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Self-Diagnosis DID Tests

by x (helped by few others, mainly real life buds)

Decided to post this in case you need some help to self-diagnosis to determine you are DID/OSDD systems. It is not the best, but this is what we personally did to help us out to figure things out. You can try other methods of course. People are experiencing things differently. Once again, this is a personal list and not 100% correct. We are glad if it helps, but if it doesn’t- you can always figure out other ways.

Before we started, this is optional- but it’s more recommended to have at least one real life person you trust(and the alters who joined this thing) to accompany you in some of these. If you can’t find anyone, then you can just find the ones in this list that doesn’t require another person-in-another-body.

This whole thing requires at least two participating alters to co-op to determine. And a media to write down your results (book/phone notes/anything). Book is more recommended though- it’s faster, plus it might help you to recognize different writing pattern between the participating alters.

It’s also HIGHLY RECOMMENDED to still go to professional despite you ended up being sure with the results. You may bring the results to some professional for confirmation at least. This whole thing only able to help you to figure things out, not being the confirmation itself.

These are not that much, but hope it helped.

try to take picture of yourself when you are fronting, tell the alter to do the same when they front after you. try doing co-front selfie and totally -alone- selfie.

try to focus on switching and put it in a video. watch it aftermath.

recite each of you own memories. which are blurry and which are not. try to write those down.

look at your favorite series/character/anything and determine you/alter reaction to it if it differs.

make one of you write down something for the other when they are fronting, try the other to read it later.

try to "guess”(or remember) what they wrote down before opening it to read.

if you have another person helping you with this, try to make them help you writing down your differences in behaving, even if it’s a small one. (and several facial details like eye width difference or so)

your friend show one alter something, anything. Something simple enough to memorize. When they switched, make the other alter to recite what it was.

Determine switch triggers and reaction to certain calling(helped by having friend more).

try all of those with non-fronting alter turning on and off on your co-consciousness and see if there are differences. (i don’t even know how to put it in words because somewhat i always am co-con) difference in clear remembering, blurry, and that-remember-but-on-tip-of-your-tongue - write those all down.

examine your entire handwritings.

when you are not fronting but the other is, try to take notice of their behavior in public- later write it down under their name. let your alter do the same for you too. Including talking pattern and habits. (much easier with friend really)

try talking(head/not) when co-fronting and see if there is any difference.

most of these are mainly to determine whether you really differ with your alter(if you doubted yourself if you are the same person or not) and perhaps some a bit too focused in a few aspects. If the results of differentiation and lapses and emotions happen, you can tell you (and that alter) are two different people.

Sorry it’s not really written in the best way. But I kinda tried. Feel free to add.

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[tdidlog]

too tired to keep this personal log updated but we gained a new member, a new kid.

dunno what to call them rn but we're calling them chibi for now. a literal kid, messy when talking. but for some reason have full memory access. perhaps they have been here for longer than we thought? we don't know tho. but they front a lot for some reason by sudden switches. tho then again we're all pretty drained these days. but chibi has been nice and agreeable anyway when we talk about the fronting, kinda cute. they just want to help and kinda try to defend us in some way too.

chibi is byelingual, barely able to say full sentence without braining too hard. very honest. nice kid overall even tho i worry for our system to work in public now.

[tdidlog]

haven’t updated this blog-log in a while, but we kinda discovered a 3rd entity that might be responsible for the incident years ago with our [friends] too. they looks pretty blurry, like a shadowy figure, their mindset it’s pretty negative. don’t have a name so we just gonna call them “figure a” for now.

they’re very defensive, but i can clearly see they just wished for good things. but this is very difficult,... they’re pretty hard to control when they come out. and the worst part is, neither of us know how to “fight back” those negative thoughts when having conversation with them, because as much as we hate to say it, even i also agreed to some of these thoughts...

[tdidlog]

tried to work things out, but things never really worked out. it kept spinning around and around.

starting to consider to make someone just do life and care about nothing else but get the job done. maybe that’d be better... or not