“Confront your dreams, even if it hurts.”
Today is really a bit exhausting for me. I spent most of the weekend sleeping. And I feel like those hours could have been spent on better things. But I felt so down and I am not so sure why. I checked on my period tracker and this coming week will be my ovulation week. I guess this is the reason why I am very much into my emotions. I’m trying not to... but I am. Well, I guess I just have to bear with it. Calm down, yo. You got this.
Before the night ends, I just want to share my thoughts on fulfilling your dreams even if the people around you aren’t very supportive about it.
To give a brief background, I really wanted to become a teacher. Apparently, as the typical “Asian mindset”, they told me that there’s no money in it. So lo and behold, I studied a different degree program. I may sound like I am complaining, but I just get the feeling that I wanted to do something that will sustain my heart and soul but... I am dependent with my parents so I can’t. Anyway, fast forward to this day, I am now working in the government. I am happy, yes. But most of the days, I always feel the “what could have been”. I wanted to study law after graduation too. But my parents, I guess this is what it feels like to have a sibling who is still studying. I have to delay it again. And then, there’s this thing that makes me very sad. It’s the fact that they are very supportive in her artist dreams. I feel like crying whenever I think about it. It hurts but I am old now. I have to toughen myself. I have to be stronger and braver. I have to do what I have been wanting. I will confront my dreams even if it hurts.
So, take note of this: Despite not getting the support that you may need or the validation of people, do it. Even if it would mean going against what they think is best for you, do it. You’ve got to decide and act upon it. This life is only a once in a lifetime opportunity and you’ve got to take that chance. Do it. Make your heart happy.
Okay, that was a bit of a drama. Anyway.
Whenever my emotions are very much triggered on this, I’d remind myself on what my law professor told us during our class: “Confront your dreams... even if it hurts.”