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How Can You Move On From Him? // Zabdiel De Jesús

hey loves !! so i know that i came out with a chapter almost two weeks ago but i wanted to give y'all something . tomorrow is my birthday and me being me , i wanted to give y'all content so ... I WROTE A NEW CHAPTER FOR Y'ALL !! i hope you guys like it and its a bit shorter than the previous chapter but i hope, it's still good . enjoy and feedback is appreciated :) <3

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Zabdiel's POV:

The emotions that I'm feeling right now I can't explain and there's too many at once to figure out what I truly feel. I feel awful, hurt, sad, mad, depressed, and more, but what I feel the most is that my heart hurts. It feels as though someone has ripped it out and stomped on it until I couldn't handle it anymore. I could blame Y/n for it but, I know it was all my doing and for leaving things how they were, not going back to apologize and talk to Y/n those months ago has changed me, how I feel and has to be one of the biggest regrets and mistakes in my life.

*FLASHBACK TO THAT DAY IN APRIL*

"You know what Y/n? I'm tired of this shit. You were struggling? What about me? WHAT ABOUT ME? I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO YOU OKAY? I FELT BAD BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T ANYMORE. IT SEEMS LIKE YOU REPLACED ME WITH RICHARD RIGHT? BECAUSE I'M REPLACEABLE? WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT? GO HANG OUT WITH YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? YOUR FUCKING REPLACEABLE TOO AND I DON'T NEED YOU AT ALL ANYMORE. WE'RE NOT BEST FRIENDS ANYMORE SO YOU CAN DELETE MY NUMBER AND EVERYTHING YOU HAVE OF ME AND LEAVE IT AT THAT. DON'T CALL ME, DON'T TEXT ME OR ASK ANYONE HOW I AM BECAUSE IT DOESN'T CONCERN YOU ANYMORE AND IN RETURN TO TAKE YOU OUT, OF YOUR SO-CALLED HURT, I'LL DO THE SAME." I walk out with my keys in hand and leave my apartment.

I never understood why Y/n never called me and if she waited, why didn't she just pick up the phone and call or text? I press the elevator button to go down and wait, as I make my way into the elevator and press the button that brings me down to the lobby. I get lost in my thoughts and don't realize that Joel and Christopher were standing next to me, shooting daggers at me with their eyes. The elevators close and I look straight, hoping this elevator ride won't be long. I feel their eyes still on me and I start to get pissed off and as the elevators open I look at them.

"What do you both want? To tell me I should apologize to her? To go back up and say I'm sorry to her? Because I won't and if she wants to talk to me, she can reach out to me. Actually no, I meant what I said when we weren't going to be best friends anymore so I don't expect anything from her. I'm done with her so what the fuck do you pendejos want?" I make it to my car and unlock it. Christopher and Joel followed me out to my car and as I stop talking, they're still looking at me. Joel walks up and looks me in the eyes and I could tell he was angry.

"DO YOU REALLY MEAN WHAT YOU SAY ZABDIEL? LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING WITH ME?! Y/N HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU AND YOU HAVE THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO LEAVE HER AND SAY THE THINGS YOU DID UP THERE?! SHE WAS RIGHT, YOU ARE FUCKING SELFISH. HER DOING WHAT SHE DID HAD A VALID REASON AND TO YOU, YOU MAY THINK SHE WAS BEING SELFISH BUT GUESS WHAT ZABDIEL? DON'T BLAME HER FOR BEING SELFISH BECAUSE SHE HAS TO TAKE CARE OF HERSELF. YOU BEING HER SO-CALLED "BEST FRIEND" MEANS YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY FOR HER BECAUSE IF YOU LOOK AT IT FROM AN OUTSIDERS PERSPECTIVE, SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU EVEN WHEN SHE WASN'T FEELING UP FOR IT, BUT YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT DIDN'T YOU? SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU AND HAS BEEN SINCE YOU BOTH MET AND YOU KNOW THAT ZABDIEL SO STOP BEING A SELFISH BABY AND BULLSHITTING ALL OF US, ESPECIALLY HER. FUCKING OWN UP TO YOUR MISTAKES AND BE A FUCKING MAN." Before Joel could continue, I turn around and face him. I push him hard in the chest to a point where he fell on the floor. Chris comes to Joel and looks up at me with anger in his eyes and starts to speak.

