lit only by the soft, amber hum of the new fairy lights bleeding in from the bedroom. You padded across the hardwood floors, your socks muffled against the grain, heading toward the kitchen. The December chill had seeped into your bones, and the thought of a heavy mug of hot chocolate felt less like a treat and more like a necessity.
The kitchen was a sanctuary of mundane sounds: the clatter of a stainless steel pot against the stove, the thud of the milk carton on the counter, and the rhythmic clink of a spoon against the tin of cocoa powder. You were just about to turn the dial on the stove, the smell of chocolate beginning to drift in the air, when a distinct thump-thump-thump vibrated through the apartment.
It didn't come from the front door. It came from the bedroom.
Leaving the milk on the counter, you retraced your steps, your heart giving a familiar, fluttering kick. You walked back into the bedroom, where the fairy lights pulsed like tiny stars. There, framed by the window and the silhouette of the fire escape, was Peter.
He was hanging upside down, his body a dark shape against the glowing New York skyline. His mask was peeled back just past his lips, bunched up around his nose, revealing the bottom half of his face. His skin was flushed a deep, wind-bitten red from the cold, and even upside down, that signature, lopsided grin was unmistakable.
Snowflakes drifted past his ears as he raised a gloved hand, tapping his knuckles lightly against the glass again. He gestured with a tilt of his head for you to let him in, his breath blooming in white puffs of steam in the winter night. He looked exhausted, his chin smeared with a bit of soot, but the sight of you seemed to be the only thing keeping that tired smile plastered on his face.
You crossed the room, the floorboards creaking softly under your weight—a familiar song of a building as old as your relationship. Reaching for the window lock, you slid the sash upward. Immediately, the city rushed in to greet you; it was a cacophony of distant sirens, the rhythmic rumble of the subway somewhere beneath the street, and the sharp, metallic scent of impending snow.
The cold rolled over the sill like a physical wave, biting through the knit of your thin sweater and making you shiver. But the man hanging there didn't seem to mind.
"Hey," Peter breathed. His voice was raspy, worn thin by the winter air and the adrenaline of the night, but it held a warmth that the New York wind couldn't touch.
You smiled, leaning against the frame despite the chill. "Hi. You're late."
Peter didn’t offer an excuse. Instead, his dark eyes flickered upward. He gave a subtle, playful nod toward the small sprig of green and red berries dangling just inches above his boots. A soft, huffed laugh escaped him, turning into a cloud of steam. He looked back at you, his expression softening into something tender and a little bit needy.
"Come here," he murmured, gesturing with a tilt of his head.
You stepped closer, ignoring the frost creeping onto the windowsill until you were mere inches from him. Peter reached out, his gloved hand coming up to cup your cheek. The fabric of the suit was cold and slightly textured, smelling of rain and the high-altitude ozone of the skyline, but his thumb traced your cheekbone with a gentleness that made your heart ache.
You let out a soft, breathy laugh, your eyes dancing. "What, am I about to get a famous Spider-Man kiss? Is that how this works now?"
Peter didn’t answer with words. He didn't need to. He just shifted his weight, the webbing of his line creaking slightly as he swung forward. The movement was fluid and practiced. He captured your lips in a soft, lingering kiss.
The angle was undeniably awkward—the bridge of his nose pressed against your chin, and you had to tilt your head just right to meet him—but the sheer romanticism of it drowned out the logistics. It wasn't the first time he had insisted on kissing you this way; Peter was a sucker for the classics, and there was something about being caught in his "trap" that made the rest of the world feel miles away.
His lips were cold, but the kiss was searing, tasting of home and the promise that, no matter how many villains he fought, he would always swing back to this window.
Peter lingered for a second longer, his forehead resting against yours as you both breathed in the frosty air. Finally, he let out a long sigh, his gloved hand sliding from your cheek to the window frame. With a grunt of effort that reminded you he was still human despite the powers, he hooked a leg over the sill and tumbled into the room.
He landed with a soft thud on the carpet, bringing a flurry of stray snowflakes and the biting scent of the night air with him. Immediately, he stood up and shoved the window shut, latching it tight. The silence that followed was heavy and sweet.
"God, it’s freezing," he muttered, though his eyes were still bright with that post-mistletoe glow. "You have no idea how good this room smells. Is that... cocoa?"
"I was just starting it when you knocked," you said, reaching out to rub his arms through the thin material of his suit, trying to coax some heat back into him. "I left the milk on the stove. Come on, before it burns."
You led the way back into the small kitchen, Peter trailing behind you like a weary shadow. He didn't stop to take off the rest of the suit yet; he just followed you into the warm, yellow light of the kitchen, watching as you turned the burner back on. The milk was just beginning to steam, a thin veil of white vapor rising from the pot.
Peter leaned against the counter, his mask now pulled entirely off and tucked into his belt, leaving his dark hair a chaotic, wind-swept mess. He looked older in this light—there were faint lines of exhaustion around his eyes—but as he watched you stir the chocolate powder into the milk, his expression was one of pure, unadulterated peace.
"You're doing that thing again," he whispered, his voice vibrating in the small space.
"What thing?" you asked, glancing over your shoulder as the chocolate swirled into a rich, dark brown.
"Making me feel like I’m actually home," he said softly. He stepped forward, wrapping his arms around your waist from behind. He was still freezing, the damp cold of his suit soaking into your sweater, but you didn't pull away. Instead, you leaned back into him, letting the heat of the stove and the weight of his chin resting on your shoulder anchor you both.
"It’s Christmas Eve, Peter," you reminded him, turning the heat down to a low simmer. "That’s what home is for."
He hummed in agreement, his arms tightening around you for a brief, needy second before he let go to reach for the mugs. The city was still out there, loud and restless, but inside the kitchen, the only thing that mattered was the steady whistle of the wind against the glass and the sweet, chocolatey steam rising between you.
"Go," you nudged him gently with your elbow, nodding toward the bedroom. "Shuck off the spandex and find something soft to wear. Pick out a movie—something mindless. I’ll finish up in here."
Peter didn't need to be told twice. With a grateful, tired grin, he pressed a quick kiss to the top of your head and disappeared toward the bedroom, leaving a trail of damp footprints and discarded gear in his wake.
In the kitchen, you took your time. You whisked the hot chocolate until a thick, frothy foam rose to the top, then carefully poured the liquid into two oversized, mismatched ceramic mugs. You didn't skimp on the marshmallows, watching them bob and begin to melt into the dark swirl of the cocoa. The heat of the mugs warmed your palms, a welcome contrast to the chill that had lingered in the air moments ago.
It couldn't have been more than two minutes later when you navigated the dim hallway, balancing the drinks with practiced ease. When you stepped back into the bedroom, the transformation was complete.
The suit was gone, replaced by a pair of faded grey sweatpants and a t-shirt that had seen better days. Peter was already buried beneath the heavy weight of the duvet, the covers pulled up to his chest. The only light in the room came from the amber twinkle of the fairy lights and the flickering blue glow of the television. The opening credits of a predictably snowy Hallmark movie were already rolling, the upbeat, jingling music filling the quiet gaps of the room.
"That was fast," you teased, stepping toward the bed.
"Record time," Peter muttered, his voice muffled by the pillows. He sat up slightly, reaching out to take his mug. His fingers brushed yours—warm now, finally—as he took the drink. He took a long, cautious sip, a soft sigh of genuine relief escaping him as the sugar and heat hit his system. "You’re a lifesaver. Seriously."
You set your own mug on the nightstand and climbed in beside him. The sheets were already warm from his body heat. As soon as you settled, Peter shifted, instinctively making room for you. He draped one long, heavy arm over your shoulders, pulling you firmly against his side.
He smelt like chocolate and mint when he kissed your temple, his breathing finally slowing down to match yours. Outside, the New York wind rattled the windowpane, and somewhere in the distance, a siren wailed, a reminder of the city that always needed him. But for tonight, the mask was tucked away in a drawer, the mistletoe was the only thing hanging over the fire escape, and the only world Peter Parker cared about was the one right here, tucked safely beneath the blankets with you.
Summary: Reunited in a strange new century, you fall right back into the toxic, possessive grasp of a newly returned Soldier Boy.
CW: No use of y/n - Not exactly canon - Implied dark themes - Reader is German - Reader is a born Supe - Reader gets called 'Pretty Boy' - Reader is traumatized - Language - Slight angst
Words: 3k
A/N: Okay this started at like 900 words and I somehow ended up with this, I fucking hate this but I'm desperate to post something. God this is so bad and the German maybe off, cause I don't speak it at all. Last thing, forgive me for this garbage.
The rain that night didn't wash away the blood; it just diluted it, turning the Alsace mud into a slick, crimson soup. Every breath you took tasted like copper and woodsmoke, a brutal reminder that despite whatever gifts God had seen fit to curse you with, you were still terrifyingly breakable.
If you had just kept your mouth shut. If you had just accepted that you were caught in the gears of a war you never asked to fight. If you had just died with what little dignity a conscript was allowed, it wouldn't be so bad. But the instinct to survive is a filthy, primal thing. It strips away pride until there is nothing left but the screaming in your chest.
Through the ringing in your ears, you heard the heavy, rhythmic thud of combat boots.
He loomed over you like a monument of olive drab and tarnished gold, the eagle emblem on his chest darkened by grease and German blood. Ben. Soldier Boy. America’s golden boy looked down at you with an expression that wasn't even hateful—it was bored. To him, you weren't a person; you were just another piece of foreign debris he had to clear off the board.
Panic, hot and sharp, overtook every fiber of your being. You scrambled backward in the dirt, your hands slipping in the mire.
“Bitte, ich tue alles!” The words spilled past your swollen lips, frantic and broken. “Ich werde euch im Krieg helfen! Bitte…"
Soldier Boy stopped. He tilted his head, his fingers casually hooking into his tactical belt, right near the heavy grip of his combat knife. He let out a short, scoffing laugh—a low, raspy sound that made your stomach drop.
"Help us?" he said, his voice dripping with that smooth, old-school Brooklyn arrogance. He took a slow step forward, the mud groaning under his weight. "What makes you think we want help from some kraut rat who can't even stand up straight? You're out of your depth, sweetheart. The whole damn fatherland is."
How could you prove your worth? How could you make a man like this see you as something other than target practice? Your mind raced, grasping for the only leverage you had left—the secret the German high command had tried to weaponize.
“Ich bin ein Supe!” you gasped out, desperate to bridge the language barrier before he lost interest. “I am… like you! Born with it. They wanted me for a spy. I can disappear—I can make shields. Please! Ich schwöre, ich werde alles tun!”
That stopped him cold.
The casual indifference vanished from his face, replaced by a sharp, calculating stillness. Soldier Boy crouched down, the heavy leather of his boots inches from your face. The stench of stale tobacco, cheap whiskey, and gunpowder wafted off him, suffocatingly thick. He reached out, his gloved fingers clamping around your jaw with enough pressure to make the bone groan. He forced your face up, staring into your eyes with a terrifying intensity.
"A supe, huh?" he murmured, his voice dropping into a dangerous, gravelly register. He twisted your chin slightly, inspecting you like a piece of livestock. "Funny. Usually, German science projects have a bit more fight in 'em. You're telling me you were born this way? No serum?"
You could only nod, a pathetic, jerky motion that sent fresh agony through your face.
Soldier Boy let out another laugh, but this one was darker, devoid of any humor. "Well, ain't that something. A naturally grown freak. And here I thought Vought had the monopoly on the special stuff."
He didn't look impressed; he looked annoyed that the world was more complicated than his propaganda reels suggested. His grip tightened for one agonizing second before he shoved your face away, letting you drop back into the dirt. He stood up, wiping his gloved hand on his trousers as if you had left a stain.
"Get up," he barked, turning his back on you as he signaled to the shadows behind him. "Move it, before I decide your little magic trick isn't worth the rations. We're taking him back to the command tent. Let’s see if this bird sings as good as he begs.”
None of it really mattered. You had simply traded one prison for another.
At first, the American command tents weren't much different from the German labs—just different men in different uniforms staring at you like a weapon they hadn't learned how to aim yet. But then, Ben took a liking to you.
It wasn't a kind sort of affection. It was the possessive, careless favor a man shows to a stray dog he’s successfully broken. He liked the way you looked, sure—the contrast of your sharp, European features against the rough canvas of his quarters—but mostly, he liked that "no" wasn't in your vocabulary. You became his shadow, his human shield, and his dirty little secret. When the artillery got too loud or the pressure of being America’s golden boy pressed too hard on his shoulders, he’d drag you into his private quarters. He’d take whatever he wanted from you, leaving you bruised and breathless, and in return, he kept Vought’s white-coats from dissecting you.
"He's a useful little freak," Ben had told the suits, his hand heavy and warning on the back of your neck. "Keeps his mouth shut, does what he's told, and his shields keep the shrapnel off my suit. We’re keeping him."
So you stayed. You let him mold you, use you, and call you his "pretty little kraut." It was entirely one-sided, a twisted transactional nightmare, but you endured it because beneath the degradation was a semblance of safety. As long as you belonged to Soldier Boy, the rest of the world couldn’t touch you.
But safety in Vought’s world is an illusion. When Ben vanished in Nicaragua in '84, your protection went with him. No longer deemed useful, Vought treated you like surplus military hazardous waste. They pumped you full of experimental stabilizing agents—burning cocktails that made your veins feel like dry ice—and put you under. A relic of a war everyone wanted to forget.
Decades later, you woke up to a world that had moved on without you.
Navigating the 21st century was a slow, agonizing rebirth. You forced yourself to shed every remnant of the old country. You practiced in front of mirrors for months until you could perfectly mimic a flawless, generic American drawl. You hid your invisibility and your shields so deep you almost forgot how to use them. You reinvented yourself entirely.
Yet, some habits never die. You still needed an anchor. You still needed someone to tell you where to stand so you wouldn't drown, and that was how you fell into the orbit of Billy Butcher.
A sharp, violent buzzing cut through the dark, heavy silence of your bedroom. You let out a low groan, shifting against the mattress as your hand blindly scrambled across the nightstand. Your fingers wrapped around the sleek metal of the smartphone—a piece of technology that still felt entirely alien to you sometimes.
