23:37
2022 ending.
tw: personal moments, trauma.
as the year ends, i realise there's a lot to say, write about, engage with. i've not been kind to myself this year. i've self sabotaged myself multiple times, compromised, let people/ex partner walk all over me. 2022 also made me realise that i'm not alone, there are people who canyons care for me; this year taught me to set boundaries, to sense my worth and express myself accordingly. i know now that books >>> humans - 2022 taught me this in the language of tough love. i've made a lot of bad decisions, but i'm learning to unlearn and embrace the best of me. i fought with undiagnosed depression, attachment issues and abandonment issues. i survived bpd, adhd. i survived bullying and abandonment from closed ones whom i trusted. 2022 saw me coming out as a nonbinary person. it also archived the moments when attempts were made to invisiblise my struggles because apparently i am not visible enough. i've grown a lot, i've learnt how to not take things personally, i know now to handle conflict with maturity. i'm stepping into 2023 with people who have always cared for me, with greater academic resolution and lesser self-harming tendencies. i plan to read more books this year. i plan to score the best on the last semester of this master's course. i plan to study hard for the competitive national eligibility test. i decide to love myself more.
[this cat baby is from my uni, i'm still not done with manto's bitter fruit].
23:53 now, as i end the note. happy new year to all of you!