"Really Zabdiel? Don't push it pendejo because you're on thin ice with all of us. You don't know how much you hurt Y/n and now, you're going to hurt one of your brothers? So let me ask you this one last time, are you sure you're ready to lose your best friend? The one who's been there for you when you needed her? The one who's always there to pick you up even if you wanted to be alone? The one who has always been there for you when you were sad or upset about something? Because once you get in your car, you lose her and everything that came along with her friendship. That means, even though you lose her, she'll still be part of our lives because she's not only your friend, she's our friend whether you like it or not. Just because you threw her out to the side and leave her in the dust doesn't mean we'll be like you and do the same. We care and love Y/n and ever since you introduced her in our lives, she's been nothing but nice, caring, kind and more and you know that or else you wouldn't have introduced her to us when we became a band. So let me ask you one more time, are you REALLY ready to lose one of the most important people in your life Zabdiel?" I look down at Chris and Joel with a blank stare. With all of the emotions and feelings running through my mind, I wasn't able to think. I needed to get out of here and without thinking, I hopped in my car and drove off. I didn't know where I was headed but I needed to get as far away from there as possible and find a place where I could breathe and collect my thoughts. As I'm driving I figure out a place to go to escape what was going on and what happened tonight.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

I wish I could rewind that night all over again. I wish I stayed instead of leaving because I knew once I left, that was it. I had lost Y/n and I didn't know if I could ever get her back. I decide to go back to the place I escaped to that night. I make sure to grab my wallet and phone off of my nightstand. As I make way to the kitchen to grab my keys off the key rack, I notice the apartment was quiet. I look around the apartment until my eyes land on a note that was left on the dining room table.

"The guys and I left to go out with Y/n. If you need anything just text one of us. - Richard"

I toss the note back onto the table and make my way towards the door, making sure I lock it before leaving. Since everything happened that night, they always made sure to let me know that they were with Y/n, letting me know that though we weren't on good terms, they were still going to be there and be friends with her. It hurts that we're not on speaking terms anymore and that being my doing, it had to be something I had to get used to and at least Y/n still had the boys there for her when I couldn't. Before I knew it, I made it outside of our apartment building, I head towards my car and start driving. Once I got to my destination, I park my car and got out, making sure I locked it.

South Miami Beach. It was where I auditioned and became part of "La Banda" but this is also the place where I met Y/n. This place was a special place and would always hold a special place in my heart. I walk towards the beach and sit down on the sand.

It was almost the middle of June and of course, it was always hot in Miami. The sun had already started to set and cool down, I look into the distance and remember the night that changed my whole life along with the girl who I would have never thought would become one of the most important people in my life.

*FLASHBACK TO 2015*

I had just finished auditioning to be on La Banda and found out I made it through! I hug my mother and she congratulates me while everything is wrapping around my head. I start to walk away and head towards the water, feeling like I need space to breathe. My mind is filled with many thoughts as I keep walking and I don't realize I had run into someone. I turn around to see a girl sitting on the sand, clearly not expecting to be bumped into, I come towards her and hold my hand out to her.

"Lo Siento Bonita, I didn't see you there." She looks up and our eyes meet and instantly, I feel a pull towards her. She smiles and looks down at the ground and all I wanted for her to do was look back up to me so I would be able to be captivated by her beautiful eyes again. When she looks back up to me, I was fully able to take in her appearance and looks. I've met many girls in my life, but not as beautiful as her.

"You're okay, it was my fault. I wasn't looking at where I was going." She laughs nervously and I laugh a bit. Seeing her nervous is kind of cute as I thought to myself.

"Don't worry, I wasn't either so it's equally our fault." I look to her and see her cheeks blushing along with a nervous laugh. I don't know what had gotten to me but, I didn't want to stop talking to her.

"What's your name?" I ask her.

"Y/n and yours?" I look at her and smile as I take her hand into mine and kiss the top of her hand.

"My name's Zabdiel and Y/n is such a beautiful name for a beautiful girl like yourself." I see her blush again and laugh a little bit. We sit in a comfortable silence for a bit until she starts to speak to me.

"So Zabdiel, what brings you here to South Miami Beach on a night like this?" I look at Y/n and our eyes meet. I look down at her and nod my head towards the beach. I decide to start walking the beach near the water and I look next to me to see Y/n walking along beside me, waiting for me to answer her question.

"I actually just got done auditioning for a show called La Banda. They held auditions on the beach and that's why I'm here." Y/n nods her head and we both continue to walk the beach in a comfortable silence. For meeting a girl I just ran into at the beach, she made good company.