Swiping the screen blindly, you pressed it to your ear and rolled onto your side. "Yeah? What d'you want?" you murmured, your voice thick with sleep.
"Oi, pretty boy. Get your arse out of bed, I need a favor," a raspy, gravelly voice barked through the speaker.
The familiar, abrasive cadence of Billy Butcher instantly cleared the fog from your brain. You sat up, the bedsheets pooling around your bare waist as you rubbed a hand over your face. "Butcher. It’s three in the morning. Why the hell are you calling me?"
"Because you're the only reliable bastard I've got on the payroll, that's why," Butcher chuckled, a dark, dry sound. "And lose the attitude, yeah? Sounds a bit too much like hard work. Look, I need you at the safehouse. Now."
You sighed, a weary, defeated sound. It was happening again. The same pattern, the same trap. You had traded Ben for Billy, always falling into bed or into line with men who smelled like gunpowder and bad intentions because you simply didn't know how to exist without a master. You couldn't say no. To Butcher, you were a ghost with a useful set of skills and a clean record, and you let him keep using you because it was better than being completely alone in a century you didn't belong to.
"What's this about, Billy? I told you, I'm trying to keep my head down," you said, though you were already swinging your legs out of bed, your feet hitting the cold hardwood floor.
"Let's just say an old mate of yours dropped by. A real blast from the past," Butcher said, his voice dripping with a terrifying, smug satisfaction. "Bit of a family reunion, you might say. Peep your texts, sunshine. Don't keep us waiting."
The line went dead with a sharp click.
A heavy dread settled into the pit of your stomach, turning your blood to ash. Your phone vibrated in your palm, a text notification lighting up the dark room. With trembling fingers, you tapped the screen and opened the attached photo.
It was a blurry, dimly lit surveillance shot inside a dilapidated building. Standing in the center of the frame, looking older, rougher, but unmistakably him, was Ben.
Soldier Boy was alive.
The drive to the safehouse was a blur of streetlights and cold sweat. Your hands gripped the steering wheel so tightly your knuckles turned white, the ghost of an old war humming in your veins. You hadn't used your real voice or your real name in decades. You had buried the boy from the Alsace mud deep beneath layers of American slang and a quiet, unassuming life.
But as you pulled the car up to the curb outside the derelict brownstone, the past caught up to you in a single heartbeat.
Billy Butcher was standing under the amber glow of a flickering streetlamp, a cigarette dangling from his lips. He looked as rugged and unbothered as ever, his heavy black trench coat shifting slightly in the night breeze. You killed the engine, but you didn't get out right away. You just stared through the windshield, letting the silence of the car envelop you for a few agonizing seconds. Your heart was a rabbit in a snare.
Finally, you forced your door open and stepped out into the damp night air.
Butcher watched you approach, his lips curling into that sharp, knowing smirk he always gave you. It was the look of a man who knew exactly which strings to pull to make you dance. Neither of you spoke for a moment, the tension thick enough to choke on.
Butcher took one last drag of his cigarette, dropped the butt, and crushed it beneath his boot. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a heavy brass ring of keys.
"Need you to play babysitter, mate," he said, his voice a low, gravelly rumble. He tossed the keys. They cut through the air, and your hand flew up automatically, catching them with a dull metal clack.
Before you could even form a question, Butcher walked right past you, giving you a rough pat on the shoulder that felt more like a warning than a gesture of comfort. He headed straight for his own car, leaving you alone on the pavement. You rolled your eyes, a heavy, tired sigh escaping you as you turned toward the heavy wooden door of the safehouse. You unlock it, the hinges groaning in protest as you push it open and step into the dim, musty hallway.
"Back so soon?"
The voice drifted out from the kitchen, low and raspy, carrying the distinct, heavy drawl of mid-century Brooklyn. A voice you had heard in your nightmares for forty years.
Your entire body went rigid. You froze in the doorway, your fingers gripping the brass keys so fiercely the metal bit deep into your palm, drawing pain that barely registered against the shock.
"Was zum Teufel…?" you whispered. The words slipped out before you could stop them, raw and unpolished, your carefully practiced American accent instantly shattering.
A figure stepped out of the shadows of the kitchen, holding a half-empty bottle of cheap whiskey. Ben. He looked different—his hair was longer, his face weathered by whatever hell Vought had buried him in—but the posture was exactly the same. The same arrogant, casual stance of a man who owned every room he walked into.
But when Ben’s eyes landed on you, he stopped dead in his tracks. The smug, careless look vanished from his face, replaced by a sudden, jarring stillness. He stared at you, his chest rising and falling as his gaze swept over your face, recognizing the sharp European features he used to hold in his grip.
"You're alive?" Ben breathed.
The words didn't come out as a taunt, or a boast, or even a threat. His voice dropped into a quiet, gravelly register that sounded entirely wrong coming from him. It sounded like... relief. Like he was genuinely, deeply grateful that you were standing there.
The unexpected softness of his tone hit you like a physical blow, sparking a sudden, bitter fire in your chest. You let your shoulders drop, abandoning the American disguise completely. When you spoke, your voice was thick with the harsh, rolling consonants of your native tongue, cold and sharp as winter ice.
"Maybe," you whispered, staring back at him with wide, unblinking eyes. "Or maybe... maybe I am finally dead, Ben. And you are only looking at your past mistakes.”
Ben didn’t move. He just stood there, the whiskey bottle heavy in his hand, looking at you like he’d just unearthed a ghost from the trenches. That arrogant, untouchable shield he always wore around his shoulders cracked, just for a second, letting something raw and horribly human blink out at you.
"Don't talk like that," he said, his voice dropping into that gravelly, low register. He took a slow step forward, the floorboards groaning under his weight, just like the mud used to. "You ain't a mistake. And you sure as hell ain't dead."
"No?" You let out a short, humorless laugh, the sound sharp and grating in the quiet house. You didn't back away this time. Decades on ice and a new century had given you a different kind of spine, even if the fear still pulsed like a phantom limb. "You think because I breathe, I am alive? Vought took me after you disappeared, Ben. They put me in a box. Cold. Dark. For forty years, I was nothing but ice because I had no master left to tell them I was useful."
Ben flinched. It was a minuscule movement—just a tightening of his jaw, a slight twitch in his broad shoulders—but you caught it. The great Soldier Boy, bothered by a ghost.
"I didn't know," he muttered, shaking his head. He took another step, closing the distance until you could smell the familiar, suffocating mix of stale tobacco and cheap liquor pouring off him. He looked down at you, his eyes scanning your face, searching for the boy who used to tremble under his touch. "They told me everyone was gone. I thought... I thought you died in Nicaragua with the rest of 'em."
"And if you knew? What then?" Your German accent bit into the English words, heavy and unforgiving. "Would you save me? Or would you just keep me in your tent like a pretty dog? A shield to stop the bullets?"
Ben’s face darkened, the familiar, volatile heat flashing in his eyes. He set the whiskey bottle down on a nearby table with a loud, deliberate thud. He stepped right into your space, towering over you, testing the old boundaries. He reached up, his large, calloused hand hovering near your face for a fraction of a second before his fingers clamped around the back of your neck.
It wasn't the brutal grip of a captor, but it wasn't gentle either. It was possessive. Demanding.
"I kept you alive," Ben growled, his thumb pressing firmly into the skin just beneath your ear, forcing you to look up into his bloodshot eyes. "Don't you forget that. Those corporate suits wanted to slice you open the day we brought you in, and I told 'em no. I gave you a roof, I gave you food, and I kept you safe. You belonged to me."
"Ja," you whispered, your breath hitching despite yourself, your heart hammering against your ribs in that old, terrifying rhythm. The familiarity of his weight, his scent, his absolute certainty that he owned you, was an intoxicating, terrifying poison. "I belonged to you. Because 'no' was a word that would get me killed."
Ben’s gaze dropped to your lips, then traveled back up to your eyes. The anger in him seemed to simmer down into something heavy, thick, and complicated.
"Well, you're here now," he murmured, his grip softening just a fraction, his thumb tracing a slow, familiar line along your jaw. "And so am I. The rest of 'em... Payback, Vought... they're gonna burn for what they did to us. But you? You're still my pretty boy. Ain't ya?"
The trap was closing again. You could feel it. The keys Butcher had given you were still biting into your palm, a reminder that you were supposed to be the handler here, the babysitter. But looking at Ben, feeling the heat radiating off him in this strange, terrifying new world, you realized some things never changed. You were still the boy in the mud, and he was still the only monster big enough to keep the other monsters away.
"You have not changed at all, Ben," you breathed, your voice a fragile, rolling whisper against his chest.
"Why change perfection?" Ben tilted his head, a faint, dangerous ghost of his old smirk returning to his lips. "Now... tell me what kind of trouble we're making with that asshole.”
Summary: A blizzard hit before you could return home for the holidays, leaving you stranded with the last man you wanted to be around.
A/N: This musty little mutt won the poll, and I think it was simply because I mentioned possible smut. However you won't be getting any in this fic, best you'll get is some making out. Mutant powers wise, I'm talking about Wolfsbane, who has wolf transformations aka transform into a wolf-like form giving animal like senses, speed, strength, agility, fangs and sharp claws.
CW: Rivals to Lovers (if you squint) - Slow burn (also if you squint) - Suggestive - Brief argument - Makeing-out - Fluff - Mentions of Bi reader - Reader has Wolf transformation powers - Long fanfiction
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Logan Howlett. You hated that name. Hated the man it belonged to.
You hated hearing it moaned and shouted on the other side of the shared wall, a sound that bled through the plasterboard like a constant, crude reminder. And you hated how every time you’d pound on his door in protest, he’d answer while still completely naked, leaning against the jamb, staring up at you with that infuriating grin on his face. Sweat slicked his skin, and his dark hair was perpetually tousled from whatever mess he’d just made.
“Lookin’ to join?” He’d ask each time, without fail, the question coated in lazy condescension because he knew exactly how much it grated on you.
Sometimes you’d catch a glimpse of who he had in his bed—Jean, Scott, Kurt, Ororo, hell, maybe even some random girl or guy he managed to sneak past Professor X’s mental radar and into his room. They’d shoot you brief, apologetic looks, like they knew you weren't above violence, or even using your teeth to rip Logan's throat out just for a few hours of quiet while his body did its obnoxious healing thing.
You hated how cocky he was, how he genuinely seemed to believe the universe revolved around his singular, self-serving orbit. Charles and Erik would always tell you to give him time, that you’d eventually warm up to him once you got to know the real him. But how the hell could you? Getting to know that mutt—who constantly smelled of stale cigar smoke, wet dog, and sharp, untamed musk—felt like asking you to forgive the people who had once treated you like some feral animal. You might give them a sliver of leeway because they didn't know any better, but Logan? Logan knew better.
He lived to antagonize you, wearing you down until you were at his throat, pinning him against the nearest wall as your sharp, extended nails dug into his tough hide. He enjoyed it. He enjoyed how easily he could turn you from a relatively level-headed man into a feral beast when he pushed you in all the right, predictable ways. He’d tease you, call you names. Pretty Boy was his favorite because he knew you despised it, and only because he knew you did. Not because he noticed the way your cheeks would heat up and you’d stumble over your words before simply growling and walking away.
Logan would never admit it, but he liked you. He liked how hard you tried to be normal, how diligently you attempted to keep yourself together when he’d needle you. He even liked how, on those rare nights he wasn't with someone just to annoy you, he could still hear you through the wall. He liked you—those stupid reading glasses you wore that he'd always make fun of, the silent, ferocious way you were protective of the students, and how utterly different you were from anyone else in his orbit. And maybe, just maybe, Logan liked the impossible idea that it was you in his bed, not Scott, not Jean, not Kurt, but you, the man who hated his guts and made no effort to hide it.
This night was no different. You lay in bed, the pillow clenched tight over your head as you tried—and spectacularly failed—to drown out the rhythmic, echoing noise coming from Logan's room. It was like the fewer students that had left for winter break, the more obnoxious Logan became, as if he knew you’d restrain your reactions if there was a larger audience.
A low, guttural snarl escaped your throat. Your nails, sharp and hard, ripped a tearing line down the faded blue fabric of your pillowcase. “That dumb mutt,” you growled into the damp cotton.
Your legs swung over the edge of the mattress, your bare feet hitting the cold wooden floor with a decisive, shocking slap before you could properly register the decision. You didn't give yourself time to reconsider. Your hand shot out, grabbing the cheap brass doorknob and yanking your bedroom door open, the sound echoing slightly in the quiet corridor.
You marched the few feet to Logan's door. You paused for a moment, chest heaving, the cold air raising goosebumps across your exposed skin. The smell—Logan’s scent, thicker and hotter than usual, mixed with cheap cologne and something sweet and musky that wasn't Logan—hit you like a physical barrier. Then, your fist came up, slamming it against the wood, a percussive explosion in the quiet hallway.
The door flew open almost immediately. Logan stood there, completely naked, leaning against the doorway, framed in the soft, yellow light of his room. His eyes trailed your body slowly, deliberately, taking their time. He noted the way you looked; he always did. From the plaid flannel pajama pants that hung snug on your hips, the waistband of your boxers just peeking over the top, the subtle trail of hair that led below your pants and up your abdomen to cover your broad chest, and even the numerous scars that were no doubt a legacy of X-Men missions and, ironically, the occasional spar with Logan himself. You weren't anywhere close to as hairy as he was, but Logan had always enjoyed the way you looked, and right now he was enjoying how you bared your teeth, your canines slightly elongated and sharp. He watched how your hands flexed so you wouldn't sink your own nails into your skin, how utterly and beautifully feral you looked.
The silence stretched, broken only by the loud thumping of your heart.
“It’s midnight,” you finally bit out, the word thick with restraint. “I leave in three days. Can’t you… can’t you fucking wait till then?”
Three days. Three days until you left for winter break to see the people you considered family for the holidays. Logan wasn't fond of that; he didn't want to not have you around, but he certainly wasn’t going to admit it now.
He just shrugged, his eyes still lazy. “You could just—”
“I don't want to join you!” you exploded, cutting him off, throwing your hands up to briefly muffle a frustrated scream. “Sleep! That’s all I want! For once, can’t you keep your fucking dick in your pants when I’m trying to sleep?!”
You craned your neck, managing a quick, venomous glance over Logan's shoulder and into the room. Scott Summers was laying there, rigid and pale, the sheet pulled high over his chest, actively avoiding eye contact.
“And fuck you, Summers!” you added, feeling the sheer futility of the argument wash over you. “Fuck both of you!”
Without waiting for either of them to respond, or for Logan to unleash his next inevitable taunt, you spun on your heel and stormed off down the hall. Perhaps you could convince Hank to let you sleep on the floor at the end of his bed, like some pathetic dog. He had before, anyhow.
You had barely slept that night. The floor of Hank McCoy’s lab-adjacent bedroom was an improvement over the noise, but not by much. The spare cot he’d set up was too short, the pillow too thin, and the lingering scent of chemicals and clean formaldehyde in the air was an unsettling contrast to Logan’s rank musk, but unsettling nonetheless. You spent the long hours staring at the faint glow of the lights filtering through the blinds, running over the previous night’s humiliation until you were wired and weary at the same time.
Hank, bless his brilliant, towering heart, had tried. He’d left a glass of warm milk and a worn copy of Principia Mathematica on the bedside table, hoping the sheer density of the prose would bore you to sleep. It hadn't. He finally padded out of the room just before dawn, murmuring an apology for the noise you had escaped and heading directly to his lab, leaving you alone in the silence. But silence, you realized, was sometimes just as loud as Logan’s racket.
By the time you dragged yourself down to the main kitchen, the sun was fully up but felt weak and distant. Most of the remaining students and X-Men were scattered around the long table. This was the final, chaotic breakfast before the majority of the team—including one of the key players in last night's drama—departed for the holidays. Only Charles and Erik remained constant fixtures, seated at the head of the table.
You bypassed your usual seat, which was far too close to Logan’s customary spot, and slumped into the nearest available chair. Your eyes felt weighted with lead, the dark circles underneath them pronounced enough to earn their own zip code. Your hair, untamed after a night of tossing and turning, stuck out in every direction, a mess you hadn't bothered to fix.
You hadn't even bothered with your own clothes. The shirt you’d undoubtedly snagged from Hank’s closet that morning—a faded, soft cotton University of Oxford t-shirt—swallowed your comparatively smaller frame, the sleeves drooping past your elbows.
You poured yourself a mug of black coffee, but your lips simply pressed against the ceramic. You weren't drinking it; you were just trying to absorb the minimal warmth through your mouth.
Scott Summers was seated across the table. He was still wearing the same tired, apologetic expression he’d worn in Logan’s doorway, but he kept his head down, meticulously buttering a piece of toast he would likely never eat. He hadn't met your eyes once.
Logan, however, couldn’t seem to look away.
He was across the room, hunched over a plate piled high with bacon, but his gaze kept returning to you. It wasn't the taunting, mocking stare of the night before. This was different—a slow, assessing watchfulness. His eyes traced the exhausted slump of your shoulders, the way the borrowed shirt hung loose, and the almost painful way your jaw was clamped shut. He caught the deep shadow under your eyes, and for a fleeting moment, the usual cockiness seemed to deflate, replaced by something… recognition?
You finally looked up, unable to stand the oppressive silence, and your gaze flicked past Logan. He averted his eyes immediately, suddenly fascinated by the texture of his bacon.
Your eyes landed on Charles Xavier. He was sipping his tea, but his expression was soft, deeply sympathetic, and almost apologetic. You felt a wave of resignation. He must have read your mind, which was still screaming, "I hate him! I hate him! I can't sleep!" from the previous night’s turmoil.
"Well, it looks like the weather is going to get worse over the next few days," Ororo announced, breaking the strained silence with a calm, meteorological observation. She was efficient, always ready to take charge. "We’re tracking a potential blizzard. Hopefully, it doesn't hit before everyone's flights are scheduled."
She paused, turning her focus to you. "You're one of the last ones to leave, aren't you?" she asked, her tone gentle.
You only managed a weary, non-committal nod, focusing on the rim of your mug. The thought that you might be stuck here for the entire holiday, indefinitely sharing the institute with Logan, sent a silent, internal scream ricocheting through your exhausted skull.
“It’s a nasty front,” Erik commented, not looking up from his paper, but his voice was dry and amused. “A fitting closure to the year, wouldn’t you say, Charles?”
Charles ignored Erik’s philosophical jab and looked directly at you, giving a soft, encouraging smile. “We’ll keep an eye on it, dear boy. If things look bad, we can always find you an earlier flight. There's no need to stress."
You just shook your head. You didn't trust yourself to speak; you felt like any attempt to use your voice would shatter the fragile truce you had established with the morning.
"No, don't worry about it," you finally mumbled, the words sounding gravelly and distant, even to your own ears. You just wanted to disappear. You slowly slid your chair back, the harsh screech of the wood against the floor sounding like a gunshot in the otherwise quiet room. "I think... I'll just skip breakfast. I need a shower."
You left without looking at Logan again, but you could feel the weight of his gaze following you until you rounded the corner into the hallway.
The shower did little to relax you. No matter how hot you turned the water, the heat only seemed to bake the tension deeper into your muscles. Your mind felt like a feedback loop of buzzing static, cycling through the previous night’s humiliation and the quiet scrutiny of the morning.
You leaned your forehead against the cool, slick tile wall, letting the water hammer down your neck. Your eyes were nearing shut, chasing a moment of exhausted oblivion, when the sound cut through the artificial rain.
Click. Creak. Thud.
The distinct sound of your bedroom door opening and closing.
The thing you hated most about your mutant powers wasn’t that you were practically a bigger, more sensitive ‘mutt’ than Logan himself—it was the sensory overload. You could hear everything, smell everything, and gods, you hated it. Even over the sound of the running water, your enhanced hearing picked up the settling of the door latch and the slow, heavy tread of footsteps on your bare wooden floor.
You knew those footsteps. Heavy, weighted, and moving with an easy arrogance that suggested the person believed they had every right to be there.
Logan’s footsteps.
That five-foot-three, obnoxious mutt was in your private space, and you couldn't fathom why. The thought alone tightened your fists and sent a fresh wave of heat across your face that had nothing to do with the scalding water. Was he here to continue the antagonizing from the night before? Did he truly have no boundaries?
With a sharp twist of your wrist, you slammed the shower handle into the off position. The sudden silence was deafening, leaving the air heavy with the sound of your ragged breathing and the quick drip, drip, drip from the showerhead.
You stepped out of the tub and quickly grabbed the nearest towel, wrapping it hastily around your waist. The movement was jerky, fueled by a mixture of anger and a sudden, unwelcome wave of adrenaline.
Before you could even fully secure the towel, the lightweight bathroom door swung open without a knock.
You stood there, framed in the rising steam, dripping cold water onto the wooden floorboards of the bedroom you had barely spent time in this morning.
Logan stood a few feet away, hands shoved casually into the pockets of his jeans. He was wearing a fresh flannel shirt—dark red, inevitably—but the scent of him, that sharp blend of musk and cigar that your senses amplified, was immediately suffocating in the small space.
He looked you up and down, taking in the wet hair plastered to your forehead, the towel clutched low on your hips, and the steam curling around your tense, scarred body. A slow, infuriatingly sly smile spread across his face, not reaching his eyes.
"Did I interrupt you, bub?" he drawled, the words delivered with a deliberate lack of concern.
"What do you want, Howlett?" you grumbled, your voice thick and low, cutting right past the question. You ignored the way his gaze lingered for a beat too long on the water droplets clinging to your shoulders, focusing instead on his forehead. "And don't tell me you're lookin' to join."
Logan chuckled—a dry, rasping sound in his chest. "Relax, Pretty Boy. I’m not here for a show. Though, hell, if you're offering..." He finally pushed off the door jamb and moved one hand out of his pocket, holding something small and white toward you.
"Your reading glasses," he stated, his tone suddenly flat. "You left 'em on the kitchen table this mornin' when you stormed off."
He tossed the folded glasses onto the unmade bed behind him, where they landed with a soft, surprising bounce on the duvet.
“You couldn’t have just… dropped them off?” you asked, your voice edged with disbelief, pulling the towel tighter. “You had to come in?”
Logan took a single, slow step closer, closing the distance between you, and the scent of him intensified—the smoke, the wet dog, the raw musk.
“Where’s the fun in that?” he countered, his eyes finally locking onto yours, the predatory amusement back in full force. “Besides, I figured you needed another reminder. Keepin’ you on edge. Helps me sleep, you know.”
He gave a final, irritating smirk, turned sharply, and in the three seconds it took him to cross the room and open the door, he had stolen all the air and privacy from your personal space.
"Oh," he paused at the doorway, looking back at your still-dripping form. "And your cologne smells like ass, by the way. Stick to the chemical smell from Hank’s room."
And then he was gone, leaving the door slightly ajar and the cold morning air rushing in to replace the steam.
You stood there for a long moment, water still dripping from the tips of your hair onto the floor, the steam from the shower dissipating rapidly into the cold air Logan had let in. You stared not at the open door where he’d just vanished, but at the mundane, folded object lying innocently on the duvet: your reading glasses.
He was lying.
You knew with absolute certainty that you hadn't left them on the kitchen table. You hadn't been wearing them last night, and you definitely hadn't taken them to Hank’s room, where you could barely focus on sleeping, let alone reading. In fact, they usually rested right here, on the nightstand beside your bed. Logan hadn't retrieved them from the kitchen; he had merely been looking for an excuse—a pretext—to violate your privacy, to see you vulnerable, and to deliver one last, infuriating jab.
Your jaw ached from the tension you had held since last night. You walked slowly out of the bathroom, leaving a trail of damp footprints, and snatched the glasses off the bed. They felt heavy and cool in your hand. He had touched them. He had been standing right here, inside your room, inside your boundaries. The realization made your skin crawl.
You tossed the glasses onto the nightstand, where they belonged, and grabbed a set of clean clothes from the dresser: thick cotton pants and a plain, dark-grey t-shirt. The need for escape was so sharp it felt like a physical pain in your chest.
Two more days.
That’s all you had. Forty-eight more hours to survive the shared air, the thinly-veiled antagonism, and the confusing, intrusive attention of Logan Howlett before you could catch your flight back to Canada.
Canada. Back to the people you called family, the people who wouldn't treat you like a bomb waiting to go off, or some strange, complicated project that needed constant poking. They offered simple, unearned affection, a respite from the constant strain of being an X-Man, and certainly a break from being Logan’s favorite punching bag.
But two days suddenly felt like an eternity—a sentence you weren't sure you'd make it through without serious incident.
You glanced at the window. The grey light from the sky was deepening, turning a bruised purple-grey that promised snow. You could already sense the subtle change in the air pressure, the faint, metallic scent of a major storm gathering on the horizon.
You found yourself fighting a surge of desperate, claustrophobic anxiety. If that blizzard hit early, as Ororo had warned, the airport would shut down. Flights would be grounded.
If you were trapped here, confined to the mansion with only Charles, Erik, Hank, and Logan remaining… The thought made your palms sweat. It wouldn't be a peaceful holiday. It would be a cage match. You’d be locked in a tense, silent war of nerves, with Logan gleefully pushing every single button until you snapped.
You pulled the shirt over your head, the action clumsy and rough. You desperately needed to get out of this room, away from the lingering, sharp smell of the man who had just stood here.
You needed to be somewhere safe, somewhere where your nerves weren't constantly humming at a dangerously high frequency. Perhaps the library—it was always quiet, and Hank kept the heating low. Anywhere but here, in the cold, violated quiet of your own room.
You grabbed your worn backpack, intending to load it with books and supplies, and head to the library for an all-day retreat. You had to physically distance yourself, to survive these last two days, no matter what it took.
It was as if your deepest, most recent fears had manifested overnight. The blizzard had already started, swirling outside in thick, fast-moving sheets of white, long before you were able to drag yourself out of bed. The pale morning light filtering through the window was diffused and cold, painting the room in shades of icy blue.
You reached for your phone. The screen was flooded with missed calls and texts from your family back in Canada, the messages a mix of concern and frantic questions: Did you get an earlier flight? Is the airport shut down?
One text notification stood out, sharp and definitive: a formal message from the airline confirming your outbound flight was canceled. There were no flights taking off in these conditions. You were grounded.
You wanted to scream, to throw the phone against the wall, to rip apart the already damaged pillowcase. Anything to release the suffocating surge of frustration. But you didn't. You simply lay there, staring at the phone screen, completely numb, suspended in the cold reality.
Everyone else had gotten to go home. The mansion felt vast, sterile, and silent in a way it never did when filled with students. Charles and Erik were at home because, quite literally, this was their home. And Logan? Logan never seemed to have anything else besides this school. Now, by default of a cruel twist of fate, that was all you had, too.
Your finger drifted across the glass, tracing the contact photo of your mother. You pressed the call button, listening to the agonizingly slow ringing, hoping beyond hope that she would pick up.
She answered on the second ring, her voice immediately warm and familiar, a steady anchor in the swirling chaos. "Hi, sweetheart! I was just about to call you again. What's the word? Did you manage to—"
"I'm sorry, Mom," you choked out, cutting her off, the apology tumbling out before she could even finish her thought. "My flight was canceled. The weather got too bad overnight. I… I can't make it."
You heard the subtle shift in her breath on the other end of the line. She could hear the distinct crack in your voice, the tightly suppressed tremor that meant you were desperately fighting back tears. She couldn't blame you. Sure, the X-Men were the best you could hope for when it came to a chosen family, but they weren't her. They weren't your home. All you wanted right then was to be small again, wrapped securely in your mother's arms, hiding from the world like you did when you were a kid.
The conversation that followed was mainly her talking, her voice a soothing, practical balm.