"That's why you look familiar. I was there watching some of the auditions and I actually saw yours." I look down at her and see a smile plastered on her face and I smile down at her.

"And... What did you think of it?" She starts to think of what she's about to say as we continue to walk the beach.

"Honestly... You were okay. You were a bit pitchy here and there but you weren't bad, just not amazing." She looks up at me with a straight face as she continues to walk, a look of disappointment starts to show on my face. I hear her laugh next to me and she slaps my arm lightly.

"I'm kidding! You were great and the song choice was great too. I can tell just by seeing how that audition went, the way you presented yourself to the judges and the crowd and your audition, you'll be in there for the long run and hey, you might honestly win and be part of a band."

I thought Y/n was kidding with me again as my head was hung low. I look up to meet Y/n's eyes and when they met I could tell she was being sincere and meant what she said. Though we had just met, I felt a strong connection between us. A connection I have never felt with any person in my life and though we were complete strangers, I was ready to get to know her and have her be part of my life.

"You really mean that? Like you're not bullshitting and lying to me or kidding around with me?" She laughs and shakes her head as she smiles at me.

Y/n and I continue to walk the beach, getting to know each other more. I didn't know how long I was with Y/n for until my phone started to ring. I grab my phone from my pocket to see my mother had called me and left a couple of messages. I stop walking to answer back my mom and once I was done I looked to see the time.

1:00 AM

"I can't believe we've been talking for this long." Y/n looks down at her phone and she laughs.

"So are you saying that the night is finally coming to an end? Are you getting tired of me already?" I looked at Y/n and words weren't able to come out of my mouth. This girl had me nervous around her to a point where I didn't know how to talk at times.

"I'm kidding Zabdiel, take a joke?" I laughed at her and stopped walking, I didn't want this night to come to an end. Being with Y/n made me feel something that I didn't with anyone and I mean anyone. Her energy didn't compare to anyone else's energy and I liked it. She grabs a pen out of her bag and grabs my wrist. I look down to see her writing her number on my arm and as she continues, I look at her while she's not looking.

"It's getting late, I have to go but here's my number. I don't usually do this and I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that when we met, we clicked quickly. I don't want this night to end and I want to get to know you more, you seem like a cool guy Zabdiel." I smile down and her, words still not being able to come out of my mouth again.

"I gotta go but text me okay? We'll text soon, I hope. Buenas Noches Zabdiel." She kisses my cheek and waves goodbye to me as she walks away. I wave back at her and start to walk towards the hotel my mother and I was staying at. I smile to myself and think about how lucky and good tonight went. Not only was I one step closer to living my dream but I also met someone who I feel is going to be part of my life.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

Never would I have thought the girl I met at the beach, whom I connected with, would make such an impact, become part of my life and also be one of the most important people in my life. I wish I didn't walk out and leave that night of the fight. All I want to do is talk to her, hold her, hug her, see that smile that captivated me since the day we met on her face. I miss the way her skin felt on mine, I miss hearing her laugh when the boys or I made jokes, I miss the way she looked when she sleeps because she looked like a little baby that I would protect from getting hurt, I miss everything about her and in all honesty, I just wanted to grab and kiss her at this point.

Wait, am I really saying that? Do I mean that? I've known Y/n for so long, I never thought I'd see her in that way. Why now? Why now when she's out of my life? Then it hit me. Not only did I have feelings for Y/n, but I was in love with her. If I could go back and change everything to have Y/n back in my life and arms, I would because...

I love her.

Y/n's POV

Since the day Zabdiel and you got into the fight that ended our friendship, everything was now different and has entered new territory. Before, your friendship with Zabdiel existed and though it wasn't in a good place, you were both still in each other's lives and now, it was different circumstances knowing that you weren't in each other's lives as friends. All Zabdiel was now to you a business partner/co-worker. You still work for Clara and though things were done between you and Zabdiel, you weren't ready to give up your dream job over a falling out. The day after you and Zabdiel's big fight, you thought you had lost everything including the boys and your job. You had texted them about the situation and of course, the boys knew what had happened since they were there, but you didn't know how things would be since you weren't friends with Zabdiel anymore.

*FLASHBACK TO THE DAY AFTER THE FIGHT*

Your eyes were puffy from crying all of last night. After you had gotten home from the boys' apartment, you went straight to your room, changed into your pjs and laid down in your bed. The fight had drained every last bit of energy and hope you had in your body and this is when you knew and felt, everything was now different. Zabdiel's words hit you in a different way this time and made you feel like complete shit about yourself.

"You know what Y/n? I'm tired of this shit. You were struggling? What about me? WHAT ABOUT ME? I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO YOU OKAY? I FELT BAD BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T ANYMORE. IT SEEMS LIKE YOU REPLACED ME WITH RICHARD RIGHT? BECAUSE I'M REPLACEABLE? WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT? GO HANG OUT WITH YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? YOUR FUCKING REPLACEABLE TOO AND I DON'T NEED YOU AT ALL ANYMORE. WE'RE NOT BEST FRIENDS ANYMORE SO YOU CAN DELETE MY NUMBER AND EVERYTHING YOU HAVE OF ME AND LEAVE IT AT THAT. DON'T CALL ME, DON'T TEXT ME OR ASK ANYONE HOW I AM BECAUSE IT DOESN'T CONCERN YOU ANYMORE AND IN RETURN TO TAKE YOU OUT, OF YOUR SO-CALLED HURT, I'LL DO THE SAME."

The words Zabdiel had said to you that night were on repeat in your head. What made it hurt more is now, you were questioning everything about your friendship with Zabdiel and if it was all fake. Your mind couldn't wrap itself around the fact that Zabdiel wasn't your friend and going to be in your life after being best friends for years. The way he broke the friendship so quickly without trying to get an understanding of how you felt would always make you wonder but you knew, you weren't ever going to be able to get an answer.

Your mind went to the rest of the boys and how your friendship would be affected by what went down between you and Zabdiel. Though the boys said they would be there for you no matter what happened between you and Zabdiel, you didn't want to have them choose between you and him. You still cared about Zabdiel and the boys were like brothers to him and you didn't want to come between them. You didn't want to drive them apart just because of a falling out and what mattered most despite it all was Zabdiel's happiness. You knew that the boys were the ones who brought him happiness in his life and you weren't going to take that away from him.

Your mind went to your job also because, without Zabdiel, you wouldn't have gotten the opportunity to work with Clara and the boys. You loved your job from the beginning and though it was a challenge at times, you wouldn't trade it for the world. You were worried that after the events of everything that happened last night, this was the end of your career and friendship with the boys and you would have to find a new job. You grab your phone from your nightstand next to your bed and open the group message with the boys, minus Zabdiel of course and Clara.

Y/n: Hey guys, I'm sure you all know what happened between Zabdiel and I because you were there but I wanted to let Clara know as well and then say something after. I don't know if the boys informed you Clara but Zabdiel and I's is no longer in existence. It happened last night during dinner and this time is different from before. Words were exchanged and I could feel that it wasn't like the others and that this was it. With that being said Clara, I understand if I'm fired or let go because of what happened and as much as I want to be in you and the boys' lives. I still care about Zabdiel and I don't want you all to have to choose sides and whatnot. I don't want to be the one who drives everyone away from each other over a fight that happened between Zabdiel and I. I love and care about you all so much and I don't want this journey to end but if it does, I completely understand and I just want to thank you all for being there for me. From the very beginning, I was hesitant on becoming close with you guys because I was worried that if something like this were to happen later on in my life, I would have to separate from you all. I knew that going into this job and being friends with all of you, but you know what? I don't regret all the memories we've made and the time we've spent together. I don't regret it not one bit because I not only gained best friends, I gained a sister and 4 brothers and though whatever happens after this point, you will always hold a special place in my heart.

After you send the text, you get up and start to get ready for your day at home. You walk to your closet and change into comfy clothes you weren't leaving your apartment. You finished and were ahead on assignments Clara had given you since you were still working from home. You went out to your kitchen and prepare breakfast for yourself. As you were cooking, you heard your phone go off but decided not to answer it until you were done cooking. Once you were done, you bring your food and phone to the dining room table and set it down to eat. Before you were able to sit down, you heard your doorbell ring. You look at your phone and see the time along with many missed messages from the boys and Clara.

10:00 AM

2 unread messages from Richard

1 unread message from Christopher

1 unread message from Erick

1 unread message from Joel

3 unread messages from Clara

You bring your phone with you when you go to open your door. Before you reach your door, you open the messages from the group chat.

Richard: Y/n, what are you talking about? Like we said, we're going to be here for you no matter what happened.

Chris: Y/n, we're still friends! What are you talking about?