“Oh, honey, don’t you worry about it for a minute,” she insisted firmly. “It’s a nasty storm, and the most important thing is you stay safe. The holidays are about more than just a single day, you know that. Once everything clears up, you can still come. Even if it means you won't get to see everyone, you can still spend a few days here with me and your father."
You swallowed hard, gripping the phone tight enough for your knuckles to turn white. You'd take that deal immediately—a few days of quiet, safe escape, even if it meant a delayed celebration—over being trapped here.
The conversation continued, punctuated by her gentle reassurances and your monosyllabic confirmations, until a sound broke through the muffled speaker and the quiet sadness of the room.
Knock. Knock.
It was a soft, polite tapping at the door. Too quiet, too measured, and too decent to be Logan. It had to be Charles, stopping by your room to offer sympathy or perhaps invite you to sit with him and Erik by the fireplace in the library.
You pressed the phone tight against your ear. “Mom, someone’s at the door, I have to go.”
“Okay, dear. Just promise me you won’t spend the day moping. Call me later, alright? We’re so proud of you.”
“I love you,” you managed, the words still thick with suppressed emotion.
“I love you too, sweetie. Now go answer that door.”
You ended the call, set your phone down, and scrubbed a hand roughly over your face. Taking a deep, fortifying breath, you walked across the room and opened the door.
It wasn't Charles.
It was Logan. He was wearing the same irritating flannel shirt, but he stood stiffly in the hallway, looking distinctly uncomfortable. He took one look at your face—the puffy eyes, the dark circles, the raw exhaustion—and his usual snarl faltered.
“Shit, bub,” he huffed, the word cutting through the quiet. “Were you crying?”
But for once, it didn't land like an insult or a calculated jab. His tone was rough, yes, but there was a distinct, almost startled note of genuine concern woven into the gravelly sound. He looked like he genuinely didn't know what to do with the fact that you might be upset.
You stared at him, the residual sting of tears blurring your vision slightly. The exhaustion was a heavy weight on your chest, robbing you of your usual verbal defenses. If this had been yesterday night, during the confrontation in the hall, you would have snarled a vicious denial and tried to punch him. Now, you just felt hollowed out.
“What do you want, Logan?” you finally asked, not bothering to lower your voice or modulate the weariness that made the name sound flat and defeated. You ignored the question entirely, stepping back slightly to widen the space between you, though you didn’t close the door.
Logan didn't move from the threshold. He shifted his weight, and you could feel his gaze—unusually steady and serious—boring into your face. He didn't offer a smirk, or a challenge, or even the expected derogatory name.
“Charlie sent me,” he grunted, shoving his hands back into his pockets, though the movement looked more nervous than casual this time. “He saw the flight news on the institute feed. Figured you might need… hell, I don’t know. Something.”
You knew Charles hadn't just 'sent' Logan. Charles had likely read the distress signal radiating off you and then subtly nudged Logan, knowing the volatile combination would force a response, but Logan would never admit to being an unwilling errand boy for a sympathy mission.
“I don’t need anything,” you replied, the words clipped and final. “Especially not from you. You can go back to whatever you were doing, Howlett.”
You started to pull the door inward, a clear signal that the conversation was over.
“Wait up, Pretty Boy,” Logan caught the edge of the door, not forcing it open, but holding it firmly enough to stop your motion. He spoke quickly, before you could completely shut him out. “Look, I heard the weather report, okay? It’s a mess. This ain’t going to clear up today. You’re stuck here for the long haul.”
He paused, and the silence was broken only by the muffled sound of the wind whipping snow against the outer windows of the mansion.
“I’m not here to rag on you,” he continued, his voice lowering, becoming almost conspiratorial, which was deeply unsettling. “The old man needs some wood brought in from the shed. Hank’s busy trying to rig up some backup power source. It’s hard work, good for runnin’ off steam.”
He tilted his head slightly, his gaze lingering on your tired eyes. “Figured you might wanna trade the smell of chemicals for the smell of pine and snow, instead of just sittin’ here and starin’ at the walls.”
It was the closest thing to an olive branch—or at least, a highly customized, Logan-brand invitation to physical labor—you had ever received from him. He wasn't offering comfort; he was offering an outlet. He was suggesting that shared work, not conversation, was the only way they could coexist right now.
You hesitated, leaning against the doorframe. Every fiber of your being screamed at you to refuse, to stay in this room and wallow in your misery and hatred. But the thought of being confined to the mansion, listening to the silent tick of the clock and the endless howl of the wind, was worse than the thought of working alongside him. At least physical exertion would dull the screaming in your head.
“Fine,” you sighed, running a hand through your damp, messy hair. “But we aren’t talking. And you stay two steps behind me. I don’t want to smell your cologne or your damn cigars.”
A ghost of the familiar smirk finally touched the corner of his mouth, but it was surprisingly brief and lacked its usual venom. “Deal, bub. Go get some boots on. And bring a jacket, unless you like your feral mutt coat to freeze solid.”
He dropped his hand from the door, taking a half-step back to give you room. He didn’t wait for you to shut the door or thank him. He simply turned and started walking down the hall toward the main staircase, the heavy, weighted rhythm of his footsteps already fading into the background, leaving you with a strangely quiet room and a temporary sense of purpose.
You shut the door quietly. The immediate anger was replaced by a dull dread, but beneath it, a tiny, reluctant spark of relief flickered. You wouldn't be staring at the walls. You had days of forced proximity ahead of you, and at least now, you had an hour of productive, outdoor misery to start with.
You didn't rush. Despite the immediate need for distraction, what you really required was a clean slate. You stripped and stepped back into the bathroom, letting the water run scorching hot. It wasn't a long shower, unless you counted the few minutes you spent simply leaning against the wall, sulking about your canceled flight, before finally forcing yourself to lather up and wash away the morning’s exhaustion and the faint, lingering scent of Logan.
When you finally stepped out and wrapped a thick, fresh towel around your waist, you stared at your reflection in the fogging mirror. The dark circles under your eyes were still prominent, but the heat had brought some color back to your pale skin.
Your mind, now slightly clearer, immediately began racing through a million different scenarios concerning Logan’s sudden, practical offer. Why the truce? Why the invitation to physical labor?
Maybe he was setting a trap, a perfect, isolated opportunity to harp on you about last night’s breakdown.
Maybe he just wanted to show off his superior strength, rubbing in the fact that your enhanced abilities didn't necessarily translate to brute force labor like his.
Maybe, and this thought was the most unnerving, he actually felt a flicker of pity, and this was his deeply awkward attempt at damage control.
You shook your head sharply, dislodging the anxious thoughts. It doesn't matter. Focus on the work.
You finished drying off, moving with deliberate speed. You chose heavy, durable canvas pants, a thick thermal long-sleeve shirt, and finally, a warm, insulated jacket. You pulled on your heavy, laced-up boots, the familiar weight and solidity a small comfort.
You grabbed your room key and phone and opened the door.
Logan was waiting for you, exactly where you expected him to be: leaning against the wall near the stairwell, casual, impatient, and utterly infuriating. The low light of the hallway caught the faint glint of silver as he raised his hand to his mouth.
A freshly lit cigar was clamped between his lips, a plume of thick, acrid grey smoke curling upward.
He didn't move as you approached. He simply lifted his chin and blew the smoke directly toward you.
It was a blatant, deliberate provocation. The expensive cigar—probably something rich and Cuban that Erik had somehow procured—was irrelevant. To your amplified senses, the heavy, noxious fumes hit you like a chemical weapon. The smell of tobacco, no matter how aged or expensive, registered as pure, suffocating poison. It was his signature move, a visceral way of marking his territory and forcing your reaction.
Your nose wrinkled automatically, your lip curling back. You stopped a foot short of him, your teeth baring instinctively, the sharp canines clicking faintly as your jaw tightened. You locked eyes with him, your exhaustion replaced by a fresh surge of white-hot anger.
“Are you serious, Howlett?” you gritted out, the effort of keeping your voice low and flat making your throat burn.
Logan just shrugged, pulling the cigar away with a slight, arrogant tilt of his head. He watched your visceral reaction—the bared teeth, the pinched expression—with a renewed, familiar spark of enjoyment in his eyes. The concern from earlier had vanished, replaced by the predator’s gleam.
“Got to warm up the lungs before we hit the cold, bub,” he drawled, his voice muffled slightly by the cigar. He took another long, slow drag, refusing to put it out. “You said no cologne. You didn't say no smoke.”
“It’s a twelve-hour drive to the nearest patch of wild tobacco and you know I can smell that thing from the attic,” you snapped, unable to hold back. “Put it out.”
He raised one eyebrow slowly, drawing out the tension. He took the cigar from his mouth and held it between two fingers, letting the smoke continue to drift toward you, challenging you to escalate the conflict.
“Or what?” he asked, the familiar, taunting smirk returning. “You gonna pin me against the wall again, Pretty Boy?”
You felt the shift in your stance—your feet planting wider, your shoulders hunching slightly as you prepared for a fight, ready to lash out and put him back against the wall, regardless of the consequences. The raw, guttural anger was back, hotter and quicker than the cold dread of the cancelled flight.
"No," you breathed, the word a razor-sharp whisper. You didn't move forward, relying instead on the intensity of your gaze and the sheer promise of violence radiating off you. "I'm going to rip that thing out of your mouth, Logan Howlett, and make you eat it. You want to work? You want to burn off steam? Then you put out the damn fire and stick to the deal we just made."
Your use of his full name, delivered without shouting, seemed to momentarily short-circuit his anticipation. He recognized the tone: the line had been crossed from playful antagonism into pure, controlled fury.
Logan held your gaze for three long heartbeats, the cigar still smoking lazily between his fingers. He knew you were serious. He knew your limits, and he knew pushing you into violence now—when you were already raw and exhausted—was both what he craved and, maybe, what he should avoid if he wanted the wood chopped.
With a heavy, audible sigh that was 70% irritation and 30% grudging compliance, he lifted the cigar. He didn’t drop it, but instead, he used his thumb and forefinger to pinch the glowing cherry end, extinguishing it in a single, practiced, brutal motion. The hiss and the sharp smell of burnt tobacco mixed with the lingering smoke, but the active threat was gone. He then tucked the mangled, cold cigar into the breast pocket of his flannel shirt.
"Fine," he muttered, shaking his head. "Always a damn diva."
He didn't wait for your reply this time. He just turned, walking toward the main stairwell. "Let's go, Pretty Boy. The snow ain't gonna wait for your little sulk session to finish."
You followed him down the stairs. The mansion was silent, save for the rush of the ventilation system and the distant, low hum of machinery—Hank’s backup power efforts. Charles and Erik were nowhere to be seen, likely cloistered in the study or library, enjoying the quiet.
When Logan pulled open the massive oak service door leading to the back of the grounds, a gust of wind slammed into the hallway, carrying with it a shock of icy, wet air and a dense spray of snow.
The outside world was blindingly white. Visibility was poor, maybe thirty feet at best. The ground was already covered in over a foot of fresh, wind-sculpted drifts, and the air was thick with precipitation. It was a true, fast-moving blizzard—not a flurry, but a tempest.
"Damn," Logan muttered, pulling his jacket collar up high around his neck. "Guess the weather channel wasn't lying. Looks like we're settling in for the long haul."
You wrapped your jacket tighter around your torso, the cold biting through the heavy fabric immediately. Your sensory abilities, which had been a curse indoors, were now focused on the raw elements. You could taste the mineral tang of the snow, hear the subtle, deep whoosh of the wind around the stone chimneys, and feel the almost painful pinpricks of ice hitting your exposed skin.
"The shed is by the back fence line," Logan said, indicating a vague direction with a jerk of his chin. "We'll follow the tree line. Don't go wanderin' off—it'll swallow you whole out here."
You only nodded once, the sheer scale of the blizzard rendering dialogue unnecessary. You had your distance: the two steps behind him you'd demanded. You watched the way his boots carved deep, distinct paths through the deep snow, his body low and solid, completely at home in the punishing conditions.
The walk was immediately difficult. Your breath plumed out in white clouds, instantly torn apart by the wind. The temperature drop was fierce, making the inside of your nose and lungs ache with every intake of air.
As you trudged on, fighting to match Logan's powerful, unwavering stride, you found yourself doing something unexpected: relying on him. Not for company, certainly, but as a marker, a lead anchor. You focused on the red of his jacket, on the unique, powerful odor of him—now thankfully diluted by the cold air and the clean scent of snow—as he forged a path.
You hated him. But right now, out here in the swirling, deafening white, the only thing more dangerous than being near Logan was being alone.
The walk to the shed was brutal, but once they reached the small, three-sided lean-to nestled against the back fence line, they found a small measure of shelter. The dense structure of the shed blocked the worst of the direct wind, and the logs inside were neatly stacked, dry, and ready for splitting.
Logan immediately located a pair of heavy, split-head axes. He tossed one toward you, handle-first, and you caught it instinctively, the cold metal jarring your gloved hand.
“Don’t stand around,” Logan grunted, already selecting a thick, knotty section of oak. “Get to it. The longer we take, the longer we freeze.”
The next half hour was quiet, save for the rhythmic, violent exertion of splitting wood.
It was exactly the physical outlet you had desperately needed. Every swing of the axe was an intentional release. You channeled the humiliating moment with Scott, the crushing disappointment of the canceled flight, the violation of the cigar smoke, and the sheer, unending presence of Logan into the blow. The blade sank deep into the wood with a satisfying thwack, and the energy of the impact rattled up your arms, shaking the tension loose from your shoulders.
You chose the biggest, most awkward logs, attacking the grain with a feral intensity. Sweat soon beaded on your forehead despite the arctic air, steaming faintly as it met the cold. You weren’t just chopping; you were destroying. Your breathing was harsh and loud, and you let out low, involuntary grunts with the effort, the sharp smell of split pine and musk mixing with the metallic scent of exertion.
Logan worked methodically, efficiently. He was a machine, his massive forearms thick and steady, his movements conserving energy. He split his logs cleanly, with a controlled, precise power that was infuriatingly effortless to watch.
But he was watching you, too.