Joel: Y/n, I swear. Stop pulling this shit on us, WE'RE STILL FRIENDS!

Erick: hermana, we're still going to be here no matter what.

Clara: Y/n, you didn't lose your job and you definitely didn't lose us. We understand what happened and it's our decision at the end of the day. By the way, WHERE ARE YOU AND WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING US?!

Richard: We're coming over.

As you finish reading the messages, you're not surprised when you look through the peephole to see Richard and the boys along with Clara outside of your door. You open your door slowly and with curiosity.

"Um... What's up, guys? I didn't know you'd be coming here today, also, hey Clara. Didn't you get my messages? Do I want to know why you all magically show up at my door and didn't just call me?" Instead of answering your question, they all make their way inside your apartment, Clara being the last to step inside and whispering an "I'm sorry" to you. You close the door and lock it and turn around to see everyone gathered in your living room.

"A "may I come in?" or "Can we talk?" would be nice and polite you know? What's so important that you magically appear at my door and barge into my apartment?" You wait with arms crossed for any of the boys or Clara to talk.

"Why would you think that you would lose your job or us Y/n? Didn't you read our messages?" You look down and start to play with your fingers nervously.

"Look, like I said. What matters to me is your relationship with Zabdiel. You guys are a family and I don't want to break that up or cause problems because he and I are not friends anymore." You look up to them and feel a tear falling down your cheek. Before you could say anything else, Clara and the boys wrap their arms around you for a group hug and before you know it, tears that you didn't know you were holding in, fell down your cheeks more.

"Remember what we said to you last night? No matter what happens between you and Zabdiel, we will still be friends. We are a family, yes, but that also includes you. Without you, we're incomplete. We love you and we're ALWAYS going to be here for you no matter what." More tears start to fall as Chris stops speaking. You turn to Clara and she nods, agreeing with what Chris has said.

"Y/n, you still have your job, we're still hermanas and you're still friends with the boys and I. There's no way you can get rid of me or any of us easily because like they said, our family isn't a family without you in it. Despite the falling out between you and Zabdiel, this is a new beginning for you. I'm not saying the journey will be easy or quick but now, you have a better chance of moving on and forward with your life. Now is the real-time to focus on yourself and what YOU want to do in your life. Take this as an obstacle in your life that is teaching you a lesson and guess what? You won't be alone because you have your familia." You smile and hug Clara as tears still spill out of your eyes as you look to Richard.

"I've heard that one before," you say as you and Richard both laugh.

"Te amo mucho. Honestly, I don't know where I'd be without you guys." You hug them once more and you end up spending the day with them at your apartment, happy that despite the circumstances, you still had your friends by your side.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

It's been a couple of months since the fight broke out between you and Zabdiel to say it's easier said than done is an understatement.

How could you get over someone whom you ended up falling in love with for the past couple years who also used to be your best friend?

The world and time goes on and so will you?

The pain starts hurting less and less?

Time heals?

You'll move on before you know it?

In time, you'll find someone who will give the same effort and love you do?

The answer... it's difficult to say. Time definitely was going by and your love for Zabdiel was still there along with the pain. You tried to push it aside and move on instead of dwelling on the past and on someone who didn't want you in their life.

You tried dating apps and had gone on a couple of dates with different people. The dates you went on never ended up going out with again. To you, it didn't feel right and they weren't the person who was right for you. The boys and Clara even tried to set you up on multiple dates with people they felt like would be a perfect fit for you but to you, they weren't.

The thing about the dates was it was everything you wanted, whether it was doing something lowkey and simple or dressing up and going out but, the person that was with you had almost everything you wanted in a guy, except the guy you wanted. None of the guys you went on dates with gave you the sparks or feelings you felt for him and though those feelings came in way later in the friendship, the sparks were there the first night you met him.

No matter how hard you tried to move on from Zabdiel, your mind, body, and soul still wanted him. Despite the pain, he put you in and through these past couple of months, all the tears you cried over him, all the thoughts of never being enough for him, the thoughts that crowd your mind of not being a better best friend to him, the thoughts of you being selfish to have started this mess, the thoughts of regret to ever falling for Zabdiel in the first place, and the thoughts of knowing you were never going to be Zabdiel's and he was never going to be yours, you still longed for him.

The man who broke your trust.

The man who made you feel like you weren't enough for him.

The man who made you feel like you weren't enough as a best friend.

The man who made you question everything about your friendship.