In the brief moments between your swings, when you reset your posture and lifted the heavy axe over your head, you could feel his gaze. He wasn't looking at your technique; he was observing your intensity.
He noticed the frantic pace, the over-the-top effort, and the sheer, palpable wave of pent-up anger you were directing into the wood. He could hear the desperate edge in your ragged breathing. You weren't just splitting kindling; you were trying to break something vital.
He paused after splitting a large cedar log, dropping his axe head first into the snow beside the chopping block. He took a long, slow moment, pulling the collar of his jacket down just enough to speak clearly.
“You’re gonna burn yourself out, Pretty Boy,” he observed, his voice rough but level, completely devoid of its usual mocking lilt. “Save some strength for the haul back. It’s uphill.”
You ignored him, lifting your axe high for another strike against a particularly challenging knot.
Logan watched the blow land. The wood resisted, the axe sticking deep but not splitting the log. You pulled back, lips thinning in frustration, and spat out a low, frustrated curse.
“You hate being stuck here that much?” Logan asked, the question hitting you like a cold slap.
You paused, resting the heavy axe head on the block. You turned your head just enough to look at him, but didn't bother to hide the hostile glare in your eyes. “What do you think, Howlett? I just got off the phone with my family, telling them I wasn’t going to see them for the holidays. What the hell do you think?”
Logan finally looked down, scraping the toe of his boot against the frozen earth under the shed’s floor. The sudden seriousness of his tone was what truly caught you off guard.
“Your mom,” he started, his voice lowered, almost hesitant—a tone you had genuinely never heard from him before. He lifted his eyes, not to challenge you, but just to look. “She sound alright? You guys… close?”
The question was a direct hit below the belt. It was invasive, personal, and worst of all, it was genuine. It cut through the protective armor of your anger, exposing the raw vulnerability you had just managed to subdue.
You gripped the handle of the axe so hard your gloves squeaked. You could smell the pine sap on your own hands, but the metallic tang of unshed tears was suddenly closer.
“It’s none of your business,” you bit out, the words laced with pure venom. “Stick to the wood, Logan.”
He didn't flinch. He just nodded slowly, accepting the rejection. But instead of returning to work, he held your gaze for another beat, his expression unreadable, before finally saying, "Yeah. Just curious, is all."
Then, without another word, he picked up his axe and resumed splitting wood, leaving the heavy, unspoken question hanging in the arctic air, thicker and more complex than the smoke from his extinguished cigar.
You didn't look at him again. Your eyes stayed locked on the stubborn, unyielding grain of the remaining logs. "It’s none of your business," had been your answer, and Logan hadn’t pushed, but the silence he left in its wake was filled with an awkward, buzzing awareness.
You felt your throat tighten. It wasn't the cold; it was the realization that he saw you—not just the feral rage, but the underlying pain of the canceled trip. Logan had just demonstrated a depth of observation that both unnerved and infuriated you.
You focused on the work, hammering the axe into the wood until the sweat was running cold down your back. Logan fell back into his methodical rhythm, splitting logs with the kind of efficient, brutal strength that made the task look like a simple inconvenience. The silence returned, heavy with unspoken things, punctuated only by the repeated thwack-CRACK of the axe heads.
After another fifteen minutes of relentless effort, you had a respectable pile of split wood.
"That's enough," Logan announced, tossing his axe aside. "It'll get us through the night, maybe tomorrow morning. Any more and we’ll be out here till Christmas."
You dropped your axe, leaning against the cold, damp wood of the shed wall, sucking deep, aching breaths of the frozen air. The physical exhaustion was a welcome pain, successfully drowning out the mental noise.
Logan walked to the corner of the shed where several heavy, canvas logging slings were stored. He grabbed one and tossed the other to you.
"Haul time," he said. "We load these up and carry them up the hill to the kitchen entrance. You take the light stuff."
"I can handle my own weight," you challenged automatically, though your muscles were already screaming a different tune.
"I know you can," Logan replied, his voice neutral. He was already loading his canvas sling, selecting thick, heavy logs—the ones you hadn't been able to split with a single blow. He didn't offer a taunt, just a fact. "But I'm stronger, and I don't need a break every five minutes. Let's make this one trip. Get it over with."
You bristled at the implication of weakness but couldn't argue with the brutal truth of his assessment. You grudgingly began loading your own sling with the smaller, lighter pieces, securing the canvas straps over your shoulders.
The trip back was exponentially harder than the trip out. The wind was worse, whipping the snow into a white curtain that reduced visibility even further. Worst of all, the slight, steady incline of the hill felt like scaling a mountain with fifty pounds of wood digging into your shoulders.
You followed Logan’s heavy tracks, leaning into the wind. The cold seeped past your gloves and boots. The weight on your back shifted and pressed, and soon your lungs were burning. You focused on the back of Logan’s head, his figure a low, dark silhouette fighting the white onslaught.
Midway up the slope, you stumbled. Your foot slipped on a patch of ice hidden under a new layer of powder, and the heavy load pitched, pulling you off balance. You barely managed to catch yourself before falling face-first into a drift, but the straps of the sling cut painfully into your neck and collarbones. You let out a muffled grunt of pain and frustration.
Logan stopped immediately. He didn't turn around, but you saw his shoulders tense.
"You good, bub?" he called back, his voice strained against the wind.
"I'm fine," you choked out, adjusting the load with trembling hands, trying to ignore the sharp, sudden pain radiating from your shoulder. "Just keep moving."
Logan remained motionless for another beat. Then, without a word, he set his own massive load down in the snow—a pile that looked twice the size of yours. He walked the few steps back, reaching out a heavily gloved hand and grabbing the top edge of your canvas sling.
"Give me the heavy ones," he ordered, not asking. Before you could protest, he uncinched your sling and began methodically transferring the largest remaining logs from your pile into his own, already monumental stack.
"Logan, stop," you protested weakly, leaning back against the sudden relief of the lessened weight. "I can carry it."
"Shut up," he snapped, the roughness back in his voice, but there was no malice in it—only impatience. "The faster we get this fire roaring, the sooner you can get back to sulking in your room. Now move."
He readjusted his own sling, which was now dangerously overburdened, and looked at you, a silent challenge in his eyes. He didn't wait for your nod. He simply turned and started back up the slope, shoulders straining visibly, leaving you with a lightened burden and a terrifyingly confusing mixture of rage and reluctant gratitude.
The final stretch, though steep, was manageable thanks to the logs Logan had reluctantly, yet forcefully, taken from your sling. You stumbled up the last icy step toward the heavy, insulated door leading to the service hallway near the main kitchen.
Logan didn't use his hands to open the door; he simply leaned his monumental, overburdened shoulder into the solid oak. The door gave way with a heavy thud, and a wall of dry, golden heat from the mansion’s interior rushed out to meet you.
The contrast was immediate and disorienting. The biting cold was replaced by comforting warmth, and the howling wind was silenced, replaced by the crackle of a distant fire and the low, steady hum of the institute’s heating system.
You both dropped your loads simultaneously. Your own sling landed with a modest thud. Logan’s stack of wood, which looked impossibly large, crashed to the floor with a loud, satisfying CLATTER, scattering logs across the polished tile.
You gasped, not from exhaustion, but from the sudden, delicious relief as the heavy straps fell away from your aching shoulders. You peeled off your soaked, stinging gloves and rubbed your hands together, trying to coax warmth back into your numb fingers.
Logan ignored the logs he’d dropped. He stood for a moment, simply leaning against the closed door, his chest heaving under the thick flannel shirt, his own massive hands pressed against the small of his back. His breathing was still deep and labored, proof that even he wasn't immune to the punishing effort.
The silence returned, different now. It was no longer the strained, hostile silence of the hall, nor the deafening, task-oriented silence of the shed. It was the quiet of shared physical recovery.
You looked at the mess of wood. “I’ll clean up this mess,” you muttered, reaching for the empty sling.
“Don’t bother,” Logan interrupted, pushing off the door. He walked over to the largest pile of wood and, with casual ease, began scooping up the logs with one arm, using the sling as a temporary basin. “The old man will be waiting for this. We need to stack it by the hearth.”
You watched him work, mesmerized by the sheer, unthinking utility of his strength. You picked up the smaller, scattered pieces, loading them into your own sling.
As you worked, Logan spoke, his voice low and gravelly, directed toward the wood pile rather than you.
“You didn’t have to push yourself out there,” he said, the words sounding grudging, like they were painful for him to admit. “I wasn’t gonna stop if you didn’t keep up, but you didn’t have to prove anything, either.”
You straightened up, the fresh batch of logs warm in your arms. “I wasn’t proving anything to you, Howlett. I was proving it to myself. I don’t need your pity, and I don’t need you to carry my weight.”
Logan paused, resting the heavy sling on his hip. He finally looked at you, and the look in his eyes was complex—a mix of tired impatience and something softer, something almost paternal that you immediately bristled against.
“Pity?” He gave a short, cynical laugh that held no humor. “Kid, I don’t pity anyone. If I felt pity, I’d be useless. But I know stubborn when I see it. You were fighting the wood like it was the last day of the world. Just save that energy, alright? You’re going to need it.”
He walked past you, shouldering his massive load again, and started toward the archway leading to the mansion’s main rooms.
"The long haul, Pretty Boy," he tossed back over his shoulder, the name back in his vocabulary, but it sounded less like a taunt and more like a simple, weary acknowledgment of your shared, miserable situation. "It’s only day one."
He disappeared around the corner.
You stood there for a moment, gripping the straps of your lighter sling, trying to decode the entire interaction. He had violated your space, challenged your boundaries, offered aid, insulted your effort, and then left you with a warning that felt suspiciously close to advice.
The blizzard had trapped you, but the wood chopping had changed the rules. You were still enemies, but now you were enemies who had survived a storm together, and Logan had seen you cry and had carried your burden. The thought was infinitely more terrifying than the prospect of having to sleep on Hank’s cot again.
You tightened the straps and followed the sound of his heavy footsteps and the rhythmic thud-clunk of logs being stacked near the grand fireplace. You knew, with a sinking certainty, that this was just the beginning.
After the wood was stacked by the massive stone hearth in the main lounge, you had kept your distance. You moved with cold efficiency, refusing Charles’s gentle offer of hot cocoa and ignoring the subtle, observing presence of Erik. You didn't even look in Logan's direction, but you could feel his low, rough energy settling into the room, like a predatory creature nesting near its kill.
It seemed Logan was keeping his distance, too. He didn’t follow you. He didn’t issue another rough order or throw a final, irritating taunt. The unspoken truce, however fragile, held.
You retreated to your room, peeling off the wet jacket and mud-caked boots near the door. The room felt warm and blessedly silent, a stark contrast to the relentless storm outside.
You pulled your phone out and sat on the edge of the mattress, the soft fabric of your pants a welcome change after the stiff, frozen gear. You scrolled through your contacts, your thumb hovering over your mother’s name again.
She would know what to do. Not logically, of course; she didn’t know Logan Howlett or the complexities of mutant psychopathy. But she knew you. She would know how to navigate the confusing, suffocating mix of antagonism, anger, and abrupt, unsolicited aid that was going on between you and him. She was the one person who could listen to the whole bizarre scenario—the moaning, the cigar, the shared log-hauling—and simplify it, telling you exactly how to feel about the whole damn mess.
But the thought of articulating it—Mom, this infuriating, centuries-old mutant who hates me just carried half my firewood load because he saw I was crying about a canceled flight, and now I don't know if I hate him or just want him to disappear—made you cringe. You were a grown man in your mid-twenties, a member of the elite X-Men, trusted with saving the world. Logan was older than you cared to admit, a living legend wrapped in flannel and cigar smoke. You couldn’t bring yourself to ask something so profoundly childish.
With a heavy sigh that mirrored the slow settling of the mansion around you, you tossed your phone onto the duvet. It bounced softly, landing screen-up, ignored.
You pushed yourself off the bed and stood in the middle of the room. The silence was almost meditative. You stripped yourself naked, letting your dirty clothes fall to the wooden floor, making no immediate effort to pick them up.
For a long moment, you just stood there, eyes closed, your muscles still trembling faintly from the exertion of the firewood. You let the pervasive, dry warmth of the heating system envelop your bare skin. It was a cleansing moment, a chance to shed the persona you had been forced to maintain—the angry, defensive rival—and just exist as soft, exhausted human tissue.
You felt the lingering aches of the morning: the strain in your neck from the logging sling, the cold bite in your lungs, and the dull, emotional throb behind your eyes. Your enhanced senses were still humming, but here, in the silence, they were reporting only the benign: the scent of cedar from the firewood clinging to your skin, the faint, clean smell of the electric heating coils, and the distant, muffled whump of snow hitting the roof.
You opened your eyes, taking a deep breath. The storm was outside. The conflict was outside. For this moment, you were simply warm, exhausted, and alone. It was a temporary, fragile peace you knew would shatter the moment you left the room, but you held onto it, needing to recharge before facing the long, confined days ahead.
The moment of stillness passed. You moved toward your dresser, the silence of the room punctuated by the soft thud of drawers opening and closing. You chose clothes that felt like armor against the biting cold and the internal tension.
First, a fresh pair of cotton boxers. Then, warm fleece joggers—soft, comfortable, and a clear signal you weren’t planning on leaving the mansion again today. You pulled on a t-shirt, noticing as the fabric settled that it was a tad snug across your chest and shoulders, a consequence of years of training that had traded youthful slenderness for hard-earned muscle and density.
Finally, you pulled on a heavy, grey cotton pullover. The fabric was familiar, worn smooth from countless washes. In the corner, near where your heart beat steadily, was a small, embroidered patch of your dad’s favorite hockey team logo. You weren’t even sure why you had it; it definitely hadn’t been a conscious choice. You figured your parents, or maybe your mom, had snuck it into your luggage years ago when you had packed up to become an X-Man, a silent, loving reminder of home. Putting it on felt like pulling on a layer of familial protection.
You didn’t bother with socks or shoes, opting instead for the quiet padding of bare feet on the hall rugs. You grabbed your thick-framed reading glasses off the nightstand, settling them onto the bridge of your nose—a small, intellectual signal Logan often seized upon to call you "Pretty Boy," yet a necessary piece of equipment.
Then, you picked up the novel you’d been meaning to finish. It was a dense, leather-bound classic, a gift from Emma Frost. Her inscription inside the front cover, penned in an elegant, spiky script, was pure Emma: To a man who is cute, educated, and deserves to be better read than the animals you tolerate. Despite the playful dig at your teammates, whatever romantic connection had once sparked between you and the White Queen had long since dissipated into a mutual, appreciative friendship. The book, like the pullover, was another marker of your own identity, something Logan would inevitably mock but couldn't touch.
You took your phone from where you’d left it on the bed, sliding it into the pocket of your joggers. You navigated out of the contacts screen—no more attempts to call home—and locked the screen. The attempt at external comfort was over.
It was time to face the inevitable.
Tension coiled in your stomach, but you tamped it down. You were rested, clean, and warm. You opened your door and stepped out into the quiet hallway, walking with a deliberate, even pace toward the faint, alluring scent of burning wood and old leather—the main lounge.
You didn't know what you would find there, but you hoped Charles and Erik were present. You needed the buffer. You needed witnesses. You knew, however, that with the weather trapping all of you, the atmosphere of the mansion would remain tightly wound until the storm broke.
As you neared the lounge, the sound of the crackling fireplace grew louder, and you could feel the pull of the warm, inviting light on the edges of the room. You just had to make it to a comfortable chair before Logan could stake his claim.
You walked into the main lounge, the sight immediately providing the buffer you desperately needed. The room was glorious—warm, softly lit by the massive, roaring fireplace, and heavy with the scent of burning cedar and aged leather. The logs you and Logan had hauled were stacked neatly beside the stone hearth, crackling merrily.
Seated across from one another at a low mahogany table near the fire were Charles and Erik. They were engrossed in a game of chess, the ivory and black pieces arranged like silent armies between them.
Charles was draped in a familiar tartan blanket, his brow furrowed in concentration. Erik, conversely, looked immaculate in a dark, impeccably tailored sweater. You could tell immediately, from the subtle, rosy blush creeping up Charles’s cheeks and the faint, predatory smirk twitching at the corner of Erik’s mouth, that the Master of Magnetism was employing his favorite distraction tactic: undoubtedly thinking of something deeply sexual the two could be doing instead of engaging in strategic warfare.
You were used to it. You were used to them being this way with one another—the constant, complex dance of minds and affection. Their open, unashamed intimacy was a major reason why you had become so comfortable and open about your own sexuality over the years. That, and the fact that Emma had cheerfully and unapologetically flirted you out of any remaining self-doubt, all but solidifying your bisexuality and daring anyone to have a problem with it.
Charles was the first to notice your presence, his attention momentarily pulled from Erik's mental maneuvers. His hand, which had been resting on his temple in thoughtful concentration, dropped to his lap under the blanket. He gave you a warm, genuine smile, his eyes carrying the lingering sympathy from the morning. He watched as you stopped silently just beside the table, your bare feet making no sound on the thick rug.
You didn't need to speak. You simply reached out a hand, your attention immediately drawn to the board, your intellect taking over. You ignored the white queen that Charles had been planning to move and reached instead for a black knight. With a smooth, decisive motion, you moved the knight three spaces forward and two to the side.
"Checkmate," you hummed softly, folding your arms across the hockey logo on your chest.
Erik’s head snapped up from the board, his concentration shattered. He looked from the board to Charles, then finally up at you, his usually sharp, calculating eyes momentarily wide with annoyed defeat. He had been so focused on distracting Charles that he hadn't noticed the tactical blunder two moves prior—a blunder you had instantly spotted.
"Damn it," Erik sighed, a genuine note of irritation in his voice. He glanced back at the board, then fixed you with a wry, grudging look. "Well played. I suppose having four eyes on the board is technically cheating, but I'll allow it this time." He paused, a small, knowing smile breaking through. "Touché, dear boy."
Charles laughed—a deep, relieved sound—and reached out to squeeze your arm, his hand resting near the familiar logo on your pullover. "Thank you. I think Erik was trying to burn the clock out on me."
Erik simply chuckled, his eyes returning to Charles, the promise of distraction now renewed. "I was merely trying to illustrate the superiority of creative thought over rigid structure, Charles."
You felt a familiar warmth in the easy camaraderie. You weren't a child, but here, in the glow of the fire, you were simply the favored younger man, appreciated for your intellect and comfortable in their established world.
You pulled up an empty armchair near the hearth, settling in, grabbing the novel Emma had gifted you. You opened it, grateful for the sense of sanctuary, and the silent, unspoken knowledge that Charles and Erik would serve as an effective, immediate buffer against anyone else who might walk into the room—namely, the one person who carried logs for you one minute and mocked your existence the next.
You hadn’t realized how much time had passed. The heavy stillness of the blizzard outside seemed to stretch the afternoon into a timeless vacuum. Hours had evaporated in the warmth of the lounge.
Charles and Erik had long since departed, wishing you a quiet afternoon and retreating to their private wing, which was situated far enough away that even with your enhanced hearing, you couldn't pick up on anything but the softest, most benign domestic sounds. The buffer was gone.
You flipped a page in Emma’s gifted novel, but the words started to jumble together halfway down the paragraph. The combination of early morning exhaustion, the physical exertion of the wood haul, and the deep, silent warmth of the room was finally catching up to you.
You let out a quiet sigh, the sound barely audible over the diminishing crackle of the hearth. You carefully slipped your bookmark—a stiff, leather strip—into the page and closed the heavy book, setting it on your lap. You pulled off your thick-framed reading glasses, rubbing the bridge of your nose and your tired eyes before staring into the dwindling fire in front of you.
The flames were low, licking weakly at the last few large logs. The room, which had been so gloriously warm, was beginning to cool noticeably.
You finally stood up, moving with a practiced, fluid economy of motion. You walked over to the neat pile of wood you and Logan had hauled in, selecting a few of the dry, smaller pieces to help revive the blaze. You were so completely focused on the task—the clean, comforting sound of the kindling catching, the growing roar of the fresh fire—that you didn’t hear those familiar, heavy footsteps approach. Your senses, dulled by exhaustion and the temporary peace, had betrayed you.
You only realized you weren't alone when a large, shadowed figure stopped right beside the armchair you had just vacated.
You turned your head just as Logan reached down and casually picked up the novel that had been resting on your lap, dusting the fine lint off the leather cover with his thumb.
He flipped the book open to the frontispiece, where Emma’s elegant inscription was visible. He read the words silently, a small sneer forming as he registered the 'cute and educated' sentiment.
"You and Frost, huh?" he scoffed, his voice low and dismissive. He didn't look at you; his gaze was fixed on the page, the book held loosely in his large, calloused hand. "Hard to believe she’d date someone like you. Seems too... clean."
He finally looked up, his eyes locking onto yours over the top of the novel. The look was pure, antagonistic skepticism, dismissing your entire persona—the warm joggers, the thick glasses, the intellectual pursuits—as a facade.
You snatched the book back, tucking it firmly under your arm. "It's none of your business, Howlett," you snapped, the anger immediate and unwelcome. "And we are friends, not dating anymore. But why don't you stick to the logs, since that's what Charles pays you for?"
Logan didn't react to the jab about his job. He simply leaned down, his eyes scanning the space around the armchair, and a familiar, sly smirk spread across his face.
"So, the genius is finally giving up the fight?" he murmured, leaning closer so his breath, smelling faintly of coffee and old smoke, was warm on your ear. "Looks like the pretty boy ran out of steam before he even hit page two hundred."
He didn’t wait for your retort. He just straightened up, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction at having successfully broken your quiet sanctuary, and sauntered over to the fireplace, claiming the warm spot you had just created.
The sheer, unapologetic arrogance of his actions—stealing your peace, mocking your intellect, and then physically claiming your warm spot—snapped the last frayed thread of your self-control.
You walked over to the fireplace, ignoring the rising heat from the freshly stoked flames, and stood directly in front of him. Logan was lounging against the stone mantelpiece, basking in the firelight, still sporting that infuriatingly lazy smirk.
"What do you want, Logan?" you demanded, the words raw and strained, a hairsbreadth away from a shout.
He slowly moved his gaze from the hypnotic flames to your face, his eyes heavy-lidded and mocking. "What do I want?" he drawled, pushing off the mantel just enough to look even more relaxed. "I want you to stop acting like a melodramatic schoolgirl who can't handle a little snow day, Pretty Boy. Go pout in your room."
The sarcasm, coupled with the condescending tone and the final, dismissive wave of his hand, was simply too much. It negated the forced intimacy of the shared labor, the brief moment of genuine concern, and the absolute hell of the canceled flight. It was all a game to him.
You didn't think. You didn't plan. You just moved.
With a low, wordless growl that felt instinctual—a sound ripped straight from your core—you lunged. You slammed your hands into his chest and shoved him backward with all the speed and force your enhanced body possessed.
Logan didn't have time to register the attack, much less brace himself. He hit the stone fireplace with a jarring CRUNCH, the impact shaking the mantelpiece and sending a spray of embers up the chimney flue.
You didn’t let go. You grabbed the lapels of his flannel shirt—the same damn shirt he always wore—and hauled him forward until you were right up in his face, your chest heaving, your breath hot and frantic against his skin. The heat from the roaring fire was intense on your back.
"You think this is funny?!" you yelled, the volume startlingly loud in the quiet lounge. "You think any of this is funny?!"
You were shaking with unleashed fury, the words tumbling out, fueled by two days of accumulated rage and the exhaustion that made you incapable of filtering your vitriol.
"I hate your guts, Logan! I hate the way you smell, like a wet dog and cheap whiskey! I hate how you act like you're above everyone else, always sneering, always judging!"
Your grip tightened on his shirt, the fabric bunching painfully in your fists. Logan remained pinned against the stone, his eyes wide with surprise, the smirk completely gone, replaced by a mixture of shock and a dangerous, quickening spark of his own inner beast.
"I hate how you treat this place like your own damn personal brothel, shouting and moaning all night long!" You jabbed a finger hard into his collarbone. "I hate that you knew I was trapped, that you knew I was upset, and you still blew that goddamn smoke in my face because you just had to push it!"
You leaned in closer, your voice dropping slightly, the intensity making it more terrifying. "And you know what I hate most? I hate that you do it on purpose! You enjoy it! You enjoy watching me lose control, watching me get feral, just so you can laugh about the 'Pretty Boy' snapping!"
You could feel the hard, unyielding muscle of his body pressed against the stone. You could smell the sudden increase of his own musk, a warning sign that his healing factor was kicking in, preparing him for a fight.
"Just leave me alone, Howlett!" you finished, your voice cracking with the sheer, desperate plea buried beneath the rage. "You ruined my sleep, you ruined my holiday, and if you don't stay out of my way until I can leave, I swear to God, I'm going to rip you apart and leave you for the cleaning crew!"
You released his shirt with a final, furious shove, stumbling back a step and breathing heavily, waiting for him to retaliate, to unsheathe his claws, to tear you to pieces. You didn't care. At least the screaming had stopped inside your head.
The lounge was silent again, save for the violent hiss and pop of the fire behind Logan. Your own ragged breathing filled the void you had created, the intense, high-octane anger leaving you dizzy and trembling.
You expected the claws. You expected the roar. You expected the immediate, painful retaliation that Logan always delivered when physically challenged.
But Logan didn't move.
He remained pinned against the cold stone, his back arched slightly from the force of the impact. His features, which had briefly contorted into a mask of pure shock, slowly smoothed out. The dangerous, metallic scent of his healing factor was present, the low, feral tension still humming off him, but he held it back. The claws stayed sheathed.
He simply stared at you, his eyes—usually sharp with cynical amusement—now incredibly clear, dark, and utterly focused. He wasn't looking at your hands or your stance; he was looking straight into your wide, exhausted eyes.
A slow, deliberate breath escaped his lips, pulling the cold air into his lungs. He was taking in every word you had screamed, every raw, exposed nerve ending. He recognized the breaking point, the genuine, unadulterated pain beneath the threats of violence.
"Done?" he asked, his voice low, guttural, and so quiet it forced you to strain to hear it over the fire. It wasn't a question demanding confirmation of his safety; it was a simple, flat inquiry about the duration of your rage.
You couldn't speak. You just stood there, shaking your head once, unable to pull your gaze away from his intense focus.
Logan eased himself away from the fireplace, straightening his flannel. He rubbed the back of his head where it had hit the stone, the motion casual, as if you had merely bumped into him in a crowded hallway.
He took a step toward you, then another, closing the gap you had desperately tried to create. You stood your ground, too spent to move.
He stopped directly in front of you. He didn't raise a hand, didn't taunt you, and didn't even acknowledge the laundry list of insults you had just hurled at him.
Instead, his eyes dropped briefly to the hockey logo on your chest—the familial shield you had unconsciously put on that morning. Then, his gaze lifted back to your face.
"You think I don't know why you hate the noise?" he murmured, the words rough and astonishingly soft. "You think I don't know you can hear every goddamn thing in this house, Pretty Boy? Yeah. I know."
He reached out a hand, slow and deliberate, and gently touched the knot of muscle in your jaw, right where it was trembling. It wasn't a hostile touch; it was almost diagnostic.
"You're wired tight," he continued, ignoring your sudden, startled flinch at the contact. "Always have been. You walk around here like you're waiting for the next hit. I push you because you keep so much locked down, it's gonna kill you if you don't let it out."
He dropped his hand, the warmth of his fingers abruptly replaced by the cold air. The genuine concern was back, stripped bare of sarcasm, but cloaked in his typical rough delivery.
"And yeah," he added, a flicker of something unreadable—maybe shame, maybe just flat honesty—entering his eyes. "I know I shouldn't have brought that damn cigar in here. That was a bad play."
It was the closest thing to an apology he would ever give—an admission of a tactical error and a genuine acknowledgment of your sensory disadvantage.