The man who made you think you were selfish for taking time for yourself.

The man who put himself before you.

The man who depended on you for being almost everything.

The man who broke your heart into a million pieces.

You still wanted him. You didn't know why but no matter the circumstance, your heart still came back for Zabdiel and as much as you hated it because of the pain of knowing he could never be yours, you couldn't find a way to let go.

How could you get over the man who was your best friend?

How could you get over your best friend who made you feel loved?

How could you move on from him?

i really do hope you guys loved this chapter as much as i enjoyed writing it ! feedback is appreciated and if you have any ideas for one shots ,  go ahead and make suggestions in the ask box . te amo mas bebes <3

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it had been nearly two weeks since Richard had been home from tour, and it has been the hardest two weeks for you because you had been keeping the biggest secret from him for so long already. You were nearly four months pregnant and you haven’t told a soul since you found out- you were adamant that the first person to know should be the father of your child. throughout the whole time, he had been home you still hadn’t found the right time to tell him. there was always so much going on and the two of you had been pulled in every direction since Richard came home. every other weekend Aaliyah was staying at y’alls house and throughout the week Richard was either in meetings, recording sessions or trying to catch up on everything he’s missed since he was on tour. enough time had passed that you knew you had to tell him soon or he would find out by other means. You had remembered that this weekend would be his families monthly get together and you were dreading the thought of not only having to hide your small growing bump from Richard but now his entire family too.

soon enough Saturday had come and you were trying to find the right outfit to wear that wouldn’t arise too much suspicion. you had begun showing a small bump about a month ago but you could easily play it off as bloating or eating too much during a meal to friends and family. But now, nearly four months along and it was starting to show more and you would need to find a top that was flowy enough that no one would notice. After deciding on a good enough outfit, you went to find Richard and see if he was ready to go- you knew all too well how impatient his family could get, especially with how rarely they had the chance to see him.

the entire drive to his families house was a mix of Richard talking about how much he missed being home, being with you and now finally getting to be with his whole family again. this was one of the big reasons why it was so easy to fall for him- his love for his family was so strong and that was a quality that you had cherished and not to mention how he was with Aaliyah. She was the only girl in his life for so long and when you came along he was very hesitant at first and very unsure of how things would turn out. he had been burned so many times before and even with Aaliyah’s mom, he had every right to be cautious with who he brought into his life and now his daughters’ life as well. after dozens of secret dates and a few sleepovers he introduced Aaliyah to you and honestly he couldn’t tell who was more nervous- him or you. but every nerve instantly dissipated as soon as he saw how well Aaliyah took to you and that’s when he knew that you would be different than any other girl before you. he didn’t realize how much he had already fallen for you until it was too late, and by then he was determined to make things work with you and he knew that you would be his forever. And that feeling was very evident in the way that he always included you in his plans for the future and by the fact that the two of you were always assumed to be coming to every family function. His family had welcomed you with open arms after he had spent months talking about you to anyone who would listen. This weekend was no different than any other time that you had gone over, at least that’s what you had to convince yourself of so no one would ask any questions.

Being snapped out of your own thoughts you felt the car door open to your side as Richard stayed there looking down at you with a puzzled look.

“Estas bien nena?” he asks as you take his hand to get out of the car and walk up to his parent’s house. 

“what? yeah, I’m just a bit tired babe- ah pues, Tengo hambre. how about we go in, yeah?” you said as you tried to blame your mindlessness on something else, hoping it would be enough for Richard to drop the subject.

the two of you were immediately greeted with loud screams and warm hugs. Every family member quickly exchanging ‘hello’s’ and then moving yall to the back yard where all the action was. It wasn’t long before Richard was basically tackled to the ground by yashua and everyone’s attention went to the two brothers making complete fools of themselves as per usual.

“SAY IT PENDEJO! SAY IT!!” yashua screams as he tries to pin Richard down on the ground. Your mixed emotions getting the better of you as you watched the muscles on Richard’s arms flex as he tried to break loose from his little brother’s grip. luckily with all the commotion going on outside, you managed to sneak away and go inside and get a little peace from all the noise. it wasn’t that you didn’t love his family because you did, and they all adored you- his entire family had welcomed you as soon as Richard had introduced you and that really meant the world when the two of you moved in together and you were left all alone when he went on tour. But at the moment you knew that you would spill the beans to anyone who even paid the smallest attention to you. unfortunately for you, you weren’t going to catch a break today.