He turned toward the fireplace, grabbed the log you had been intending to put on the fire, and tossed it into the flames with a muted thump. The fire roared higher, throwing golden light across the lounge.
"You're stuck here," Logan said, keeping his back to you. "I'm stuck here. You wanna read that fancy book? Fine. You wanna stay quiet? Fine. But we got two more days of this blizzard. You try ripping me apart again, you better make sure you finish the job, because I won't be helping you with the clean up."
He didn't wait for your response. He simply walked toward the nearby bar area, pausing to give you one final, deep look.
"Go take a breath," he advised, his voice still low. "And figure out if you're mad because I was here, or because you can't go home.”
You stood motionless in the middle of the lounge, the intense heat of the fire doing nothing to settle the chaos thrumming beneath your skin. Logan’s touch—that brief, almost clinical pressure on your jaw—had left a phantom spark, generating emotions you never wanted to admit, much less analyze.
Your heart was still hammering against your ribs, a frantic, heavy drumbeat. Yet, through the sudden clarity of your enhanced hearing, you could distinctly pick up the equally rapid, rigid thump-thump-thump of Logan’s heart in his own chest, even as he leaned against the bar. He was just as wired, just as affected by the explosion as you were.
"Why," you murmured, the word barely a breath, directed more at the universe than at him. "Why are you like this, Logan?"
You turned fully, looking at his broad back, at the rigid set of his shoulders.
”Because I want you”, Logan thought, the realization a raw, desperate punch to his gut. “I'm in love with you, dammit. And I can't touch you without ruining you. I don't know how to do anything but hurt what I care about.”
Logan felt the invasive presence of your senses, the expectation for an answer. But everything he was thinking—the raw confession of attraction, the fear of his own toxicity—was buried too deep.
He simply shrugged, a tight, dismissive motion that failed to convey any casualness, before turning back to the bar, his attention fixed on some imaginary task on the polished wood.
You watched his retreat, the shrug serving as his final, infuriating refusal of intimacy or explanation. You nodded slowly to yourself, accepting the silence for what it was—a wall he would never climb over.
You walked back to the armchair, grabbed your book, and left the lounge. You didn’t go to your room; the silence there felt too suffocating. You didn't head to Hank’s room, or towards the distant wing where Charles and Erik were. You simply started roaming, walking the endless, carpeted hallways of the institute, a restless, pacing patrol, trying to understand whatever was going on.
You mumbled to yourself, the words low and bitter, audible only to your own hyper-aware ears. "Figure out why I'm mad? What the hell does that even mean?" The question echoed Logan's final advice, forcing you into a painful self-interrogation.
"I'm mad because he doesn't know when to stop," you repeated, walking past the closed library doors. "Doesn't know when to simply leave me alone. Doesn't know how to respect a boundary."
You passed a window, the glass rattling faintly under the assault of the blizzard. You were mad because the cancellation felt like a personal betrayal, leaving you stranded in the presence of your most infuriating antagonist.
But then your mind drifted to the confrontation, the heat of the fire, the pressure of his body against the stone. Your face flushed in the quiet hallway.
You whispered the question that was truly tormenting you, the shame of the admission burning in your throat. "But... was I also mad because sometimes... I wished it was my name I heard him moaning?"
The admission hung in the cold air of the hallway, a terrifying truth you had only allowed yourself to whisper in the heat of rage. The thought was immediate and intrusive: the primal, untamed power you sometimes saw in him, the sheer, intoxicating danger. You hated him, but your body—your instincts—sometimes reacted to him with a complicated, feral longing you couldn't rationalize.
You stopped walking, leaning your forehead against the cool, painted plaster of the wall, breathing hard. The line between absolute hatred and agonizing, reluctant desire was blurred and dangerous, and you had just realized you were stranded right on top of it for the duration of the blizzard.
The blue glow of the television screen flickered against the walls of your room, the cheesy dialogue of a 90s rom-com serving as a poor shield against the silence of the mansion. You were tucked under the duvet, your phone buzzing intermittently with texts from your sister. “Stay safe,” she wrote. “We’re saving a plate of leftovers for you. Love you.”
The messages loaded slowly, the spinning icon a testament to the storm’s interference with the cell towers, but even the connection to home couldn't ground you. Because no matter how loud you turned up the volume on the TV, or how much you focused on the glow of the screen, you could still hear it.
Thump-thump. Thump-thump.
It was faint, buried under layers of stone and wood, but your senses wouldn't let it go. Logan’s heart. It was steady now, a heavy, rhythmic pulse that seemed to vibrate in the very soles of your feet. It was obnoxious. It was confusing. It felt like he was still in the room with you, his presence a permanent stain on your sanctuary.
"I can't do this," you groaned, the sound muffled by your pillow. You hated the way your chest felt tight—not with the sharp edges of anger, but with something warmer and far more dangerous. You needed out.
You kicked the warm sheets aside, the sudden chill of the room a welcome shock. You didn't think; you just moved. You pulled on thick wool socks, shoved your feet back into your heavy boots, and zipped your insulated jacket up to your chin.
The hallway was a ghost town as you navigated toward the front of the mansion. The main lounge was dark now, the fire reduced to a bed of glowing red embers, but the scent of cedar still hung in the air. You pushed through the massive front doors, the hinges groaning against the buildup of ice.
The blizzard hadn't stopped, but it had shifted. The violent, horizontal sheets of snow had settled into a steady, heavy fall of fat flakes. The wind had died down to a mournful whistle, leaving the world wrapped in a suffocating, beautiful white shroud.
You headed straight for the center of the driveway, toward the grand stone fountain. It was a jagged sculpture of ice now, the water frozen mid-cascade into long, translucent claws that caught the faint light from the mansion’s windows.
You cleared a spot on the stone rim with your gloved hand and sat down. The cold was immediate and unforgiving. It bit through your joggers, seeped into your bones, and began to numb the frantic racing of your pulse. This was what you needed. The physical sting of the arctic air acted like a sedative for your brain, freezing the messy thoughts of Logan and Emma and Canada into a solid, manageable block.
You sat there for what felt like hours, your breath blooming in thick, silver clouds. The silence of the grounds was absolute, broken only by the occasional snap of a frozen branch in the distance.
Then, motion caught your eye.
Near the edge of the tree line, a flash of rusted orange moved against the white. A fox, its fur fluffed out against the cold, was darting through the drifts. It was focused, its ears pinned forward as it trailed a rabbit. The rabbit was a blur of white-on-white, desperate and fast, weaving between the trunks of the ancient oaks.
You watched the primal dance with a strange sense of envy. Their struggle was simple. Survival. Predator and prey. There was no confusion there, no suppressed longing or complicated history. There was just the chase and the cold.
Your body began to lose its feeling. Your toes were blocks of ice, and your nose felt like it might break if you touched it, but your mind was finally, blessedly quiet. The "Pretty Boy" who read books and cried over canceled flights was gone, replaced by something as still and cold as the frozen fountain beneath you.
But even out here, in the dead of a winter night, you found yourself wondering if Logan was at a window somewhere, watching the snow—and watching you.
The numbness was a mercy. It started in your fingertips and crawled up your arms, a slow, icy paralysis that finally muffled the thundering confusion in your chest. Out here, under the obsidian sky, the world didn't care about your bisexuality, your family in Canada, or the way your skin burned where Logan had touched you. The world just was.
You watched the fox disappear into the brush, the hunt moving out of sight, leaving you alone with the fountain. You felt like one of the stone carvings—still, cold, and drifting toward a deep, winter sleep.
"You're gonna catch your death out here, kid. Even with your genes, there’s a limit."
The voice didn't startle you. You had smelled him long before he spoke—the scent of leather and that sharp, metallic edge of his scent that always cut through the frost. You didn't turn around. You couldn't. Your neck felt like it was made of frozen iron.
Logan stepped into your peripheral vision, his heavy boots crunching softly in the fresh powder. He wasn't wearing his jacket. He was just in that same flannel shirt, sleeves rolled up to his elbows as if the sub-zero temperatures were nothing more than a brisk autumn breeze. The steam rising off his skin made him look like a ghost standing in the moonlight.
"Go away, Logan," you croaked. Your voice sounded like dry leaves scraping against pavement.
"Can't do that," he grunted. He stepped closer, leaning his hip against the edge of the fountain just a few feet away. He looked out at the woods where the fox had gone, his eyes tracking movement you were too tired to see. "Charle’s worried. Says your mind is screaming so loud it’s giving him a migraine."
"Liar," you whispered, finally turning your head to look at him. "Charles is asleep. You're the one who followed me."
Logan didn't deny it. He reached into his pocket, and for a second, you thought he was going to pull out a cigar just to spite you. Instead, he pulled out a small, silver flask. He unscrewed the cap and held it out to you.
"Drink. It’ll kickstart your blood before your heart decides to quit."
You hesitated, looking at the flask, then up at his face. The moonlight caught the rugged lines of his jaw—the same jaw you had shoved into the stone earlier. There was no anger there now. Just a quiet, heavy stillness that matched the night.
You took the flask, your frozen fingers fumbling with the metal. The first swallow of whatever rotgut whiskey he kept on him hit the back of your throat like liquid fire. You coughed, the heat radiating down your esophagus and blooming in your stomach. It was a violent, jarring sensation, forcing life back into your senses.
"Better?" he asked, taking the flask back and taking a swig himself.
"No," you admitted, your teeth starting to chatter as the warmth forced your body to realize just how cold it actually was. "Everything hurts again."
"Yeah, well, pain means you're still in the game," Logan said. He looked at you then, really looked at you, and the sarcasm was completely stripped away. "What are you doing out here? Really?"
You looked down at your boots, now half-buried in the snow. "Trying to find a place where I don't have to hear you."
Logan winced, a tiny, almost imperceptible twitch of his eye. "The heartbeat?"
"The heartbeat," you confirmed. "The breathing. The way you smell. I just... I wanted a minute of silence."
Logan let out a long, slow breath that turned into a cloud of mist between you. He looked like he wanted to reach out, to touch you again, but he kept his hands shoved into his pockets.
"I can't stop being what I am, bub," he said, his voice dropping to that low, gravelly register that made your stomach flip. "And I can't stop being where you are. Not for two more days."
He stood up straight, the height of him blocking the wind. "Come on. Back inside. Before I have to carry you, and we both know how much you’d hate that."
He turned to head back to the mansion, but he paused, looking back over his shoulder.
"The fox got the rabbit, by the way," he said quietly. "In case you were rooting for the underdog. Nature don't care about pretty. It just cares about who wants it more.”
The cold was beginning to feel like a heavy blanket, making your movements sluggish and your thoughts drift like the snow. You looked at Logan, his silhouette sharp against the white expanse, and the whiskey he’d given you burned a hole through the numbness.
"Is that what we are?" you asked. Your voice was small, catching on the frozen air.
Logan stopped in his tracks, his heavy boots sinking deep into the drift. He turned back, his brow furrowing as he looked at you. The moonlight made the shadows under his eyes look like bruises. "What are you talking about, kid?"
You gestured weakly toward the tree line, toward the dark patch of brush where the fox had finally cornered its prize. The violence of it was hidden by the distance and the dark, but the reality was there. "The fox. The rabbit," you murmured, your cheeks and nose a bright, stinging red against the pale skin of your face. "Is that what this is? You just... chasing me until there’s nothing left to catch?"
Logan didn't answer immediately. He walked back toward the fountain, his presence looming over you, blocking out the faint light from the mansion windows. He looked down at you, really seeing the state you were in—the shivering, the glazed look in your eyes, the way you were huddled into yourself like a wounded thing.
"You think I'm hunting you?" he asked. The growl was back in his voice, but it wasn't aimed at you; it sounded like he was angry at the very idea.
"You're always there," you whispered, your teeth chattering so hard it was difficult to form the words. "Every corner I turn. Every time I try to breathe. You're poking, prodding... waiting for me to snap. It feels like a chase, Logan. And I’m tired. I’m so tired of running."
Logan dropped into a crouch in front of you, his knees cracking in the quiet night. He was so close now that you could feel the heat radiating off his body, a furnace-like warmth that made your frozen skin ache. He reached out, and this time he didn't hesitate. He grabbed your gloved hands in his bare ones, squeezing them tight. His skin was scorching.
"Look at me," he commanded.
You forced your eyes up to his.
"I ain't the fox," he grunted, his gaze boring into yours with an intensity that felt more intimate than a touch. "And you sure as hell ain't some helpless rabbit. You’ve got claws of your own, even if you’re too 'polite' to use 'em most of the time."
He leaned in closer, the scent of him—leather, woodsmoke, and that heavy, intoxicating musk—filling your senses. "If I was hunting you, bub, this would’ve been over a long time ago. You think I’d spend my time hauling wood and bringing you whiskey if I just wanted to tear you apart?"
"Then what is it?" you pushed, your voice cracking. "If it's not a hunt, why can't you leave me alone? Why do you make it so hard to be in the same room as you?"
Logan’s jaw set, the muscles jumping under his stubble. For a second, you saw it again—that flash of something raw and terrified in the eyes of a man who was supposed to be fearless.
"Maybe I'm just making sure you're still there," he muttered, his voice dropping so low it was almost lost to the wind. "Maybe I'm just waiting to see if you'll ever stop running and actually look at what's standing right in front of you."
He stood up abruptly, pulling you with him. Your legs felt like jelly, and you stumbled, falling forward into his chest. He caught you, his arms wrapping around you with a strength that was both a cage and a sanctuary. For a heartbeat, you let yourself lean into him, your cold face pressed against the warm flannel of his neck. You could hear it then, louder than anything else in the world: his heart, slamming against his ribs like a trapped animal.
"Come on," he said, his voice rougher than usual. "Inside. Now. Before you turn into a goddamn ice sculpture."
He didn't let go of your arm as he led you back toward the mansion, his body acting as a shield against the wind, leaving you to wonder if the chase was over—or if he had finally caught you.
The walk back to the mansion was a blur of crunching snow and the crushing heat of Logan’s hand on your arm. He didn't just lead you; he steered you, his body a literal wall against the wind. By the time he shouldered the heavy service door open and pulled you into the mudroom, the sudden change in temperature felt like a physical blow.