“Hey! it’s so nice to see you again y/n, would you mind helping me in the kitchen real quick? I just need some help making the chile, can you mix everything together?” Richards mom asked you as you turned the corner into the kitchen.

“uh, sure, of course.’ you nervously laugh as you stand next to her, hoping that she won’t see the small bump that slightly going over the countertop.

She started with some small talk while she moved around the kitchen. easy questions like how you’d been, what it was like to have Richard back home and if y’all had any plans for the few weeks that he was still in town. at first, it was easy to give simple answers but as time went on, you could smell the overwhelming aroma of all the food that was filling the small room. you could feel your stomach come up to your throat and your mouth start to water as you knew exactly what was about to happen in a matter of seconds if you didn’t get out soon. You couldn’t hold it down any longer as you ran straight to the empty sink and let everything out. it took less than a second for Richards mom to be by your side and pulling your hair back and rubbing small circles on your back. so much for trying to hide it from everyone now. After you had calmed down enough to catch your breath, you apologized profusely for throwing up in her sink, but all she could do was sit back and listen while all the switches clicked in her head.

“so how far along are you y/n?” she questions, her knowing smirk evident. and then it happened, just like seconds before but now the truth came out like word vomit. you couldn’t hold it in any longer and her caring eyes were enough to get you to spill every detail and how far along you knew you were. it took a full minute to realize that she had pulled you into a tight hug as you told her everything. and it wasn’t until she pulled away and her smile fell as she looked directly behind you.

“ay, mijo.. um. I think you two should talk,” she says as she leaves the room and for the second time you could feel your stomach turn. 

you slowly turned around trying to avoid his gaze, knowing that you would break down at any second if he were to look you in the eyes.

“um… how-how long were you there? did you hear everyt-”

“-is it true?” he cuts you off while walking closer to you, small tears beginning to pool in his eyes. he held your chin and tilted it up so he could look you in the eyes. you couldn’t keep it from him any longer.

“i-…. yes… it’s true- i-i tried to tell you earlier, but it just wasn’t the right time- and i- I’m so sorry baby, i-”

“Woah, why are you sorry nena? this is…. this is the best news I’ve had all year!” he says as he wipes the few tears that fell down his cheek, grabbing you by the waist and pulling you into his chest while his shirt easily caught the tears falling from your eyes.

“I’m going to be a dad again?” he whispered as his beautifully bright smiled crept on his face. your tears still freely flowing as your smile matched his, your head nodding as he picked you up and spun you around the room. the mix of emotions finally leaving your body like a huge weight had been lifted off your shoulders. he set you down gently as he gently placed his warm hand against your small bump. he quickly looks up to you

“We have to tell everyone amor!” he says trying to contain his excitement as he grabbed your hand and nearly dragged you outside with the rest of his family, clearly having no patience and wanting everyone to know right away.

 once the two of you were outside, he pulled you close as he tried to get everyone’s attention.

“YO EVERYBODY LISTEN UP! IMA NEED EVERYONE TO MAKE WAY FOR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND THE MOTHER OF MY CHILD!” he exclaimed excitedly to his entire family as he dramatically parted ways through everyone and brought you down the porch steps- obviously not paying attention to your red cheeks from all the attention being on the two of you. loud hollers and screams were being shared amongst his family as all of his tias came rushing towards you to touch your hardly noticeable bump. you could see from the corner of your eye Richards mom raising her cup to you, and then yashua jumping up and down telling Richard that this baby was going to be the best-styled baby ever and that he was ready to be the best tio ever just like he is with Aaliyah.

“this is the start of our forever baby.”  he whispers into your ear while he gently stroked the small of your back and swayed you back and forth.

this is unedited because i basically rewrote the whole thing, so ill fix it tomorrow guys lol😅😅😅😅

[m1amores]

He’s too cute 😍

[desorden-en-letras]

Sabes hoy fue un dia tan raro, me senté y me quedé pensando en ti, en como te contaría las cosas y al final del día no estabas, te extraño.

-Yashel-

[singing-and-humming]

Through the pages - Richard #2

Where We Found Each Other : the Meet-Cute Collection

for @multi-fandomgoddess - super short and kinda different but let me know what you think

You’re on the train for a while now. Despite the book cracked open, face down in your lap, your gaze captivating by the passing landscape. At the next stop, a guy sit in front of you. He’s is pretty cute, short red hair peeking under his beanie, caramel skin, tattoos on his neck, a hoop on his nose and a piercing gaze. As soon as the train starts again, he’s rummaging through a black backpack on his lap. You resume looking at the outside in order to not pass for a creep. You turn back towards him when you hear him sneeze. 