The air in the mudroom was thick with the smell of damp wool and floor wax. You stood there, swaying slightly, as the feeling began to return to your face in a wave of agonizing pins and needles.
Logan kicked the door shut, the latch clicking with a finality that echoed in the small space. He didn't move away. He stayed right in your space, his chest heaving as he watched you shiver.
"Strip," he ordered, his voice like gravel.
You blinked at him, your brain still sluggish from the cold. "What?"
"The jacket. The socks. They're damp from the frost," he grunted, reaching out to yank the zipper of your coat down for you when your frozen fingers failed to move. "You stay in wet clothes, the chill stays in your bones. Move."
You obeyed wordlessly, peeling the heavy layers off and letting them drop onto the bench. You sat down to tug off your boots, your hands trembling so violently you could barely grip the leather. Logan watched you for a second, a low growl of impatience vibrating in his throat, before he dropped to one knee between your legs.
He didn't ask. He just grabbed your heel and yanked the boot off, then the other, tossing them aside. His bare hands—still unnaturally hot—wrapped around your feet through the thick wool socks.
"You're a goddamn idiot," he muttered, but he was rubbing your feet, the friction sending jolts of warmth through your legs.
"I just needed it to be quiet," you whispered, looking down at the top of his head. From this angle, you could see the grey hairs peppered through the dark brown, the way his hair was matted from the snow. "You make so much noise, Logan. Even when you're silent, you're loud."
Logan stopped rubbing. He kept his hands cupped around your feet, his head bowed. The mudroom was silent, save for the hum of the heater and the sound of your own jagged breathing.
"I know," he said, so quiet you almost missed it. He looked up then, his face inches from your knees. "I've been alive a long time, kid. You learn to take up space just so people don't try to take it from you. But I didn't mean to crowd you out of your own head."
He stood up, the movement fluid and imposing. He reached down, grabbing your elbows and hoisting you to your feet. You were still shaky, your balance compromised by the lingering chill and the sheer intensity of him standing so close.
"Is that why you do it?" you asked, your voice gaining a bit of strength. "The poking? The prodding? Just to see if I’m still there?"
Logan’s gaze dropped to your mouth, then back to your eyes. The air between you was suddenly electric, the "fox and rabbit" metaphor feeling uncomfortably real again. But he wasn't lunging. He was waiting.
"I do it because you're the only thing in this whole circus of a school that feels real to me," he admitted, the honesty of it raw and jagged. "Everyone else... they're either icons or projects. But you? You're just you. And you hate me so much it's the most honest thing I’ve got."
You felt a laugh bubble up in your throat—a dry, hysterical thing. "I don't hate you, Logan. I tried to. I really tried. But it's hard to hate someone when you're too busy wondering what they taste like."
The silence that followed was deafening. Logan’s eyes widened, his pupils blowing out until his eyes were almost entirely black. The heart you had been hearing through the walls—the one that had driven you out into the snow—was now a frantic, wild thing beating right in front of you.
"Careful, bub," he warned, his voice a dangerous, low rumble. "You say something like that to a man like me, you better mean it. Because I don't know how to play nice."
"Who says I want you to be nice?" you challenged, taking that final, terrifying step into his space until your chest was brushed against his.
Logan didn't hesitate. He slammed his hand against the wall behind your head, his other hand tangling in the hair at the nape of your neck, tilting your head back. He looked like he wanted to break you, and for the first time in two days, you weren't running.
The air in the mudroom, once sharp with the scent of wet wool, was now thick and suffocatingly hot. Logan’s hand was a heavy, searing weight against the back of your neck, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw with a possessive, trembling pressure. You could feel the heat radiating off him in waves, melting the last of the frost that clung to your skin.
"You're freezing," he growled, but he didn't move away. Instead, he leaned in until his forehead was pressed against yours, his breath ghosting over your lips. "And you're talking crazy. Must be the hypothermia."
"It's not the cold," you whispered, your hands finally finding purchase on his forearms. The hair there was coarse, the muscle underneath like corded steel. "It’s been months, Logan. Months of you breathing down my neck and me trying to pretend I don’t feel it. I'm tired of pretending."
Logan let out a sound that was half-sigh, half-snarl. "I'm a century older than you, kid. I’m a monster on a good day and a disaster on a bad one. You’re supposed to be the smart one. You’re supposed to know better."
"I do know better," you countered, your fingers digging into his skin. "That’s the problem."
He didn't wait for another word. He closed the distance with a brutal, desperate hunger that shattered the last of the "Pretty Boy" facade you’d been clinging to. The kiss wasn't soft; it was a collision. It tasted like the whiskey he’d given you—sharp, burning, and dangerous.
Logan groaned into your mouth, a low, primal sound that vibrated deep in your chest. He backed you up against the row of lockers, the metal clanging behind you, but you didn't care about the noise. You didn't care if Charles heard. You didn't care if the whole world heard.
Your hands moved from his arms to his hair, pulling him closer, needing to anchor yourself to the only thing that felt solid in the storm. Logan’s hands were everywhere—gripping your waist, sliding up under the hem of your dad’s hockey pullover, his palms rough against your bare skin.
He pulled back just an inch, his eyes dark and wild, his chest heaving. "This ends here," he rasped, his voice a warning. "You walk out that door, we go back to the way it was. I keep poking, you keep running. You stay... and there's no going back. I don't let go of what's mine."
You looked at him—at the man who had carried your logs, who had watched you cry, who had stood in the snow with no jacket just to make sure you didn't freeze. You saw the fox, but you weren't the rabbit anymore.
"I'm not running," you said, your voice steady for the first time all day.
Logan didn't say another word. He hooked his arm under your knees and hoisted you up, your legs wrapping instinctively around his waist. He carried you out of the mudroom, moving through the darkened hallways of the mansion with a silent, predatory grace.
When you reached his room, the door clicked shut behind you, and the rest of the world—the blizzard, the X-Men, the canceled flights—faded into nothing. There was only the sound of his heart, no longer a distant annoyance, but a rhythm you were finally, perfectly in sync with.
The air in Logan’s room was heavy with the scent of old wood, expensive bourbon, and the lingering musk of the man himself. It was a space that felt lived-in and rugged, much like him. He kicked the door shut with his heel, the latch clicking home with a finality that seemed to echo through the entire mansion.
He didn't put you down immediately. Instead, he pinned you against the heavy oak of the door, his weight a solid, grounding presence against your chest. The kiss resumed, deeper and more desperate than before. It wasn’t just a release of tension; it was a confession.
"I've wanted to shut you up like this for three years," Logan growled against your lips, his voice a low vibration that you felt in your very bones. He pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes searching yours. "Every time you’d correct me on some history fact or look at me with those damn glasses perched on your nose... I wanted to see if I could make you lose that composure."
You let out a shaky breath, your hands tangled in the thick hair at the nape of his neck. "You did," you admitted, the honesty raw and terrifying. "Every time you walked into a room, I lost it. I hated how much I noticed you. I hated that I knew exactly where you were in the house just by the sound of your stride. I told myself it was because you were annoying, but I was just... I was obsessed."
Logan’s eyes softened, a rare, vulnerable shadow crossing his features. He lowered you slowly until your feet touched the rug, but he didn't pull away. He kept his forehead pressed to yours, his hands sliding down to rest heavily on your hips.
"I watched you," he whispered, the admission sounding like it was being dragged out of him. "That time Emma was leaning over your shoulder in the library? I nearly took the door off its hinges because I wanted to be the one standing that close. I've spent every night this week listening to you toss and turn through the wall, wishing I had the guts to just knock and tell you to come over here."
"Why didn't you?" you asked, your voice cracking.
"Because I'm a wreck, kid," Logan sighed, his thumb tracing a slow circle over the fabric of your joggers. "I’ve had a lot of lifetimes, and most of 'em ended in blood. I didn't think a guy like you—someone who still has a family that loves him, someone who actually cares about things—should have anything to do with a relic like me."
You reached up, cupping his face in your hands, your thumbs brushing over the coarse stubble of his cheeks. "I'm not a 'guy like that' anymore, Logan. Being here, being an X-Man... it changes you. And I don't want someone 'nice.' I want the man who stayed out in a blizzard without a jacket just to make sure I didn't freeze."
Logan’s heart, that persistent, rhythmic thrum you had tried so hard to ignore, was now a frantic hammer against your own. He leaned in, his lips brushing against your ear.
"I kept the cigar," he confessed, his voice dropping to a gravelly purr. "This morning. I didn't light it because I wanted a smoke. I lit it because I wanted you to look at me. Even if it was with hate in your eyes, I just needed you to see me."
You pulled back, looking at him in disbelief, a small, wet laugh escaping you. "You're an idiot, Howlett."
"Yeah," he grinned, that sharp, dangerous smirk finally reaching his eyes. "But I'm your idiot for the rest of this storm."
He pulled you back into him, the kiss turning from desperate to something more certain, more grounded. The secrets were out, the "fox and rabbit" game was over, and as the wind howled against the glass of his window, you finally realized that the noise you had been running from wasn't a threat—it was home.
Logan didn’t go for the bed. Instead, he pulled you into the center of the room, his hands moving with a frantic, rough necessity, as if he were trying to memorize the shape of you through the fabric of your clothes. Every time your lips met, it felt like another secret was being forcibly traded.
"I hated the way you looked at Scott," Logan muttered against your neck, his teeth grazing your skin in a way that made your knees buckle. "The way you’d listen to him like he actually had something worth saying. I wanted to drag you out of those briefings just to see if you’d look at me with that much focus."
You gasped, your head falling back as his hands slid firmly under the hem of your dad’s hockey pullover. "I only looked at him because I was trying not to look at you," you confessed, your voice high and strained. "I was terrified that if I looked too long, you’d see exactly what I was thinking. I thought I was being subtle. I thought I was being the 'educated man' Emma wanted."
Logan let out a low, dark chuckle, his chest vibrating against yours. "Kid, you’re about as subtle as a gunshot. Every time I walked past you, your heart rate spiked so loud I could hear it from the next hallway. I knew. I just didn't think you’d ever stop being so damn polite about it."
He pulled the pullover over your head, tossing it aside without a second thought. The air hit your skin, but you didn't feel cold—not with Logan’s eyes raking over you, his expression shifting from predatory to something deeply, almost painfully, appreciative.
"You're not a project, Logan," you whispered, reaching out to unbutton his flannel shirt with trembling fingers. "And I'm not some icon. I’m just... I’m exhausted. And I’ve wanted this since the day I moved into this mansion."
Logan’s hands froze on your waist. He looked at you, the moonlight catching the moisture in his eyes. "Since the first day?"
"Since you told me to 'watch my step' in the hallway," you admitted with a weak smile. "I thought you were the most arrogant, beautiful disaster I’d ever seen."
Logan let out a breath he seemed to have been holding for decades. He finished the job with his shirt, letting it fall to the floor, exposing the map of scars and hard, corded muscle that made up his torso. He stepped back into your space, his bare chest pressing against yours, the heat of his healing factor making the room feel like a furnace.
"I didn't think I had a chance with someone like you," he said, his voice dropping to a raw, honest register. "I figured I was just the bad habit you’d eventually grow out of."
"Then stop talking," you whispered, pulling him back down to you. "And show me why I shouldn't."
The kiss that followed was no longer a fight. It was a surrender. The "fox and rabbit" had finally stopped the chase, finding a strange, heated peace in the middle of the storm. As you both fell back onto the heavy furs of his bed, the sound of the blizzard outside became nothing more than white noise, drowned out by the steady, synchronized rhythm of two hearts finally beating for the same reason.
The room was silent now, the violent howling of the blizzard outside muffled by the heavy stone walls of the mansion. Inside, the only sound was the crackle of the dying fire and the synchronized, heavy breathing of two people who had spent years pretending they didn't want to destroy each other.
Logan moved with a slow, deliberate gravity, his hands sliding from your waist to your shoulders. With a gentle but unyielding pressure, he pushed you backward. You hit the mattress, the heavy furs and thick blankets of his bed rising up to meet you, soft and smelling faintly of him.
He didn't follow you down immediately. He hovered over you, braced on his forearms, his dark eyes scanning your face as if he were trying to memorize the way the moonlight hit your skin. The air between you was thick, charged with the kind of electricity that only comes after a storm.
"You're sure about this, bub?" he rasped, his voice a low rumble that vibrated in the small space between your chests. "Once I start, I ain't stopping. I don't know how to do 'casual'."
"I'm sure," you whispered, reaching up to thread your fingers through the thick, unruly hair at his temples. "I'm exactly where I want to be, Logan."
That was all the permission he needed. He lowered himself, his weight a grounding, solid heat against you. His lips, surprisingly soft despite the ruggedness of his face, found the skin of your bare chest. He moved slowly, his stubble grazing your skin with a friction that sent jolts of heat straight to your core.
He trailed kisses over your pectoral muscles, lingering over the spot where your heart was still drumming a frantic rhythm. You arched your back, a low gasp escaping you as he moved upward, his mouth finding the sensitive hollow of your neck. He breathed there for a moment, his scent—leather, salt, and raw power—overwhelming your senses.
"You have no idea," he murmured against your skin, his teeth grazing your pulse point, "how many nights I sat on the other side of that wall just listening to you breathe, wondering what this would feel like."
You couldn't find the words to respond. You could only pull him closer, your hands sliding down the corded muscle of his back, feeling the heat of his healing factor radiating off him like a furnace. Every touch was an answer to a question you’d been too afraid to ask for years.
Logan shifted, his hands tangling in yours, pinning them gently to the pillow as he rose back up to look at you. The smirk was gone, replaced by an expression of such raw, unfiltered hunger and protective intensity that it made your breath catch.
He leaned down, his lips meeting yours again. This kiss wasn't like the one in the mudroom; it wasn't a collision or a fight. It was deep, possessive, and lingering—a promise made in the dark of a winter night.
As the last of the embers in the fireplace flickered out, you let your eyes close, finally sinking into the warmth.