“Bless you”

“Thanks”

You start looking away once again but he continues : “Don’t you like it?”

“Hm?”

“Your book. You haven’t looked at it once” 

“Oh! No, I like it, or at least what i’ve read so far. I just got distracted, I guess.”

“This is  my favorite of this author, so I would have had to convince you that is really worth the read.”

You laugh before realizing from his expression that he was being absolutely serious. He then asks you if that’s your prefered style. At your positive response, he starts rummaging through the black backpack on his lap and takes out a book, which from the state of it, was either second hand or a well-loved one. He shows you the cover of it so you can read the title and the author’s name. You haven’t even heard of this one and tell him. 

He tells tell you the synopsis without revealing too much. Which launches a full conversation on books and then movie adaptations. He mentions the inconsistencies in the latest marvel and then you just go off! You could talk about that subject though, but his stop is approaching. 

While he’s still talking to you, he fishes a sharpie out of his bag and writes something in the inside cover of the book he still has in his hand. 

The train arrives at the station so he gets up. He holds out the book which you reflexively accept.

 “Read it and call me so we can talk about it.”

You don’t even have the time to answer that he’s out of the train. After you’ve finished you book, you decide to give his a chance. The pages are filled with annotations, some questions and remarks. At first, you try to ignore them but the little doodles catch your attention, and you start to read all the questions and remarks that he thought important. You sometimes struggles to decipher his handwriting but the insight into how his thoughts process is interesting, personal and somewhat intimate. 

You contact him using the number he wrote in. You agree to meet so you can hand him back his possession and give him you impressions.

You have added some answers to his questions and some notes on things you’ve noticed, in pencil in it. He really appreciates your imput. This starts a tradition on exchanging book where you share your thoughts and feelings with each other. It helps you create a special link during the times you can’t be together.

[roxyjinks]

Patience - Richard Camacho

AN: So this is like the first piece of my own work that I’m posting on here! It’s a Richard head canon/imagine (too short to be an imagine? but too much like an imagine to be a head canon?), that my group chat (Love y’all) encouraged me to post! So here it is!

Warnings: Smut

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You didn't expect Richard to be so mad? (If that's the right word lmao) But fuCK Maybe you shouldn’t have teased him so much at dinner When you guys got home you had just closed the door when he pushed you up against it And he leaned down and whispered “Do you think you can tease me like that and not get punished princess?” And PHEW if he kept talking like that you weren’t gonna last long He then grabbed your hand and led you to your guys’ bedroom After closing the door he turned to you and said “Take off your dress.” You just kinda stood there because you wanted to see what would happen if you didn't listen? When you didn’t move he stepped towards you and said in a low voice “I know you heard me princesa. Take. It. Off.” Deciding it wasn’t worth the trouble tonight, you slowly took off your dress After, Richard just stood there looking at you “You look so delicious baby.” Next thing you knew you were laying on your back on the bed with him hovering over you pinning your hands above your head “Are you gonna be a good girl and listen to me?” You were so frazzled all you could do was nod And with that he smirked and started kissing down your body leaving marks as he went When he got to right above where you needed him he stopped “Richard, what the hell?” You breathed “Patience baby.” He then started kissing and biting your inner thighs softly After a minute or two you started getting impatient and started squirming around trying to get him to go where you needed him “Ah ah ah.” he said as he held your hips down “Not yet princesa” You just whined in response When he FINALLY made his way to your core he looked up at you and said “Keep your eyes on me baby, I want you to look at me.” You looked down at him in between your legs and he smirked running a finger up and down your folds “Hmm you’re so wet.” “Richard please.” You whined “Please what?” “Please..” you breathed out “Please just eat me out or fuck me. Just do something!” “Well...since you asked so nicely.” and with that he connected his mouth with your heat swirling his tongue around your clit and inserting a finger into you You closed your eyes as pleasure took over you and arched your back “Look at me baby” So you opened your eyes and oooh boy the sight of Richard in between your legs like that could’ve made you cum any day, anytime. He kept up what he was doing and your vision was soon clouded by stars as you rode out your orgasm Afterwards Richard licked off his fingers and climbed back over you and kissed you Breathing heavily you said “That was amazing” He just laughed and kissed you again

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